non-lucid

Allen and I we're at some huge party thing. There were lots of VERY attractive people there. It was in some sort of mansion with huge stair cases and lots of rooms. The colors deep red and gold stand out. Allen and I were being very distant from eachother. He disappeared for a while and I began to look for him. For a long sequence I was going down different hallways and opening random doors but I couldn't find him. Finally I opened a door to a bedroom and found him with 1 other guy and 3 girls having an orgy. All of the girls were blonde and wearing white pearls around their necks. I was shocked at first and then furious. I started to yell at allen but he didn't seem to care. I ran out of the room and out of the mansion. As I run out of the mansion I notice EVERYONE at the party is now naked and having sex. I somehow was now on the streets of downtown bellevue at night. Allen then came after me. I started yelling at him but he seemed to not care and had an attitude about it. I walked away from him and called my friend Raechel (my go to girl in waking life). At first I was crying but in just the way Raechel nows how, she calmed me down. I was nolonger depressed and angry at allen but more so just felt like he fucked up and that it was his problem and that no boy that cheats on you in worth your time or energy. I was now gladly exploring bellevue at night. All the shops were still open. I walked by nieman Marcus and peeked in. Then there was a sudden shift in the dream. There is a memory break here and suddenly allen hasn't cheated on me but has rather asked me to make a porn with him. He takes me out to dinner at some really nice restaurant with red curtains and warm lighting. I am eating linguine with clams and it is incredibly delicious! At first I am laughing at allens offer but listening to it because I find it so hilarious. He is sweating and frantically explaining to me that if we just make one Porn it will get us enough money to buy a really nice condo in Amsterdam and enough to comfortably live off of. Now I am intrigued by his offer. He explains that we need two other people in the Porn and that he already picked them out. It was one short blonde girl and one short brunet guy. They wernt hot but they went terribly ugly either. We talk about it for a while more and decide to do it. We all meet up in a hotel room and all 4 of us feel super awkward about it. I can tell allen isn't into the girl and im relieved. Me and the girl do our make up in the bathroom and form some sort of friendship. Allen and I left a backpack (I don't know what it has inside it but I know we need it) in the car and we decide to run and get it. We get lost on the way and start walking around the city aimlessly. Its daylight out and really nice. We forget about the Porn all together. Allen gets a call. The other two people finished the Porn but allen and I are going to get paid anyways. Allen and I are super happy and relieved. We start jumping up and down and cheering in joy. Allen wraps his arms around me and we continue walking around the city some more.
*Funny side note, I wake up and tell allen he cheated on me in my dream, he pulls his arm around me and we snuggle and giggle as we fall back asleep. We wake up a bit later and Allen had a dream that I cheated on him too... we both laugh at this.

ALL MY DREAMS FROM THE WEEKEND GOT DELETED FROM MY PHONE! !! Effing HELL! >=( Here's todays at least. :/


Allenn and I had decided to split up and just be friends ( I contribute the dream starting this way to a minor fight we had before bed last night). We were both okay with the decision but we both wanted "custody" of our dog Baron. We decided to do normal day activities together with baron as we would have as a couple. Even through baron looked the same and was still a dog, it felt more like he was a baby. Allen was carrying baron (who btw is a pug) by wearing a front baby pack like in the one in "the hangover". We were leaving a grocery store and I was putting stuff in my car. Allen had stopped to flirt with some girl putting away her cart and I just rolled my eyes. We then go to a mall. There is a really big electronic store with tons of neat gadgets. Allen and I are playing with a flying plane for a while and running around the store. We set baron down and let him chase after the plane. Its super cute and were laughing a lot. (dream sign: all the walls and floors are white). Allen and I then check out some weird robot thing that is serving people "tab" soda. It looked like it would have been super high tech in the 70's but now was just kind of ridiculous. We realized we didn't have baron anymore and we started to look for him by crawling on the ground and calling out barons name in weird voices. We are cracking up laughing at eachother and were both not worried about baron being missing because we are certain we will find him. Baron comes running up to me with his tongue out and I scoop him up. We leave the store and we get in my car. Allen is the one driving now. I am not sure but I think we are nolonger broken up here. We both somehow knew that we were back together without us ever saying a word about it. Allen leans over to give me a kiss on the cheek. I smile. Then I remember that I had money in my wallet. I pull out some pink money and I knew the total was $2,200. I was really excited! I wasn't sure how I got it but I knew it was mine. Allen was excited for me and asked me to buy him another staff. I rolled my eyes but decided I would as a surprise. I recognized the street were on. Its northup, the one by my place.

Was traveling with allen, leo, dina, and gherman. First we stopped in ireland. I can't remember to much that happened here. We stayed in a really cool little place with red lighting. Their were Persian rugs on the walls and tons of oversized pillows on the floor. There were absolutely no windows. In the center of the room was a hookah on a wooden table, much like the round one I have at home. We all sat around it. Allen was laying underneath an archway with a hookah hose hanging out of his mouth while he was saying something funny. Me and leo were laughing a lot. German was dancing in a corner by himself. We did some traveling in the city but its mostly a blurs of us walking down streets. Next stop, italy. We get there and its really sunny out. Hoaggieville for some reason is there. I get super excited and order a few sandwiches. I finish them and I go back to get 8 more to eat later. Allen is making fun of my for being so obsessed but I don't care. Next were all planning on going to a movie theater. Allens ex girlfriend is suddenly with us and I fell tense. I saw something random and she calls me a total idiot. I was shocked at her rudeness. I say id rather be an idiot then a total Bitch and she laughs it off sarcastically. Allen is sitting at my side. Though he doesn't stick up for me, he is snuggling me, wrapping his arms around me and resting his head on my shoulder. I felt really good that he was showing me so much affection in front of her. We get to the movie theater and she it still with us, still being a Bitch but allen is kissing me and is all over me so I don't even care that she is there. She starts to cry and then she leaves. We all chanted when she left because she was irritating everyone. Allen decides that he doesn't want to are the movie anymore but wants to be outside in the sun and i agree. We sit on some bean bags outside together and snuggle while looking at a view of hills.

Me, Allen, Gherman, and Izra are walking around in a book store. They all seem really bored but I am not at all. I find some books written by Stieg Larsson. He is the author of my favorite trilogy, girl with the dragon tattoo. There are made up books by him and i sat down and started skimming through them.One was about a ghost in a cartoon village. The pictures in the book seem to come alive! I am not turning pages, no am I really reading any words. The pictures on the page move around in a way that tells a story. I skim through a few more picture books by him and i grab a handful of them to show them to the boys. The are in a separate room. I walk in and its very dark. There is a bed in the room and Gherman and Izra are laying on the bed in a very still position. Its a little strange and I give them a weird look. I turn the corner to find Allen in a well lit adjacent bathroom. I show him the books but he is not impressed as he is not a fan if Stieg Larsson.
*Memory Laps*
I am at a really nice outdoor dinner party next to a wide rushing river. There are beautiful tea lights being hung between polls. I dont know any of the people at the party but I am still very comfortable. I look my best, even in an oversized sweater, and I felt really good and relaxed. I was enjoying munching down on some delicious steak strips that were marinated in something incredible. Many people there were on a diet and I felt sorry for them because they didnt get to enjoy the delicious food. A man sits with me and asks me about my modeling career. Apparently I am one and I answer by telling him it was going fine but I start to ignore him to eat some more food. He is obviously hitting on me so I ignore him even more because I am not into him. Then I get up and I board someones speed boat. I am relaxed with the wind blowing through my hair and enjoying the perfect weather and sun shine.

Allen and I are walking around Seattle. Dustin and Jemma appear out of nowhere and are walking with us. My head is on Allens shoulder as I walk. We go inside a restaurant that looks a lot like cha chas night club. Stephanie meets us there and we all order milkshakes. Allen is complaining about how many calories are in the milkshakes. Stephanie decided not to finish hers. At some point Allen and I get into a light hearted argument. Next we all go to a concert. It is an outside one and looks a lot like a music festival. It is really nice and sunny out but not to hot. The music theme there is rock which isnt really mine or Allens scene but we enjoy the music we are hearing and we are dancing to it. The festival area looked a lot like the gorge, with a magnificent land scape all around.

FALSE WAKE UP: I wake up to my alarm going off. Allen is next to me and complaining about how my alarm woke him up while he was having a nice dream. I turn it to snooze and think to myself that I was really bummed out that yet again I didnt have a lucid and how it will be many days before I will have a chance to sleep in and have a wake back to bed to increase my chances. It seems that as I close my eyes in this false wake up my real alarm actually goes off. DAMMIT!!

Had a text from Taylor, it was time for me to meet up with him to pick up something. I can't really remember what. He sounded irritated so I was not looking forward to seeing him. I got into my car. I was driving down a one way when a car was going the wrong way on it and hit my car head on. It wasn't a very serious accident but both of our cars had marks and dents in them. I was super pissed. The guy threw his hands up in the air as if it was my fault. There was another car behind his but he wasn't apart of the accident and then he sort of disappeared during the excitement of everything. I got out of my car. The air was slightly smoky and foggy. He got out of his car and walked towards me. He asked me what the hell I was thinking. This sent me over the edge. I proceeded to call him a fucking moron who doesn't understand the concept of a one way street. I pointed to a sign that I guess re enforced what I had to say though I never actually read the sign. The man stood there in a daze. After a few moments I could see that he knew it was his fault. We both walked across the street into a white building with large windows because the air was getting even more smoky (funny because the cars looked not that bad). I started going on and on about how this was his fault and about how he needed to pay on whatever damages he made to my car. At first he was fine but then he suddenly got pissed. He grew angry with me. I don't exactly remember what it was that he had against me but he knew something and started to use it against me. I suddenly became way more sweet and I started telling him that we needed a friendly agreement. That seemed to please him and we decided not to get insurance involved (good for him because I was going to sue) and that he would pay me later. Good for me because he wasn't going to use whatever he had over me. I went home. Me, allen, leo, and dina were living in a new place. It was super modern with black wood floors and white walls and lots of modern furniture. Allen was setting up our bedroom. Apparently dina and leo got the master bedroom so allen was working on making the two smaller rooms somehow work together as one room for us. I told allen about the crash bit he wasn't the least bit interested in my story.

There was some sort of crevice in the ground by i-90 that was mostly covered by rock and leaves and large bushes/small trees. There was a news cast around the crevice and a shirtless sweaty tan man sitting on the ground. Ambulances were scattered about and people were tending to the man. I listener and watched as one reporter talked into a microphone and a man filmed. She said the man fell into the crevice nearly 30 feet and crawled his way back out. I paused for a moment and I could actually visualize and see the mans decent and crawl back up the crevice. This scene took me several minutes. I could even imagine the mans grunts and he made his way out. The news lady said that if he fell on his head, he would be dead. (Obvious I know). I walked slowly to the edge of the crevice. I looked down into it. I felt invisible to all the people around me. There was a warm calm feeling that I got from ths crevice and I had an extremely strong urge to crawl in.

Was at my apartment. Big huge clue from the start that I was dreaming, my walls were all white!!!! Damn myself for not realizing it! Especially since my walls are beige. It was especially dark throughout the apartment with a mild blue glow. I don't know why but I remember running my fingers through the white carpets. They were more like shag carpets then what I actually have and it felt so smooth. Its a shock that I didn't realize I was in a dream because when I think back to it, I had a strange buzzing feeling inside myself. The same buzzing feeling that I get whenever I've had a lucid in my apartment(s). Allen and some other people were watching tv in the game room. They were completely distracted and disconnected from me. The only person who I was really interacting with was my sister. She was a few years younger then she is now, id say about 10. We were crawling around my apartment and giggling. We kept making funny faces at eachother. We were both in pjs. I can't remember exactly what she wore but I had on a white cotton shirt and allens blue boxers on. The movie everyone was watching was making loud intense noises. I looked out a large window I was the game room (another sign because the game room window isn't that big). The giant alien robot thing from war of the worlds was walking around outside. It turned its light towards us as if looking at us. I knew that I needed to hide from it because it was going to enter the phone and that my sister needed to hide too. Yet I wasn't worried about anyone else. Everyone else didn't seem real enough to think about worrying about. (It seems to me I was on the cusp of lucidity and yet I was having to much fun and not being conscious enough to fully turn lucid). Even though the alien robot thing was bad and a killer machine of some sort, I was laughing and having fun finding odd places to hide. It became a sort of game between me and my sister. At one point I hide under the kitchen my kitchen sink after pushing the garbage can and cleaning supplies out onto the kitchen floor. My body is super contorted and I crack up laughing I open the door and yell out for Hailey (my sister) to come look at me. She runs out and starts cracking up too. We hear a thud and we both say "oh no!" To eachother in a joking way. We know the
robot is around the corner. I grab Hailey and she squishes under the sink with me. There is no way in reality that this would actually work. I shut the door. Were both looking at eachother and softly giggling. I can see us not together in a third person point of view.

Walking down the street between home and work. I see I giant st. Bernard dog!

I was in a really nice modern kitchen of white and light blue colors. It wasn't my kitchen but yet I still felt very comfortable there as if I had been there many times before and it belonged to a family member of mine. I had on a white shirt and blue denim pants. I was wearing sneakers (I never wear sneakers). I was laughing surrounded by people I knew as my family but really they were just random deem characters that I had created. I felt energized, happy, and super positive. There was a large sliding glass door that led out to a huge green backyard that was obviously very well kept. I saw that two cops were standing there looking in on me. They were both female cops, on asian with hair pulled back and one white with her blonde hair pulled back. They looked extremely calm. Suddenly lettuce and cabbage leaves were all over the kitchen floor, heaps of it. I decoded to make the cops laugh buy covering my self in the leaves and doing the moon walk across the kitchen floor. The people inside the house and the cops outside were laughing hysterically. I felt really satisfied that I could make them laugh.
*memory laps*
Allen and leo are on a dock. They are so connected and I get jealous of over how close they are. Then I felt foolish for being jealous over the bond of two cousins since the bond of a boyfriend and girlfriend is much different.
*memory laps*
In the woods skipping around with allen, laughing and cracking our usual inside jokes.

Me and dina are for some reason in jail together. I think we may he high or something by the way that we are acting and laughing. We decided to sneak out to buy kittens. We had full intent to return to the jail that night. Somehow we make it past the guards. We go through a series of tunnels and large stair wells. The stair wells are like a dusty beige color. We giggle the whole time. Its dark outside and we run across the street to the pet shop. We spend a lot of time walking through the shop and admiring the animals. We find the kittens and we each pick out one. I of cores pick out a cute little fuzzy black one. We buy a little food and a water dish and a small cat bed each. Then we put out cats and other merchandise in boxes and head back for the jail. When we almost reach our cell I realize that we will need more food in just a couple days and I begin to get anxious about having to break out again. We make it to the cell and I play with my new kitten "chauncy" for a while. I get sleepy and I snuggle with him in my bed to go to sleep.

My first dream of the night is mostly fragments. Its really hard to piece how they went together. I know that at first I was in the vitamin shoppe again with allen. I was looking at all the energy boosters. Then I was Eatting steak at my mothers house at some point. It was incredibly delicious and I asker her how to make it. Next allen and I are apart of the werewolf gang in true blood season 4. I don't think we are werewolves though. Lastly, it was pitch black outside. As it is in so many of my dreams.


The world was possibly coming to an end. I was at my Gma lucys old house with my dad. We began to pack many items. I had a back pack filled with stuff that I considered necessary for when stuff started to go down. I packed tooth brushes, toilet paper, silver (since it went up really high in value and we were going to scrap it for cash), we each took a handgun. My dad had a pistol and I had a revolver. I packed clothes, food, small tent, maps, soap, medicine, extra. The list was extensive. The tv was on while we packed. The news caster was talking about how war and huge waves and volcano explosions were all going to happen at once. That is we wanted to survive we needed to head for the trees. Suddenly I was no longer at my grandmothers and allen was with me, not my dad. We only had $12,000 for all our cash I was trying to pack him up but he wasn't taking it serious enough. He was looking up staffs to buy and was just kind of hanging out. He went to the bathroom and his phone rang. It was curly blue (alex). I answered the phone. Alex said that he needed to speak to allen immediately. I told him id have him call him back. I knew for some reason that curly was going to offer to fly allen out to London with him. I also knew London was going to be hit by a huge wave and everyone would die. I thought about not telling allen that curly called but I realized that may back fire. I told allen and allen lucky seemed on board to stay. I was finished packing for us and I was ready to enter the woods.

I am a teenager again living at my parents old house. For some reason my sister lives is a little girl (about 5) and living there too. I watch some tv show with her and I braid her hair and scratch her back. In being a very loving sister (strange). I left her in the house and I decided to go outside. There was a woodsy are behind the house across the street. It had a small fire pit with logs all around it. All the neighborhood teens would hang out there. A small party is going on and everyone is drinking beer out of red plastic cups. Im sitting on a log in a flannel style shirt. I think it may have been the early ninety's by the way everyone is dressed. An older man with white hair comes out of nowherer. He is making flirting faces at me and I am trying togo avoid eye contact. He sits next to me on the log but I continue to stare at the fire. He starts asking me questions about what's me name and stuff. I ignore him. Then he super creepily tells me my sister is awake and I should check on her. I turn to him with disgust and run back home. I lock the doors and check on Hailey, who is sleeping.

Allen and I are at some swimming center. The pool is huge, like olympic sized. He jumps in and starts doing laps. I am not ready and I want to look around since the place is so beautiful. The place is like a palace. There are beige stone walls and pillars everywhere. I can't even begin to describe how huge the place was. There were beautiful white curtains hanging down from the wall where there were arches. I walked around for a very long time. I decided to go swim in the shallow area and let allen teach me. As I walked up it looked huge. But when I got in the pool shrunk to the size of a bath tub. I was alone in the tub and I thought to myself that it would be impossible to swim in this. I called allens name out a few times but no one came. I noticed now that there was a blue shower curtain next to me and I was in a white bathroom.

I am at safeway shopping alone. The store is pretty busy. There is a man standing with his cart. The wooden floor rips beneath him and a great white shark bits him all the way up to his torso. The shark holds on and doesn't move. The man starts to scream " not again" as this would be the third time it has happen to him. We all are standing in fear for the man but we know that the floor is not going to rip beneath any of us and no sharks are going to bite the rest of us. After a while the mans screaming subsides and he is only moaning now. He pushes his feet through the bottom of the shark and continues shopping making small quick steps.
*memory laps*
Im in the forest. There is a small tribe of people that live amongst the trees. I can't speak their native language but I was sent to teach them how to make wells with clean water. Apparently I knew this skill in my dream and I wasn't worried about not knowing how. The problem was that the forest was very dense and wet and there were jaguars everywhere lurking in the trees. The natives were not afraid of the jaguars but I still was. I decided to go back to the house I was going to stay in while helping the native people. It was an elegant sprawling mansion and I couldn't speak the language of the people that lived there. I was beginning to become frustrated.

Me and allen for some reason are living at allens moms house again. I believe leo lives there too. Allen left in the morning and I was supposed to go to work. I couldn't find a shoe so I laid on the bed. Allen came back and said he needed a ride. We both hopped into my car. We were driving around some back roads and farms. I was late for work but I didn't care. As stopped at a farm with one farmer boy and two farmer girls. I realized that I would never be a farmer. It was getting late and we drove to Nancy's. We were gonna live there now. They cleared out a room for us and I had to blow up an air mattress. Nancy made spaghetti. It was the single most delicious plate of spaghetti I have ever tasted. She sent me and kyle on a mission to deliver some food to a poor old man in a house with two grand daughters. We had trouble finding the house. The man was deafer then shit and it was impossible to talk to him.

Was driving me and dina to the grocery store. As I started downhill my oil change light came on. I got really scared and I drove back home. I asked some random guy that was dingy looking wearing a ripped up jean jacket and jeans. He was super dirty. I knew allen didn't know how to change one. I parked. He came over and was just standing around drinking a beer, looking at the inside of my car. I started to get angry, the guy was wasting my time. I noticed that in the apartments next to mine tiny creatures were dancing and circling in and out of the apartment. They were super dirty colorful and they were quietly singing a chant. I couldn't make at the words. They somewhat remind me of the aliens that appeared in one of my lucids that actually took place in that very spot. Weird since I've only encountered them those two times.

I had gotten a really nice hotel room with allen and some other people. We were ordering lots of room service. The room was really over the top like at the balagio. There were lots of purple and gold tones. We were all going to go see deadmau5 in concert that night. (Funny since we saw them a couple nights ago in waking life). We get there and everyone im with is dancing near the back. I kept wanting to take better and better pictures so walked closed and closer to the stage. I managed to get practically on the stage in the right hand side. Then a bouncer guy lead me to the back of the stage. I got to meet deadmau5 and sofie. I kept taking pictures of them but they warmth coming out very good. I was getting frustrated but I was excited to tell allen ad everyone that I got to meet them. I was officially allowed to walk and go anywhere on and back stage.
*memory laps*
Me and allen are graduating high school. We apparently are in the same grade and are graduating at the same time. We were to sit at a giant long table outside with white table clothes. Everyone who was graduating was at the table. The grass around us was brilliant green. There were bleachers for the parents and families of the graduating to sit and watch us. Lindsey was in the stands. Her and allen were cuddling. Then allen walked back to the table as if nothing happened. I was pissed and humiliated. we got into a fight and allen kept saying that he couldn't deal with me being mad at him. Matt was sitting next to me and kept asking if I was okay. I kept shrugging him off. I needed to get away from everyone so I ran to the woods. There was a house there that I had always deemed as haunted but now people were clearly remodeling the place and it looked quite nice. I stopped and peeked in through the windows to get a better look. White walls were in the house (huge dream sign for me). There were lovely paintings on the walls and modern furniture. I had for a moment forgot about allen and I walked around the woods. Then allen came out of nowhere and I remembered what happened earlier. In a weird playful way I decided tp "get him". We were both suddenly on those weird two wheel scooted things you see mall cops on. I was chasing him around the woods. It was quite fun as we were jumping them ans having a lot of fun. I finally caught up tp him and I made him fall over. I was laughing. He grabbed me and pulled me into a tent. We sat there talking for a long while. I was no longer mad at him. For some reason I was assured that they didn't actually cuddle and that allen didn't like her like that. (Though I saw them in the act earlier in the dream). We get out of the tent and walk around the woods some more. Lots of deep greens and browns. We come across a tribe of young people. They are brown from the mud and they hold sticks as weapons. I am somehow not afraid of them and we pass by them. They raid the tent.

Short sexual dream. Im sitting on a bar stool. Im wearing my high waisted short yellow shirt. Allen is Eatting me out and it feels in credible. I wake up and feel slightly numb down there. Would wake allen up but don't want to disturb him in case he is having a lucid. Fall back asleep.

Me and allen were at our apartment but it looked nothing like the one we actually live in. There were some other people there but they were all random dream characters. For some reason we had a ton of barbies in the house. The barbies were evil. They would hid behind dressers and behind clothes in the closet. Their goal was to wait for us to fall asleep and then they would kill us. At one point I watch as one makes movement in a closet and I cover my eyes in fear. Allen says that we need to destroy all of them now. I grab one. She appears not to be evil or alive but for safe measure I take her to the sink. At fiery she was a really beautiful barbies but as I started to dump her head in the water and hold it there, the colors start to fade and she becomes more and more scary looking. Then I see that she starts to move her head and is clearly holding her breath. I hold her arms against her body so that she can't move them. I experience a strike of terror as I watch the barbies struggle. I had a weird thought that maybe if she didn't die from the drowning, she would come back and cause me to drown (which is one of my most feared ways of dieing). I quickly pulled her head our the water. She turns her gaze to mine. another strike of terror. I run to the kitchen with her to allen. Allen tells me to chop her up into tiny pieces so that if her evil soul reenters her body, she wont be able to use that body to kill us. I grab an oversized butcher knife. I lay her out on a wooden chopping block. I can see that she is weak from the drowning and isn't moving much. I was surprised at the fact that she wasn't fighting to stay alive. I begin to chop off her head, than arms, then legs. I rechop all the pieces. Finally when I was satisfied that I couldn't chop her up anymore I despised of her in the trash. I was relieved that was over but still panicked because I had so many other barbies to find and chop up. Allen gets a phone call and walks away. I go back into the bedroom to find another. I am scared to walk anywhere they might be binding in case they jump out at me in a big group and attack. I decided to leave the room and wait for allen to help me find more. Allen meets me in the hallway. He looks out of breath and hurried. He said that he was being forced to move away for his job. I began to sob because I didn't want him to go and I was scared I would die of he did. He looked really upset and then said that he would stay with me. I hugged him really tightly for a long time. Then we went back into the room. One thing I noticed about the apartment that I didn't mention earlier was that it was filled with children toys, cartoon blankets, and was very messy. Total opposite of how it actually is.

I was moving out of parents house. For some reason I had a huge collection of bugs including spiders. I remember feeling to scared to look at the glass cages. I was in awe of the fact that they were still alive and that I had never few them. A spider or two jumped out at me and I became very nervous, itchy, and miserable. I decided to just leave the house how it was. I was in my car. I had had some sort of arranged marriage with some old wealthy man in bellevue. We were gonna meet at crossroads mall. He pulled his lexus suv next to my car. I waved but wasn't happy. Then I saw a huge car pill up on a freeway. It was very clear that people had died in it. Two cars were on their sides with no people in them.

Was driving up near my grandparents house. Allen was in the car. I ended up speeding past a cop and got really scared they would pull me over. for some reason I knew that if I got pulled over they would take me to jail. I races behind some buildings and sought refuge in what appeared to be a small strip mall complex. I waited for a while and allen was suddenly gone. I walked inside one pf the strip malls buildings. There were bushes covering the outside. When I walked in I quickly realized that it was a whore house. There were many rooms with beds and bathrooms. I was a little disgusted by it. Each room was assigned a guard to sit in the room and make sure the johns were fallowing the rules. Ew. I was informed that I was to become the madam of the whore house or they would tell the room cops that I was here. I hesitated but then decided it would be better to just be the madam then go to jail since madams didn't have to have sex with the johns. I had my first customer come in. He was the werewolf guy from true blood. I was shocked that an attractive guy would need to buy whores. I assigned the first room to him. I was being snoopy and decided to stand kind of close to the door to listen in on the conversation the guy and the whore were having. I could hear him explain that he got into an accident and they had to rebuild his "thing" so that's why it was all misshaped. I began to laugh quietly to myself at this. I now understood that there were two types of men who used whores; creepos that can't get any and normal guys who were hiding horrible disfigurements. I now found it fun to be a madam. I decided to stay and clean up the space a little bit. The walls were wooden to I tried to find paintings to hide to walls since I hate wooden walls.

My Gma was incredibly ill. Im not sure which, im pretty sure it was Nancy. I had to drive over to her house and watch after her. I told allen that I would come home afterwards when other people came to watch her. I hoped to be back that night. Her house was a sprawling mansion. It was done in a very old style with gold and red accents, a large stair case and huge paintings. I was in a different room then Nancy. Dave called and wanted to know if I would like some Starbucks. I said yes. He brought me the most delicious drink. It was like a super cold chi tea late but it had a chocolate twist to it. It was incredible. I looked at the clock and saw that it was 1 am. It was pitch black outside. I called allen but he didn't answer. I called leo and got no answer. I tried allen one more time and got the same results. For some reason this made me really sad. I really wanted to go home and snuggle with him but I knew he was sleeping. I decided to stay at the mansion and go to bed there since I had work the next day and it was significantly closer to work. I went into a bathroom and it was as big as my apartment. The mirrors were so massive the stretched to the top. There was a bluish tint to the bathroom that didn't match the rest of the mansion.

Me, allen, dustin, and a group pf their friends are walking around a city. The city is beautiful with lots of cathedrals and interesting buildings. It very sunny out and there are street vendors everywhere. I see a lady with pieces of plank wood sitting out. The plank wood has designs on it that look like people. She claims that they are intact super old petrified humans and that for a small amount of money, you can buy a piece and throw it. If you can break it you can win a prize. I grabbed a board and very quickly realized that I wouldn't be able to grab it. I set it down and all of us walked into this underground secured parking. I somehow knew the parking garage and I knew that the bottom floor had ferraries. I jokingly suggested we go down there and bash them up. I wasn't serious. Everyone laughed. We make our way to the bottom and see some old ones and a massive locked closet. The closets gated door is open. We walk in. It's a super secure closet where the close are on rotating metal bars that are controlled by a remote. I turn on the remote and the clothes start to rotate and spin. I marveled at how nice and electronic the closet was. It must have cost a lot of money. I didn't understand however why it was inside of a parking garage.

Allen is doing hand stand on my night stand. I am annoyed.

False wake up. Im sweating so much my clothes, blanket, and bed is wet

Go to call allen, I can hear grandparents talking about me on the line. They are trying to call me. I hang up and try again a few times but the same thing happens again.

I was super tired and didn't do any formal wake back to beds. I also did a half ass meditation. =/ I did wake up at some point and I remember that I had a long dream but was so tired that I couldnt get myself to write any of it down. All I have is some tiny fragments now...
- I was in a car with allen.
- I felt tension or anxioty.
- I was dressed in some type of business attire.
- I went into a grey building and was nervous but it is not clear to me why this happened.
- Color's green and orange somewhere.
This is pretty pathetic considering last nights well recorded dream adventures. If anything, this makes me more motivated to not be so lazy tonight.

I was myself but in some way I was Lisbeth salander from my book "girl with the dragon tattoo". I decided that I needed to flee Sweden. I managed to hope on a plane with no ticket. I wasn't sure where I was going but I knew it was going to be the farthest location possible. The plane was sooooooo strange. First class was in back. Their large comfy seats made up most the plane. Then there was just a small bunch of cheaper seats up front, about 10 per row. The isle way was the best part, it was huge. No bumping into other people. I casually walked down the isle. I realized that they may want to see my ticket so I decided to hide in the bathroom. The bathroom was gorgeous! Tan leather seats. The toilets were regular seats with little holes in them. It was a spacious shared bathroom so multiple people had to use it at once. Lucky for me no one else came in. There was a huge window in the bathroom. I sat on a comfy over stuffed seat and I relaxed as I took in the view. Next thing I know we are landing. It is somewhere so beautiful and warm. Some type of tropical island. I land and I am united with allen. Im so happy to see him. We walk around and then get a room at a hotel. The room has white walls and floors and is a little shitty but we don't care because were happy. Two cleaners are in there cleaning. We notice a giant spider and a cleaner smashed it against the wall. We become nervous about the bug situation at the hotel. We decided to tip the maid a $10 bill. The money was not US, KRONOR, EURO, or PESO. I am not sure exactly how all my money was like this. We go explore. The water is crystal blue, the land is beautiful, and tourist are everywhere. I snap photos of allen and I as I walk. We still don't know where we are. I hear a man say that we are in Aruba! I was excited because I've never been there before
I was wearing jeans and I felt a little warm. Suddenly the air gets to a more comfortable temperature.
(Dream signs in this dream that I unfortunately overlooked: white walls, taking pictures with my phone of scenery, having weather change as I will it to)

Fragment: me and allen are talking to Stephanie over the phone. She says that her, g, Izra, leo, and someone else are at a rave. They begged us to go. We don't really feel like it but we say okay. We walk there and were tired. We walk in, its nothing like a rave, more like a bar with white sheets splitting up rooms. We realize that the place is huge with many rooms. Potentially it gets more rave like but allen wants to leave. We walk outside. The outside is a pier. Stephanie calls and says 3oh3 is there and other popular bands. I tell allen we can go back but he says no. I say okay and we walk home.

Hanging out with allen and leo in my room. We all are talking about our dream books that we are keeping. They are regular not pads with hand written dreams. Then it gets to obvious that its a dream and I don't realize it. I begin to fly around the bedroom. From corner to corner, over the boys who are sitting on the bed. Instead of them being impressed, they are annoyed by my flying antics. Allen decides to play a trick on me. I sit on the bed and he is going to scare me and grab me. I somehow now have super strength too and when he reaches for me I hold leo up as a shield. I start laughing and calling them noobs.
*memory laps*
Then were at our yoga studio. Its pitch black outside. I am standing in the doorway writing down a dream I had. A guy walks in and im in his way so he says something rude to me. I retaliate with something clever. He tells me that he iz going to tell gary the owner of the studio and kick me out. I call him a jackass and I don't believe that he can. Then Nancy walks in. She is pissed at me for some reason and I have no clue why. I become super upset. Ray walks in and I try to explain to him that Nancy shouldn't be mad at me. I explain to him that I have a dream journal for no reason. I start to wake up here. I can feel my real body. I am aware of the dream and yet I don't become lucid at all. In the dream I rub my hands together to try and get back into the dream. When it started to work and I just continued with the dream as though I wasn't aware of the dream. It continues for a while with me just walking the yoga studio for a bit. I wake up.

I was with allen and Stephanie late at night. We were planning on driving somewhere, the location has escaped my memory. We somehow knew that we needed fur jackets. I knew I had 1 mans and 2 womens at the shop so I suggested we stop there first. I unlock the door and type in the security code. Not many lights are on. I heard these loud thuds coming from upstairs. It sounded like something large was running back and forth. The 3 of us stood there scared looking above us. Then I heard it coming down the stairs. We hid behind a wall. I looked out and it was my aunt Rachel. I was so relieved but a little worried she would be mad that we were borrowing the jackets. She didn't seem to care to much. She was in a hurry. Next thing I know orin my old dog, and Barron my current dog were there too playing. Customers started to walk in the door. I began to get anxious and I was trying to tell them that we aren't open. Nobody was listening.

Allen and I are out at a bar. The bar looks like a 1950's style diner. Sitting on either side of us is the "bro's" from high school. Me and allen were a little drunk and having a fantastic time talking to eachother and cracking some of our usual inside jokes like "oh" and "youuuuu little BETCH". I was having a lot of fun. The alcohol served to us looked like it was diner style milkshakes. The bros were having fun top