lucid

I had some more LDs last night. I have a huge problem with stabilization. Please any professional lucid dreamers with good stabilization techniques leave some comments on it if you are interested in helping me out. I tried rubbing my hands together in every single one of these and it is not working for me. It might help for a second but I eventually just wake up not long after.

I start out lucid in this parking lot in front of a store which had a name with Blood something on it in glowing red letters, which I notice my brain is testing me in each lucid dream to make something bad happen. I don't think much of it at all and I walk out onto a sidewalk. I look down the street and see a few buildings and the street lights are on which it is night time. I walk over the road and walk into a yard and see houses along a street. I notice some of the ground in front of me starts to become darker and I rub my hands together. It doesn't really help so I just sit on the ground and try to focus more, I close my eyes and try to change where I am but I wake up.

I go into another LD and I don't realize it at first. I am sitting at a table in a school or something like it. Then as I am sitting there it comes to me, oh ya i'm doing LDs right now and I get up and start walking. I walk past this kid who fucked with me a bit in high school, he didn't bother me much IRL but he would piss me off sometimes. I saw him and recognized him. I knew my brain was testing me and tried not to think about him but he did turn and look at me because I felt uneasy around his DC. I ignored him though and came up on one of my friends IRL. I asked his DC if he knew any stabilization techniques, which I surprisingly wasn't having much problem with at the moment. I don't talk to my DCs much. I couldn't believe what this fucker did. I asked him and he showed me a hand gesture of straightening the fingers together and tapping the tips of the middle fingers against each other. I tried it and he watched me with a grin on his face. He slapped me in my face and started laughing hysterically. I just stared at him and said you're fucking around with me aren't you. He shook his head continuing his laughter. I was laughing a bit as I couldn't believe my brain was fucking with me. I woke up at some point after that. What the hell was that about.

I do another LD and I get up from my bed. I walk out of my room and see my brother on the computer as always. I start to walk for the door to adventure out side but I wanted to try and stabilize first because I knew I would wake up if I didn't. I sat down in front of the door and relaxed a bit. Miles then asked me what I was doing. Thinking about it now it was kinda stupid what I said. I asked him, "Can you see me" thinking that because it seemed pretty real as he is always sitting at his spot on his computer, which is what he is doing now as I am writing this. Everything was just like real life except I knew I was dreaming. He said yes and I was kind of amazed. I then woke up not long after, because his DC distracted me. I had a FA about me telling him about that exact LD and he thought it was pretty cool. I then woke up IRL.

I think maybe this is the second time becoming lucid since I made this account, could actually be the first . I normally have a lot of lucid dreams but it just didn't happen until the morning of yesterday. I am walking in a desert and am half lucid until I spot this hidden path. I think I want to explore this way then I notice I can control myself and become fully aware of my lucidity. I start off down this path with rocks assorted out like a small pathway. There is miles of nothing just desert around me, with some huge rocks in the distance. I see this path lead to a way to climb up a mountain in front of me, and there is a waterfall coming down it as well along the way. I can't wait to start off my journey and I wake up shortly after. I am still sleepy so I close my eyes to go into another scenario. I do the HI thing and an image of a corner of a room and a ceiling shows up with the wallpaper peeling off the wall. I am fully focused and go into it and am on a couch now looking up at that exact spot I was picturing. I sit up and notice the room I am in is almost too small for a normal human being, having to duck my head a bit. I try rubbing my hands together to bring some clarity which sort of works at first. I think it is good enough and get up off the couch. I look down in front of me and see a small brown dog lying there. I lose focus and it goes black. I go back into another one and am in a battle zone. It starts off like an online war game would and we all disperse at the same time to go out into battle. I fly up onto a house with a woman lying on her side. A small inappropriate scene happens and I wake up. I try to go into another one which almost works. I see the image of where I want to go which is out in the woods with a huge electricity tower thing in the background. I am planning a nature walk but I don't have enough focus to go into it and lose it pretty quickly.

I then go out of LD mode and go into some normal dreams.
I wake up in living room and see mom with someone else's baby in her hands so I go back to my room. Mom meets me back there asking me what type of pizza I want showing me this piece of pizza with the texture of what looks like a carpet design. I wake up IRL wondering if I actually came back to my room realizing that I slept in my bed like normal. I try to go back to sleep and have some weird hallucinations. I see them almost as if I didn't even fall asleep, directly upon closing my eyes. I see a kid get up in my face in one next to my bed. Wake then see a hand feel my forehead. I see another one of a person next to me checking my health like a doctor all only for a very short amount of time as they disappear seconds upon seeing them. I think they are the visual hallucinations you get from sleep paralysis even though I didn't go into SP as I seemed aware and awake when they happened. Then I fell asleep for realz. I was in my room and Levi had his bong. I told him not to smoke it with my door being wide open and it being daytime. He persists saying we won't get caught, which was totally fucking stupid to me. He hits it anyway and I'm pissed. I hide in my bathroom hiding all my shit expecting to be in serious trouble anytime now. It switches to me being in bed and there is a bag of weed laying on the bed next to me. Mom walks in and I do a horrible job at trying to keep it from site with my dream journal which I also keep on bed.

Dream skip

I am with Levi at my house and we are by ourselves when suddenly we hear a Razor motor vehicle thing driving outside. There are three guys on it. There start running into the side of the house purposely trying ti fuck it up. We go out back and then they are in the house and they have guns. We go to grab Levi's guns and I grab a chainsaw. There are two booths with security officers in them out of nowhere and they are calling police. The police take away my chainsaw. I wake up at some point.

I somehow achieve lucidity again and am in my house. I walk up to the refrigerator and look at one of the pictures on there. It shows a woman with a weird look on her face and I take it off the refrigerator door. I see both of my brothers as DCs. I show them the picture and they think it is weird to. Wake up.

I keep on waking up at Levi's house, I literally believe I am staying there for the day as I spent the whole day there, until we went to bed in the dream. We are wanting to make something to eat. I had this box of shrimp that I brought over and I see there is only seven left. We are bummed out, I say we can mix it in with something else. Then all of the sudden we look in box and there are shrimp in all four corners, one on both sides directly from each other in the middle, and one sitting directly in the middle of all the shrimp making another seven pieces. We are then psyched and then split the shrimp. I remember dropping one on the floor and I tried to hurry and pick it up. Those are all the details from it. Other than that I am glad I finally experienced some lucidity once again.

This happened to me quite recently. I have two goals yet to complete. First one is my main one, create a beach and try to enjoy it as long as possible. Second is try to abstain from doing dirty things to DCs because it wakes me up almost every time. I have a few dreams before this but I only recall a bunch of bits and pieces. I wake up and am in a sleepy state so I do DEILD. I start creating the beach and an ocean appears. Its just water surrounding which freaks me out a bit so I focus on the beach and surroundings. A huge light tower building forms as my dream body emerges into the scene now. I am now on sand facing a fence with plants and what not on the other side. I turn and see the beach and the waves coming upon the shore. I remember the water looking almost like a 3D animation look in action. I continue to walk along the beach and see people in bathing suits, fathers with their kids and other DCs. I continue walking happy I am finally lucid and on a beach at the same time. My normal horny self gets the best of me and I decide I don't care about goal number 2 when I come up on a good looking lady in a round hat and sunglasses, in her bathing suit coming from the water on to the beach. I immediately walk up on her and rub her out. I wake up almost instantly. I am really having a hard time staying away from good looking DCs.

It starts out a pretty good dream. I am with my friend, Levi, and we are in a cabin of some sort at a campground somewhere. The cabin is actually really nice set with a flat screen and couches and what not. We are both sitting on the couch hitting his rasta bong I had mentioned in another dream. I walk outside and set the bong right in the entrance way on a small sidewalk. I walk into the second cabin right next to our other one. I turn around before I walk in and see my mom and john leaving our campsite and walking down the dirt road. I am worried they might see the bong but I don't seem to move it from its position. I am in the cabin with my brothers and Levi talking about something, not sure what.

Dream skip

I am going though a line that has two electric fences on both sides. It is a line for some type of campground police enforcement. It starts to become to narrow as I reach the little building where they give me the results of whatever I am here for. I get stuck and complain the fence is shocking the shit out of my legs. The officers tell me to go back a bit and jump over the side of the fence. I step down with my foot and it bends. I make my way over. They notify me I am now on probation.

Dream skip

I see myself in third person (as a memory) and I am walking with my friends when I slip and smack the back of my head on the ground. I wake up in a field to hear Levi's cellphone blaring right in my ear on full blast. I look over to my left and see him holding the phone now up to my face. I am still in a daze. It pisses me off being awaken from being knocked out so I act like it hurts the shit out of my head and scream in pain. Eventually the cellphone is still there but he is gone. I then see in a third person point of view Levi, Tyler, and a third guy unknown carrying grocery bags round and packed full of personal items and illegal things as well. I remember Levi staring at my third person view and saying something about if I wanted this I would get up (because I have actually wanted some bud lately). It switches back to me and of course I'm up. I see them come around the hill I was laying on and greet me. I tell Levi about his stupid ass phone blowing out my eardrum and me screaming in pain, because I thought now that it was just his phone and not him (even though I saw him). We eventually start walking towards the recreational grounds still carrying the bags. I tell them I'm on probation because there are campground officers patrolling the grounds. We walk on to the side of this hill with a bunch of people all grouped up down the hill, sort of in a line. We are towards the back and set the bags down on the ground. I see they have some of my clothes IRL packed in them, like my Sipknot shirt and others. I don't want the officers to confiscate my things, but I also would rather not be caught with illegal herbs while on probation. We are sneaking away and I look back to see some people we know standing in a group around our bags so the officers don't check them. We get out to the field again. I now see and recognize the third person in the dream and IRL. it is Frank the father in Everybody Loves Raymond dressed in a t-shirt and jeans like a younger person. Levi says that he is hungry, I say I'm fucking starving, so we all agree to head out to eat. We make it to a basketball court which has no hoops or anything, just a concrete slab pretty much. It is filled with bunches of people just standing around like on the hill. The officers make every one leave the court and go into these prison cells to the left of it. This is all outside, like just square cells and with no roof, just opened. I go into one with my brother Miles. I wake up after that.

I then close my eyes because I am still in a sleepy state and try to go back into the dream. The DEILD works. I wake up in the grass laying in the exact same sleeping position. I get up and am fully lucid. I am at a part of the dream I didn't mention before because I barely remember it. I am following a small group in a line. There is a hot chick that was in the line just like I had previously seen, but this time she catches my attention. She travels off the trail from the group to the right by herself, which she had done also previously. I swear my brain set me at this part in the dream to trick me into following her because I am trying not to induce sex in my lucid dreams lately because that is want I want to do 80% of the time when I am lucid. Sex excites me which wakes me up most of the time. I walk with her and walk out in front of her and ask her if she will follow me. I start walking towards the tree behind her and it immediately becomes super blurry. I completely forgot to stabilize and I wake up. I swear that girl was put there for me to fuck it up. I learned my lesson.

I am walking towards my workplace. It is a fast food restaurant, but I don't have my supplies. I am walking in a decent sized alleyway, big enough for a couple cars to fit in. It is behind the restaurant. I see a worker from somewhere else on the job maybe. I jack his cleaning spray bottle and his trash bag. I start walking into work. I remember I don't really work much. My grandma is there who plays in a band (IRL). She holds my guitar for me which I also play IRL. I play sometimes in the restaurant when I am taking a break. I remember her showing me around and we get to the front desk. There is a small tin can full of cannabis and there is keif (pure THC crystals) all over the the counter, literally covered. She tells me that it is keif and I get excited. I think I am supposed to clean it but we pass it up. Then somewhere near the end of my dream a couple guys who heard me play come up and talk to me. They want to offer me $2300 for a record deal. Another guy gets up from a table and offers me $2500. Another guy gets up wanting to offer me money. A shootout begins by one of them (who actually looks just like my friend Brandon who owns a lot of nice guns). I try to stop him but he runs backwards and shoots up my left hand side. One bullet hits me in the shoulder, another in the lower gut and one more in pelvic bone all on my left side. I wake up somewhere around there.

At some point I go back to sleep into this same restaurant dream scene. I am sitting at a table and I look down at this bag that has these shoes that I remember jacking from the first part of the dream that I can't remember now. I now realize that it is a dream and become lucid. I get up from the table and hear a couple of kids screaming about a car jacking going on out side. I look and see it happen and they drive off. I continue to walk around the restaurant to look around. I see employees walking around. I walk to the back and see a kids toy dispenser. It kind of reminds me of a real life fast food place. I walk over to the counter and check behind and see everybody working. I decide to go outside and check it out. I see a bunch of kids all beside the restaurant who are dressed up in costumes. It is night time and there is a lot of kids. I decide to go back into the restaurant when I wake up sometime around there. I wish I would've tried to do more.

This experience happened maybe a week or two ago, it is in my top 10 experiences because it seemed so real. I swear I traveled to some of my memories. I am in lucid dreaming mode where I can create where I want to go each time I wake up if I have not gotten full sleep yet, and continue into another lucid dream willingly, however many times I want. It happens to me a lot but not every night. I knew I was in LD mode because it was happening. First I want to go to my high school. I wake up in the middle of the floor in the junior high hallway. I was on the ground with just my pillow but no mattress. I had seen some of my classmates use this side so I am thinking I am in a my junior high years. I had already done this three times waking up in the same spot every time. I found my way around the school the first time, but i don't remember much. The last two times I made my way to the parking lot out front. The second time an old friend (around this time period actually) Colin was getting in the car with his mom who looked the same. The third time I went out he was fighting with his mom and he was crying. (When I say the third time I mean I had woke up to come back for the third time). I pass him and walk to Levi's ride which is a red van(I have yet to ask him about this). He told me about him playing football for the rest of the year and what position he played.(He did play football in junior high but I never asked him about it back then). I wasn't able to talk cause I woke up not long after.

I then tried to go to shelburn, town where my friend lives, but ended up in Terre Haute. I don't remember the first time, but I do remember it was in the exact same area. The second time was still next to highway 41 in front of the shops located in front of Wal-Mart. I woke up on my mattress but it appeared I was on a fountain built there, possibly the future. My whole mattress and some of my pillow was submerged in water and completely soaking wet lying in the middle of the fountain. I thought it might be a problem traveling with my bed in the water so I tried to lie back down on my wet mattress and wake up in my room again.

I tried traveling to a bigger place, I'm pretty sure it was Florida because I had been there recently. I had somehow appeared in the hood in Atlanta, Georgia. I had watched a documentary movie about the exact place I had appeared in. Now remember this was completely real to me and I was really scared. I knew where I was and I knew it was a very dangerous place for a normal looking white person such as myself. I got out off my mattress and I walked down the street observing some of the houses and realized the exactly where I was from the real Atlanta. I could see that every alleyway and street I went on there were black people hanging out( I'm not afraid of black people but some of these people would hold you at gun point and jack your shit if they had the chance as I had watched on the documentary). I did not want to fuck with anybody nor did i want them to fuck with me so I tried to hurry along without making eye contact. I came up to a point with a group of black people and made my way around and saw there were a couple white people. I still felt uncomfortable because I did not fit in like they did. I was still walking around everybody looking for a way to get the hell out of this city. I had to slip behind some people against a wall and accidentally steeped on the back of one of the white guy's shoes. I saw him look at me with an angry look. I continued on on and ignored it. I turned and looked again and he threw whatever he was carrying and hit me in the neck with it. I woke up not long after but not in my room as expected.

I am not sure how I got where I was, but instead of waking up in my bed I was in a room with different scenery and two beds. There was a poster on the wall I had never seen and the bed sheets were different. There was a room styled in pink across the hallway so I thought it was our sister's( I have a sister but not from my moms house). My brother Miles walked in and I was really excited about where I was. I told him I was in the future straight freaking the the fuck out because I couldn't believe it. He seemed to believe me and was yelling for mom also excited. I walked down the hallway and into the living room with him. I woke up not long after mom walked in. I was kind of disappointed that I didn't get to continue that one.

At this point I am getting close to fully waking up because I would close my eyes and try to go somewhere but would open them up still in my normal room. I then tried to go to the past sometime around 2005 I think. I didn't end up their, but somewhere weird as shit. It was literally a cartoon drawn room, completely white with black outlines for the doors and bed. I was kind of freaked out by it and woke up quickly. There were other things that happened in my travels but it's hard to recall some of the events because they all happened in the same morning in order.

I do remember one other place I traveled to by accident.I woke up in a shop without my mattress. I had to carry around my pillow in order to wake up in my room whenever I needed to. I was walking around some of the clothes looking around when a lady that worked there asked me about the pillow I was carrying. She wanted to know if I was going to buy it and I explained to her that it was mine so that she wouldn't take it, leaving me stuck there. That is pretty much all I remember from that morning. It is one of the most amazing things I had ever done with my abilities of using my mind to take control of dreaming. I had to write it down as soon as I woke up completely.

I feel myself starting to become lucid. I try to focus, I see a tree branch covered in green leaves above me starting to form with the sky, but I try to change it to a city next to a beach. That has been my goal lately to walk around the beach and enjoy the scenery. I see a road forming through the darkness. It turns into a room and I am now lucid and find my way outside. I am floating which is a first for me, and try to gain full clarity. I am floating towards a few small buildings when I finally catch myself and start to walk like normal. I about run into the house in front of me because I am going pretty fast. I turn off to the left and walk down the side of the road where cars are passing by to find my way to the beach. I can see the water around the edges of the island and buildings as well. It is kinda dim so I try to make the sun come up more to make it really sunny. I start to lose focus so I try a stabilizing technique by rubbing my hands together while I am still walking. It starts to work but because I am still walking I lose my vision and concentration until I fully wake.

This was an incredible experience. I have always had other sleeping problems but never anything like this. I am at some point asleep. I then am trying to get up from my bed and it is extremely difficult to move. I wake up and then go right back into it. I am getting up from my bed but I can barely hold myself up I feel so heavy, almost dizzy. I make it to the door grabbing onto the wall to hold myself up. I wake again and go in for a third time. This time get up almost with ease and start heading out for my adventure, completely aware I am in a dream. I make my way through my house which is a bit different in some parts of it. I walk though my room into the back room and make my way through the kitchen. I go though the dining room into the living room where I open the front door and walk outside. I am on a sidewalk that is floating over nothing and I look to my right. I see street lights and a tree or two along the sidewalk and can see my house which resemble my friends brick apartment. The sidewalk also resembles his place. I look to my left and I can see over a fence where this almost like a sky abyss of nothing but blue. There is also a huge ball of light which is the sun but looks like it is almost too close to where I was standing. I am afraid of huge planet sized objects or anything really fucking big. I decide to go back inside because it was weird outside and I am in a different house. I don't remember any features but I find my way through several rooms to my Mom's room. She is sitting on her bed with her boyfriend and they said something and I replied but I don't remember much from there. After I fully awoke I was completely amazed by the experience and told both of my brothers which have a hard time believing me when it comes to this sort of thing. That was my first ever experience being lucid. Didn't do any preparing of any sort, it just happened and I nearly shit my pants afterwards.