non-lucid

LEA MICHELE AND I WERE DATING IN MY DREAM LAST NIGHT.

Then she laughingly told me to brush my teeth.

Whatever, I still got to kiss her. AND WE WERE SO HAPPY TOGETHER.

Another scary dream last night... but it's almost 9PM, so I forgot most of it.

Basically, I had a creepy stalker. He'd follow me around and act like I belonged to him. He was super tall and strong, while I'm a hobbit, so I kept trying to run away. He'd always find me, though.

Simply awful.

I had a pretty scary dream last night.

I was living in a weird place. Kinda like a bunker city? Anyway, everything was connected through corridors and elevators and stairs and it was all indoors.

So I was having lunch and this guy joined me. I had met him before and I had run away from him cause he was extremely religious and had tried to convert me. I played it cool, joking about the fact that he had freaked me out. He agreed that it had been funny, but then started saying things like "but now you've seen the light, right?" and soon he was going on and on about his weird religion.

I had to agree, cause the whole thing had gotten quite popular and people who didn't believe in those things were getting arrested for weird, senseless crimes and then simply disappearing.

So after lunch, I went to the classroom, cause? Anyway, I sat down and realised that the teacher wasn't there. There was a dude, he was between 40 and 50. He was tall and he carried himself with a lot of confidence. He was charismatic, not in a nice, friendly way. He was just very... everybody just had to look at him and listen to him.

So he started talking about how our society works and the rules and it was all so stupid. We basically had no rights and we were supposed to be happy about it. And everybody was happy. Then, he looked at me and said that we had met before, but I always refused to play a game with him. I laughed it off and tried my best to be as dumb as everybody else.

I had two friends close to me and they were both disgusted by the man. When the day was almost over, he said something to me and I decided that enough was enough. I used the opportunity to stand up and start shouting at everybody that the whole thing was a mess and that they couldn't be happy with all that crap. I told them we had to fight for our rights. The guy hit me, but I carried on.

I think a few people really listened to me. Some of them weren't buying the crap anyway, but at least they now knew they could trust me.

It was a mess, though. I woke up soon after this, but it was scary how people simply decided to act like everything was okay.

I blame this to the fact that I read 1984 a few days ago.

I actually rather enjoyed my dream last night.

It was basically a bit of a zombie apocalypse that turned society into a dystopia. First, there was a lot of running and killing zombies. Then, there was a lot of running, hiding from people and killing people.

...which sounds awful.

But it was kinda like watching a fun film.

Not many details, though. It was just mindless fun.

The good news: I HAD TWO LUCID DREAMS!!!

The bad news: I wasted them both.

It was all very confusing.

I was at this family party thingy. My aunt arrived and sat down at the table. My grandma was like "your aunt thinks everybody hates her". People around us went a bit "well, nobody LOOOOVES her", so I felt a bit bad and decided to go over there and say hi to her.

When I got there, I tried my best to be pleasant, but I messed it up and went all "hey, aunt X, how are you!? I'm glad you're here for the party! Why didn't you say hi to us when you arrived?" and she didn't take that very well, so she said she'd curse us all and left.

I wanted to go after her to apologise, but everyone was reacting to her words. I couldn't see anything very well, it was like my eyes were partially closed and I couldn't and I couldn't focus the little that I could see.

This is when I realised I was obviously dreaming. This type of thing only happens in dreams. However, I was sure I was about to wake up, since that always happens when I can't focus my eyes in dreams. So basically it went:

Me: I'm dreaming, obviously! I'll wake up now, though.
Me:
Me:
Me:
Me: ...uhm...?
Me:
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Me:
Me: I guess I was wrong! Okay, this lucid dream is here to stay! Now what should I--

I woke up.

I fell asleep again and I was back to a family gathering. My cousin, my aunt's daughter, was extremely sad. I learnt that my aunt had killed herself, blaming us all for her suicide. I wanted to comfort my cousin, but she didn't want to leave the place. She said her mother was at the elevator. I told her that it was impossible and I went there myself to prove her wrong.

When I got to the elevator, my aunt's "spirit" was haunting it. She laughed maniacally and I flew against the walls of the elevator. I couldn't protect myself against my aunt, so I started praying to God. Somehow, that worked and I was able to get off the elevator, but I was still very confused by the whole thing.

Once again, the whole "I can't focus my eyes" thing happened. I was relieved to find out it had been one bad dream. I took a deep breath and decided what I wanted to do with the dream.

And I woke up again.

Except that I didn't. It was a FA. I "woke up" and I was terrified about the whole thing. I got off "my bed" and I found myself at this weird shop. It was like someone's attic, but full of clothes. My mum told me I could wear something, but I told her I couldn't. I told her that, in my dream, I had promised God I'd be different if he protected me. I felt like he had done it, so I was now under the obligation to keep my promise.

My mum was weary of that - we're not a religious family AT ALL - so we were leaving that place when I ran into my cousin. She was sad about her mother's death - which apparently really had happened, and not just in my dream's dream - and she looked sick.

We tried to help her and we found out her arms and her torso were all cut. There were old scars, from both cutting and burning. It was all very sick and I understood that my aunt had made my cousin do all that from an early age. And now, even though her mother was dead, she couldn't stop doing it. She was also very lost.

We kept trying to get her to open up to us, but it wasn't going very well. I ended up going to this weird house. The dude who lived there asked me for my help and I agreed to help him. Then, my cousin and her brother - also my cousin - arrived there. The first thing they did when they got there was to smile at each other. They said they could feel my aunt's spirit there.

It didn't make me feel good, but I shrugged it off. The dude told us he needed help to hide a body. That was when I realised he was covered in blood, and it wasn't his. I guess my promise to God didn't forbid me from hiding dead bodies, so I went for it. There were people outside trying to see us, they didn't know anybody was inside the house. So I got nervous they'd see me, but I woke up.

Oops. I had a lucid dream last night, I woke up around three in the morning and was wise enough to write some key elements down.

And then I forgot about it.

So:

I was at the same weird place I was in my last dream. Everything was dark and there were some weird dolls and I felt like I was travelling in time. There were some crazy weird spaceships there too.

I was walking around all the weirdness when it got SO weird I just automatically noticed that I was dreaming.

I could feel I was about to wake up, so I rubbed my hands together. I don't remember ever trying that, but I remembered that people always talk about it. It worked a bit, but not much.

Still, it worked well enough to keep me in the dream, so I laughed cause I was happy. Then, I spun around a little, cause I could also remember people talking about it. And anyway, I was happy.

Then, my younger cousin was there and talking nonstop, so I got annoyed. I decided to leave her talking to herself, jumped up and flew away. It was fuuunnn!

I ended up flying towards this really dark "tunnel" (it was in the sky somehow). I couldn't remember the TOTM, so I figured I could do the last one: blow up the world. It's my face TOTM so far. I could see the planet at the end of the tunnel, almost as if I were in space. I concentrated on exploding everything, which happened... which killed me.

I woke up. Except I was still dreaming. Stupid FA. In the dream, I wanted to log my lucid dream.

So when I DID wake up, I wrote it all down and here we are!

I took a nap this afternoon AND GOT LUCID. But I had next to no control...

Anyway. My dream was very confusing. I remember this girl I had a crush on last year. I suggested we snuggled and she said sure. It was nice. Then, I had to go somewhere. There was a lot of running around, but I have the impression I was travelling in time too.

Anyway, we were somewhere and I took her hand. She got uncomfortable and I let it go. I apologised, but then I was upset. So I walked around on my own and there were lots of creepy dolls everywhere. I blame Magic Kingdom's "It's A Small World".

I was paralysed and that was when I realised I was dreaming. I laughed, but I couldn't move. I decided to wake myself up, so I forced my weight until I was falling to the ground. I could see my reflection at the door next to me. I was on the floor, my face looked like a doll. It was creepy...

And I woke up.

First lucid dream of the year!

I don't have much time to describe it, so.

My cousin was gonna be a daddy. I sent him a message to congratulate him, but I messed it up. Then, I asked him if we could be business partners.

After that was done, I went to a weird room where two people who were supposed to be my best friends were. One of them said they wanted to play a game, but the other said they were too tired. We decided to play one round.

The game was weird and boring, something about poetry. There were other people there, plus my dog. I was weary of a cable, and I started thinking that one of my best friends wanted to kill us all.

Then, my other best friend mentioned the storms. I had no idea what she was talking about, so I went to the window and opened it. The roads were covered in... I dunno. It looked like the city had been taken over by a swamp. I looked at that and thought "OMG THIS IS SURREAL HOW DID IT HAPPEN BECAUSE OF ONE STORM THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE"

"...wait a minute. THAT. IS. IMPOSSIBLE. THIS IS A DREAM!" So I slapped myself in the face a few times and felt no pain. I decided to jump through the window and fly. I did that and, as I was falling, I thought "well, I didn't REALLY do a RC, so I may have just killed myself..."

But, at the last second, I started flying. I flew around the destroyed roads and, for some reason, sang the Dragon Ball Z theme. It was fuuunnn!

And that was it!

Oops. I've been negligent with my DJ this year.........



Okay, so I've been up for a while now, so I'm not sure how much I'll remember. Let's see.

There was this school play thing happening. Except that it wasn't school people and it wasn't happening at school. But it was very amateur. I was watching it and there was some singing. I enjoyed it, but then I had to move cause I was in the way. The actress/person in charge was very rude to me, so I got upset. I sat in the corner by myself, still trying to enjoy it, but I was moody.

Then the woman was rude to me again, cause apparently it was my job to do something. I tried telling her I was only there to watch the play, but she kept insisting that I had to go and check the chairs and the door and whatever. I got REALLY mad, so I left for good.

I went to this house. It was a very simple house. I think my mum was there, along with other people. Suddenly, I head this loud noise. I looked outside and it seemed like a megastorm/hurricane. We thought that the house wouldn't be able to stand all the strong winds, and we were right. The roof flew away. I told them we needed to go to the other house, cause that one was stronger. We ran there as fast as we could, and we were safe there.

I was like "this makes no sense, we don't have hurricanes in Brazil, this is impossible", and my mother replied "well, we're in the US, remember?", which quickly convinced me that, yes, it was all real. Shame. I was so close to figuring out that it was a dream.

Anyway, then my mother told me I'd have to go to a city later. I guess I forgot about the hurricane situation and just went outside. I found the city, there was this red bubble of energy around it, like a magnetic field, as if blocking it. I knew I couldn't get in there, and I thought about the airplanes, and how they couldn't get in there either.

Then, the magnetic field dissolved and I was able to go inside.

That's all.

Whew. Last entry of 2015.

I had lots of dreams last night, tbh. Let's see if I can remember them all... probably not.

I was at this weird hotel/motel place. Maybe a cheap condo. Anyway. I think I remember my parents with my cousins. I was walking around and I ran into a girl I hooked up with. She invited me to her room/flat? so I went in there. She'd flirt with me, but whenever I tried to hold her hand or something, she'd step away from me. I didn't really know what to do, so I left.

I heard some yelling outside (I was still standing in the corridor of this weird building), so I decided to check what was going on. It was night, but it was all kinda... amber-ish. It was like there was a huge fire somewhere. I started walking around, it all looked like a medieval city. I remember seeing my grandfather on the floor, his neck broken. I wasn't sure what had happened, so I kept walking. Interestingly enough, my grandfather's death didn't really shock or upset me.

I found my parents and my family and some strangers standing outside a building. It kinda looked a bit like an old church. They were trying to hide and they seemed afraid of whatever was going on. I wanted to know WHAT was going on, but I woke up.

My other dream: I was lost in... I dunno, I think it looked like a swamp? I was surrounded by tiny lakes and I kept trying to find a way to get out of there. I finally realised I'd have to go through all the water to get somewhere. I was trying to figure out which tiny lake was not as bad when some fishes started jumping out of the water, into the land where I was.

Now. When I was a kid, I was TERRIFIED of fishes. Don't ask me why. I just never liked them.

So when those fishes started flailing all over the ground, since they were dying, I completely freaked out. They were too close to me and they'd touch me soon. I started shouting in utter despair and that got enough courage to simply run the eff away from there. I finally got to the higher ground. I was still scared. I could see other animals around, though I can't remember what they were.

I ran some more and I found another place like the one from the other dream. I broke into one of the apartments through one of its windows. And found myself in a room with lots of giant chickens. They were mostly sleeping, but they were as tall as I am, so I freaked out, opened the door and got out of there. As I was leaving, I ran into my ex-gf, who was NOT my ex-gf in the dream, and some other people. They were like "hey, wanna check the place where we keep the big chickens?" and I didn't know how to say "I WAS JUST THERE AND THEY'RE CREEPY" so I went along with them.

When we got there, we stayed in the living room (no chickens there, thank goodness) and they were like "oh, there's this cool video game where you gotta dance!" and they started playing it. I was interested in my ex-gf (poor, innocent dream me), so I kept trying to get her attention. She finally told me to meet her later.

And I woke up, so YAY I WON'T HAVE TO SEE HER LATER!!!

She was a bad girlfriend, okay? REALLY. BAD.

Finally, I don't remember much of this dream. I know I was in a room OF THE SAME HOTEL/MOTEL/CHEAP CONDO place. Like, seriously. Anyway, I ran into another girl I hooked up with. We started making out and then we got to bed. And then I woke up in the dream. She was like "we were making out and you suddenly said 'well, this was fun, but I'm tired' and then you just fell asleep". She was visibly upset and I was like "I actually don't even remember that, but I'm sooo sorry, I didn't mean to do that. I guess I was just really that tired, didn't mean to hurt you.

She forgave me and I decided it was probably time for me to go. So I went outside and I woke up.

FINALLY A LUCID DREAM

Okay, so. I was at this weird building, planning a rebellion of some kind. Which sounds weird, but I love stories of rebellions against an oppressive system, so I read books about it a lot and, as a result, dream about this a bit often. Anyway, it was an empty building, no windows, no furniture. It wasn't complete, as if the construction crew just left one day and never came back.

We could see outside and there was a strong storm going on. We were arguing over... something. To be honest, I wasn't too involved in the planning. I was definitely me, it wasn't a 3rd person POV kinda dream, but I was basically watching my DCs argue.

Then the storm got more violent and our roof was gone. That's when I took charge. There was another building connected to ours, so I shoved people at the stairs and kept telling them to GO GO GO NOOOOWWW and some of them went without a second thought. A few others went, but stopped and said "what about you?" and I was actually quite calm. I dream a lot of tornadoes and tsunamis, and they never hurt me. I told them I'd be fine.

So they all went to the other building, I followed them. Somehow, the building kinda... broke and went down. We all survived, though, cause dream logic. However, the ground was completely flooded. The streets were like rivers, but we found a place above the water. We gathered and were discussing where we should go, and that's when we heard the shouting. I looked around me and saw that one of the "rivers" had hundreds of people being dragged and drowning.

I told the people I was with that I had to do something about it. They tried to stop me, but I jumped into the water. Right when a huge wave was coming. I was underwater and I held my breath, but I couldn't reach the surface. I couldn't hold my breath anymore, so I gave up. I decided it'd be better if I just took a deep breath of water and died fast.

And that's when nothing happened. I took a breath and there was no water in my lungs. I could breathe just fine. I laughed cause I realised I had been dreaming the whole time. Considering nothing was real, I got myself to the surface in no time. I could feel that I was about to wake up, so I knew I had to get the TOTM done.

I looked around and everything was already destroyed by the strong winds and the water. This actually got me sad, since the point of destroying the world is causing all that chaos yourself. Still, I figured I could explode the whole planet, which could be fun enough. I focused on a huge bomb coming down from the sky. There was a flash of light in the horizon. And everything blew up.

And I woke up.

*sigh* My dream recall was actually better this morning. But I was forced to get out of bed fast, so it kinda went away in a couple of minutes.

And of course, that was eight hours ago.

So we're back to dream fragments...

Let's see, I was driving around. I had to find my car, which I did. I think I talked to my dad about something. I was hungry and I wanted to have some Pringles, but I'm on a diet, so I told myself I couldn't. I also wanted to go to McDonald's, I think. Then I went out cause I had a mission. I got my car and I think I drove to this shop at the beach? It was night. I ran into my cousin and we started hanging out, she was there with some of her friends. So we walked together and talked and then she went into a room. I followed and she was peeing, which should've been awkward, but I didn't even care, I just washed my face while she peed. I guess she didn't care either, since she never said anything.

That was it.

Again, my dream recall has been pathetic lately. I can remember the key points of my dreams, but I cannot link everything together (my dreams are usually very cohesive, when my recall is good).

So there was this bit where there was a pool at night and there were lots of body parts in it. However, that was not shocking to us (no idea who "us" is), we were all focusing on the FULL body there. Who was all blurry, cause the spirit was doing something?

So then I saw this film/TV show where a girl from the past was trying to figure out what had happened to the girl in the pool. When she was almost done with her investigation, another girl started digging too. The first girl had done nothing wrong, but she looked suspicious from the other girl's POV.

I tried to get the spirit to settle down and be calm, but I couldn't find it. It wasn't evil, but it seemed lost and angry at what had happened.

So I was at this school-ish place. I kept trying to make it seem like I studied there and I had to show my grades to my parents, so I had to fake them and it was stressful.

Then I had to go from one place to another, but I didn't want to? I think I was going out with my girlfriend (I don't have one in real life, though), but I needed to do something else first, something about the body/spirit. My girlfriend was bitching that she was waiting for me at the party. My parents went out (I'm pretty sure I was in dream!Lucas's house), telling me to take care at the party. Instead of going, I got the baby (?) and told it I'd take care of it. I think that's what they spirit wanted, so I watched the baby all night.

I feel like there was also some running around. But I can't remember anything about it, other than I was running a lot.

My dream recall has been terrible lately. So there'll be no details:

There was some shooting, lots of running. I hid inside a car. A girl I hooked up with years ago was in another car hiding. We met, she was mad at me cause I was apparently killing people. We ran together. There was some more shooting and hiding.

Hello. My name is Lucas and I was too stupid to realise I was dreaming.

Well... the good news. I slept well enough to remember my dreams...

First, a fragment: I was going to this show. I got there and I was super excited, Bianca Del Rio was gonna be there. There was a huge crowd.

Second, another fragment: I was walking up the stairs at home. It was really windy, though. I thought "oh, hey, I need to do a RC soon". But then I looked around, the stairs looked normal and the super strong wind, with no windows around, also seemed normal. Finally, the mountains below the stairs also made sense. So I shrugged and thought "nah, this is real. There's no way I could feel such strong winds in a dream".

First dream: I was driving - AND DIDN'T DO A RC, I SUCK - and the streets were familiar, but I have no idea where I was. However, in the dream, I totally knew. I was running late, so I decided to take a shortcut. When I got there, I realised they had put some spiky thingies next to it, and you had to be really careful to enter the shortcut (which, btw, was some stairs).

I wasn't careful enough and, of course, one of my tyres got slashed. I left my car, lifted up my car (with my hands, cause... yeah) and found the problem. I didn't want to call my insurance, so I decided to change the tyre on my own. My cousin showed up and said he could help. We kept trying to decide where to do it, while I was moving my car with just my hands. I was freakishly strong in this dream. Lea showed up too and the three of us finally found a place to change the tyres. I was very obviously into Lea and didn't want the many thug-ish guys walking around the streets to make her uncomfortable, but she was totally cool and chill about everything. She was actually having fun with the tyre thing.

Last dream: I was walking around, but I wasn't me. I was older than me. It was a beautiful place, lots of green, mountains, trees and beaches. It was seriously paradise. Then, I was talking to someone, like a voiceover, and it sounded like the other person was a therapist. I was asking her when I'd stop hallucinating about "that day". Then, I had a flashback to the day. The whole place was being bombed and I kept seeing "myself" jumping to the many rivers and lakes of the place.

Then I was telling the voice again that I kept seeing it happening again and again and that I'd always jump into water cause I was afraid of the fire in my hallucinations. The problem was that the water was always hot because the people there had used the bombing effects to make it warm. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS.

Anyway, I was me again and I was just hanging out at a cool (but warm) lake-y thing. Another cousin of mine was there, but she had lost part of her arm during the bombing. She was okay with it, though, it had happened a while ago. Next to her, a woman was taking care of her (now adult) son. He had lost his head at the bombing. But he was very much alive. And he could hear us too. He just couldn't see anything.



Anyway, the woman wanted my cousin and her son to date. I was sad that my cousin, who has a bf in real life, was all alone and seriously considering going out on a date with a guy who couldn't see her just because she felt like she was too ugly with her half-arm. I wanted to her she could do better, and that she deserved better, but then Game Of Throne's Khaleesi was in the water with me. I talked to her and she was nice, but she seemed uncomfortable. So I said that I'd love to see her in a better mood.

She misunderstood me and went on a rant about how people think that celebrities are all mean and that she's actually really happy when she's around fans.

So I told her I didn't mean it like that, I had only meant that she seemed tired and that it looked like she was having a bad day, and all that I wanted was to see her happy. She wasn't offended anymore and I felt like we had a good connection there, so I was all "OMG I THINK I'M GONNA HOOK UP WITH KHALEESI".

So I woke up.