Linkzelda's Dream Journal

06.13.2012

6/13/12 No Dream Recall, Anonymity (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

No Dream Recall.

I know I remembered at least one dream when I woke up from a WBTB in the morning just now, but that was 2 hours ago (or a little less)

As for dream drawings, I'm worried if it's even worth doing that.

But instead of questioning myself on whether or not I should do it, I'll just do it.

Contemplating on something I would like to improve on without actually taking action is just going to create more regrets, so I'll just do it.

But damn, the main challenge is somehow making my self a ghost to the people I don't want seeing those drawings.

Would you like it if your friend came up to you and said,

"Heeeeeey Brandon, so you like that video game character Eva? And she could be your dream guide? But you're ignoring her? Looooool"

or or,

"Wait, you dream about me?!?!?!?!?!"

or even worse, an ex-crush coming up to me,

"I HATE YOU! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME EARLIER!?!?!

YOU SUCK!!


I HATE YOU


GO BURN IN HELL"

*SLAP*


Or even my own family and relatives...ugh.

Oh man.........................this is really hard, finding a balance between anonymity and exposing certain elements of who I really am.

But I did a lot of that in a few threads....LOL.....


My mind already has scenarios in dreams I recalled that I should draw, which probably means it likes the idea of me possibly drawing my dreams.

I think I've gone to the point where I start believing my mind, or better yet, subconscious, is some kind of individual.

I confuse it with the internal eye a lot......which maybe the reason why I have conflicting thoughts with the purpose and efficacy of dream guides.

My main challenge is free-handing most of the stuff, because getting reference photos through photo manipulation (ex: Somehow getting someone like this guy that I killed and almost got killed by:

And somehow adding myself into the equation, then finding a way to show how intense certain dreams where when I faced him occasionally.


Or even a better example:

Or even her lookalike Rachel Nichols:

If I could with the human lookalike, I could get away with "Oh you just like a certain celebrity, at least that's reasonable than pixelated skin."

The things that I can draw myself into to make myself look like some die-hard romantic instead of a pervert towards an imaginary character is so apparent...but only if I find a way to draw her in somehow.

I hate how I'm still trying to find her, I mean, I could find Sarah Jessica Parker, Jessica Alba, Megan Fox, A piece of paper, A rock, An Amazon female, An Alien Felmae, Some random anime girl to be my dream guide, but whoever I choose, it's not really going to make a difference anyway.

Either way, I'm already crazy.

So if I'm already crazy, I might as well go with the second female, Eva, that said she was my dream guide.

The first female was when I had an OBE, or at least I thought I had one, said she was my dream guide, and I said "Prove it," and her eyes started to get big and she went psycho on me to wake me up.

Nuh-uh no freaking crap and alterations of body parts for me! I don't want that kind of dream guide D:

That's why I'm still trying to find Eva, hasn't really done anything, I'm not really surprised she's hard to find, or even hard to summon.

I got her killed in one dream because I decided to be an idiot. Smart woman, if someone is going to get you severely injured or near death, no use appearing when they want to summon you....just give them the cold shoulder and they'll be head over heels for you.

Hmmmmm

I think that's enough of rambling for now.