Lichi

This morning i broke the dry spell.
I went to sleep at like 2am last night. Slept until 10-11, i didnt check the time. My uncle came into the room to grab something so i woke up, but as soon as he left the room i got back to sleep.
I started dreaming about a reunion... it was more like a party in my grandparents house, but with people from the university, and other people i didn't know. I remember i went outside barefoot, but there was a lot of mud. Now the house has morphed to the house im currently living in, my uncle's house. I was talking with the mother of my uncle's wife, and when i was done talking i decided it was time to go. Where? Idk i just thought the time there was up and that i should do something different. So i got outside, with a shovel so i could pick up the mud trace i was leaving :joy: , and started walking towards the city center. It's actually a long walk. I've never gone walking before, i've always used bus and it takes like 40 minutes, so i was thinking "i should take the bus, otherwise it will take a really long time" but meanwhile i kept walking and it wasn't towards a bus station. It seems like i didn't care too much about the distance, i just wanted to walk and i was enjoying it. I was able to go through a mildly dangerous zone looking around happily like if i was a tourist. There were people around, old mostly, buying stuff. I just watch them and go past them. Whenever i saw to the front i saw buildings, similar to those in the movie inception where Cobb and his wife built an entire city. Then i look to my right.... and i notice something very very strange (for me).
I see like a path, a street (that i know where it is located, in my home city) and beyond that there was an old building, but still functional, looked like "the house of Black and White". The strange thing about this was that it was a dream sign for me. I analized the structure, from the point i was standing, and i saw outside the building like a walking path, that it lead to some docks. So there i knew i was dreaming. Because the building was the same. I've walked that path before, so i was extremely confident i was in a dream. And i've only been to the sea two times, and we don't have a sea in my city so it all made sense to me that this was a dream. I was 95% confident i was dreaming. So at that point i wanted to make the most out of my lucid dream, do something. Before that i said it out loud "im lucid dreaming" so i did not forget once i start changing stuff.
But i don't do anything. Im so passive that i just stand there and observe. I thought about having sex, but then i thought "meh". I see some people playing in the water, across the streets. There were some rocks in which people were laying, tanning themselves, and other people climbed it so they could jump into the water. The water was quite deep, about 10 meters i believe. I know because it was cristaline water, so you could see the bottom. People playing in the water were big though, they were giants. I could see them as tall as buildings. Then the dream starts to fade and i regret not having a plan on what to do during the lucid dream. As soon as the dream starts to fade away i remain calm, both in mind and body. So far i don't feel a body, but as soon as i'd feel it i'd stay calm. All I saw a black background with a small light. I waited; still didn't feel my body so i was doing good so far (if i wanted to go back into lucid dreaming). And i thought i would either form a new lucid dream or i would meditate in that state. But i didn't feel prepared to form a dream from scratch (now that i think about it it was dumb not having even tried it) and i wasnt sure about meditating either. So i decided to wake myself up. I don't know how i did it, i just did. Then i start feeling my body and my mind like i usually feel it while being awake, a bit more coarse than what i was experiencing. (It was strange lol. I could describe my previous mind state like if my "astral body/mind" that was awake, that way it makes a bit more sense to have noticed my "normal mind" as coarser).
I had only 2 experiences like this in my whole life. One time i was able to WILD in 2016, and now this time i exited a dream and was able to still remain asleep (in body but not in mind). I really liked the experience and i look forward to practicing this stuff a bit more. Before it seemed hard, frustrating, frightening, something only experts could do but now i see it as something very interesting and very possible for me to do, so i want to start practicing it more.

This dream was from a nap i took because i was feeling ill.

I was laying on my back and i entered the dream still hearing sounds from outside my bedroom. Even though i was conscious of this, and even though the transition from waking reality to the the dream was very smooth, i didn't have a WILD. I started the dream in a train/bus. It had windows and i was seeing we were going around London city. We were going to a park where there was an event, but we were going to get lost. I was travelling with my sister, although when i looked around i also saw some of my friends from school. Anyway we decided to keep going even though we were going to get lost and i was saying out loud semi-lucid "i don't care if we get lost, we're in London, this is amazing and so beautiful!".
The bus/train (sometimes it was a bus, sometimes a train) had a mechanism where you could take an SD card from it and you could replace your phone's SD card with it. BUT before leaving the bus you had to put one back. If you didn't the driver will notice (100% of the times because the bus had a sensor or some advanced technology lol) and the bus wouldn't continue.
When the train reached the final station i almost panicked because we werent exactly in land. The rails were up like 20 meters in the air and if the train kept going we were going to fall. But it stopped. Anyway we had to get out and step on the rails... it was kinda a challenge to get out but not really because the rails were different. There were big squares in between where you could step. Of course if you stepped out you'd fall because there were also empty spaces in between. We went out of the train and entered the station. From outside the station seemed like abandoned and inside it was deteriorated and it was a place where homeless people would sleep. But it was the final stop of the train nevertheless, and a lot of people got out in that stop. Since we were all going to the event we all got out there. I saw some people, including my friends, starting to run because they didnt want to stay in that station when the sun went down, which was going to be in like 15 minutes. So far that place was safe, but soon when people would leave it wouldn't be apparently. Even though i did not fear the place i didn't like it and didn't want to stay there. There was like a bad vibe there. So i was going to follow the people, run if i had to, why not? Walking sometimes is boring. But i woke up.

I went to sleep at 1:30 and woke up at around 4 am.

On my first dream i was on vacations in Uruguay. I was in a house with my family. Both my parents were there. They were playing loud music, and each one's music claimed a half of the house. It was interestesting not to hear them get mixed together. My father was taking a shower and i went to his bedroom where the desk is and i grabbed his almost finished marijuana joint. I decided i was going to make a new one and include the remainings of that one. My dad comes out of shower, and i could note he was high. He told me he was high and that he was enjoying it, but i also noted he was still like tense. Anyway he had plans on what to do while high, which surprised me because it was his first time smoking, so i went on with my things.
On my way out of the bedroom i was walking like the living hall of my mother's aunt Teresa F. There i encountered my older sister who was also about to smoke and trip on stuff like the wind (it was a bit windy outside but in a nice way, like refreshing). Then i go outside with my sister, and some neighborhood kids want to play with her with a football but we were going to take a walk (besides i don't think she'd have played anyway). It starts raining, we are still outside but we don't walk far, we just go to the backyard which is actually quite big now. When we went outside our house turned to be a Estancia (it's a countryside). My dad goes outside and he starts talking to the kids, but he was alone in the sense that my sister and me weren't there to hear what he had said. Then i go inside the house to finish this joint i never got to make. And when i come into the kitchen i received news that my dad has been arrested. I assumed that he was talking with the children about weed and perhaps police saw him high and maybe they thought he was trying to sell weed to the kids. I laughed at it and quickly thought of a defense so he'd get released from prision (it was 5 years of jail if found guilty). The defense i thought was that he didnt have weed in him (cause i took it) so even though he was high he wasn't selling anything. And personal consumption is not criminalized, well at least not after you have consumed it. But that's in Argentina and we were in Uruguay!

I came back from my vacations in Uruguay on saturday (2 days ago) and a few times my sister and i smoked weed. But i got weed so much in my mind because: 1. we were trying to get some before i came back from Uruguay, which we didn't. 2. I watched a Netflix series about Murder Mountain. 3. When i came here i thought of giving my father weed in some brownies, so he'd try it before i left to Cordoba to study.

I woke up, went to bathroom, then went back to bed and i slept until 9:00 am.

I dreamt i was sitting in a restaurant in Bs As. The restaurant was small and poor, seemed to be a family business. My table was outside. I was with my phone and some guy comes right next to my table and threatens the owner (who had a white apron) with a gun to give him the money. I thought of getting up and leaving, but i didn't know where to go so i didn't. The owner gives him the money, and then the robber comes towards me. He points the gun at me and i knew the logic thing would be to give him my cellphone so instantly i slide it though the table, i seemed to do it calmly (that's how i think it looked) but i was outraged (and i sensed that my intention was more of like throwing it rather than passing it). I saw he still stood there, so he wanted everything and apparently there were no cops around (i was in the most dangerous neighborhood, so that didn't surprise me). I took out my wallet from my pocket, and i didn't give it to him. Instead i opened it and gave him a bunch of paper money and he left (didn't give him all i had, just all i could grab in a quick manner). I remained there for a bit longer watching my surroundings. There were people fighting, there were more robbing... it wasn't a good place to stay.
I got up and decided to leave. I went through people's porches, but that was ok. Then i find myself somewhere in Córdoba and my girlfriend finds me [I don't have a gf]. I told her i was robbed, that i didn't have my cellphone. We were having an event right there and now, it was my uncle's engagement or something. We went inside and she starts talking to me what we had to do, but we were close and kissing, and i knew what we'd do after the event . I got 9 messages (i think in my gf's cellphone) from the robber that he hacked 9 of my accounts, and i saw a discord screenshot. I asked my girlfriend if she could take care of my accounts while i went home to dress but she said no because she had to be in the event to let them know i was still getting ready. She started to hurry me more but i was worried of my accounts... and the first entrant was about to begin the event and that's when i decided to quit, i wasn't dressed and i was still there and it would take at least like an hour to get home, dress and come back. But then i see my uncle's wife in the entry room sad and angry because she was also cancelling. She was cancelling because i was. Then my uncle comes smiling and he says "we're not cancelling. We can start whenever we like, we have all day. So go home, get dressed and come back. We'll wait for you." Since he told me in such a good mood i was going to do it, and forget about the accounts until later in the day. Btw while he was speaking i noticed he had white teeth, they were very bright. Then i woke up.

When i went to Uruguay it was my first time travelling out of my province alone. So i was worried i was going to get robbed at Bs As, specially because the bus station is one of the places where most crime happen.
The first time, when i went, it was early morning. I had to walk from the Bus station to the port which was like 10 blocks away. It was pretty chill.
But on my way back it was night, right after sunset. And again i had to walk from the port to the bus station. This time i was more worried and i think this influenced this last dream i had. But when i went even though it was disgusting to see such misery and precariousness, i didn't have any trouble. There were a lot of people too which were coming and going from the bus station and i saw police on a block which seemed to be the most dangerous.

Today i took a nap and i dreamt i was on rocket but i wasn't in space, i was in some planet's stratosphere. I assume it was a large planet because we were travelling around it rather than out of it. It was also cloudy, so i could sense the rocket actually moving and travelling. I don't know at which speed we travelled but it was pretty fast. The rocket was also big. It was like a space station but in the shape of a rocket. Actually various rockets assembled to a big one.

I noticed in our tripulation there was a weird guy that never slept. Then i spied his room when it was sleeping time and i saw he was frozen inside. He changed his appearence and that way i noticed. He was like a white walker from game of thrones. But to me in that context, he was a dangerous ALIEN. After that he changed into his 'original form': it was actually 4 big alien worms disguised into this person (they were bonded with magic i believe). After they separated they all went to the ventilation system. So we tried to isolate the parts of the rocket-ship we thought they were in. However this caused some failures. When we were doing this i was sitting in the captain's cabin driving the rocket, with a seatbelt and everything and i had a window to my right side where i could see other parts of the rocket. As the failures started i could hear like some engines stopping and then i could see things exploding. Those things were like 20-50 meters away from me, and the part of the rocket-ship where i was wasnt exploding yet, but i knew these were fatal failures and i would either explode or the ship would crash, and i also knew that there was no way out of it. I couldn't use a parachute or anything, because it was going so fast that i would die anyway. So i was sitting there thinking, "Omg, im going to die. I wish this was a dream and not reality. But i know this is reality and im done." I was scared and i didn't want to die, but i accepted it. I closed my eyes because there wasn't anything i could do to save myself, so i just waited till the moment i'd die. I was so nervous, because i didn't know how it'd happen, and i wondered what would happen after that. 'Would i still be thinking like i am now?', 'Would the impact (explosion or crash) affect my thoughts right in the moment of death?' 'Would i wake up to some other reality after i die?'. I had my eyes closed and i couldn't calm, thinking that my life was over and that it was my real life. A few moments after i woke up, still like a rock, with my eyes still closed, and no impact ever happened in the dream. Still i woke up scared, but also rested, and i knew it was a dream death and not a real one but i still take it as an experience because the fear was real.

I'll write the dream fragments i remember from last night.

- I was in a bus with friends from school. We were on a trip all over Europe and one of the mothers of a friend was driving the bus. Octavio had a broken leg, and decided to come down the bus just a few kilometers before entering the city. I thought he could have been smarter and get down when we were already in, since he has a broken leg and it was difficult for him to walk, but he came down because the bus stopped... We crossed the customs and the bus stopped a few meters ahead. I think we were supposed to stop there.. Anyways we sat around a wooden table in the open air and it was dusking.

- In another dream i was in a house with some people. We were in the nazi Germany in the 20th century. The town was low populated, although the extension of land of each house was quite large. I think we had to evacuate the homes... but for some reason we didnt. We weren't jews or politicians.. but perhaps our friends were (we were like 2 families in the house, and btw i was like 40 years old with a son) and i think i was supposed to be a militar. I didnt want to join the army or the milice, so we stayed at home and pretended it was abandoned. Some militars came nearby and after a short while they entered our house. They didnt start shooting, but i stood up and went outside to talk to whoever was in charge. He wasn't a high rank and i think i knew him because i told him that i was hiding because i had a son (and family). He understood and let us alone. But... i dont know why i lighted two fires outside...
When i came back in a few moments later i was seeing through the window that police cars were going around the town (although the extension of land of each house was large, there was a lane in which houses were against each other, so that made it look more like a town). I saw 5 at once, then 3 going around... I was nervous. I thought it was because of the fire i lit. I wanted to go out through the window and hide like snipers do in the open field, with camouflage. At this point i was no longer a 40 year old man, i returned to my actual age (22). I didnt go out because i was scared that i would uncover our house, or that i wouldnt be well camouflaged, or that i would be discovered anyways.
- I stayed there near the window. Then i see the front house across the street and two little girls were staring through their windows during the night. One of them looked like this (but she wasnt dead):

I thought "oh no... we are screwed" and i came out of the window as soon as possible.
I had to get out of that house, and so had to the rest. I don't know what they were planning to do, but i knew i wasn't responsible for them because they wouldnt hear me much. So if i wanted to do something i had to do it alone. I went to a girl's house i met through the internet and stayed there for the night.
The next day i went out very early [5:30 am which is the time im waking up currently and at the time it starts dawning]. I was on a bicycle. Outside i saw my grandmother and i saw my cousin Martin. I saluted. Then started going and said bye to both again. I was happy.
I was no longer in the town, i was now in my home city and the street was almost Alsina and Newbery (i think it was pedernera and newbery). I started riding and turned to the right at Alsina... and i was in a ... like a political place, it was like an embassy or something similar. In real life to the right and like 6 blocks away there's a train station, but it's no longer working and now it's a museum or something like that. I was there however it was different... Instead of having gates it had walls, tall walls painted blue and with murals. Some There were like 6 people on those murals and all of them were supporters of Austrian Economics (something im currently studying). Some of the guys were germans or austrians but others were Argentinean figures like: San Martín and Manuel Belgrano but also a musician that has nothing to do with economics called Rodrigo Bueno. I watched the murals and wanted to go out to the street through the door (which should be a gate-door) at the right. But it was locked, and it was Sunday so it wasn't going to open anytime soon. So i turned back and started riding through the "Andino". The walking path was very damaged, i was riding at high speed and there was people over the place. So i started shouting at a reasonable distance away from the people, while pressing the brakes which werent working properly. They stepped out of the way and i went through a wooden bridge at full speed and at not a very good angle. But i managed to turn left a bit and be able to cross it and not fall down. I continued at full speed and i still the path was very damaged. At one point i see it was impossible to go through that part without falling so i press the brakes and i suddenly stop. Another guy which wasnt paying attention walked through that part and fell 5 meters. So i was right i couldnt go through there.

Then i woke up.

I recall two fragments. The first one is more extense:

- I was in the top of what it looked a transmission tower. I think it was in the building process, and we were working to finish it that day but idk why i was working on it since i've never done that. Also the tower had a great altitude, maybe it was the tallest in the world. From up there you could see people on the ground as if they were ants.

It was something like this:



But i was up there with no security harness and i had to climb down since there were no stairs. I realized at that moment i was freightened to altitude but that wouldnt help me to go down, where i wanted to be. Since i knew i would be better off down in the ground than up there, and that it was more dangerous to stay there than go down, still freightened i began climbing down. It was weird but for some reason i wouldnt let go of the fear, and at those moments i was paralized at least for a few seconds, thinking about fear.

In reality even though very high altitudes kinda scare me im not that freightened, and im ok with normal altitudes. But now i see this is one my major dream signs.

I dont know how but after a moment i was in the ground. It was night and i was in a fantasy city, like if it was a Disney movie. Fat guys, like from comics of capitalism, came out of houses and made shows like if it was a musical, it was really weird. But i was cool since even though i didnt become lucid i knew there was something odd, like it wasnt real or it was like a production for a movie or something similar.

The second fragment:

I was in a dungeon maze. It was well built, but it was dark. I had a torch but its light was very weak. Suddenly i found myself in a pit with a lot of monsters (bugs) attacking me. I could survive a wave of them but i had to get out of there soon.

October 31st

It's been a day already since i had this dream so i dont remember much. But there's something curious that's related to it, that's why i decided to write it down.

I was in someone's house. I dont know if i really knew the guys that lived there or if they were just hosts like from couchsurfing or something like that. Anyways they had a studio where they would play musical instruments, and i went there and i grabbed a guitar. I think i started playing some riff. Then i hear one of the guys come to the studio and he puts a song and i think he also starts playing (tbh i dont know if he was playing the song and singing, or he just put the song to reproduce somewhere. Even though it was high quality i think it was the former). The song was "Highway to hell" from AC DC. I remember remembering the lyrics and thinking about the meaning of the song for a moment, that it would be directly opposite to what im trying to do lol. Then i woke up.

Later that day i watched a video on Youtube from Mike Maloney, i was actually waiting for his podcast since im interested in most of his videos now. Funnily the name for his new video was "Highway to Government hell". Even though the video has nothing to do with the interpretation i gave to the song, it's funny to see a coincidence in something i dreamt and this video i was waiting for to come out in real life.

November 1st

I dreamt that the battle between the living and the dead from Game of thrones finally started. The whole planet was dark, we were fighting on night. I actually wasnt fighting, but thousands of people were, around a castle; even though there was probably nowhere to escape since the war was everywhere. I was like in a part of the castle where i could see the battle, but i was not interfering. I was with other people including the king, a princess and some other comitee members. All people i trusted, so i was glad i was with them. We weren't going to be there forever, we were there strategically, but idk the reason. I remember Eddard Stark was alive and defending the other wall, playing a similar role we were. But meanwhile we were watching Jon Snow fight, in a bamboo bridge connecting the castle to the mainland. We saw that the dead were really scary, not because they were dead but because they actually werent joking and didnt nor wouldnt give up in the fight, they would annihilate everyone. Then we saw the bridge break... the bamboo poles were conected with strings, and apparently those strings were cut or broken (i dont think someone cut them, but they broke because the bridge was holding a lot of weight). It was a long fall, and there wasnt any water down there, in fact there was more fighting going on, but down there there were many more dead than living. Even though the fall was long, the bamboo poles were huge and they fell first. When they bounced back they kinda like cushioned Jon Snow's fall. When he fell on the ground he was still alive and fine, although unconscious. We were already there waiting, and as soon as we were able to grab him we put him on a bamboo litter and covered him with more bamboo, so nobody could peek and see who was in there. Generals from the opposing army started freaking wanting to find him to kill him. One of them was him:

and the other one looked like Igor. We headed to the city, and for that we crossed the battlefield (the city wasnt inside the castle). For some reason we weren't attacked and we literally crossed only the army of the dead right there, we even were a few meters away from the General (although if he saw us he would have attacked us). When we entered the city it was still night night, much time hasnt happened. We knew we were being chased (not by the army, for some reason they werent interested in us at all) so we needed to hide. We found a house at the entrance of an alley. The people that were ahead of me entered first and closed the door, then i had to shout and hit the door asking them to open it again for me. I thought they were going to leave me outside, but they realized i wasnt in there, and that it was me shouting, so they opened it. Inside it was comfortable and safe. We even forgot about Jon Snow... lol (apparently it was me who had him, but idk where i would be carrying him, since he doesnt fit in a pocket lol and i wasnt carrying a huge weight). Inside the house there was a very hot girl, kinda provocative. It was her house and 1 or 2 more people lived there. They were all university students. I dont know how it started , but i kissed her and we got passionate. There were more people kissing in that room. We got up and she showed me her room, which was on a third floor in that humble house. We entered her room and then i noticed that something was quite strange... and before i could get lucid the dream started collapsing.

Then for the final fragment i will summarize it:

- I was in a landscape. The ground was more dry than green, kinda like somewhere near Talampaya (similar to the Grand Canyon). There were 2 riders following us, me and my father. We shot them (even though im strongly opposed to that) and we decided we would dig holes [Yesterday i saw a video about German lessons, and in one of the examples the teacher mentioned that "Germans dig holes at night" haha. He said that so that we can remember the word `spät` which is similar to `spade`]. We also shot the horses by accident, so i took a couple of energy bars (not edible, more like radioactive bars) i had with me and threw them to the horses. One of them may have even died, but when i threw the bars they were both back to life and good (so this means that if we did the same to the riders then they could have been fine. And i thought of doing it, but idk why i didnt).

- Then i went inside a house, where my father's family finished having dinner. Then i went to the back of the house where i would sleep.

- At the back of the house i didnt stay there for long. When my grandmother came in to look for some tissues, i thought it was time to go back home.

I had a long dream but many things happened on different places. Now it's been like 3 hours since i woke up and i don't remember everything but i'll write down what i do remember. The fragments may not be in chronological order.

Fragment #1: I was in Banda Norte. For some reason i was there like on vacation. Instead of being in Las Sierras or somewhere else with more flora, i was in a neighborhood. Anyways i remember i was in the street, it was morning and there was sunlight. I was looking at the front doors of the houses (thing i've been doing in real life oftenly this past month, since i wanted to check if there were more wooden doors than plate doors). My aunt for some reason lived on the corner of the block instead of living at the middle where she actually lives. Her house had the nicest entry door in the block, showing off the work that his brother (my uncle, a carpenter) did. There was also like some turmoil in the neighborhood, idk why.

Fragment #2: I was living in a old but spacious rented house with my parents. We just moved and we were poor. The house had furniture and systems that were used probably in the 19th century.

Fragment #3: I was in my father's bedroom. I was talking to him, i dont remember what we were talking about. He gave me 4 buns which i ate. And at the time i was eating the 4th my mother and her couple came in and brought more. I was almost vomiting with the one i was eating, it was too much, so i couldnt accept more. We were again on like a vacation, and my mother and her couple went to explore the city and buy some things. But we live in that city! There's nothing to explore! Lol

Fragment #4: I dreamt with a black dog. (i currently have a cat, and i had a white dog). He was disturbed because he had a toy that produced heat which went without battery i think. I took the toy, showed it to him, and then i laid on the floor and hugged him. After that i dont remember what i did, but i know that he'd not need the toy ever again.

Fragment #5: This was the last dream. I was in the streets with my aunt from fragment 1. There were some small kids who had no parents but took refugee in some houses (not empty houses, families lived there). Those families had each one a religion of their own, so my aunt wanted to take them out of the houses, talk to them and convince them to go to an orphanage to find families "the proper way". When she took the children out to the street to talk to them, the morning religious ceremonies began to prepare. And although my aunt wanted to force her view on these children, the children simply responded something like "we don't care, we are happy here" and 1 by 1 started to walk away towards their ceremonies. My aunt couldnt deliver her message, and she looked like she was trying to force her view, which the priests saw. I walked past the priests. I was neither with my aunt nor with those religions and would never be. I was on my own and i was sure of my path, but at that moment i was a bit angry as well, because i disliked those religions. I walked in a hall, and went to take a sit. The parents of a school friend were on the hall side, and the father like leaned on my shoulder while he was talking to someone else. I was still angry and i disliked that gesture so i forcefully took him off my shoulder and went on to sit next to his son. I was in no mood to tolerate that stupidity, not even if it was a parent of a friend.

I dreamt i was in a ... well i think it was a penthouse but at the same time it could have been a house in a high altitude place, like 3k+ km above the sea; most likely the latter. I was in this house but i wasnt alone, it was like a gathering; my school friends were there (i haven't seen them for like a year now). I come out of the house to the back part which was all a pool. Nobody was swimming but i decided i would. I crossed the swimming pool, and i noticed that the first half one could walk if one wanted to but the second half it was hard to reach bottom if you wanted to xD. Anyways the second half of the pool conected to the back part of the house or property. There was no other way to get there other than swimming. So i decided i would enter it, and it would be nice and calm since i was going to be alone. I think i wanted to go to the restroom, but more people started to come in, specially girls. So i think i postponed my needs lol and went out to talk to the girls who came to invade the house. Maybe they wanted to sleep there in the night but they saw me go first and felt threatened, who knows.

I dont remember exactly what happened next.

I was on a closed neighborhood which seemed to be calm, maybe in a town. It was night and i was walking around outside, between the houses. There seemed to be no streets there, so the backyards of the houses were all connected: they had a small personal backyard and beyond that it was forest or just common property. I entered a house and inside i see a school teacher. (I've finished highschool 5 years ago but i still have dreams related to that. However the later dreams i have had i had more freedom of choice, so i kinda did what i pleased even though i thought i was still a student in the school.) I decided that i didnt want to deal with him, so i went through the door i came to the backyard. I looked to my right and there were more teachers gathered, like having a party. I didnt want to go there or get involved (It seemed like a school party), so i looked to my left and i saw a woman with long black wet hair covering her face, just standing there close to the forest but still on the houses common backyard. I made a little pause to make a decision. It was just a quick thought of "is this what i want?" and in less than a second i realized and thought "i definitely don't want to go to the party, (unconscious: but that woman is scary) so ill just walk over here not bothering the woman either and ill be fine." So i started to walk towards east, just to get away from there (from the teacher i met inside) and as soon as i was in a straight line towards her this woman rushed towards me, grabbed me by the shoulders and pushed me trying to push me to the wall. I had her face right in from of mine, like 5-10 centimeters away and she looked ugly, she actually didnt look alive although she was fully fleshed. I just forcefully tried to keep her away from me but the dream didnt last for too long. I woke up scared but i went back to sleep calm knowing it was just a nightmare.
Tbh i dont know how i could have dealt with her if i continued dreaming... i would have wanted to beat her but also i would have to defend myself if she continued attacking me. Maybe if i was lucid and without fear at all i would have tried to tie her up and see if she was still aggresive then i would leave her, if not then i could have taken her to where she belongs if she was lost, or i would have helped her.

I slept about 4 hours last night, because i had to wake up early for an statistics exam. In regards to the exam i did good, in ten days i will know if i passed, if not in December i will have to take it again. When i came back home i cooked some pizzas, as "breakfast" and then i went to sleep. (Curiously when i eat pizzas before going to bed then i wake up with throat-ache).

I slept 4 hours of nap, completing a 8 hour sleep total during the day. I dreamt with the following:

I was in my old house (of about 10 years ago) got lucid in my bedroom. Lost lucidity because i had a baby to save. Then went to a study room. I decided i would go through the glass door since it was a dream. I got through, got lucid again. Then i went to my bedroom again, and i realized i was wasting lucid time so i went to an area where there is a lot of light in the house. I saw the ceiling and it got bigger and bigger, making it better and better to fly. When i was about to fly my younger sister came angry, walking fast, shouting why i turned off the dream music. I was going to say it's my dream also (thinking it would it might just be a DC but nevermind), i jumped to a desk, and tried to jump and fly off, but i couldn't. I realized that her shouting to me got my attention, and because of that my dream control decreased a lot. I jumped like 5-10 meters high (in the dream it seemed like 20). I woke up after 4 hours of nap.

3:44 - About 4 hours of sleep.

I dreamt with a very vivid storm happening in house of María Olguín, the house i currently slept in. My older sister was there, i had some arguments about her smoking in the house and then she put music, which i tend not to like (it was night, so i disagreed even more). I was in the bedroom, and i saw that rain was coming down from the window and soon it would fill the entire room and beds would float, although there was a drain in the middle of the room. In order to prevent that i went outside to clear the gutters from leaves. I go outside to climb the stairs to the terrace, and i find myself stuck in the middle of the stairs because i saw winds coming from the east. Also i saw a tornado like a block away, north, and about 15 meters to my left, so i thought it might destroy our house or it might just pass by, any of those choices could happen. Since it was a huge storm coming from the east, and a lot of wind i thought to go back inside, there was no way i could clear the gutters. I wanted to go back, but the wind was so strong that i couldn't walk too much, or else i would fly away. I saw paper flying away, and hitting me. I knew i was about going to die. I actually thought about it when my sister went outside to smoke because of my complaints, she said that a huge storm was coming. A huge storm only meant a "cosmical storm" (dream sign, like a storm where the universe ends, something like a big crunch). So i knew i was just a couple of minutes of dying. I wasn't agitated, but ... i was aware that not only i would loose my house, the whole city would be destroyed, but my sister would die, and i would loose my body and of course all the memories and "knowledge" gathered in this lifetime. I thought at that moment of remaining conscious, alert, mindful. I heard a classmate from highschool, apparently he lived next door in the building, that he already started flying. The tornado approached and was going to hit the house, not passing by. It was big, bigger than i thought it was. Even if it was small, if i went in there i wouldn't come out alive (unless i realized it was a dream and could fly away). The papers flied towards the earthy tornado and the winds and rains from the east merged with it. Finally the water from the east arrived home, and destroyed everything, including me. It was like a tsunami, although it came out of the rain. I remained in the same position, wasn't carried away by the water, but the house was immersed by the water. I had the eyes closed so i didn't know if i was dead or alive. But i could sense that apart from water the whole house was debris and it mixed with the water, which gave it a brown tone. I thought "is this dying?", and i didn't know if i was dead yet. But even still, if i wasn't dead i would be because i would drown. So i took a breath in on purpose, because i thought it would be better to do it and remain mindful of the process, instead of running out of oxygen and then desperating because i can't breathe. I didn't breathe in water... so i don't know... but i thought that it was already over, and also that i could go anywhere with my mind. Having no interest to explore i woke up.

I checked the time, saw my cat sleeping on the couch next to me, that tranquilized me a bit. Then i wrote the dream on my cellphone. Then i got up, went to bathroom, looked for water, and got back to bed thinking perhaps about wilding.

At 7:20 i woke up again having had a lucid dream.

I was in my bedroom. I don't remember very well how it happened, but i questioned if it could be a lucid dream. I took some time to do a reality check, like i would take while waking, and i looked at my hand while pressing the left middle finger through the palm of the right hand. I saw my hand with something like a white glow, but actually imperceptible. Then i saw the finger pushing through and making a black hole in the palm of the hand. I said to myself, oh wow, yes it is a dream! I just did the reality check just as routine, convinced that the dream was reality, and when i found out it was a dream still i was lucid but still the dream didn't feel like it was a dream (but i wouldn't be fooled). Anyways i did the reality check before the dream collapsed, and after i got lucid the dream collapsed and i woke up. But even when i woke up i thought that it could not be so, because it could be a false awakening. So i checked my surroundings. I had woken up where i was lying, and everything was the same, the lights were a bit brigth enough to see but dark to know it's still night. Damn i thought, i truly awake. I think the sign that made me think i was awake was that i felt the body heavy. But... it actually was a false awakening, and i didn't do a reality check, even though i could have. Then when i really awoke i found out.

Then at 9:30 i dreamt had another dream, which wasn't short.

I dreamt about being in a kiosk. It was night, and i was dressed as hippie, like coming out of my apartment with whatever clothes just to but something and go back. I wanted to buy a chocolate, but the young lady said she didn't have. Then i asked for an alfajor, "Grandote, triple". I think she didn't have that either. There were other 2 people buying but i didn't pay attention to them. They were going to clubs probably. Then the lady told me that i should stay there, that i violated some things because of the chocolate (i wasn't supposed to eat chocolate or something like that). I didn't resist, nor tried to escape like i could have done, i remained calm and let the situation unfold. I knew i had power over myself. The man grabbed some handcuffs and he put them in my hands and in my anckles, and they were linked by a chain. Then he entered me in the kiosk, and guided me to the back, where he and she had a laboratory (a pharmaceutical laboratory). Then he opens the high security door and i get in. Inside there was like a pit and many ... characters there who were there to fight, but weren't agressive. Like gladiators. Although i don't like to kill, and i would refrain from doing it, at first i just didn't control myself, and just defended myself being the first and fastest attacker. Then when there were like 5 left, some of the toughest ones i thought that what i was doing wasn't right, so i stopped. (I was using like energy out of my hands, and that made the DC dissapear). The remaining characters weren't agressive, they knew that i still was powerful and could defend myself, but also knew i wouldn't, but even so they didn't attacked me because they were also kind of surprised, and they did more or less the same. I decided that it was time to go out, and i went out.
I got out to the streets and it was dawning. I was in Cordoba, in street caceres de allende, or actually the following street (which i don't know), and reaching Bv San Juan. In a shop there were some matrix agents. I was aware of them, but wasn't bothered by them, they were just some other dream characters. I sensed that in Bv San Juan there was going some kidnapping going on, so i went there, and tried to save the girl/girls being kidnapped. Then i woke up.

These are the notes i took. Some dreams i remember, some of them i just don't remember.

25/10

From 10:15pm to 6:30 am

Had recall, but since i wrote words, and now i don't remember what they meant they are like random words now.

26/10/2016 8:40 AM

I dreamt that i was swimming in a river. There were sharks in the water. I arrive my aunt's backyard.

Dario says that "Argentineans" should involve less in movies. (It could as watching movies).

I dreamt with Daniel.

Great dream vividness: 29/10/2016 5:42am

I was on IRC chat. I was with a pink name... I don't know what it meant, but at the end it didn't mean anything (like status, doesn't mean anything). We or I were or was talking about Endurance. But what we talked about endurance didn't make much sense (although it could make sense, but it's not directly that): we said it was perception, volition.

I dreamt with a statue and it was pouring drops of water. The drops of water were very big, and they had a lot of energy. (this part was vivid, or detailed). There were 5 stars in the statue. (I could think of the tree of Ori and the blind forest like similar to this stone statue).

30/10/16 4:50

Elephant's trump.
- something about taxes of someone else -
I dreamt with Pedro and an innofensive joke.
Then a fight. 3 vs 3. Something about Kenia.

Then although i took notes i don't remember.

30/10/16 8:00 am

I run through Cerro Chacabuco. There were Salva and Juan Ur with me.

It was a village on the mountains, like 3000 meters high.

On this road i saw a higuer mountain, and the Everest.

Then i dreamt about giving answers to a woman that was a teacher. (Why not?)

at 10:20 i dreamt:

Elevator and shopping.

Dusk.

31/10/16

I dreamt with teacher of school. Chemistry and physics. I don't remember what the dream was about, but she was just there.

Then i dreamt something about school.

Then i come from the school bathroom and i enter the highschool hall. My mother was there and i am aproached by an english teaching, which i didn't like, and im told that because of some disease or abnormality in the past months i don't have seizures, but i should have seizures because it was a disease i should have had. I started crying and went away, didn't even want to say something to her. I thought that she was being cruel, but at the same time she "couldn't be blamed" because it was something about a general sickness, nothing to do with her. (When i woke up i realized that the other way around could be, so the dream made no sense: for not having seizures im sick. So she could have been lying and being cruel after all. Also i don't believe in something deterministic like that, that i should have because of destiny. Not at all.)

I slept at 1 AM. Woke up at 5:30 with good recall. The day before i haven't taken Ginko Biloba, and the day before i took 5/8 of a (60mg) pill. I don't know if this has any effect on lucid dreaming, but anyways i take notes on it.

I was on a building in Córdoba. A police woman calls Moria (an Argentinean woman that appears often on TV) through the apartment phone (that actually calls between the building). Moria says that she's coming (she was on home arrest). I grab an orange sweater that i think it was mine, and i go outside (from the 10th floor or so straight to the streets...). Outside in a empty shop in front of the building i see Moria slapping another woman, younger but she wasn't "pretty". Then she offers me drugs. I raise my right hand like saying i pass. But then both of them offer me... and i raise again my hand and i say that i don't want anything to do with that violence i saw, and i go away.

I walk from there and about 20 meters away there was a school sports teacher supervising a football game. I ask if i could get in (so i get away from Moria). Benja Cala was about to get in, but he allows me to get in for a moment. Also i was with a lot of clothes, and i didn't want to take them off probably because of fear of these women; so the football game would make me sweat and i would take them off.

Then i appear in a room of the school, which was in front of primary. It used to be the TV room in school. We were there with Agus, Joako and Mati, still with the ball. I hear Fabio ask where was i, so i come out to the pitch again. I knew i was going to go out of the game so i walk loosely like making fun and i fall on purpose. There were some girls watching the game, and Mili asks like if she were a lady or something like that, also making fun: "Are you ok Lisandro?". It was funny how she asked, and i realized she knew i was mocking, and she was mocking as well.

Then i am on the building again. But it looked like my apartment of Cordoba. I was facing the wall that leads to the backyard, and to my right was Vicky. I ask her about her dreams, if she recalled her dreams and ... what about her dreams. She tells me she doesn't have any. I was probably anxious to tell her about lucid dreaming that i went straight to that, instead of telling her that she needed to work on recall. I told her "Ok, Vicky, you in my dreams will have to tell me that they are dreams, what do you say?" Then i start thinking about what i just said. I thought two things: one is regret of saying that, because why would she want to? The second is about the dreams itself. Oh... this is a dream. Im lucid. But the dream starts to desestabilize and i wake up (do i?).

I try to get back into the dream, by force. I failed, but i didn't wake up either. I knew that if i woke up i would wake up on my bed, in my mothers house in Rio Cuarto. But i appeared on my house of about 10-12 years ago: Baigorria, and i didn't notice something was wrong. I was in my sisters room (which actually looked like my younger sisters room of house Las Heras (next house after Baigorria) and i was telling my older sister about the lucid dream i just had: that i was on a building in Cordoba. The building was located in street San Juan... and else, but i didn't realize that was also a dream and a false awakening.

Anyways days before i had discussions with my sister, that she wanted to be alone in the apartment... I saw no way of doing that since i had to study for exams, but an opportunity presented so i traveled to Rio Cuarto. In the dream i was also determined to leave her alone... so i was about to leave the house. I had a luggage bag ready and a backpack. I went outside, stopped a cab (remis) and i put the backpack in the back seat. I told him to wait i was going to bring the luggage. I thought that he might just take off, but he was waiting outside. I grabbed the luggage bag, and after that i thought about the tooth brush, and it was upstairs. With the luggage in hand i climbed the stairs, and i realized it probably was too much weight to carry it around, so i left it on the middle of the stairs. I grabbed the toothbrush and noticed that the cab already went away. I went down and outside, and saw that he indeed went away.

On the streets i call the cab company and i ordered the cab that was on street Baigorria to come again.

I see in the street some transit police. They were poor. I also see old couples (60 years old), fat, having sex on the pickups... But it wasn't in the car, it was outside... Very undiscrete, and disgusting.

Then i was about to walk inside but i appear on the cab that had gone. He was in front of my house again. I was in the front seat and i looked at the backseat where the driver was who was inspecting my backpack. Then he realized i was watching him and felt like a slight shame. He gave me the backpack and told me that he thinks that "everything comes back. (Then he said: but some people might need to steal because of the urgency and later pay back, and they choose so.)" I disagreed with him (A. He probably thought something about the law of kamma. That is not always the case. B. People steal because their own lack of virtue. You can be very poor but have a sense of self-respect, and you don't steal.). He came back because he (himself) was recording a video in the cab, to catch thieves, but since he caught himself on camera he came back to record himself also giving the backpack back.

Then i go outside the cab and i knew that he would go quickly, not slow enough for me to see the plate numbers. I went outside and stood behind the car. And i saw like 5 different plate numbers and every number was constantly changing. I thought it was weird, but probably the driver was doing this (like in the movie the Transporter would do). Also i saw one plate changing, and i gave up thinking that it would be impossible to track him down. Then he went away. (Probably he was waiting for me to give up because he would constantly change the numbers). I wanted the plate numbers so i could go to the transit police i saw earlier. Even though i thought it could be dangerous, because the drive knew where my house was, i was determined to do it.

Then i went inside the house and Eri told me that i should be careful of the drivers. But while she was saying that she was "playing" with a tiger... A tiger was on two legs leaning towards her, so she had to pay attention to it. And i thought about her hypocrisy and said to her: "Actually one should be more careful about the tigers than the humans".

Fell asleep at about 3 am. Meditated a bit until 1am sitting in bed. I woke up at 6:10 and just after the alarm sounded, so i had no time for a short moment of sloth after waking up. I dreamt:

- Similar place to second life, as I were somewhere in France (i don't know why France, i don't know France but Paris). It was a forest at night, on a road.
- I was in my old house located in street Baigorria. I was reflecting on a thought of a "dwelling place". I really was immerse in that thought and was interesting. I wasn't looking for a superficial dwelling place, but rather the body would be a dwelling place, but even that is coarse. I wanted to realize deeper (jhanas) but i knew i needed practice. There was an app, that was very complete in the sense one could practice and master jhanas with that app. Just like an app that one trains for chess but without playing chess, in a similar way it worked for meditation. I was happy with it because it provided for a good opportunity to master a valuable practice (meditation), but i also knew it was subject to change, to cessation, so it had the potential to be unsatisfying. Then i woke up... (so the app ended up being unsatisfying since i couldn't practice with it).

Interpretation:

- I remember a teaching that is "a man enter the restaurant and he is handed the menu. He thanks, he eats the menu, pays and goes home. That man didn't know the menus are not for eating but for ordering the food", in a similar way happened with the app in this dream. I had the information that the app did was well developed, but i didn't test it to try out if it really improved meditation. (Actually it would be like mental exercises, but to prepare for obstacles in meditation).
- The night before i listened to a talk of AN book of 6 about (annica, dukkha, annata, and letting go of dosa, lobha and moha; release and nibbana). Interesting talk, inspiring. Also i wanted to search for an app of Soundcloud, to store audio files.
- During the day, yesterday, i observed with attention what was seen and heard (mainly, also felt) and thought about second life, that had poor graphics but want to emulate the world.
- Dwelling place is a translation for Brahmaviharas. Developing the Brahmaviharas can result in Jhana, which is a temporary home for the mind (a home for the mind would be to dwell in Nibbana).

I haven't slept aftwerwards because i wanted to get up at dawn.