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Title: What am I Doing Wrong? :( Date: 10/28/2010
Category: Deep Relaxation Lucidity: Not Lucid

Keywords: Relaxed, Heavy, Energized, Cold


Description: I set an alarm to wake me up at 02:30. Instead of getting up and going into the other bedroom where I usually set my lucid dream timer, I stayed where I was. I used no timer. I did my relaxation exercises, putting my body into paralysis. My body felt like a ton of bricks. I was totally relaxed, felt like I was barely breathing. My body felt like it was going thru cycles, energized...cold, energized...cold. I did not see anything, I was in total darkness. I then opened my eyes slowly and did a reality check....not lucid. I then closed my eyes and tried to let my mind wander....Nothing. Disappointed, I rolled over and went to sleep.

Title: My Family Vacation Date: 9/20/2010
Category: Vision Lucidity: No Lucidity

Keywords: Imagery, Lightness


Description: Today I got up at 02:00. I did not go back to sleep, instead I did Silvia Mind Control for about 40 min. I learned about focusing on a screen that's 20 degrees above your eyes and a few inches above your eyelids. Almost immediately I was watching TV reruns (Giligans Island), in the theater of my mind, with full color and with amazing clarity. I was also taught to pinch together my thumb and first finger on both hands for focusing.
I then did my relaxation exercises, but there was no heavy lead feeling, I felt extremely light. There was no buzzing in my ears, no vibrations. Although my feet and legs felt like they were falling asleep (pins and needles). My leg jerked a few times and I felt itchy on my nose, then a pain feeling on the arch of my left foot, then itchy on my right leg. I didn't budge, but relaxed thru it.
I had imagery of a vacation I had taken with my family. My sister looked like she was 7 yrs old, which means I was 5. She had a white top with a flannel dress with red,yellow, green, scotch design. My grandmother was sitting between us in the back of the car making sandwiches. Even back then she had white hair. My mother looked young...around 30. My father looked like a geek, his eyeglasses were black with a little diamond design on either side, no real styling, maybe from the 60's. This vision lasted a few minutes.
I then saw different vacations I had been on, they didn't last long just quick flashes.
Although I am seeing things now....I still am not lucid. There is no dream state, just visions of places I have already been to. Then I woke up.


Mental or Emotional State: Happy - I got to see my mother again. It's been 27 years since I last saw her.


Interpretation or Meaning: My mom, sister and grandmother are communicating with me, through the vision. Letting me know everything is ok.

Title: I Woke Up Date: 9/19/2010
Category: N/A Lucidity: No Lucidity

Keywords: N/A


Description: Today I got up at 06:00. I did my relaxation exercises and put myself into waking sleep paralysis. I was extremely relaxed doing my visualizations (me walking thru the house from memory), when all of the sudden the timer went off. I accidentally turned the timer all the way up, so went it went off, I nearly jumped out of my skin. I tried to go back to sleep, but just couldn't seem to do it.


Mental or Emotional State: N/A


Interpretation or Meaning: N/A

Title: Wind Tunnel Date: 9/17/2010
Category: Deep Relaxation Lucidity: Mild Lucidity

Keywords: Windy, Cold, Lights, Tunnel, Flashing


Description: Today I got up at 06:00. I did my relaxation exercises and put my body into waking sleep paralysis. I was deeply relaxed and breathing comfortably. I broke trance a few times either gasping for air or I had my mouth closed and I would blow out my cheeks. I also tried some visualizations of our house what it looked like from memory walking thru different rooms. I can visualize pretty well, I just have a hard time with the dreaming part.

At one point I got cold and put on a blanket. It reminded me of that heavy lead feeling I had a few days ago. Almost immediately, my eyes began to flutter, and then the tunnel effect started with lights flashing all around me. A wave of coldness swept over my body. I then felt and heard wind blowing in my ears. I began to get excited, but tried to keep my energy low as to not collapse the feeling.... and then...NOTHING!!! I woke up.


Mental or Emotional State: Excited


Interpretation or Meaning: In dreams, air usually represents communication, freedom, or spirit. The sound of wind may represent communication or news. It may also represent a signal from the unconscious. Because wind represents movement, it may symbolize change, as in the phrase "the winds of change."

Title: It's Loud in Here Date: 9/17/2010
Category: Heavy Vibration Lucidity: No Lucidity

Keywords: Heavy Vibration, Tinnitus, Lightness, Relaxed


Description: Today I got up at 02:00. I did my relaxation exercises and put my body into waking sleep paralysis. My breathing was slow rhythmic and steady. My Tinnitus was extremely loud. During the day it's low and annoying, but now I can't believe how loud it is. My head and shins seemed to be resonating at the same frequency as my tinnitus. I then opened my mouth and breathed deeply thereby effectively ruining my trance

While in trace - I saw pictures of 2 little girls around the age of 4 - 6 yrs old, they had golden hair, and white dresses with pink ribbon. They were both dressed the same, like twins. I don't remember what their eye color was...I have no idea who they are. I also saw a pair of cartoon eyes staring at me.

Later on I discussed my dream with my wife. She said she had a vision and saw 2 little girls. She said she spoke to me the night before while we were in bed. I don't remember her talking to me, I must have been asleep, or in a very receptive state.


Mental or Emotional State: Disappointed


Interpretation or Meaning: The eyes are frequently given spiritual significance. In some Eastern traditions, it is believed the eyes produce potent life energy. The eyes represent our sense of visual perception and, therefore, our perception on higher levels as well. They are often referred to as the "windows to the soul". In your dream, they may represent the soul looking outward, or may represent your desire or need to look inward. The eyes may symbolize insight. They may also represent the need to seek information or to see something for its true value.

Title: Cosmic Roller Coaster Date: 9/16/2010
Category: Deep Relaxation Lucidity: Not Lucid

Keywords: Lightness, Light, Relaxed, Shocked, Coldness


Description: Today I got up at 06:00. I did my relaxation exercises putting my body into waking sleep paralysis - No more heavy lead feeling - Instead I felt light and totally relaxed. My breathing was slow, deep, and deliberate. I did my affirmations - "I will remember everything and I will not be afraid", Also "everyday I am getting better, and better, and better". At one point I could see the ceiling with my eyes closed. I could only hold on to the vision for a few seconds. I then tried to visualize the room with me sitting in the chair looking at the computer screen. It was easy to visualize the room but difficult to imagine myself. Maybe if I stare at myself in a mirror I'll be able to remember what I look like.
I felt my body going thru cycles...relaxation...then the timer went off and shocked my system...over and over again. Anytime I heard a noise while being deeply relaxed, my mind would jump to a new location and my body felt an electric surge.
Something else happened to me while I was in that meditative state. My eyes fluttered, a feeling similar to the beginning of an epileptic seizure. I felt energy building up in my spine, and then their was a bolt of energy shooting thru my arms and legs followed by a deep and powerful coldness. I then saw what looked like a tunnel with lights flashing all around me. The tunnel effect only lasted a few seconds, but it felt like being on a cosmic roller coaster.


Mental or Emotional State: Excited


Interpretation or Meaning: Light represents illumination, enlightenment, and knowledge, and may also have spiritual connotations. It may represent the attainment of higher levels of consciousness, or may represent your higher Self. It is a powerful dream symbol that almost always has positive connotations.

Title: A Shout in the Night Date: 9/15/2010
Category: Color Patterns Lucidity: Not Lucid

Keywords: Heavy, Lead, Vibrations, Colors, Patterns


Description: This morning I woke up at 03:30. While returning from the bathroom I felt very hungry...starving. I ignored this feeling because I felt if I ate anything I would not be able to go back asleep.

I did a guided meditation before returning to sleep...Silvia Method & the Ultimate Psychic Guide...About 30 min. I kept still in bed relaxing my eyes until I entered waking sleep paralysis. My arms and legs felt like lead. I felt vibrations on my face and chest. Colors and shapes danced before my eyes. A high pitch cry was heard...DAD, DAD, DAD! Pain in my left arm and hip grew (the rollover signal), I ignored it for as long as I could, about 3 hours. With exception to the pain, I felt like I was in a very deep meditative state. I felt like I was barely breathing.


Mental or Emotional State: Disappointed - I was relaxed, I entered waking sleep paralysis, and then.....NOTHING!!!


Interpretation or Meaning: Hearing voices within your dream--if the source of the voices is unknown--may represent messages from your unconscious mind, or may represent many sides of an inner conflict.

Title: My First Flight Date: 9/14/2010
Category: Flying Dream Lucidity: Mild Lucidity

Keywords: Blackness, Green, Floating / Flying, Vibrations


Description: I started at 04:30. I was laying flat on the bed with my hands at my side, relaxing my eyes. I had my Lucid Dream Timer set at 8,4,8,12,16,20,20,6. Within an Hr. I felt vibrations. Scenes were flashing before my eyes. I walked down a path from a house carrying a green plastic cover. I was holding the cover with both hands waving it trying to get all the dirt off. I could not keep the picture in my mind, everything went black. I felt my feet lift off the ground....I was floating. I could not see anything, but I felt it.

I was so excited by the prospect of floating that my energy rose too quickly and my dream state collapsed.

Note: To maintain the lucid dream state, you must modulate your emotions. (Don't let your energy rise too quickly).


Mental or Emotional State: Excited, Happy


Interpretation or Meaning: The color green represents luck, money, envy, new beginnings, nature and growth. It may also represent peace.

Blackness - Being "reborn" into the next phase of life.

Flying may represent freedom, or may represent the spirit. They may also represent rising above your difficulties or overcoming obstacles.

I went to bed late...about 1 am.

Currently I have leg, hip, and back pain, so it's difficult for me to relax in bed. I try to avoid taking pain killers whenever I can.

Some things I've read about...Exercises:

1. Try to feel love just before going to bed. Visualize friends,family,pets, anything that helps you feel love.

2. Concentrate on your third eye while saying Hu..Pronounced Hue - (God) chant for about 10 min.

3. Affirmations:
a. I will not be afraid and I will remember everything.
b. When I hear the gong (set for every 90 min to wake me up) I will be awake in my dream world. Timer can be downloaded here: [url]http://download.cnet.com/Cool-Timer/3000-2350_4-10062255.html[/url]
c. chant...dream,dddrrreeeaaammm, stay awake, remember, to infinity and beyond, I am lucid...the world is vivid.

In a totally dark room with my eyes shut, I could see red flashes and swirling shapes and colors. I felt a chill radiating from my spine and going up my shoulders and down my arms. My heartbeat increased. I was starting to feel light, when a pain from my leg jolted me and snapped me out of it.

I got up, went to the bathroom where I took my pain medication, drank some water, and went back to bed. It took about an hour for me to go back to sleep. I was alert, with my eyes shut.

About 8 hours later I started dreaming. I was in a forest with a dirt road. I was there for about 3 seconds, I couldn't hold on to the dream...Flash There was a white sports car coming towards me...Flash. That was it...I was so disappointed. :?