Lakona

PART 1 - STUCK LIVING WITH CEE

Cee is living at my current location...

She is outside, at the end of the driveway. I go up and say "hi," in a confident charming way, even though I'm only at my current level of fitness... but then I change my mind, think it was a mistake and that I should wait until I'm more prepared, and run off down street (opposite of work direction.)

At night, I watch from outside as Herm (internet fitness personality) breaks in through a window...

I realize I have no choice and have to go back home, since I live there too and need a place to stay. I return but try to avoid Cee as much as possible, try to keep interactions "short and sweet."

She asks how I got there, I say public transport (lie.) She asks if the driver checked out my teeth for some reason, which throws me off slightly. I laugh and say, "not that I know of."

ANALYSIS

Gah. I finally went a day yesterday managing not to think of them that much, and then I have a big dream about them.

Her living here - possibly a metaphor for how she is so deeply ingrained as to be fundamentally a part of myself.

Watching from outside - kind of like, uh, stalking.

Herm break in - possibly the archetype for "douchebag" in my mind, reflection of jealousy, worry over other guy "breaking in."

Forced return - possibly represents the idea that there's nowhere else I can go, she is home. No matter how nice anywhere else is, it's just not the same, it's not "home."

Keep distance, short and sweet - sort of the pattern that always was... I didn't feel like I was up to my own standards, so I have to carefully edit her impression of me in a positive light.

Lie trip up - possibly a reflection of my guilt at not being completely honest.