Krista's Dream Journal

Dream - Lucid - AP

Well, I'm back from vacation! It was much-needed . And now, to the dreams!

I was outside somewhere. It was nighttime, and I was being chased by these crazy sorority and fraternity members who wanted to kill me. I remember them standing on a bridge. I also remember watching Chris run away; he was wearing the white shirt from one of my LDs. I only saw his back.

Then, I somehow knew I was dreaming. I composed myself so I wouldn't just fly away and wake up. I saw someone standing next to me. He looked like he was maybe in his late 30s, and had dark brown hair that was slicked back. I asked him if he would remember this dream. I don't remember his response.

I started to look around while walking. I was now inside in some garden. The ground below me was gray rock, and to my left was a creek. Sitting by the entrance to the creek was Santa. I walked into the creek. I said something to Santa and he replied, though I don't remember what. I do remember him saying "ho ho ho" at some point.

I kept walking in the creek. I feel like Chris was in front of me the whole time, some distance ahead of me. I looked down, and the water looked like it was dyed red with food coloring. I kept on walking, and heard a Chinese lady start talking. She was to my left on a stage-type thing that jutted out into the creek. She was middle-aged. There were a few people standing around her. She was speaking Chinese.

I was still walking down the creek, and I noticed above me all these digital clocks. I would look away and look back to them and they had all changed. Then, to my left, there were all these pictures on the wall. They were Christmas photos, and the people and animals in the pictures were moving, like in Harry Potter. One of them I remember being animal faces (dogs and cats) on human bodies wearing Santa hats.

As I exited the creek, I started walking up a winding stone path. I decided to try to make a kitten from one of my previous dreams appear. The kitten was white with pastel spots on her back, and her name was Sparkles. I cradled my arms and concentrated. I looked down, and an infant kitten with her eyes still closed was cradled in my arms. She was white with the pastel spots on her back. I said "Sparkles!". She crawled into my hand, and then I woke up.

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I was going from one guys house to the next, where they gave me cake and apparently we had sex, though I don't remember ever having sex in the dream. I do remember eating the cake though. At one of the houses I went to, Mary Katherine was with me. The chocolate cake I was eating was very dry. MK was not happy about what I was doing, but she stayed silent.

Then, I was at Austin's old apartment. I was in the car with him at some point, and he said to me
"Krista, you can't make up your mind. I don't like it."
He was referring to the fact that I was hanging out with him, but had a boyfriend. Austin still had feelings for me. I replied
"I have a boyfriend.", or something along those lines.
We were then inside again, and sitting on the couch. A large black man was there with us. Austin said to him
"You should go to the store and get (something, I can't remember), and while you're out, grab some weed."
I got up and took some dishes to the sink. The black man was doing the dishes. I left.

~

I woke up at some point this morning, rolled over, and went back to sleep, immediately entering a dream.

I got up out of bed, and there was someone standing next to me, though I can't remember who it was. It was very hard for me to keep my eyes open. There was a mirror in front of me, and when I walked over to see my reflection, I could see it, but it was not aligned with my body. I went to the mirror again, and the same thing happened.

Then, I had an FA, but I can't quite remember what happened in it.

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I was working 2 jobs; one at a sports bar and one at a sandwich restaurant. I had to take peoples orders at some other restaurant, go back to the bar, make the drinks, then walk back. I remember taking someone's order and then going to get the drink, then going back. Then, I took a table of 3's orders. There was a white guy with glasses, a black man, and an overweight woman. The black man ordered a lemonade. I asked him if he wanted a spiked lemonade, and he said no. Then, he called it a weird name. The woman ordered a sweet tea, and the white man ordered some crazy complicated drink, that was like 1/3 vodka, and a couple of other things. He used weird names for the measurements. I asked him to write it down for me, and he just stared. I said "Ok, I'll write it down then." He repeated his order as I wrote it down on a napkin with a pencil, and I left. I was walking down the street, thinking about his order.

At some point, I was sitting down at a table, talking to a man about my 2 jobs. I told him I did catering at one of them.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I was at some birthday party, I think it was at work, but it looked different. My coworker, Virginia, was there. I ordered a piece of the chocolate cake we carry. They ran out, so they brought me a different kind of chocolate cake. I took a bite, and it was super chewy, like a tootsie roll. I didn't like it, and it stuck to the roof of my mouth throughout the whole dream, no matter how much I pulled out.

I wanted the last of the cake that Virginia had (she got the last piece of our regular chocolate cake) because she had some left over. I started to eat some, and got one bite in before Virginia and another girl picked at the rest, commenting on how good the cake was. I looked back at my plate, and instead of cake, there was a small piece of a pita. I ate it, and didn't question what happened (dammit...missed a chance to become lucid).

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I was in some sort of aparment, but it was like a large cabin room with lots of bunk beds. Instead of being assigned an apartment, you were assigned a bed. There were community showers as well. I was in the process of moving out. I remember getting my things together.

Then, I was at Courtney's place, talking to her. She was asking me if I would like to move in with her, and I told her I would if I wasn't moving in with Ryan. She seemed dissappointed.

I then went back to the cabin-apartment place, and someone had already been assigned my bed. My mom was there with me. Also, my cat was there, and she had a very long tongue. She kept putting it under things in the room, and one time when she did it, it got caught and part of it came off. I picked it up so we could take her to the vet to get it sown back on. I felt so bad for my cat, but she didn't seem to notice. She wasn't even really bleeding. I even talked to her at one point in the dream, and she said something about not knowing or remembering what had happened to her tongue.

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I was looking into some water, and two cartoony-looking water spiders with suction-cup feet were skating on the water. A yellow one, the female, was skating on top of the water, while a green one, the male, was skating under the water, and their suction cups were touching as they skated in harmony. I figured out the green one was a scientist who turned himself into one of these water spiders so he could marry the female one. I also knew that he was already dead, and what I was seeing was past information.

I then saw him as a small fish, still green, inside the water. He pulled a huge fin off of a bigger fish for him and his wife, now a small yellow fish, to eat.

Throughout the dream, the scientist was narrating a lot of things.

Also, I'm going on vacation tonight and won't be back till Thursday. I'm bringing my laptop with me, so I'll try to update when I can.

Dream - Lucid - AP

Did some MILD mantras ("I will become lucid, I will recognize dream signs...") during meditation before bed for about half an hour.

I was at my house. I was signing up for classes for next semester, and I got all the ones I needed (yay!). Then, I found out that the girl my brother has liked for a long time (who claims to not return the feeling), was trying to prevent any other girls from talking to him. I was getting really pissed that she would do such a thing. I then remember trying to figure out when I needed to leave for class. I was very relieved that I had gotten all the classes I need to graduate.

Then, I remember getting out of the shower and thinking about my brother's situation with the girl. Instead of putting lotion on my legs, I took a box of brown sugar, poured some out on my hands, and started rubbing that on my legs. It started to lather. Weird.

Then, I remember doing something for work. I was talking to this old couple, and they were telling me about some deal they wanted with these customer cards they had. They told me all these numbers to write in the blank boxes that were on the cards. Someone then came and handed them new cards. One of them said "Orgasm" on it, and it was given to the lady. Again, weird.

I was then at an ice skating rink with Ryan. It was dimly lit. We were skating around, and then we had to clear the floor because figure skaters were going to perform. I sat down on a couch next to the old couple from earlier. Ryan sat on a couch behind me. I watched a couple skate around the rink, and they kept messing up. The announcer kept going "Ohhh!" every time they'd mess up. The last move the girl did, she almost fell, but tried to gracefully pose at the end of the routine to cover it up.

I then heard Ryan's voice behind me, and he asked me to come sit back with him. I skated to the couch behind me to sit with him. I sat down, and there was a pillar in the way of my vision, and I couldn't see very well. I contemplated moving back up, and I told him I was going to, but I never did.

After this, I woke up to use the bathroom, and did a couple more MILD mantras as I was falling back to sleep.

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I was at Hogwarts. I was in a forest, and there were trees that were crawling on their branches. They could not walk on their roots because they had been cut down. They reminded me of the trees in Lord of the Rings. I then saw trees weeping, water cascading from their leaves, branches, and faces (they did have faces). People were cutting them down and tearing them up to build some new addition to Hogwarts. In the dream, I (appropriately) called them the Weeping Willows.

Then, I was inside the school, talking to two women, when I realized I was dreaming. I walked the other direction and into an attic-like room. It was dark, and the walls, ceiling, and floor were all made of a dark-colored wood. In the middle of the room stood a girl of about 11 or 12. She was wearing scrubs and was kind of chubby. Besides all that, she looked almost just like me, especially in the face. I looked at her and said
"This is a dream!"
Crap, I thought, why did I say that? I know better.
She replied, with a smile,
"No it isn't."
I then asked her
"What's your name?"
"Susie," she replied.
I then said
"Susie...watch this!"
I jumped up onto a table, and turned the lights of the room on by commanding them to do so. I then jumped into the air and flew. I flew through the ceiling to a room that looked very similar to the one I was just in. Susie said something to me, I'm not sure what anymore, but she sounded happy and excited.

~

I was working for the company that Ryan works for in waking life. I had a house right down the street from Ryan, and Austin, an ex, was Ryan's next door neighbor. I had the van that Ryan has to drive for his job. It was parked in my driveway.

I was in the van when Austin came over. He entered the van, and started to make out with me. His pants were down, and I could see everything. I pulled away and told him
"No, I can't Austin, I have a boyfriend."
He got up off me and stopped trying to seduce me. He went back to his house.

Ryan then came over, and was trying to explain some things about the job to me. Another van pulled up in my driveway and started to load things into it. Ryan told me that was normal. I remember seeing a saw with a black handle and 3 other tools next to my van, but I can't remember what the rest were. Upon second glance, they were gone. I figured Ryan must have picked them up.

Then, I was driving the van on the interstate, and I lost control of it. I couldn't brake and I was stuck in the middle of a turn. I was also going very fast. I tried to stay calm, and I hoped I was dreaming.

Hey, look at that, I'm dreaming again! I flew out of the top of the van to escape, and flew up, up, up into the night sky. I tried calling out "Increase vividness!", but the dream faded.

Then, I had a false awakening in the van. It was morning now, and Ryan was there. I asked him what had happened. He said something about the van, something about finding me unconscious somewhere.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I was in some sort of cabin, I remember the lighting being warm and dim. I thought I might be pregnant, but I wasn't sure. My cat was pregnant, and for some reason this correlated with me in some way. I looked at an ultrasound picture of my uterus, and saw a small flicker on it. Then, I knew I was pregnant. I knew I needed to quit smoking. I was kind of anxious about being pregnant.

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I woke up from this dream, rolled over to go back to sleep, and had a brief, vivid hypnagogic hallucination that I was Ryan, and I was working in an auto factory. There were some older men around me. Then I really felt the need to pee, so I snapped out of the hallucination.

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I was going on vacation with my old friend, Bret. We were going to fly to a different country. When we got there, we were trying to find a hotel. We found one, but it didn't have free Wi-fi, though that wasn't a huge deal. I also remember thinking about having sex with Bret, but the thought was brief, as I'm with Ryan, I'm not attracted to Bret that way, and he's gay.

Then, I remember waking up on a blow-up mattress on the floor of the hotel room. Bret had slept in one of the beds, which he told me was not a very comfortable bed. We went down to the beach. It was a beautiful, sunny day. The ocean was very calm, and the shore was covered in small seashells. I waded in the ocean. The water felt warm and comfortable.

I remember being on a mountain, and seeing two huge dragons. One was a male, and the other a female. They were friendly and meant no harm. The male accidentally exposed himself enough to where the town below could see him, and everyone started to panic.

Then, we were going to try to find another hotel. Bret ended up going back to the airport to go home kind of on a whim. Then, Jeff, a man I don't associate with anymore in waking life, was there instead. I was annoyed at this. Again, the thought of sex came up, but, again, I'm with Ryan, and Jeff is kind of a dick.

Jeff wanted to find a hotel with Wi-fi, so we drove around at night, looking for a hotel. We found one and stopped at it. They had free Wi-fi, but not a continental breakfast, which was a big deal, because I didn't have a lot of money, so I needed as much free food as I could get. I remember being in the hotel, in the lobby. The front desk has a display case of foods and stuff to buy. Jeff was chatting it up with the person tending the desk.

Then, we were back at my house. Jeff was still there. I remember talking to my mom about the trip briefly. I was then in my room, and Jeff had dissappeared, and I couldn't figure out where he went. I looked into my mom's office, and he was there, going through files on her computer. He was looking at patient files for my dad's patients (my dad's a psychiatrist in waking life). I said
"Jeff, get out of here. Get out. What you're doing is rude."
He got up and replied,
"This is my ex, I need to warn people about this.", or something like that. He was referring to the fact that she had been seeing a psychiatrist.
I told him to get out again. He finally left the room.

Then, I went back into my room, and looked out the window. Two tornadoes could be seen in the distance. I said "Oh shit...", and went downstairs, leaving all my stuff up there. I got everyone in the hall closet. Jeff was in the cubby under the stairs, and there was no room for anyone else in there because it was so cluttered. I briefly thought about going upstairs to get my purse and stuff, but quickly dismissed the thought.

After that, I left the closet, and looked outside. The tornadoes had cut a huge path through our back yard. There was a lot of water flowing through one of them, kind of like a creek. I went to get my mom to show her. She stared with wide eyes.

We then went outside to assess the damage. I told my mom I hoped that Mary Katherine's family was ok. We were looking to see if any homes were damaged, but none appeared to be. It was just the huge path that the tornado cut through the yard.

Then, by the ditch behind my house, I saw a tornado forming. I ran back inside, and we were all in the closet again. Jeff and my mom were in the cubby under the stairs this time.

After that, I left the closet again, and the windows of the porch had been blown out, and the porch had been ruined. I saw some sparks flying around part of the porch. I wondered if one of our cats who lives out on the porch was alright.

Then, I went upstairs to my room to get my iPod. I picked up an iPod that was sitting on my bed and scrolled through it. It went to Facebook, and some Facebook pages. It also had an attachment on it that would buckle it to your belt. I then knew it was Jeff's iPod and not mine. I brought it downstairs, but dropped it on the way down. I picked it up, and the screen was cracked. It was very broken. I approached Jeff and told him what had happened, and he looked irritated. I was going to tell him I'd replace it, but I decided not to. I figured that he had enough money to do it himself, since he's such a big business man.

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I was playing something on the piano in my family's piano room. It was my wedding day, and I was wearing a strapless wedding gown. I was reading music, and two of the notes kept on clashing. I kept playing them, thinking something must be wrong. Then, my brother said "It's Bethel, just go with it." In the dream, Bethel was the composer of the music.

Then, we ran upstairs, and for some reason, my brother and I were fighting. I grabbed the back of his shirt (like I used to do when we were younger and we'd race to get to the computer), and he was thrown into the wall. I told him if he broke any of my bones before my wedding, I'd be really pissed off.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I was at work (big shocker). I was working with my coworker Tim. It was a Sunday, because we closed at 8. Something happened, I can't really remember what, but we got into a fight. We were arguing and yelling at one another as we stormed around behind the counter and into the back.

Then, it was only about 30 minutes until closing time, and Tim decided we should leave the store for 30 minutes and go out on some sort of adventure. We left the store, hoping that no customers would come in between then and 8 o' clock.

We were then walking down a road by a small forest. It was daytime outside. We walked under a tree, and as we were walking, Tim said we may get crapped on by some birds, and then, we did indeed get crapped on by a ton of birds; we were absolutely covered in bird shit. It felt absolutely disgusting; it felt very wet, slimy, and slightly heavy. We kind of laughed it off after being grossed out for a bit.

Then, we needed to wash the bird crap off ourselves. There was this shower-type thing in the forest. Tim and I got under it. Tim was washing himself off, and then he washed off my back. Then, I was naked (Tim was not). I turned around and Tim washed the rest of me off, paying no mind to my nude body. I didn't seem to think it was a big deal either. There were no sexual thoughts or feelings on either of our parts.

Then, we went back to the store. I think there may have been a couple of customers there that we had missed while being away.

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I was at some relative's house. It was a strange version of my uncle's house, but he wasn't there. In fact, the only relative I remember seeing looked just like me, though in the dream, I didn't recognize that. The relatives, cousins I think, were mocking me and laughing at me for every reason they could find. I was trying to prove them wrong about a tattoo that Ryan had on his back (it looked just like my tattoo, only it had some poetry written in beautiful script below it...it was in a different language and said something about "Beautiful Violets"). Only in the dream, I was saying that Ryan was Squidward (from Spongebob...weird!).

I remember seeing images of his tattoo as I argued with my cousins. I remember seeing the tattoo only half-finished, then fully finished on his back. There was also a morning glory-type flower sitting on a glass coffee table. It was purple, again, like my tattoo. There were other smaller flowers too. The cousins kept destroying the flower more and more, and I kept getting very upset. It finally looked like just a small nub of a flower, the petals being all gone.

I threatened to the cousins that I would go home because I was sick of their crap, and then, someone said "Just make sure you leave your car here tomorrow, I need it in the morning", or something along those lines.

Then, Ryan was there, and I leaned against his chest. He said something sexual to me, though it was abstract. It was something like "I'll add another quarter to my roll, if you know what I mean." Strange.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I was in some building at a computer. It looked like one of the computer labs at my college. I was checking my email and my school assignments. I realized that I had not done 2 assignments for my bosses at work. I figured I would be able to make it up and they wouldn't care that I was turning it in late.

Then, one of my bosses announced that all the people in the room needed to split into 2 groups, one who had completed the homework, and one that was behind. I joined the one that was behind. My boss was the leader of that group, and said that he would give us half credit for completing the assignments late. I figured half credit was better than no credit at all, so I decided to get going on the assignments.

I was then back at the computer, and one of the assignments was posted by my coworker, Jessi. She had written it all in lowercase letters, and wherever there was the letter 'i', she had typed two 'i's" ('ii'). Then, at some point I was talking to my other boss.

Then, I was in the shower, and Jessi was outside the shower, reading the assignment to me. My assignment was something creative I think, and I had to be in the shower to complete it. In front of me was a 11 or 12 year-old-girl. She was kind of big with medium-length brown hair. I only ever saw the back of her, but I was helping her shower or something. I was talking her through it. She got out of the shower, and I realized that I had been in the shower for a very long time, and I had barely showered myself. I think I had only cleaned the top half of my body. The water started to get cold, and I felt like I needed to get out even though I wasn't finished.

I stepped out of the shower, and there was a lot of excess water pooled in the bottom of the shower. I drained it. I was in front of a classroom. The kids in the classroom were talking about how long I had been in there, and it was about time I got out. In the front of the room, I spotted a guy, Steve, whom I was friends with in the 8th grade, and haven't seen since in waking life. He looked exactly how I remember him. We talked for a bit. Then, my friend Courtney came up, and Steve asked her to get coffee with him.

Then, I was at Steve's house for some reason, and he was laying on a couch. He said something about getting coffee, and I said "Oh with me?", but then, I remembered that he had asked Courtney and I said "Oh, you're getting coffee with Courtney. You guys will have fun!"

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I was driving, looking at the stormy-looking clouds. I thought I saw a tornado forming. The clouds looked really cool.

Then, I was at a local restaurant where my coworker Jessi had apparently started to work (her boyfriend works there in waking life). She was training on the register with a manager, and I was talking to her about the new job while I ordered my food. Then, she said "Oh, are you a student?", or something like that. I said yes, and she handed me a cup. She said something about me getting another drink for being a student. She started to ask me another question (I realized she was going to do this 3 times total), and I realized that she had charged me $3.89 for the first drink. I thought that I was supposed to get it for free, so I told her I didn't need another drink, and I didn't know I was getting charged for it. She took it off my bill.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I was in some building, and all the sudden, all these people started coming at me slowly. Except for they weren't normal people. They were under some sort of mind-control, they were being used for something. They were kind of like zombies, except for they weren't dead. Though they weren't quite alive either. A man at the front was coming at me with a small, sharp knife (in waking life, I have a strange phobia of knives). I was scared, so I ran. The mob of drones ran after me. I ran down some stairs, but I was still surrounded. I kept throwing things at them, knowing that I had to strike them in the head twice with these clear, plastic, rubbery objects to kill them, since that was my only weapon. I threw the objects, and they kept laughing at me as the objects either softly bounced off of them or missed completely. I did end up killing one who was heading towards a door.

Then, the guy with the knife, a scruffy-looking man who was overweight, wearing a dark red polo, and had his brown hair pulled back into a ponytail, started to close in on me, trying to stab me with the knife. I begged him to please leave me alone and not stab me, but he kept coming at me with his knife raised. He had a sick smile on his face.

Then, his facial expression changed to one of defeat. I suddenly knew that all of these drones were on a time limit, and when the clock struck 10:45, they would all just kind of "pop", and they would be gone. All of them had similar looks on their faces. Some of them were wailing with defeat. I ran to avoid them popping on me. As I ran down a hallway, I saw a black woman drone crouch down on the floor with her hands over her head. Then, she popped into a few red and white pieces. I was very relieved.

Dream - Lucid - AP

Last night before I went to sleep, I meditated for awhile, maybe half an hour. First, I meditated on my MILD mantra ("I will become lucid"), then, on peace of mind.

I was in my family's driveway at dusk. Chris, an ex and one of my best friends, was there, and so was my dad. My mom may have been there too. My dad was videotaping me dancing and playing in the driveway.

All the sudden, everyone is gone but me, and the garage doors are shut, with the left one being open just a teeny bit, enough room for one of the cats to get in under. I'm not sure how, but I got into the garage. I think I came through the back door, and then entered the garage.

This scene was very, very vivid, more vivid than most of the dreams I've had lately. The garage seemed to be a bit bigger and spacier than usual, and Chris was in there, standing next to one of the cars. He was dressed in all white, his shirt being a long-sleeved white thermal shirt with a light blue design on the front, and I think he was wearing white cargo pants. I thought the scene was weird for some reason...and then I figured it out.

Chris and I haven't talked in months. We don't even live anywhere near each other. This has to be a dream! I got excited, but not enough to wake me up. I started to talk to Chris. I was careful, however, not to just blurt out "This is a dream! I'm dreaming!", because that seems to dumbfound my DCs. Instead, I said something along the lines of
"Chris! This is awesome. This is such a wonderful experience!", to which he replied, much to my surprise,
"Yeah, it's a dream!", something to that effect.
I was shocked that he knew it was a dream, but in a good way. How awesome! Then, I said
"Let's fly!"
I started to float upwards, but for some reason, I couldn't take off. Chris started to float too, and was surrounded by this bright, white-blue outline around his body.
"Here, lift me up with you!", I said.
He took my hand, and started to pull me upwards. I thought to myself "This must be my dream guide, maybe he's taking the form of Chris for some reason...". I've never had a DC help me with anything while lucid.

Then, we went through the ceiling, and this very vivid music started to play. It sounded like the opening to a 1950's adventure film, with violins and such, like an orchestra. Also, everything was black, save for the most vivid hypnogogic imagery I've ever seen in my life. I was tunneling through vivid, colorful geometric shapes. Yellows, blues, greens, you name it. I felt like the dream must be over, but I didn't wake myself up. The whole time, I was still hearing the music, as vivid as can be. I also started to feel like I was laying on my family's bonus room couch for some reason.

Then, as I concentrated, I started to feel my body in sleep paralysis. There was an intense buzzing sensation. I concentrated it to my head, and it came to my head in intense waves, making my ears buzz. I then started to sit up out of my body. I got this image of a girl's astral body sitting up out of her physical body, and a male voice commented on it, describing it as "the female astral body". I got too excited, and went back into my body, and woke up, thinking that I must have been asleep for hours, when really, it had only been about and hour to an hour and a half.

~

I had a fragment about Ryan texting me, and calling me his fiance, but he was trying to be goofy and spelled it weird and spaced out the word (it was something like "fiz on ce"). I was very excited that he called me his fiance.

~

I was at the coffee shop I used to work at before it went out of business. It had reopened, and the restaurant that had taken its place had gone out of business. Looking through their walk-in fridge, I found a lot of the food they had left behind. It was nothing that we served.

I was then at the register with Kacey, and a lady with her young daughter ordered ice cream. Kacey got distracted by something, and I had to finish their order. I took big scoops of this very soft, delicious-looking ice cream and put it in a cone (maybe a cup?) for the little girl.

Then, it was the coffee shop I currently work at, and I was trying to explain to some customers at their table that we didn't have what they wanted, because of the business that had been there before, and we only had their food at the moment. I told them "It's a long story." I think we actually ended up finding what they wanted.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I remember my brother fixing me up with some dude that came over here from out of state (maybe out of the country? Can't recall). I never agreed to it, he just kind of did it without my approval. The guy was staying at our house, and was one of my brother's friends. My mom told me I needed to stop dating so much. I thought "I didn't even agree to this...my brother set it all up!" This all happened in my family's kitchen.

The next thing I remember is walking outside, and seeing a playground-type thing on the edge of the water of a lake. I thought to myself "Isn't that dangerous for the kids to have the playground in the water?" There was a wooden bridge leading out to it. I started walking on it. I remember a piece of the old, rotting wood cracked under my weight, but I kept going. I recall seeing two very big, gross spiders (I hate spiders in waking life). I didn't freak out too much, but just tried to avoid them. I remember one scuttling away.

~

I was in my family's kitchen again, writing a letter to someone, asking them what they thought my spirit animal was. I think this person was supposed to be an expert on deep dreaming-type things. I told him about the dreams I've had with dogs and bears (real dreams that I've had, not false memories). I don't remember ever receiving a reply, but throughout the dream, I kept thinking about my spirit animal, and whether or not it was a bear.

Totally missed that chance at becoming lucid . Oh well, it is what it is. Maybe next time.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I'm not exactly sure where I was, but I'm pretty positive it was the roof of a building in a city. There was a very attractive young Indian man there, about my age with dark hair that went down to his ears. He was wearing very bright, colorful clothing. His name was Ramien. His parents were there too, standing away from us. There had been some sort of conflict between us all before we were on the roof, but I can't remember what it was.

But now, I was hugging Ramien. We hugged and looked into each other's eyes. He had Ryan's hazel eyes. Then, I figured out I was dreaming. I floated up a bit. Then, I looked at Ramien and asked
"Are you my dream guide?"
He turned his head away from me and said "No...". He seemed sad and disappointed. I reassured him that it was ok that he wasn't my dream guide, and I looked into his eyes again. I took his hand to feel the vividness of it. I then started to feel like I was going to lose the dream, so I started touching everything around me, feeling for the vividness. I then voiced "Increase vividness!", but I ended up having a false awakening.

I was in some sort of room somewhere, it didn't look familiar to me at all, and I started filling out this dream journal sheet. I kept writing 'Ramien' on it in different blanks provided on the sheet. Then, Ramien was there again, and we kept hugging and looking into each others' eyes. There's more, but I can't remember it.

~

I was sitting on my family's living room couch with Ryan. I knew I was dreaming almost immediately. I turned and looked at Ryan, and he was wearing sunglasses.
"Take off your sunglasses so I can see your eyes," I said.
I took them off for him, and looked into his beautiful hazel eyes. They were very vivid.
"Ryan," I said, as I took his face in my hands, "I love you more than words will ever say." My voice sounded so vivid and clear.
Then, I laid back on the couch, and I was wearing lingerie. We started to talk.

Then, I had another false awakening. This time, it was in my room. I looked at my phone. 8:28 it said. I fumbled around with it trying to turn my alarm off before it went off at 8:30. 8:30 came quickly, and it started to go off, so I turned it off. I got up to get in the shower, but not without first turning on my N64 to play Yoshi's Story. I did that for a bit, then got in the shower. On the way to the bathroom, I heard my brother playing Mario Kart Wii downstairs.

Dream - Lucid - AP

Tried to MILD last night and failed . I think I'm just having a very stressful week as far as school goes. Too many tests! Anyways, onto my dreams.

I was at a girl I knew in high school, Kayla's, sleepover birthday party. I want to say it was in the music building of my college. I had a blow up matress, but it was very thin and seemed to have a leak in it. It looked like it was half-assed blown up. I rolled it up and did something with it.

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I was at the mall with Ryan, and we were looking at this videogame shop, when I realized that the shelf they were displaying things on was one that I had left there; it was my shelf. The shelf was black and about chin-height to me. I also realized that I had left quite a few other things there, like my box with my N64 in it, and some Wii games. I told the person displaying the things on the shelf that that was my shelf and my stuff in the tub behind it, and she said "Oh, alright, I thought so", or something to that effect. She started taking the displays down.

I asked Ryan to help me carry the stuff out to the car, mostly it was just the games and my N64. He tried to carry it all at once, balancing everything in his arms. We left the shelf there, however, and many of the games. I also remember my car being in the middle of the mall.

Then, I was waking up in my bed at home, and I was thinking about the dream I had, and decided that it wasn't a dream and that I really did leave that stuff at the mall; I realized that the shelf and many of my games were still there. I asked my mom to help me bring them home. I was very anxious and frantic about getting them back. My mom gave me half of a pill, I want to say it was a Valium. It was clear, almost like a gel capsule, but it was solid. I was having a lot of trouble swallowing the pill; it kept getting stuck in the back of my throat. At one point, I dropped it on the seat of my car, and had to find it again.

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I was dating my middle school boyfiend, Leslee, again. My dad gave me a gift, which was supposed to be an engagement ring for Leslee and I to use. The ring looked like a tiny, bright red whistle with a tiny diamond on the top. When I took it out of the box to show Leslee, everything in and around the box was charred and burned to ashes, except for the whistle ring. But it was no longer a ring; there was no band on it. Instead, there was a cord inside to make it a necklace. I told Leslee my dad told us we could use it as an engagement ring. I gave it to him, but then I thought to myself that we'd probably break up and he'd end up selling it or something. I then thought about changing my Facebook status to "Engaged", but decided not to. For some reason, I didn't think Leslee had a Facebook. Later in the dream, I discovered that he did.

EDIT: Saw Kayla today for the first time in months walking on campus. I think it's so cool how these things line up sometimes.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I was at some sort of weird bar/night club. I think I was there for a pretty long time. I saw Katherine, and she was trying to approach me, and I was cautious about it. She was very drunk. She came up to me and started to calmly talk to me, though she was slurring her words. I saw her a few more times throughout the dream, but I can't remember many more details.

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I was trying to look up summer classes to take, and I kept typing stuff in, like MATH2030, MATH2530, etc...and none of them were showing up on the list. The ones that did were closed. I was kinda irritated, because I need to graduate, and I need those classes to graduate.

Then, I met up with my very old friend, Jennifer, whom I rarely ever talk to any more in waking life, but we grew up together. We were walking around on campus, next to the stadium, when she told me she was worried she wasn't going to make all A's this semester. I told her she'd be fine. I knew she would be, she was always a straight-A student when we were growing up.

Then, we decided to go swimming. In waking life, she didn't know how to swim when we were younger, and this thought carried over into the dream. I decided that she must have learned somewhere along the way. We were going to go outside, but there was ice and snow on the ground, so we started discussing where some good indoor pools were. I suggested the YMCA, so that's where we went. We were sitting on the edge of the pool, looking at the water park-type structure in the pool. It looked like something you'd find on a playground. There was also this one structure that rose out of the pool every half hour or so for a few minutes. It had a slide on it, and, again, looked like something you'd find at a playground. It was supposedly the most fun thing there.

I was holding this small, gold key chain, and it had two key-type things on it, and a bigger, circular piece. I understood it to be some ancient Indian mood gauge. It would tell you how you were feeling, or something like that. There were two young Indian boys sitting next to me, and one of them showed me how to use the mood gauge. He flipped it one way, and he said that meant you were happy. Then he flipped it the other way, and he said that meant you were sad.

Then, I got in the pool. There was an underwater entrance to the structure. I was afraid to enter it, thinking I may run out of air while going to it. Looking at it though, that didn't seem like it would be a problem. The entrance was pretty close to the surface, and once you got under it, it was only a short trip to the surface. I still didn't enter it, despite my observations. I "remembered" being scared of that every time I had gone to the pool previously.

At some point, I did go on the structure with the slide that rose out of the pool every half hour.

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I was at work, and I was at the register. There was a line, but there was one lady who was standing right in front of me, behind the register. I was confused; was she a new employee? What was she doing behind the counter? She then started to ask me about our milk, and if we use the same brand of milk consistently. I told her no, but we try to stay as consistent as we can. We just buy what our providers have at the time. She said something about her boyfriend in the car, and that she needed to tell him that.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I was outside, approaching a fenced-in tennis court with a track around it. There were many people my age walking around it with children on their shoulders. I was going to be assigned a child, but I didn't want to participate. It was some after school program or something.

The next thing I remember is stepping into a giant elevator the size of a room. It also looked like a room, with hardwood floors, overhead lights and big windows, though there was no furniture. The windows overlooked the city. The elevator started to climb upwards, slowly at first, and then faster and faster. Then, I figured out I was going up the Sears Tower, and once the elevator got to the top, it would plummet back down very fast. I was already on the elevator, and even though I was frightened, I knew I had to stay there, and that once I reached the bottom, I would be ok. The elevator reached the top of the tower, hovered there for a minute and I overlooked the city. Then, I sat on the ground in a fetal position in preparation for the plummet. The elevator started to fall at a very fast rate, and I closed my eyes. It felt like my stomach was going into my throat, the way it usually feels when you fall at a very fast rate.

Then, I was at a house with a family, I think it was Ryan's family, or at least it was his mother (I've never met them in waking life). At any rate, it was Kacey's birthday, and we were all going to go out somewhere. Everyone was in the van but me. I remember Kacey was in the passenger's side seat, with Ryan's mother sitting in the driver's seat. I was going to go with them, and they were waiting on me, but I could only find one of my pink house slippers that I was going to wear. I was walking around with only one of them on. I went to the car to ask Ryan's mom where the other one was, and she told me she didn't know, but I should check somewhere else (can't remember where specifically). I went back into the house and still couldn't find it. I looked out into the van, and I saw the back of Katherine's blonde, crazy-haired head in the passenger's side seat. The van looked very full of people.

The elevator thing is a fairly common dream theme for me, where I'll be in a plummeting elevator, and I sit down in it in a fetal position as it is about to drop. I never really think too much about it in the dream though other than "Oh shit". This time though, I seemed to face the fear. Interesting, as I have no fear of elevators in waking life. Symbolism? I think so.

Dream - Lucid - AP

All I remember is that I was with Ryan, and we were in a movie theater somewhere. There was an autistic boy with his father sitting behind us. The boy had red hair, glasses, and a dark red plaid felt shirt on. We were traveling around an area. Ryan was trying to help me understand or see something, and I think it had to do with the boy and his father. I remember him explaining the situation to me.

I know the dream was very long, but I can't remember many details. They are very blurry.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I was outside, not sure where. It was nighttime. I was with my friend Elliot. Apparently we were dating again. We had sex at some point.

Then, I was in some store, I think it was supposed to be Old Time Pottery. I picked up some weird ceramic vase thing that had a lid on it. I put it down, and the one next to it, which was wooden, broke. I knew I was going to have to pay for it since I broke it. A short Indian-looking lady who worked there came up to me and said "You're probably just high again." I told her no, I wasn't, and she laughed. In the dream, I was actually coming down from being high.

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I was in my high school choir again, and we were doing I musical. I couldn't remember much of anything, so I missed some of my cues, and had to look at the people around me to get the choreography right. I remember at one point, the choir teacher, who is actually my college choir teacher in waking life, stopped us to say something about our performance and said something about the audience. I think it was because we were messing up so much. I remember hearing that we had a 6 o' clock and a 7 o' clock show. I didn't want to do both.