Jvail

Only a few dreams lately, my rest has not been as good:

2/3/11-Raving and drug use again. I'm taking X, but can't really feel the effects of it, but I know I'm messed up. Raegan is there-I'm trying to get her to come hang out. She is reluctant, but begins to offer occupational security. Again, she seems sort of stingy, and offers to call her mom if I really need help. I put the phone to my ear, and her mom sounds really positive. I buy a pack of Camel Wides and smoke one. B is around and does not seem bothered by cigarettes or drug use, but is not exactly thrilled about it either. I have become sweaty and changed my t-shirt.

2/4/11-Fragments, but I think there was alot more to this dream than what I recall. I'm in a Hotel/Airport/Mall setting, shaped like the east hallway of Luther Jackson (my old middle school). The north end looks like a department store. I see empty clothing racks. My east view through the doors and windows shows a huge parking structure and access roads. I feel some sense of conflict going on around me, but nothing frightening. There's an issue with the way some of the sliding glass doors function here...,

2/9/11-I'm traveling, leaving from an airport. Which one is not indicated. B and I are scheduled to fly out on the concorde. I become convinced that the plane will be hijacked, and I start looking for some sort of small blade to defend myself with. I don't make it on the aircraft with her. The plane begins to taxi out, and I'm running after it, slapping part of the tail as it slips away. This behavior gets me incarcerated. I'm given a navy colored sweatshirt with a concorde logo on it. B comes to see me, and says that 9 hijackers were arrested on the plane.

2/11/11-Another weird one, but then most of my dreams are weird. For some reason I'm hanging out with a pleasant, older Japanese man, Mr. Hokkaido. He likes the fact that I'm into Zen and my fondness for the Japanese. We're tasked to enter a coded program into and old, room size computer. We're in a city, and to get to this computer we have to sneak down and across a few side streets. Linda Szyhowski is there, and she let's us in with a few directions to the treminal. We enter the program, then I drive Mr. Hokkaido to the airport for his flight back to Japan. He gives me a gift, a combination meditation/dinner place setting, which I begin to use.

2/12/11-Odd fragments again. B and I are walking on a dirt road-it looks like Holmes Run Drive. I go into a ruined house and find a bunch of zildjian cymbals. I take one. We leave, and people are shooting paintballs at us.
Next, I'm wondering around a shopping mall. I've been drinking and end up at a drug store, looking for some kind of straight shaving aid, like lotion or some sort of soap. Ronnie Calvert (My ex's mom) is there and recognizes me. On the outside, I play it cool, but on the inside I freak. I grab some junk food and leave, trying to soak up the alcohol ( I don't really feel drunk). I think Adriean (the ex) might have shown up as well...
Last fragment, I'm parking my car in west Annandale, near the smaller intersection with gallows. I'm hanging around a rented house with a bunch of college students. Donna Foreman (Employee at work) is with them, she gives me a small kiss for some reason. My friend Shafat is also there, but I have no idea why.

Plodding along and recording my dreams...I'm really trying to remember to do reality checks. I know this is a slow process.