DJ of lucid goals and how it goes

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

This is amazing. I have had some LDs in the past but I just became aware that I was dreaming, I have never asked myself the question "is this a dream?" (as I can remember). Yesterday I did RCs like 20 times and it apparently worked! I mostly pinched my nose.

I am in the TV room. I inspect a painting on the wall. I pinch my nose out of reflex since yesterday and I can breath even tough I shouldn't be able to. It's a dream!! I am really happy and continue to look at the painting a little bit more. I am amazed by the quality and all the details of this dream and start to go outside. I have just stepped out and wonder if I should stabilize the dream but since it is a DILD and because of the quality of the dream I think that it is already stabilized. Suddenly my left eye is closed and I try to reopen it, but I can't. I am really struggling, it is almost like I got a fit. My right eye is also closing and I wake up... Guess I should always stabilize the dream when I become lucid?

I am in some strangers home downstairs, my family and Klaus are also there. My parents seem to know the people whose house we are in. There is a TV-screen on the floor and the other family asks us if we want to play a video game on the TV with them. My brother suddenly becomes this small, sticky ball. As big as an eraser. He jumps into the TV and possesses it. He tries to hurt us but we stop him. He suddenly jumps out of the TV and bounces into the kitchen. We follow. He possesses some kitchen tools and throws them at us. He then possesses a big box of knives. A person jumps over the box as to stop the knives from being thrown at us. The knives are being thrown anyway. They all target me and there are some close calls. But as more knives are thrown, the remaining knives start to lose more and more of their edges. The knives disappear and in comes Klaus with a big plastic bucket with boiling water. He drops the water over the possessed box and my little brother dies. Firstly I become enraged and my anger is pointed at my smaller brother. I walk out on the doorsteps and after a while I become really sad and get a feeling of hopelessness because my brother is now dead.

I chew and I am irritated because i chew so badly. I chew from side to side instead of up and down. I am thinking about my sister and how she doesn't like it when I chew aloud. That's about everything I remember

Possible recurring elements: My home, Family, Hopelessness

Notes: I dreamt about the family asking us if we wanted to play video games because we played some TV-games at my cousins yesterday. My brother tried to kill me in the dream because I and he had a bad day yesterday. We had some word fights and I would like to believe that this dream is a sign how destructive those little fights are. I am going to keep this dream in mind next time I think about saying something mean to him. I will rather say something nice. The hopeless feeling i got when I realized my brother was dead is much like in the past DJ episode yesterday when I escaped my family.