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Dream Lucid

Jan. 23, '11: I tried the same breathing method again a couple of times early this morning when I was still tired. I just fell asleep normally. I tried again later when I was more awake. It took a while to relax enough, but eventually I felt the vibrations. I tried to "pull" energy into me to intensify the sensation. It did at first, then stopped, and started up again.

I started lucid dreaming. There was very little visuals or sensations at first, but it became more vivid after a minute or so. I was walking down the hallway of my old home, looking at my hands.
In the living room, I stated my intent and expectation to see Sheila behind me. I turned around and there was nothing.

I woke slightly, feeling vibrations again, and began to dream again.

In the kitchen of the same house, I saw Eddie. He was not wearing a shirt (true to life) I asked him to lead me to Sheila. He said something I didn't understand. Then I followed him through the dining room and into my parents' room.
He went behind the door and I sort of smooshed him with it.
I looked behind the door and he had vanished. There was another door, with light coming from it. I went through it and ended up face-to-face with an androgynous stranger. We kissed and I lost some of my lucidity.

We were in weird poses, and I'm not sure what we were doing. It didn't feel sexual. I didn't really like it. There was a large mirror and it caused some scary reactions, as usual.

I woke again, and began another dream scene.

I was in the music school/ballet school (another childhood location) N was there. We had some sex.
There were several people sitting in the waiting room area, all of them female. I thought it was a good place to look for Sheila. I asked if she was there. They said no.
I asked for help. A woman said something that didn't seem helpful or useful, I don't remember what.
A serious looking business woman gave me a card and told me to call her. I asked if she meant in waking life or in the dream.

Then I lost lucidity. I thought I was high. I felt very horny. I sat next to N, who was sewing. I tried not to do anything inappropriate. There were lots of ladies sewing and also eating. It was Thanksgiving.

I have now had a lucid dream three days in a row. It's a new record for me.
I am going to change my lucid dream goal for awhile, maybe until I get better at doing other things, before I try finding Sheila again.