insideout

Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid

Sept. 20, 2011, Tuesday: I am in my parents' house, trying to turn off the lights before they get home. But the lights won't stay off.
As I walk up the stairs I think that this reminds me of dreams I've had.
Then I am in my old bedroom. I have to get ready for church. My janitor uniform is laid out on the bed. I am trying to have a shower and get dressed, but I can't get any privacy. My whole family is there, and some other people. I am in a towel and feeling anxiety.
I yell out "I'm going to sleep!" and get in bed with my towel.

Then I become mostly lucid and my mom's face appears right in my face. I yell at her "I cut the [energy] bond between us!" I press her face in and sort of consume her.

Notes: I have not gone to church in many years, and I haven't worked as a janitor in a long time. It seems that parts of my past were coming back to bother me in this dream.
I wasn't sure if absorbing my mother was a good idea. I could have just made her vanish, or go away. But I guess consuming her dream figure is like reclaiming the energy she takes from me.