InfinityPillow's Dream Journal

The last week has been quite stressfull. I'm going to live abroad for quite some time and I'm departing this weekend. I've been pretty restless because of this major event and although I still have dreams, I don't write them down in my DJ.

I'll resume my DJ when I've accomodated in my new country.

I wasn't able to post my dream journal this morning, because I had to go to the dentist. I was only able to remember one very vague dream anyways. Something about my mother who was working at some house. I was there as well and was afraid that I would scare her, because she probably didn't expect me to be there.

Something more interesting to post is that I woke up at about 4:00 - 5:00 AM and tried to do a WILD. At first I didn't want to, because I was laying there just perfectly. But after a few minutes I thought 'why the hell not' and tried it. I did some stretching and the reverse blinking technique and got really relaxed. Unfortunately, my mouth and eyes were extremely dry. As if I was dehydrated or something. (I did drink a few bottles of water that day, so I figured that it wasn't a big deal and tried to ignore it.

After a few minutes I noticed a big change in appearance. My head was extremely clear as if I was 100% awake. After another few minutes I noticed some visual hallucinations. It looked like there were balls of light flying around my head. My throat was really bugging me right now and I automatically tried to swallow. This stopped the hallucinations, so I turned to my side and tried again.

I rested my hand below my pillow and it started to feel very numb. (As if it wasn't receiving any blood at all.) I ignored it since it was probably part of the SP. The part of my throat that was bugging me started to feel like it was vibrating. It was some kind of tingling feeling right where it was hurting me before. Some other parts of my body were tingling, at one point it even felt like a very small part of me fell off. (It was very real, I even felt it fall down on another piece of skin)

Although I felt all these things, I never transitioned into a full body SP or a Lucid dream. After about an hour I decided to just go back to sleep.

Last night I had a lot of beers. I got home pretty drunk and didn't expect to remember any dreams tonight. I tried to meditate, but it was no use at all. I woke up in the morning, but I didn't have to get out of bed yet. I decided to snooze for a bit, fell asleep and got the following two dreams:

Dream one
I was riding a bicycle and for some reason knew that I was dreaming. I forgot why and it never happened to me before, so I was quite surprised. I did a RC by pinching my nose and it worked! I was actually dreaming! (This is the first lucid dream I can actually remember having in detail)

I was supposed to take a right turn, but I was lucid now so I could do anything. I noticed a brand spanking new Porsche on the side of the road and decided to take it. When I entered the car, the owner came up to me to cause trouble. I tried to dismiss him by telling him to go away. It didn't work, I guess I don't have full control yet. The owner tells me 'I'm a figment of his imagination', obviously something I've read here. I don't care about him and drive away.

Immediately there are police cars everywhere. Awesome. I wasn't sure if they were after me, but it didn't really matter to me. I drove pretty fast although I didn't pay any attention to other traffic. At this point I thought I maybe had to stabilize the dream by using all my senses. So I started to feel the textures of the car. And that's all I remember. The dream probably stopped there.


Dream two
I was lying in bed in the same room I fell asleep in. But it was pretty obvious that I was dreaming. The bed was bigger, the room had a bigger window, the sheets were softer and it was very very bright. I did the nose pinch RC to confirm I was dreaming, it worked. I looked outside the window and noticed something floating through the air. It was some kind of receipt, floating on the wind. It looked very real and made me think that I was watching some 3D movie or something. I don't know why.

The receipt floated through my window and into the room. It looked very peaceful and relaxing. This was a very vivid dream. Too bad that I was alone in this bed. I tried to imagine another person with me to share the experience with, and it partially worked. But I guess it was too strong, because as soon as it started to work, my dream was over.

I had a few drinks the night before and since it's weekend, I slept at my parents' house. Therefor I didn't even try to WILD or WBTB, because I didn't think that it would work anyways. I did meditate for a short amount of time before I went to bed. (Which was at 02:00).

Dream one:
I'm walking down a long road, into a forest. At first I don't know where the road is taking me, but when I entered the forest, it hit me. My ex-girlfriend is camping in the forest with her scouting group. She and the rest of her group is about to arrive at the forest and since I'm walking on the main road, they'll probably spot me. I panic, I don't want to stalk her. So I run into the forest into an open area.

In the forest are a few buildings. Probably from the scouting group that is stationed in this forest. (Scouting groups often rent out forest space to other scouting groups to make money and to share great experiences with each other.) They spot me and throw a USB stick towards me. I'm a bit confused and conclude that they probably think that I'm a member of the scouting group that's camping there. I tell them I'm not and things get a bit more serious.

They tell me I'm not allowed to enter the forest without their permission. I apologize and tell them that I'll get out of here right away. As I walk away, I meet a woman with a broken arm. I greet her and wish her good health with her arm as she walks over a strange rock formation. She didn't understand me so I repeated myself. She smiled and thanked me. She warned me about the rock formation she was walking on, because it was hollow. I somehow thought that it would still be a good idea to walk over it.

Obviously, I crashed trough the formation and fell on the ground. There are rocks all over me as well as a metal gaze, which probably is used to stabilize the rocks. A lot of people show up to see what happened. I'm really ashamed and apologize for breaking the rock formation.

Because I fell trough the rock formation, I didn't have to go anymore. I was now invited to join some kind of competitive activity with a lot of unknown people. We all have to choose partners and I partner up with some asian guy who thinks he's really cool. We had two objectives: 1. create some kind of awesome graffiti masterpiece. and 2. collect stickers. We already had stickers, so I started on the graffiti. A lot of time passed and most teams where done when I finally finished. I can't remember what it looked like, but it kicked ass. Time for beer.

Me, the asian guy and two other persons where looking for a place to drink. We obviously weren't in the forest anymore. All the placed were closed and we arrived at the back door of a chinese restaurant. It was closed, but the rest insisted that they'd go inside to have a few drinks. I didn't understand why we would get drinks here, but I just waited to see what happened. A waiter let us in after a kept on insisting that we could go inside for drinks. Once inside there was absolutely no-one there, except for the floor above us, which looked like it was packed with drinking people. Weird.

We sat down at a bar and the waitresses told me that here was no beer left, since they were closing. Strangely enough, they were all drinking beer. I looked around if there was anything else I'd like to drink, but all I could find was potato chips. There were potato chips everywhere! And that's how the dream ended.

Dream two:
I can't remember a lot about this dream. Each friday night I'm leading a scouting group with about 14 boys and girls. It's a lot of fun and because I was at the scouting the whole evening, I dreamed about it.
I was doing some scouting related activities. With or without the children, I can't really remember. And when the children were gone, everyone was drinking a few beers (as usual). But not me, I had my parents' car with me so I wasn't allowed to drink. I like driving around, so it didn't bother me.

At the end of the night, my parents were there as well. They told me that I didn't have to drive the car, because they'd take it. All I remember next was that I was seriously pissed off at them. I really wanted to drive and it was a seriously big problem for me that I couldn't. I was really really angry (I'm almost never angry in waking life, especially not over something like this). And that's all I remember.

This is the first time I wrote down my dreams after waking up. I'm new to Lucid dreaming, meditating and the whole Dream Views community and I'm very excited to get started. I promised myself to start a dream journal to improve my dream recall. I'm also trying to DILD and WBTB WILD. Over the past several weeks I've tried to WILD in the beginning of the evening, not knowing that it was an uphill battle. They turned out to become meditation sessions where my limbs got numb and I felt waves of energy, but no Sleep Paralysis.

When I woke up, I was able to recall three dreams. After writing the first one down, I forgot about the third one (in which I thought I was lucid). The other two are non-lucid.

Dream one
I had a moped of some sort and, although I don't know how they work, I drove to a friend of mine in Tilburg (a city in the Netherlands). I didn't want to ring the bell for some reason, but after waiting a few seconds I didn't have to anyways. It was pretty busy, there were a lot of decadent people there. It looked like some kind of party. A woman holding a big bunch of flowers was let into the building, I followed her inside.

I noticed that I was at the wrong house. My best friend lived here in my dreams, but he had moved away. (I've never seen the house awake). I looked around and noticed that his room (as well as other rooms) was completely demolished. There now was a very big amount of space inside the house and it looked like they were creating a theater out of it. I walked trough the construction site and went back outside trough an open wall to my moped. I drove off to the new location.

The new location was another friends house. I had trouble parking the moped since I didn't know how to put it away safely. I fiddled with the buttons and handles and at one point just took the keys and went inside the house. My friend and his girlfriend were there and his room was HUGE. There was a lot of space, but also a lot of clutter. It looked like his rooms was used as a storage room as well. As I walked trough the rooms and admired it, we talked for a bit. At one point I noticed the huge windows and joked that they would be awesome to have sex against. My friend thought that they wouldn't hold that.

At this point my best friend (from the first house) appeared together with an unknown and very ugly girl. She was hideous. I can't really remember what exactly happened, but at one point the girl was partially undressing herself, which I didn't really want to see. I felt rather uncomfortable and thought that I was interrupting something. As I was about to leave, my best friend told me he thought he would get laid. He looked pretty unsure about it, but also looked happy. I was glad for him and assumed that they would have some weird kind of four-way. I didn't want to be part of that, nor see it. So I said goodbye and drove off on my moped.

I'm amazed by the details I remembered when I woke up. As I was writing this down, more and more parts came back to me. I didn't know that I was able to do this at all. It's awesome!

Dream two
I'm in my hometown, a few streets away from my parents' house. The town has grown a lot from what it looks like in the waking life. There are a lot of new buildings, the industrial area has grown a lot. In the distance there is a huge highway about 15 meters above the ground (I've been there in previous dreams). And there is an abandoned railway track over there where an accident has happened. A train wreck containing nuclear waste is standing there, making it unsafe to go there.

I notice that a bunch of kids are playing on a busy road. It's rather dangerous and I'm worried that something might happen. I shout to one of them to warn them. The boy looks at me and at the same time almost gets run over by a car. The other kids are running trough gardens and piss off the elderly owners of that garden. Not because they're bad kids, but because there's no place for them to play around.

I stop and start to think about a place for them to play safely without pissing other people off. At first I can't think of any places. In a previous dream I noticed that there was a lot of room under the highway up ahead. The highway was at least 15 meters high, so the place underneath it was abandoned. But due to the train wreck with the nuclear waste, it probably wasn't a good idea to send the kids there. Some other places crossed my mind, but they were also unsafe. Finally I thought of two placed where I used to skateboard as a kid. I told the kids about them, but warned them that a lot of people park their cars there. At this point my dream faded.

There was a third dream, in which I thought I was lucid, but it was very vague and I can't remember it.