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Plan schedule is posted here: https://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/ilu...proving-95975/
With blue color I marked goals with "working in progress" status
With green color I marked reached goals
With red color I marked failed, missed or deleyed goals
G2g - Goal-to-goal
PoA - Point of Awarness
PoA' - Corrected Point of Awarness
(More about g2g and PoA here: https://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/ilu...warness-96103/)


I see my progress is slow. That's good because I belive the slow progress make long-term benefits. Also this project is my first time when I'm systematic with my dreaming hobby for so long time. That satisfy me.


Dream Recalling
Only one day without any remembered dream. Feelings in dreams are a little bit more complex and somtimes I think I'm close to get lucid dream only by self awarness. Also my ability to restoring forgotten dreams is higher.

Week 7
Avarage dream memory - 2 dreams per day
Max dream memory - 5 dreams
Min dream memory - 0 dreams


Recalling at beginning: 0-1 at good quality and/or 0-3 at any quality
Goal: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-6 at any quality
Month 1: 0-1 at good quality and/or 0-3 at any quality
Month 2: 1 at good quality and/or 1-3 at any quality
Month 3: 1-2 at good quality and/or 2-4 at any quality
Month 4: 2 at good quality and/or 3-5 at any quality
Month 5: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-5 at any quality
Month 6: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-6 at any quality

Meditation
Sometimes during meditation I'm so relaxed that I'm getting sleepy. Once or twice I got even halfdream during this 7 minutes of meditation (I'm meditate in seiza position)

Goals: 2x20 minutes
Month 1: 2x5 minutes
Month 2: 2x7minutes
Month 3: 2x10 minutes
Month 4: 2x12 minutes
Month 5: 2x15 minutes
Month 6: 2x20 minutes

Day awarness
Nothing special to report

Week 7
Correction factor - 0.68
Points of Awareness - 61.5 PoA per day

Goal: Reach “very high awarness” level
Month 1: “Non-zero” (> 0 PoA)
Month 2: “Occasionally” (> 48 PoA and correction > 0.40)
Month 3: “Low awarness” (> 144 PoA and corr. > 0.45)
Month 4: “Moderate awarness” (> 240 PoA and corr. > 0.50)
Month 5: “High awarness” (> 336 PoA and corr. > 0.55)
Month 6: “Very high awarness” (> 432 PoA and corr. > 0.60)

Plan schedule is posted here: https://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/ilu...proving-95975/
With blue color I marked goals with "working in progress" status
With green color I marked reached goals
With red color I marked failed, missed or deleyed goals
G2g - Goal-to-goal
PoA - Point of Awarness
PoA' - Corrected Point of Awarness
(More about g2g and PoA here: https://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/ilu...warness-96103/)


Dream Recalling
Nothing special to report. Dream memory is a little bit better and more stable than last time.

Week 5
Avarage dream memory - 2.8 dreams per day
Max dream memory - 5 dreams
Min dream memory - 0 dreams

Week 6
Awarage dream memory - 1.5 dreams per day
Max dream memory - 3 dreams
Min dreams memory - 1 dream (but forgotten before I wrote DJ entry in scratchpad)

Recalling at beginning: 0-1 at good quality and/or 0-3 at any quality
Goal: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-6 at any quality
Month 1: 0-1 at good quality and/or 0-3 at any quality
Month 2: 1 at good quality and/or 1-3 at any quality
Month 3: 1-2 at good quality and/or 2-4 at any quality
Month 4: 2 at good quality and/or 3-5 at any quality
Month 5: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-5 at any quality
Month 6: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-6 at any quality

Meditation
Nothing special to report

Goals: 2x20 minutes
Month 1: 2x5 minutes
Month 2: 2x7minutes
Month 3: 2x10 minutes
Month 4: 2x12 minutes
Month 5: 2x15 minutes
Month 6: 2x20 minutes

Day awarness
Keeping waking awareness is easier than before but still I need working with my memory because it is very common when I just forget about my awarness xD This is why I added correction factor (or as you prefer - efficiency) as second goal for ADA. Also I see my general memory is a little bit better than before. And I pay more attention for details in my environment

Week 5
Correction factor - 0.45
Points of Awareness - 44.7 PoA per day

Week 6
Correction factor - 0.45
Point of Awareness - 84.6 PoA per day

Goal: Reach “very high awarness” level
Month 1: “Non-zero” (> 0 PoA)
Month 2: “Occasionally” (> 48 PoA and correction > 0.40)
Month 3: “Low awarness” (> 144 PoA and corr. > 0.45)
Month 4: “Moderate awarness” (> 240 PoA and corr. > 0.50)
Month 5: “High awarness” (> 336 PoA and corr. > 0.55)
Month 6: “Very high awarness” (> 432 PoA and corr. > 0.60)

Plan schedule is posted here: https://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/ilu...proving-95975/
With blue color I marked goals with "working in progress" status
With green color I marked reached goals
With red color I marked failed, missed or deleyed goals
G2g - Goal-to-goal
PoA - Point of Awarness
PoA' - Corrected Point of Awarness
(More about g2g and PoA here: https://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/ilu...warness-96103/)


Dream Recalling
In this two weeks I started writing down my dreams but I don't have many of them. Good news is my dreams are starting to be much more aware (but not lucid) and recalling is slighty better. I call this "High Aware Non-Lucid Dream" (HANLD)
Funny thing is once I was aware of my own snoring. Saddly it didn't make me lucid.

Recalling at beginning: 0-1 at good quality and/or 0-3 at any quality
Goal: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-6 at any quality
Month 1: 0-1 at good quality and/or 0-3 at any quality
Month 2: 1 at good quality and/or 1-3 at any quality
Month 3: 1-2 at good quality and/or 2-4 at any quality
Month 4: 2 at good quality and/or 3-5 at any quality
Month 5: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-5 at any quality
Month 6: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-6 at any quality

Meditation
Nothing special to report

Goals: 2x20 minutes
Month 1: 2x5 minutes
Month 2: 2x7minutes
Month 3: 2x10 minutes
Month 4: 2x12 minutes
Month 5: 2x15 minutes
Month 6: 2x20 minutes

Day awarness
My goal-to-goal system made me aware how difficult ADA is. It is not a problem with being disciplined nor motivated. The big deal is with awarness by it self. I can regulary come back to ADA but I can't keep my awarness more than 2-3 minutes. It really piss me off, but now I know where is my problem and that mean I can try to fix it.
Also I thought about g2g system and PoA and I think it is good system but I need to make correction factor to make PoA more accurate. More about goal-to-goal and Points of Awarness I will write in second DJ entry.


Goal: Reach “very high awarness” level
]Month 1: “Non-zero” (> 0 PoA)
Month 2: “Occasionally” (> 48 PoA)
Month 3: “Low awarness” (> 144 PoA)
Month 4: “Moderate awarness” (> 240 PoA)
Month 5: “High awarness” (> 336 PoA)
Month 6: “Very high awarness” (> 432 PoA)

To make everything in order and easy to read I decided to write seperate entry what "goal-to-goal" and "Point of Awarness" are. So if somebody start read my "6 month plan" entries in middle it is not nessesery to read every prev entry for better understanding.

Goal-to-goal - It mean I'm not trying to be aware all time on waking day. I splitted ADA for smaller parts - "from goal to goal". Every single activity have start and end. So if I decided to be aware during that activity I know how much time I was aware. And more importat - if I lose my awarness I can estimate when I lost it

Poit of Awarness (PoA) - It is Time of ADA Session multipling via Difficulty Factor
Difficulty Factor (D/F) is as follow:
Automatic activities (like walking, daydreaming or anything else that doesn't requires my attention so I can keep my mind clear) - 0.5
Regular activities (meditation, chit-chat with other people or anything that requires normal level of my attention) - 1.0
Distracting activities (Watching film, plying games, studying or any other distracting activities) - 1.5
During my ADA session I discovered that my awarness isn't "pure". I'm able to keep my attention for few minutes and after that my mind drift off for next few minutes. That mean my True Awarness isn't equal with ADA session. That forced me to create "Correction Factor"
Correction Factor (C/F)
It is estimenting twice per week (it will be monday and thuseday). In this time I will make accurate meansurment during series of very short (circa 5-10 minutes) ADA session. For example - If my series are:
6 minutes of aware per 10 min of session
3 minutes of aware per 10 min of session
5 minutes of aware per 10 min of session
4 minutes of aware per 10 min of session
4 minutes of aware per 10 min of session
5 minutes of aware per 10 min of session
That mean my correction is 0.45 (because 27/60)
Corrected Point of Awarness (PoA') - It is PoA multipling via Correction.
I think using C/F is a little bit to harsh on my level so I will use PoA and C/F as seperate values and seperate goals.

Why it is important to me?
Because it is much more easier for managment. I don't need to think "how much I was aware" and I don't need to be scary if my subjective feelings are accurate or not. Even if my calculation are not 100% accurate, I have fixed procedures and I can compare my results

Plan schedule is posted here: https://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/ilu...proving-95975/
With blue color I marked goals with "working in progress" status
With green color I marked reached goals
With red color I marked failed, missed or deleyed goals



Dream Recalling
In this week I wrote down 2 dreams and 0 tags, that mean in this section I messed up.

Recalling at beginning: 0-1 at good quality and/or 0-3 at any quality
Goal: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-6 at any quality
Month 1: 0-1 at good quality and/or 0-3 at any quality
Month 2: 1 at good quality and/or 1-3 at any quality
Month 3: 1-2 at good quality and/or 2-4 at any quality
Month 4: 2 at good quality and/or 3-5 at any quality
Month 5: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-5 at any quality
Month 6: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-6 at any quality

Meditation
In this section I feel good progress. I established meditation habit very fast, and I dont even need to push myself. I just want to meditate

Goals: 2x20 minutes
Month 1: 2x5 minutes
Month 2: 2x7minutes
Month 3: 2x10 minutes
Month 4: 2x12 minutes
Month 5: 2x15 minutes
Month 6: 2x20 minutes

Day awarness
Similar like in meditation section - everything is acording to plan. Also I think it is better to change rating system. It's much easier if I will split ADA into smaller parts. I call this "goal-to-goal system". Keeping awarness as long as possible is doomed to failure. Instead I keep awarness to designited moments (goals). If I reach goal I recive "Point of Awarness" (PoA) and I will set next goal. The goals should to be clearly defined and easy to remember(e.g if I'm reading, the goal should be like "until I reach page XYZ". If I'm running on treadmill, my goal should be like "until I pass XYZ kilometers". Goal should be clearly as much as possible). Also 1 PoA is equivalent of 1 minute of regular ADA session so I can judge how much PoA I will recive after reaching goal. Additional I think I can add "dificultness factor". Awarness is much easier to keep during walk than during studying or reading so PoA is determined by time AND activity.
Automatically activity (walking, being idle, simple jobs etc) x0.5 PoA
Regular activity (talking, meditating, gym excercices etc) x1.0 PoA
Distracting activity (learning, reading, watching movies, playing games etc) x1.5 PoA

Still I need to think about it so officialy (in my raports) I'm still using old system. If you have any ideas go ahead. Commentary section is free to use

Goal: Reach “very high awarness” level
Month 1: “Non-zero” (awarnes uptime > 0% of waking time)
Month 2: “Occasionally” (awarness uptime 5-15%)
Month 3: “Low awarness” (awarness uptime 15-25%)
Month 4: “Moderate awarness” (awarness uptime 25-35%)
Month 5: “High awarness” (awarness uptime 35-45%)
Month 6: “Very high awarness” (uptime 45-60%)




After this 2 weeks I can say something is happeing. I have much more halfdreams before I fall asleep than ussually. And my mind is keeping partial awarness by itself in that half dreams. For example I had half dream about someone ask me to bring something and I had thoughts "Why? I'm not even here (because right now I'm laying in bed so of course I cannot be in other place)". Sometimes I have arguing with myself xD My half sleeping brain is generating weird thoughts and my partial awarness is fighting back. It looks funny for me but saddly it make me harder to fall asleep because always I wake up after realize I'm in half dream

I came onboard 05.07 instead of 04.07 so I have 1 day on delay but it’s okay. In this port we have a lot of working so I’m sleeping when I can but we departure today. The good news is my watch keeping time in ports are 08-12 and 20-24. I have 4h of working and 8h of resting (if there is no extraordinary work) so I can try with WILD/DILD (I already know that 4h of working is good for LD during naps). On voyage my working time is 08-12 and 13-17 if there is no extraordinary work. At 12 I have lunch, and planned meditation. I will dont nap because usually I have circa 35 minutes for resting and this is not enough to fall asleep.

In this three days my plan is going rough. I meditated twice, and I have dream tags from one night but I’m taking it easy. This and next week I treat as warming up

Yesterday I made nap with WILD intention. As anchor I used history podcast about soviet BTR armored vechicle. I entered in to dream after 30 minutes of lying in bed and for first seconds it wasn't so obvious for me if i'm already in dream or not. I didn't experience hipnagogs nor paralyze. Ofc I felt a little bit different that usual but I would not call this hipnagogs. Anyway when this weird feeling stop then I opened my eyes.

LD
I woke up in my bed. Nothing special for first look so I just stand up and I made positive RC. "Nice" I thought, but what to do? My bad I didn't prepare any plan for LD so my ad-hoc idea was to explore my inner senses. I mean how I'm feeling my own body in dream.
In first part I was changing my haircuts and I checked it in mirror every time. My face looked normal and I felt my new haircut like in real life as well. After few minutes I woke up but it was FA so I made another positive RC.
In second part I was focused how I feel myself with new clothes. My wear was really nice in touching. Despite my experience was similar like in real life I really was enjoyed. Usually I feel pain in my LDs if my touch sense is working.
In entire dream I was in hurry. I tried to do everything as fast as possible. In second part of my dream I told to myself „It is pointless to be hurry because it is stressing me. I have no power to make my dream longer so if my dream will end that’s okay. No more rush, only peace can help me”

04.07.23 I'm going on vessel to work so I prepared plan how I wish to improve my skills. Because of inregular sleep schedule I decided to focus on side skills instead of techniques. That include:
-Dream recall
-Meditation
-ADA and general walking awarness
-Last and first thought recall
-First awarness after waking up

I will try to write down weekly report in DJ. It's depend of my internet connection but I think this will be not big problem. Also i'm open minded so if you have some advice go ahead

Dream recalling
I will full describe one dream and rest of dreams will be write down via tags. I will write down dreams 5 times in week to prevent myselft from burnout and colidation with my duties.

Recalling at beginning: 0-1 at good quality and/or 0-3 at any quality
Goal: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-6 at any quality
Month 1: 0-1 at good quality and/or 0-3 at any quality
Month 2: 1 at good quality and/or 1-3 at any quality
Month 3: 1-2 at good quality and/or 2-4 at any quality
Month 4: 2 at good quality and/or 3-5 at any quality
Month 5: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-5 at any quality
Month 6: 2-3 at good quality and/or 4-6 at any quality

Score is calculating via arithmetic mean in week period.


Meditation
I will meditate twice per day - after lunch and before sleeping. I will meditate 5 days in week. Reason is the same like in Dream Recalling section

Goals: 2x20 minutes
Month 1: 2x5 minutes
Month 2: 2x7minutes
Month 3: 2x10 minutes
Month 4: 2x12 minutes
Month 5: 2x15 minutes
Month 6: 2x20 minutes


ADA and general day awarness
I will try to be aware as much as possible. Because I can be aware independently from my activites so there is no excuses and I will practice ADA everyday.
My dreamsign is night (or darkness) so also I relate my “Hukif’s Hook” with awarness of daytime.

Goal: Reach “very high awarness” level
Month 1: “Non-zero” (awarnes uptime > 0% of waking time)
Month 2: “Occasionally” (awarness uptime 5-15%)
Month 3: “Low awarness” (awarness uptime 15-25%)
Month 4: “Moderate awarness” (awarness uptime 25-35%)
Month 5: “High awarness” (awarness uptime 35-45%)
Month 6: “Very high awarness” (uptime 45-60%)

Of course this will be very subjectively. I have no device to meansure my awarness level



Last and first thought recall
This is my experimental exercise. It is working in the same way like dream recalling but instead of dream I will force mayself to recalling last remembered moment before falling asleep and first moment after waking up. The goal of this exercise is observe border in memory between reality and dream.

Because this is experimental and non-offical exercise I have no goals.


First awarness after waking up
Goal of this exercise is decreasing time what I need to aware myself after waking up.

Tonight I didn't slept well. Maybe 2h of shallow sleep so at day I was very tired. I decided to make 40 min of nap and still I had problem with falling asleep. I slept maybe 10 minutes and when alarm clock woke me up then I decide to stay in bed for longer. Today I had nothing to do so I didn't care. I fell asleep without any problems this time. And I remembered one dream

Dream #1
I woke up in my room. Nothing special happened but I used my foot to pick up some plastic item from box (that box doesn't exist in reality). That item looked like some kind of smartphone/camera holder. I imagineted that I can use this holder to create "dragon ball-styled head computer" (like here https://static1.thegamerimages.com/w...-Over-9000.png ). I put piece of cardboard for meansurments. That cardboard was imitating computer screen and I was checking how much view field it is blocking.
I recognize something weird. I can see through that cardboard. I blink my non-blocked eye for check this and I was right - I can see through cardboard. But in weird way because I was able to see only static elements of my environment If I moved my hand I didin't see my hand. "It looked like my mind memorised my room so much that I can see it, but I'm unable to see moving dynamic objects" I thought. Also my vision through that cardboard was in poor quality "Maybe i'm in dream?" But for some reason I didn't made RC. Next I went out of my room and checked myself in mirror. My face looked pretty normal, nothing special but still I was able to see through cardboard. "Weird" I said

In that dream I was very focused on my vision perception. I'm sure I was close to LD

Today I didn't slept well. I needed 3-4h to fall asleep and I slept shallow. Also I woke up few times in night. Probably because of air temperature (I dunno how much it was but I had opened window, working fan and was sleeping uncovered) and because of change in sleep time (normally I'm sleeping between 4-12 am but today and tomorow I have classes so I need to wake up much early)

DF 1#
I was child in unspecific primary school. Teacher wasn't glad because of me so she went to talk with my parents about my behavior. My mother gave me detention for something (I dont remember). Next I was driving a car and someone was trying to kidnap me but unsuccessful so I bet with kidnapers (I dont remember what was bet) so if I will win I will get they car and they never appear here again, if they will win then they get my car. I won

DF 1#
I was in my garden at evening, sky was cloudy. I don't remember what I was doing but I was with my familiy members. I remember I was dreaming about getting Lucid Dream.

Dream #2
I was on small vessel around 100m of length during big storm at night. Ocean waves broke our ship in half so captain call abandon the vessel alarm. I wanted enter to bridge, but chief officer stopped me.
-What are you doing? We are abandon the vessel!
-I left inside my laptop, I just go pick up my computer and I will be ready!
-No! Go to lifeboat!
-Please I have important documents inside
-I said no!
I was thinking about asking captain for permission but I gave up. I reminded I have second laptop I can pick up. Also I was afraid that because of heavy waves that laptop fell down from table. I run to check it and I was right - my broken laptop was lying on floor. Cover of laptop broke apart and some piece of electronics was lying near to that laptop. I started to collect parts of my computer when I saw weird device connected to my computer via USB. It was 1-2 meter long purple cable with 3 balls on the end. Because I didn't had time and I didn't knew what it is I grab this device and hide it in my pocket.
When I was leaving with my broken computer something happened to other seafarer. He was unconscious so we evacuate him to deck lower. During waiting for rescue helicopter I saw his leg was missing, and his face was red, swollen and full of blood. Also he had cervical collar on his neck.
Scenery of dream changed. Now I was in unspecific place as helicopter pilot. Piloting was very difficult so I decide to land. I don't remember what was later but I know dream was much longer.

I was in my garden and I was searching for powdered paprika. It took some time and I didn't found it instead I found some spice mix that contains what I wanted. It was in yellow-green paper pack. For some reason I forget that it should be paprika and that mix contains tomato. Next I went to my pot. Water with meat and vegetables was boiling. I add some random spices and that spice mix with tomato.
Scenery of dream changed. I was with my friend somewhere I dont know where. My friend invited me to sex party but I refused. Next my view was a little bit diffrent because my POV was switching between place when I was and some auction website. On the end of dream I was start recognizing that something isn't right. My POV was locked on this website and I started to wonder why I cannot see place where I'm with my friend.

My dreams was long and I was remembering them all when I woke up, but in few seconds I lost almost entire memories. Weird feeling when I literally see like my memories are burning and on the end I have only ashes xD Anyway I will try to restore memories as much as possible

DF 1#
All place in that dream was fictional. My home, school, outside space. Especially school. I remember big main chamber that looked like circle and it had classes door around. I remember that I and my friends we were trying to hide something. Not a physical thing it was something... more abstract like property or idea of something. Anyway we wnted to keep this as secret and teacher was close to discover that.
Entire dream was dark so I think it was night.

DF 2#

[I was so absorbed to remind DF1 that I completely forgot what was here]

DF 3#
The best remembered dream from today. I was about 500m from my home on crossroad. Suddenly i got SMS on my phone. It was about changes in traffic light and road sing system. I saw colors on traffic lights were reversed. Someone was walking with his son and they was confused about it. I told them about my SMS and father thank me for that information. Next I saw green roadsing background changed it color to yellow (the sings started to look more like in germany). I was very suprised so I made reality check. I even told to myself "It must to be dream" but my RC was false. "Really? It is a reality? Oh... okay".

DF 4#
I was on walk with my dad. I dint remember what happened here

Today I remembered 1 dream in good quality. Sadly my planned wbtb (and remaining 2h of my sleep) was interrupted by my parent.

Dream #1
I don't remember the beginning of dream. I was riding on my bicycle near my allotment garden. It was middle of day, probably spring or summer. Good weather, sky almost clear. I stopped on main road side but I don't remember why. I know I was thinking about something. Next I continued my bike trip and after 200-300m I turned right on the nearest road cross. In my real life there is rails and train station but this time I passed car park first. Some damaged or destroyed bikes grabbed my attention, one of them - blue roadbike - had missing rear wheel. I started to think why people are leaving bikes here (and I think this is point where I was near to get LD) but I ignore the bikes. Next I reach the train station. I passed railway and I saw trashed bike wheel in bush. I came to this wheel and I took a look. "The gear is damaged but entire wheel is in good condition. I will take it and repair in home". At this point I reminded that blue bike with missing wheel. I was sure this wheel was from that bike. "I will take bike as well. It will be easy to repair"

Today nothing specjal, just dream Fragment

I was waiting with my friends in school for exam. Someone tried to check porn on my computer. Also I remember part of this dream was in hospital. I was in corridor and I was talking with random patient