Geves

August 15th, 2006

A remarkable time. Most of what i can remember took place in some sort of camper. But it seemed to be fairly isolated from the rest of the world. With the exception of a parking garage being about 2 miles from it, for some crazy reason.

The most wonderful part of it. Were two sisters. I don't recall them at all from my waking life. But they were the most attractive women I've ever seen. They were both pale skinned (not in an unhealthy way). With Red hair. Not the natural color of red hair, more like the brunette or blond who dyed their hair, so it had a real darkish hue to it.

Anyways, my friend Garth was there. But it seemed that he was with one of the sisters & I was with the other. But i wanted to be with the one garth was with. She denied me. Oh well. She never really denied me, but it was more like as if "it would be wrong", seems to have some sort of symbolism. To me and Garth';s sister.

The dream ended abruptly with no warning. I recall i had no real control over the dream, but my actions seemed to have been dictated by my personality. Because i could not and still don't object to any of the actions that took place. So i most defiantly did not have any free will.

Between my Meditation & my dreams, they all recently seem to have some sort of sexual design. I have no idea what sexual desires in a dream setting are to be interpreted as.

I can tell. that sense i started to make a conscience effort to recall my dreams. That i am able to recall them more often, already. I've only tried to really recall my dreams since i started this dream journal. So judging from the amount of time I've been doing this. I would have to say I'm making good progress. Hopefully the longer that i recall my dreams & write in my journal, the more I'll be able to recall in full. So far though i am satisfied with the results.

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Meditation Well. it seems i'm slowing down on this side. Since my sexual visions, i've been reluctant to meditate at any pace. it's almost as if i have hit a brick wall and now my gas pedal doesn't work properly.
So in order to make up for the lack of meditation. I've been researching various Meditation techniques concerning religion. Such as the views of some Christians, whom believe that meditation is an evil practice. Despite figure written in the New & Old Testament, who practiced such things (meditation). This has been a problem & debated upon heavily since the early 70s when meditation started to get a reasonable push stateside. Of course christian churches knew nothing about it, just as they do the same today.

Seems to me (not to sound jaded) but it seems as if the church worries less and less about spiritual refinement, if it means that another will find abundance in self-knowledge without the church itself filtering the information. Yet another reason that organized religion seems like a double-edged sword in my eyes. Oh well to each their own.

My findings : It seems a deity of any kind fits in perfectly for meditation. If you simply substitute your mantra, for your deity. So far... there doesn't seem to be any problems with organized religion & meditation of any kind. Except for the usual closed mindedness that seem to follow any religion that has it's share of fanatics.

I'll continue to do research until, I have a few days off. So i can properly dedicate my self to its practice and have enough time to sift through all that ills me.