memorable

9.16.14

Dream happend on 9.15.14, while sleeping over at friends house.

DR: I'm walking around a place that looks like my mom's place. Her kitchen is there for sure, only longer. Adjacent hallway is similar, but everything is bigger.

So as I'm walking throught the place, I sence evil presense. I feel wind around me, but only I feel it. My unbuttoned shirt is filling up with air and flapping in the wind. It's not a good wind. It's the presense.

There is one person there and suddenly I see the look of horror on her? face and she? is backing away from me. I'm like "wth"? I walk to the mirror and I see myself looking exactly as I do IWL. I'm kinda scared to look, expecting devil horns to show on my head. But as i look, there are no horns. I see my head and torso and I'm wearing my red shirt. But my face starts to very slowly morph into one that looks more male. I remember thinking "oh, so devil is male". I was starting to get scared and woke up.

9/9/14

Last night bed midnight 5:30

Nap around 8 -11:30 tried to WILD but nothing : (

DR:

I'm at some place, with someone. Packing things to leave after stay. There is a man and a woman that live there. We are kinda escaping, but we don't want them to know that we know their secret. So they dont turn violent.

I'm telling everybody that we are going to the train station and they are ready to help us carry our bags. But then I realize my car is there and we could take it. They get mad "why did I want them to walk then"?

We are outside and I'm eating a dish from last night's episode of Master chef. The nicoise salad. Only instead of seared tuna, there is a big piece of bacon. I cut it with knife and it's so soft. I put it in my mouth and it tastes salty and yummy.

I just remembered last part:

There are 3-5 black blobs on the ground. Someone tells me that they do evolve into something scary and evil. I feel a change in atmosphere and a nightmare coming on. I'm thinking I wanna stay there and see that. As I think that, one starts to grow. Someone is warning me that it's gonna be really scary, like SUPER scary, coz it's gonna be like this evil body thrashing on the ground in freaky manner.

I'm thinking yeah, I'll be probably pissing my pants, but I also KNOW that I'll be standing my ground and it can't hurt me and I will prevail over it.

As soon as I think that, it evolves into a body thrashing on the ground, looking at me, all shiny black and evil, doing it's best to scare me. I'm scared, but I know I am stronger and I will win, no matter what.


Man, I just love my badass subC. My best pal.

8/24/14

Last night bed around 10pm - 4:45am

No recall, only feeling of good dreams.

After work unintended nap. I layed down on my traveling sofa to try an remote view. Fell asleep. Had a long and detailed dream. (After waking up, little later I recalled saying in a dream: "wow this lucid is kinda long")

I'm walking down a street with 2 other people. Suddenly there is only 2 of us. We wonder where we lost the 3rd one. I offer to go and look by remote viewing. I project my awareness out of my body and I feel a zooming sensation towards the last known location of the person. I feel a "transition" sensation in my head. I come to the location, see the person, and then I'm thinking how in the heck am I gonna get back to my body and tell the other person what I saw.

Next thing I know I'm back and I'm telling my friend that the person is just behind the corner, coming towards us.

In a dream, I have superpowers. I'm changing things just by thinking it. Large peace of paper hanging from a ceiling changed to a map, then map of something. Someone wanted a ruler, so I reached for it and mede it come to my hand by telekinesis, then I made it stretch towards the person asking for it so he can reach.

I wanted to make it snow. So I started gathering dark clouds, when I woke up. Btw, all this was happening in my mom's kitchen.

I was thinking yesterday and today about visiting my home in previous incarnation. Then at work, I read Astral travel for beginners and one cahpter was about "mind travels", which is remote viewing. Then as I layed down on my sofa, I tried to remote view.

8/23/14

had dreams, and good feeling from them, but no recall.

Something interesting happened today at work though.

[20:45] <@gab> have you had past life regression done, omkar ?
[20:46] <OmkAR> no, but i asked to see my past lives in a lucid dream once
[20:46] <@gab> have you?
[20:46] <OmkAR> and i was about to teleport to my past life . . and some guy grabbed me out of nowhere and said "YOU DOn'T WANT TO DO THAT YOURSELF RIGHT NOW MIKE"
[20:46] <OmkAR> and then i was all spooked out ever since
[20:46] <OmkAR> er do that too youreslf
[20:46] <@gab> oh lol, damn DC
[20:47] <@gab> or was he?!?
[20:47] <OmkAR> it was a strange vibe though, i was thinking maybe . .. geeze, what happend to me in my past life
[20:47] == OpheliaBlue [[email protected]] has joined #DVLounge
[20:47] == mode/#DVLounge [+o OpheliaBlue] by DreamBot
[20:47] <@gab> hey OpheliaBlue
[20:47] <@gab> I'm sure you had good ones and bad ones
[20:48] <OmkAR> maybe i was gangbanged in medieval times
[20:48] <OmkAR> u never know
[20:49] <@gab> would that be a good one or the bad one?
[20:49] <@gab> 0_0
[20:49] <OmkAR> in medieval times .. probably bad
[20:49] <OmkAR> lol
[20:49] <@gab> hehe
[20:49] <OmkAR> oh OpheliaBlue is here
[20:49] <@gab> I just had a weird experience at work today
[20:49] <OmkAR> we were just discussing being gangbanged in our past lives
[20:50] <@gab> she not talking, so maybe she is not here
[20:50] <OmkAR> did you get a de ja vu
[20:50] <@OpheliaBlue> sorry, comp ran out of juice while I was watching Divergent
[20:50] <@gab> I got more than that
[20:50] <@OpheliaBlue> some big lucid and shared dreaming themes in that movie
[20:50] <OmkAR> Divergent is out
[20:50] <@gab> oh she is here
[20:50] <@gab> so I'll tell you some other times omkar
[20:50] <@OpheliaBlue> almost over, brb
[20:50] <@OpheliaBlue> !brb
[20:50] == OpheliaBlue has changed nick to OpheliaBlue|BRB
[20:50] <OmkAR> oh ya DIVERGENT
[20:50] <OmkAR> i watched that
[20:51] <OmkAR> it was 100x better than hunger games
[20:51] <@gab> didn't see either
[20:52] <@gab> so omkar, you gonna be here for 5 more mins?
[20:52] <OmkAR> ya
[20:52] <@gab> I was at work and doing my stuff and thinking about this japanese warrior female mismagius told me about
[20:52] <@gab> tomoe gozen
[20:53] <@gab> and why I kinda identify with her
[20:53] <@gab> and with my sig picture of a warrior
[20:53] <@gab> and decided to change my usertitle so something reflecting the worrior thing
[20:54] <@gab> and that moment I just started crying out of the blue
[20:54] <@gab> I had to leave the room to collect myself
[20:54] <@gab> just the strongest feeling of something with past life warrior
[20:55] <@gab> no clue what to make of it
[20:55] <@gab> and add my frequent dreams of being a leader of some freedom fighters
[20:55] <OmkAR> oh weird
[20:56] <@gab> I never felt anything like it
[20:56] <@gab> as if I just connected with something
[20:56] <OmkAR> could be legit, u should try a TELEPORT to your old 'home'
[20:56] <@gab> I will do that
[20:56] <@gab> I wanna know so bad
[20:56] <OmkAR> i had these weird experience in the astral once, i saw this old log house, looked like it was from medival times
[20:57] <OmkAR> there was straw beds
[20:57] <OmkAR> and the feeeelings i got being there were sooooo strong
[20:57] <OmkAR> i USED to LIVE THERE
[20:57] <OmkAR> sleep there everynight
[20:57] <@gab> oh wow
[20:57] <OmkAR> kinda feeeling, it was reallly intense
[20:57] <OmkAR> and scary too
[20:57] <@gab> this feeling was so strong, not preceded by any warning or thought
[20:57] <OmkAR> trying to imagine how . .. it was . .. just a straw bed like that, stone/wooden walls
[20:57] <OmkAR> i mean, no books or computers
[20:58] <OmkAR> just RAW
[20:58] <OmkAR> raw living
[20:58] <OmkAR> nostalgic feeeelings
[20:58] <PKJacker> Sounds pretty interesting
[20:58] <@gab> I now what you mean, omkar
[20:58] <@gab> since today, I do
[20:58] <OmkAR> ya i never had that in waking life though
[20:58] <@gab> I see
[20:58] <OmkAR> that's interesting you did
[20:58] <OmkAR> ive only had that on the other side
[20:59] <@gab> I was cutting strawberries at work, like a ton of them, so my mind kinda wandered away
[20:59] <@gab> and the thought of tomoe gozen, spartan warrior and MAKING IT MY NAME
[20:59] <@gab> something clicked
[21:00] <@gab> started crying and I'm like "wth"?
[21:01] <@gab> insane

7/3/14

Last night bed 1:30am, same as night before. Got up at 6:40am.

WBTB 6:40 - 8am. Got up from WILD nap at 10am.

I knew nap is going to be a good one. Got relaxed in matter of minutes. Cats were asleep and I was at the gates of a LD. Then my cat jumped on me and layed on me for a few minutes. I didn't let that bother me one bit. I was incredibly excited and played out scenarios I would like to dream about. So many cool ones.

Not sure how I got lucid, if WILD or DILD.

LD:
I'm in a place with some people. I look down and I'm in underwear and a bra. I quickly pull off the undies, while saying sorry to those around and telling them that I'm on a mission.

Next I'm in a long hallway. It's rather narrow, like maybe on a ship. But we are not on a ship. Doors made out of shiny lighter colored wood are lining the hall on both sides.

I decide to go door by door and find someone, so I can undress. First door has a female in. I realize this is doctors offices and doors have patients behind them waiting for the doctor. I quickly close the door.

Next door has 2 skinny people with body piercings. I can't tell if male or female. I'm hoping at least one is male. Not sure why I'm thinking I should undress only in front of males.

Another door has a person with blond hair, sitting in a chair facing away from me. I say hi in hope it will turn around and I can see if male or female.

Next door has a freaky huge machine in it, which I recognize as Iron lungs. I quickly close the door.

Next is an x-ray room, or some lab, with lots of females in white coat. I don't find this room suitable either.

Finally, there is a lonely male leaning against a door. I ask him to help me take my bra off. He is doing it with one hand and I praise him for being a pro. Dream cutts off here.

Dream ended and restarted many times. I remember lots of transitions.
1. Just a regular restart
2. I'm rolling out, fall on my knees and I'm thinking I'm actually awake. But have 8 fingers on one hand.
3. Pushing head backwards to get the falling feeling
When I stop pushing, I come back to the bed, so I make it a swinging sensation. Push down, come back up and higher. Untill I was standing on the bed and just stepped off. This one I did at least 2-3 times.


Next dream - I don't think I'm lucid here, because the whole time I'm desperately trying to WILD.

I'm in a large, L-shaped room. She is in the other part of the room in a bed with white sheets. I think a medic is treating her, because at one point she says with pain in her voice "damn, that stings". But that's the only complaint I hear from her.

When that person leaves, I come closer and ask if I can help. Make some food or anything else. But she declines every offer I make. Nothing new, I expected that. Makes me feel sad though, that she won't accept help even from me.

So I sit on a chair next to the bed and trying to figure out how to at least hold her hand without her rejecting it or making it look like some mushy move. All I really want is to transfer some healing energy to her and make her more comfortable.

She says something about her kidneys giving her hell.

She gets up and tries to do some chores. I trail her while desperately trying to WILD so I can treat her aura in a lucid. I'm pushing my head back while walking. I feel like I'm WILDing a few times, but those are all fake, not real lucids.

Now I see through the window that we are in LA. For a second I'm happy that she lives here but then i remember that she is only visiting. I have a few suveniers from my visits in LA and I'm rummiging through them picking out the one I want to give her. But I know she wont like them, so I stop doing that.

6/24/14

Last night bed 10 pm - 4:50am

DR at 3:30 am

1. Asian family is mine

2. There is a street race withvery loud cars

3. This third one is a kind of a dream, that stays with you for very long time.

So I'm standing on a beach in French Guyana.

I'm in awe. It's unbelievable. Only sand and water. No trees, no nothing. Just the way I like it. Sand and water.

They have these huge flood lights on, illuminating it all. Sand, water, air... Like those huge lights at football stadiums.

The whole area is of one color. The most georgeous blue I can imagine. The blue, that makes me cry from sheer happiness. I mean sand is yellow, air is air and water is blue, but it all has this bluish/greenish hue.

I only realize the lights were on, when they turn off. That's when i see that the skies are starting to get brighter, as morning is approaching.

Only now the brilliance of the blue color comes out in full force. Words can't describe it.

I look to my left and I see some people in the water. It surprises me how fast they got there. It looks like it's some kind of a water sports club. They are all standing on sticks that are horizontal, laying on the water. Like a paddleboard, but they have one for each leg, and they are skinny just like a stick. They have one long stick in hand to propel themselves with it.

I see some waves, gently splashing against the shore. it's so inviting, I can't resist. I say I'm going in, even if I dont have bathing suit. I walk in up to my knees and water is splashing against me, making me all wet. It's warm.The bottom is pebbly, like an aquarium. Not sandy. Pebbles are very colorful and clearly seen through translucent water. I point out some sea shells to someone, and pick one up, only to find a little crab living in it. I put it back and watch him scurry away.

5.12.14

Last night bed around 10pm - 6:40am

I got up, went on DV for a bit, then went WILDing at 7:10am. Got nice and relaxed within 5 min. I realized, that I'm not focusing on my closed eyelids anymore, and maybe thats why I'm not getting any more HH and dreamlets that I enter to be in LD. So I did that and was getting some flashes of images. My cats were still moving around, so I thought I just go to sleep and hope for a DILD. Turned to my side and fell asleep.

DR:

This was very long and very detailed. First ghost dream in which I was not scared. Later in the dream I applied some knowledge that I have learned as a lucid dreamer, about incorporeal beings, how it's normal, nothing strange or to be affraid off.

I'm at home in moms bedroom. As I leave the room, the TV turns on. I shut it off and as I walk to the kitchen, the TV on the kitchen dinning room table turns on. I grabbed my keys and I was outta there. I don't like messing with ghosts.

I went to the caffee and I'm having my coffee, thinking that I'll stay there all day, till someone else comes home. My dad comes and I tell him to ask the barista to make him a coffee from bottle of instant one I brought. But I forgot the bottle, so he orders coffee and sandwich. I want to pay for it, but he says he has money.

I tell my brother or mom or both about the ghost, and they reluctantlyadmit to me, that "she" is there for 3 years now. They just didn't wanna tell me. And I'm like, wow, so it's true, everytime I felt a presence, or hair on the back of my neck stood up, ... it was all true.

Now we are at home. Me, my brother, uncle and auntie from apartment below us, and I think my mom.

As we are talking and visiting with family, things start to happen. Flowers in a vase start to move. Courtains, flower petals in 3 low vases are swirling, even changing colors. We always just quietly point at it to each other. She also makes some arraingement with flowers in a circle and a baby bottle standing up in the middle of it.

I finally say very nicely "could you please not do it anymore". But by now I wanted to help her, but I also know, that you should never ask a ghost how you can help.

My brother picks up a small plate with some dressing on it, and he shows me that "she" wrote in it. It says "I love" and we put it down so she can finish writing it. But then I notice that there is something else written there and I send my brother to get his camera to take a few pictures, so we can enhance and read it. My oncle gets the plate and he wants to eat the dressing and I tell him "are you nuts, ghost just played with it and you wanna eat it?"

Now she is writing lot more in other places too. I get a pen and paper and I'm copying it. We learn that her name is Maria and she died of cancer. She used to frequent italian forum. She writes down the whole web address. http//[italian sounding name ending in *oni* or *ini*], [second name berlusconi or berluscini] plus some .edu and something else or similar.

She also tells us a name of people she would love to send message to on this forum, to let them know, what happened to her.

Some if the information she is giving us is now by her voice talking to us. There is a paper bag on the table and it inflated itself. The voice coming out if it faintly says "listen". I hear it, but nobody else does. So I tell everybody in the room to "listen". "She" repeats it a few times and now everybody is quiet and we can hear her.

As she is talking from the paper bag, the bag is moving, rolling a bit on the table and it comes to the edge. I pick it up so it doesn't fall down and to my surprise, the bag is heavy. I feel like there is a person's soul inside. (I remembered in a dream reading about it in WL if soul exists. They weighed a dying person and then again at the moment of death. Body did lose some wight at the moment of death)

So now I'm holding the bag with this persons soul that is talking to us, and now I'm sobbing. I started when writing the web address down. It really took me, how is this person trying to get in touch with people from her beloved forum.

I want my brother to experience the weight of the empty bag, so I hand him the talking paper bag and tell him it's heavy.

3.24.14 Monday

Last night sleep 10pm- 7:40am.

Layed on sofa to WILD at 9am, with 8mgs of GM and 900mgs of Choline.

I got relaxed pretty fast and started getting static soon after. I felt top back of my head being active. I was lucid, and I stayed lucid for next 2 hrs, with one short break. Even when i wasn't lucid, I was asking myself "wow, am I not lucid anymore, it sure feels like I'm dreaming" and I checked my fingers and sure enough, I got lucid.

I don't think I had a dream ready for me from the beginning, because I felt like I'm in a dream, but there was nothing. Went back to transition, back to the dream, but there was nothig still.

Then I ended up in a town with yellows and blues. There was a fair, people eating outside, having fun, but nothing was happening. I wanted to go somplace else. I tried flying, but it didn't work. I tried different mental methods. Then I thought I'll fly up to the rocky, partially snowy hills behind the town. I was able to fly there, or more like skimming the surface.

I circled back to the same town. I was up for some excitement. Wanted to be chased, or in a battle. So I did "when I turn back, there will be a military camp". But nothing.

Bunch of transitions, non lucids in which I realized I'm dreaming, DEILDs, that seemingly stretched forever. I was even asking myself, how come I didn't wake up yet. Not even that woke me up. I was askin someone if my eyes are opened.

I remembered what OpheliaBlue said the other day, how she was looking for hell through the opening she made in her floor. So I thought that would be exciting and made an opening in the wall by pushing my hands through like when you swimm, then pushing my hands to the sides. I got sucked in, and tried to move there, but it was like in liquid rubber. Hard to move, so as I was in laying down position, I just paddled a bit, then got tired of it.

Did it with numerous guys, and by myself. Very realistic, I was able to tell the size of guys "equipment". I could swear I was using my real hands, but I wasn't. That was a surprise.

I finally ended up in a chase scenario. Nothing serious, just some scientists chasing me, low key. I'm running through a building and get out. Now I feel like I should really get away, but it was still a game.

I exit into a dark courtyard. It's narrow, with very tall walls, only a narrow slice of skies is visible. The walls are sculpted with some figures. The are tall as the walls are. (They look like spaceships in necromancer movie). Built into the walls are spaceships. They kinda turn into the wall and out of it, so people get get in. Somebody is tired of the slow process and speeds it up. Now I notice there are people hanging on to the walls about half way up. Passengers, or refugees. Now I see 2 people entering the courtyard looking for me. I'm thinking it's good that the launch sequence was sped up.

There was lots more, lotls of little transitions into nothing, return to transition and back again.

Lots of fun. Thank you, subC, thank you my higher self. Come again

2.17.14 Monday

Last night, bed 11:30:5am, watching Thor before bed, also voice skyping with OP

DR 2:35
In a store, shopping cart

DR 5am
I'm on a tour of a factory with 3-4 more classmates. (We used to take tours like this from school.) Tour is over and I realize we can buy some things for good prices, so I walk back and see all the products they have. It looks more like a grocery store warehouse then a factory, because of a sortiment. I see some large tubs of cream chese, and I know I want to buy certain kind. As I'm walking back, I see hot sauces on shelves, crackers, bunch of stuff. I keep walking back to the "good items". Someone tells me tour is over, but he will stay behind with me. Others have left, since you have to leave exactly on time.

Employee tells me, I need to go to the director for some paperwork and he shows me how to get there on a mental map.

I walk outside of the large building, towards the director's place. A female employee joins me to show me the way. She goes for my boobs (I remembered this part in the shower, lol). So I somehow lose her and I sit down nearby. I see an old friend of mine. She cut her hair short. I hope she didn't see me. She is walking by slowly, and I pretend I don't see her. She stops behind me and says mine name, hoping that she is right. I turn around and say her last name in surprise. She really looks different. She mentions some things from our past.

We get together to directors office. It's a small cubicle in another factory building. She (he) tells me, that I have been fired twice before. Once from company called Rakuten, and the other time, when I was a taxi driver in Ukraine, and was late picking up a client. She only tells me this after I insist. I tell her, there is no company of that name in my country, and I have never in my life been to Ukraine. So I figured, that factory rakuten had to be there too. So it was clear, she didn't have the right paperwork.

Next door is some kind of a dormitory. We go there with this friend of mine. She is now both, the friend from old times, and OpheliaBlue. I'm falling asleep and I start seeing patterns and lights. I whisper to her loud "I'm about to WILD". Reason being, that I'm hoping others int he room will stay quiet, and I want to share my joy with her. I don't get the headrush or any transition, but I do get into a WILD. (Possibly just a dream about WILDing.)

As I "get lucid", I start climbing out over windows and stuff. I keep my lucidity for quite a while and every few seconds I tell myself that. I'm quite happy how long I'm holding the lucidity. Then I think "oh, I just thought about waking up, so I will", but I also know, that it will not happen, because I'm a good LDer.

It's morning now, and my friend/Ophelia askes me to give her her thing, that she needs to mail to her dentist. I pull out a small plastic baggy. Two fly-sized bugs or creatures from the bag get on my left hand. In the space between fingers and the thumb. One by one they start to burrow in my flesh. It hurts like hell. I try to pull them out, but I have a feeling, their heads detached and they keep burrowing deeper.

I end up in a large room, that resembles dining hall from Harry Potter. But the tables are not alongsied, but across, like they would be in a library, or a classroom. I know I'm infected from those bugs. Suddenly, these tiny white pustules shop up all over my body. They are perfectly round, and they light up. As if fluorescent. Someone from the desk in front of me turns to me and we talk. I see immediatelly, that she got infected as well. I know that, because she starts to giggle and talk to another person, and that apparently is a sign of infection. The person she talks to get's infected, giggles and talks to another person. Pretty soon the whole hall is infected. Few min later, my spots are gone. Int he back of the hall, there is another room. It's now full of people that are getting into next stage of infection. They are getting bit aggressive and their hands and fingers are getting curled up like claws. Someone unlocks the door with a regular, old fashioned key and one person is trying to get out of that other room. I push the door shut and lock it again.

But just to be sure, I fly up close to the ceiling and exit through some windows. I'm on a street. Sidewalks are covered by some roof. It looks like at the train station, where there are these roofs on pillars. I assume these are to protect people from some flying threat. It could be, that infected people will turn into these flying things.

2.06.14 Thursday

Last night bed 11pm - 8am

The magic hour 11pm came through huge, with some best recall in ages and epic dreams. Also, meditated second time in a day 1 of Anapana Sati (breathing awareness), for 15 min, 10:45-11pm, just before bed.

DR 1:
I'm on top of a not so gently sloping hill, covered in grass. Sun is setting. We were doing something, now, people are walking/running down the hill and I want to shock them with me flying down head first. I look at them sideways if they can see me.

DR 2: 3:30am
I going with my mom to the hospital where she used to work. She is going to ask, if they need her help. I'm sitting in the waiting room, but she is not coming out. There are other patients in beds nearby. A man comes out playing harmonica. I figure he is a doctor.

I'm sitting on right side of a blood drawing tray. Another doctor in lab coat is asking me my name. I tell him I'm Kate's daugter. They know me, since I used to visit my mom ther while she worked there (IWL as well).

I get a funny feeling and I ask a nurse about my mom. She says they took her.

Me and two others steal long knives, and hide them in sleves. We are walking down a long escalator, towards a security station on the bottom. I don't know how, but we get through without beeping. A female security guard comes out after us and now we know, we have an ally in there. She drops a button on the ground and I pick it up. It's a microfilm evidence how the hospital "took" secretary of "something", same as my mom, and many others.

DR 3: 6am
I'm back at the same place from dream before. Only now I'm not alone. There is bunch of people with me and we are storming the place, to liberate all the patients that are held there against their will.

I'm throwing vases and ashtrays at people in the waiting room so they leave, because there is gonna be a firefight and I didn't want them to get hurt. A young black boy throws down from this balcony 3 bracelets. I go down, pick them up and put 2 of them on. He wants them back, but I'm just laughing.

I'm running with a girl in a tow, holding her hand. I peek out from behind a corner and see a shadow of a guy with heat seeking missile. I wait for it, then we ran opposit direction, hiding behind the corner. He shoots one more time, but we make it to safety.

I'm hiding in a small alcove in a wall. One of the bad guy's leaders slides into my view on his knees. I take aim and shoot. I hear my machine gun turn on empty twice. I'm out of ammo. Another bad guy comes from behind the corner and I'm taken captive.

Now I'm laying on the floor, face down, my elbows tucked under me. This rooms seems to be after the fight, where we all gathered to regroup and recoup. Doctor is kneeling next to me. Pulling right arm out to check on it. It's ok. Now the left arm, but this one is not moving. I say maybe the muscles had locked. So he gives me 2 shots in my right shoulder. Somebody comes to talk to me and I realize I'm their leader. Doc treats some wounds I have on left shoulder.

DR4: 8am
I'm waiting for a bus with kate and her kids. Bus comes, she gets on, the door closes, and I'm struggling to open the door with 2 bags in my hand. So I get pissed at her not holding the door open and i stay behind. Then I look at the bags and they are both hers. Crap. Now I have to take the bags to her. I check if her phone is there, but it's not. Good, so I can call her to tell her when I'm bringing her bags.

Now for good 10 min, I'm trying to punch in her numbers. This is crazy and so frustrating. In order to get to each individual right numeral, I need to scroll through what seems like dozens of characters. I'm going out of my mind. I'm sitting inside, then I move outside, but there is a busy street with tour buses going by and bunch of people talking, including a group of foreigners sitting at a large table.

I see a small white fluffy dog wondering around. Seems like his leash is broken, but when I get closer, I see that he is on a very long leash that winds all over the place. So i let him be.

DR5:
I just walked to the top of a tall, rocky mountain. Like in Himalayas. Sharp peak, all snowy. We are inside of a glass lookout place. I look out, and there is a walkway around the mountain, with a simple guard rail. The wind is howling, we can hear it all the way inside. The snow is coming down like crazy, being whipped by strong winds. It's -110 degrees.

1.3.14 Monday

Last night bed 2am -8:20am

Had a very long and interesting dream, that is an amazing reflection and insight into my late night conversation with a friend. After waking up, I keep retelling it and discovering new details, while I pet my cat that just decided to lay on me and purr. My other cat lays by my side. I'm boxed in.

DR:

I think I'm a guy. I'm walking downslope on an asphalt sidewalk. About 40 feet below me, on the right side, on the bottom of the slope, is a slow, wide, dirty water river. Some large boats on it. To the left, narrow grass area, just 3-4 feet wide, and a chain link fence behind it.

I'm walking very slowly. My head is down, I'm lost in my thoughts, sad. I'm an owner of a theme park. Lots of people on the sidewalk, as you would expect. They are all walking in opposing direction then I am. I can feel their disapproving thought and looks. A young woman with long hair, holding hand with a boy, lookes at me and then lowers her head.

Something just got loaded on a large transport ship and I see the straps are being tightened for the safety. Somebody close to me ordered the load, even if it's against my wishes. They are hoping to finish fast, so I can't say no.

Part 2:

Different setting. Some city high up in the clouds. Clean shapes, tall walls are beige and other matching shades. There are platforms we are on, but many, if not all building reach all the way to the bottom. You can also reach the bottom via the platforms.

From now on till the end of a dream, I'm being chased and I'm running. I'm not scared, only sad and surprised.

I'm on a platform. It has open walls, or windows in some places. Few people close to me are there to talk with me. I sense they want to capture me and I'm surprised, but not too surprised. When they approach me, I jump and fly to the ground very fast. They have guns and they are shooting at me. I zig-zag. But I also think, that it would be ok to get shot. Nobody else can fly, only me.

I;m on the ground. Huge noise, I look up and Sukhoi fighter jets are maneuvering overhead. They are flying low, in demonstration of power.

I jump to a low roof, and from there to a higher one and another higher one. On the run again.

Back up on a platform. Being approached and I jump again. I see a large, man-made lake below me. Some swimers in the water in swimming competition. I dive in the water, head first, at huge speed. I know I have to hide fast, before they find me with instruments. I'm thinking if to just sit still on the botom. I figure I should dig a hole and burry myself.

I'm in a narrow corridor, that's thousands of feet high. There are small wooden platforms on the walls. (Like a cat perches they sell for window sills.) I fly up to a very high one. Good choice, because as I look down, below me is someone looking down, looking for me.

Another escape from a platform. I'm flying by a train in the trainstation. Train is moving and I bang on the window to be let in. There are people sleeping in sleeping compartments. One of them opens the door and i climb into an empty cot.

Another fast dive from very high platform into water. I find a submarine and bang on the door again. A female opens a door. It's clear I woke her up. I don't remember how she reacts, if she is a friend or a foe.

Friday, 10/4/13

Last night, bed around 12:30 -1am - 9:45am

Morning full of dreams.

DR 1 - I think I had a dream with OpheliaBlue's cat Sophie. She was fluffy and very light beige mixed with white. But first she was a bunny. There was another bunny as well. I was feeding them greens from my bag. I was pulling out all kinds of grasses and flowers and vegetables I knew bunnies like.

I'm pulling out weeds from my bag and there were some that I was not sure if not poisonous, so I put those back and I'm wondering why the heck are they there. There is nightshade I recognize by it's small black berries. And another poisonous plant. Then I pull out this huge, gorgeous white flower, like a daisy. 4-5 inches in diameter, so symetric, not a single flaw on it. I gave it to the bunnies/cats. They loved it. Then I fed them some fresh corn husk and corn silk and they were loving it. They dragged it out all over the place.

DR 2 - I'm with my auntie and she is telling me, she is getting a job. There was more talk going on. The job will be downtown in store with textile. I'm telling her, "great, I'll be driving you, because that's the way to my work". I guess this is because I'm thinking of getting a second job IWL.

DR 3 - this is the earliest I remember. Could have been around 7am.
It's very explicit and will stay in my paper DJ. Best sx dream ever.

Thursday 9/5/13

Last night bed 1:30am - 8:30am

I believe this dream was influenced by episode of jeff lewis interior therapy I watched on sunday, about a gay couple that was together for 5 years and one girl really wanted to get married? And by my IRC convo with OB last night.

DR 8:30am

There are two girls and they are good friends. One of them asks me to marry her. I like her, but I kinda love her friend. So I figure, I could do that and be closer to the one I love, while still kinda loving the one who proposed to me as well.

All kinds of emotions go through me. I wonder if my parents will be still alive when I tell them, or should I tell them now, knowing that they will be happy to hear that I got married. I'm not worried about them not accepting my gay marriage. I know it's my life, and although I never in million years thought this would happen to me, and I'm surprised that it did, I'm ok with it.

Now I hear, that next step is for me to get a "equipment removal" surgery. I'm thinking, well, I'm not really using it anyway, It just hangs there, I don't really see a good reason to remove it. But I go to see a nurse and she writes doctor's schedule on a blackboard. Next few days he is teaching, and in his office, and then he is on duty in the hospital. I'm surprised she told me maybe only one week's worth of schedule, because it seems too fast to me to decide and have the surgery.

Next all 3 of us are in the bathroom. One is doing her nails, another one is asking me to hand her something, and I'm like "whoa, this girly stuff is so not me". It's so new to me. I can't say I'm enjoying it, but I'm excited to see where it takes me. And perhaps I'm willing to make some changes to accomodate my new life.

In the recent past, I have had maybe 5 dreams about getting married. They were all "wth, how did I agree to this bs"? This was the first one, when I was ok, or even happy about it. But still, enough of these marriage dreams. I get the point. Now give me some weapon, ammo, and let me lead insurgents, or be chased by police.

Wednesday, 9/4/13

Last night, bed at11:30

DR 12:58
someone posting as alt

DR 8:50am
I'm in a wide, square shaped highrise building. It's bright inside. The center of the building has an open area, and opened corridors are on the sides around it. There is also an elevator on the side.

I'm and FBI agent, complete with the dark blue windbraker with big yellow letters on the back. Me and 3 other agents are chasing and apprehending a serial killer. We know he is dangerous and I can feel the tension in the air. We have him handcuffed but the elevator and as the door openes, we debate how to safely put him in and transport him, when he somehow gets away.

Now I'm in the opposite hallway, 1-2 stories below where I was before. I'm talking to 2 girls. I feel like one of them is importants. A 7 year old, cute girl, with freckles around her nose, is fidgeting and dancing around and making faces while we speak. I feel like I have to protect her from that killer, because in the future, she will be crucial for something good. I also feel that I'm no longer in same time as I was before.

I smile at her while we speak, and she is happy and I'm also happy. I know I can't tell her why I'm there. We also say some names and I repeat that to remember it.

Friday, 8/16/13

Last night bed 10:45pm - 3:30am; 5:10am - 9:23am

I thank those who insipred this awesome night (ophelia with her dream from last night and sparta with chat talk). And thank you brain, for getting the hints and obliging.

This was one of the longest dreams that I remember.

DR - part 1
I'm in a building with lots of people. We know a huge earthquake is coming, in fact, it's iminent. At first, we were gonna just run outside. But then I realize, we need to collect as much stuff as we can, because after the quake, that's all we gonna have.

So I tell my mom and dad. They are sceptical. But I start bringing items into a shopping cart. I look at the stack of neatly folded burgundy color towels. I know they are older and they have been used to dry the dogs after their bath, but they are clean now and I put them in the cart. I find water bottles, and different items. I know that even if we don't need some of it, we can barter with them. I find a pile of my old things. I look through them and I flip through pages of my bright blue book of stamp collection. (I wish I had it here with me IWL, because I think I saw it exactly as they were, although I have not seen them in years). I know I can't take them with me.

I find two comforters. I get an idea of making them water proof. I tell an old classmate of mine from elementary school to cut open some large black trashbags and saw them onto the comforters. So when we have to sleep outdoors and ground is wet, they will insuate us.

I know we are on borrowed time and quake can happen at any second. I hear a sound and I look at my watch. I just received an alarm, an early warning, that quake has already happened and we have 12 or 7 seconds till the shock wave arrives. I yell at everybody to get out. I start pushing the cart and my mom is trying to keep up, but complaining of her legs. I lift her into the cart and keep pushing.

We get to the exit from the building. Large glass doors are chained shut. 2 guards at the desk are not willing to open them, eventhough crowds are gathering, wanting to get out. Nobody wants to stay inside, where glass and stuff would be raining down on us.

Suddently we are outside, at night, pushing the rattling shopping cart with our items and my mom.

Then it feels like it's all over. It's day time and I'm back at the entrance to the building. People are milling around. I walk around with someone around a lake that's just outside the building/ The walkway starts to separate and now I'm standing on something that looks like a small raft made of reeds. The person with me is also standing on one. It's dipping under water and now I'm more swimming that walking. The water is nice and warm and although it's scary, I don't mind that much.

Part 2
Me and another person are going back inside the building. This seems to be years after the apocalypse. There are some thugs sitting by the entry and lots of debree everywhere. Broken furniture, pieces of concrete... The glass door is now jammed opened.

The other person tells me to stay there and wait for him. He was looking for something. I'm in a large tiled corridor, even walls are tiles. There are no lights, but it's not dark inside. He walks in the opening in the wall to the right. I walk little further down this corridor and hang left.

I'm looking for restrooms. There are some stalls with dark red metal walls, that could use a fresh coat of paint. They don't have doors, but they are normal toilets. (Which is very unusual. normally I find a restroom, but there is always something wrong with it and I can't use it). Some are separated by semi-transparant plastic hanging from the ceiling. I find one, no door, but nobody is around and I use it.

I keep walking and see lots of males in the hallway. Someone who seems to be in authority is telling them it's time to go in their cells. I ask if this is a prison and I'm told yes, it is. It's kinda lax, almost voluntary.

I know what I want and I ask a handsom black guy, leaning against a wall, how big is his pen0r. He says "like a hot-dog". I say, if I'm gonna have a black guy, he is not gonna have a hot-dog. The warden steps in and askes me a few questions. His questions are leadig me to believe, that despite the size, he is the best.

So I walk off with the hot dog. I keep asking him where wuld be a good place, untill we get to some side corridor with some construction material.

We are about to start, when 2 huge guys walk in. And rest is on need to know basis only.