lucid

Cool dream last night. Long and detailed, some convos with DCs.

We get to a building with my school class. I know that lave eruption and flow is imminent, and as we enter some room where we suppose to do something and spend some time, I see orange glow from underneath the floor. The floor has wooden pieces and in the gaps between them I can see lava, and the floor is partially translucent like some milky glass. I tell them if we stay, we will die. We need to leave. NOW. It's gonna happen withing seconds.

Someone left on a train and I'm looking down in a valley, in a distance, how the train has made a u-turn and it's coming back. I'm not sure the person I'm waiting for will make it back on time for us to escape. But I'll wait.

TOTM attempt monday night.
I did my usual.
3:20am GPC, 1 hour of sleep,
then WBTB at 4:25
GM at 4:50 am

When I heard the chime at 6 am, I figured I'm about 20 min into a lucid, and it went for 20 more min.

It was weird. I was not able to get away from my body. I woke up and for a few seconds if not minutes I was trying to figure out where I am, and I came up with answer that I don't know. If childhood house or current place, or somewhere else, I didn't know. I just was not able to sense, like you are able to sense the position of your bed and it's relation to your room and house in the morning just after you wake up.

I assumed I'm in my parents bedroom, after they are no more, so in the future. Had hard time getting up from bed and into a dream.

Still managed to do some jumping, bicycle and squash. Whatever that mean, coz I don't remember anymore.

Last night bed around 9:30pm

Woke up at 3:50 am - 2x300 Alpha GPC and went back to sleep some more
Woke up at 5:16 am - got up for WBTB
2x4 mg GM 5:40 am and to the sofa for a WILD
up at 7:45 from lucids

My cat was laying on me the whole time, keeping me very light asleep and even waking me up at least 1-2 times. I was having hard time falling asleep so I wanted to try on my side, but cat was laying on me, haha.

Throughout the whole time I was trying to do the IMP - impossible movement, or just my old style moving my body to see if I'm already asleep. This also after I woke up and didn't think I'll get into lucid again. But it helped a lot and I did.

I have a good memory of the whole thing, because half way through I realized that I can just pause and retell the previous parts to myself to remember them. I used to retell them to myself during transitions between DEILDs, but I don't have transitions between them anymore.

I fell asleep and was trying to get up, but couldn't. Couldn't stand up or float up. I got up, walked a bit then got pulled back. I was thinking kinda upset that this will be second time in a row when I didn't get lucid.

But then I got up again and started walking away, when I remembered what I wanted to for years now but never did. I returned to my sofa and looked at it! It was empty. But it was the exact replica of my sofa placed in same position and location and what I felt but didn't see a copy of my real room. The sheets were of the right color (darkish blue grey) with wrinkles and all and a cover peeled to the side. I got so happy and told myself "great, I'm not there, look, because I'm in a dream". As in away from the bed, haha.

LUCIDS

1.
First I was in some industrial complex. We were sleeping in some service room. I was venturing out from there looking for stuff to do. Started climbing this building but the outside was not stable. People on the ground were asking why the heck I'm doing it. I just wanted to get up high.

2.
I was trying to figure out what to do. When I remembered Pk's jumping over stuff idea. So I started to run, but that woke me up.

3.
I wanted to grow myself big again even though I knew I have already tried. Not sure if I remembered that I didn't finish the task last time. I started to grow, but then I felt my feet disconnect from the ground and got disappointed. I started to shrink again, and I did this a few times. I didn't really feel myself grow, but I was watching the ground. Large puddles of water and moonlight reflecting off of them, they were getting smaller and decided to watch my progress like that.

4.
I'm in a crowd of people, walking around. I catch a reflection of me in a window. I have man's underwear on and there is something in it. Pull it off and there is a huge pen0r. It looks ugly, all bumpy, curvy, colors from pink to angry red. The end is wrapped in some tissue. I unwrap it and walk up to a girl. We sit down and start to kiss and touch. It never gets further, but not because I didn't try.

Somewhere in the middle of the experience I try to estimate the length of it and I come up with 40 min. The dream, haha, not the pen0r.

5. Ask subC what my DV avatar means - fail - TOTM
I'm outside on a busy city street. I'm watching the DCs walk by. They are all different, with different attires and I'm happy I see DCs. Then I remember the TOTM. I turn to a young man and about to ask him the question, when I remember it's not suppose to be DC, but my subC.

I walk away a few steps from him, wait a second and look up at the skies to make sure it's clear I'm not asking him. And I say out loud with clear and articulate voice.

"What my ... ( I search for a word here) DV avatar means?"

I keep looking up at the sunny skies, but I get no answer. Only some not so distant noise, like a rumbling.

6. Help someone cross the street - success - TOTM
I walk another block away from there when I think of another task. I recall the "make a tea" task but I know that's the only one I completed.

So I think of the Help someone cross the street. It was nice and sunny. There is a lot of DCs. A young "sister" which for some reason I believe is French is walking towards me. I grab her by the arm and tell her:

"C'mon, I will help you cross this street. There are no cars here, but that's ok. Just a few more minutes and we are there. Here is the sidewalk." And as I said it, I heard a grey older type car coming by and I was happy that my help was now not so silly looking. I got her to the other side of a not so wide street to the sidewalk with grass. Then we started french kissing. Since she was French.

7. Drive a car (rip out engine and wheels) - success - TOTY
I remember another TOTM (actually a TOTY but I don't know that). And I feel the urgency as I feel like I may be waking up.

I actually remember this task when I see a huge, old type, german car with no top parked by the sidewalk. It's matte black with some gothic looking style. It's a bit menacing.

I open the hood and it's empty, so I open another and another. Seems like the hoods are layered, haha. But there is no engine in any of the compartments.

I walk around to the other side and look at the wheels. They are huge, rugged, black, dirty and warn out from heavy use. I KNOW it's easy to rip them off, so I grab one and pull it off. It comes off right away. I move to the next one and do the same. The belly of a car is dirty from many roads it traveled. I see something that looks like another wheel deep under the car. But I dismiss it knowing that it doesn't belong there, it's just my subC messing with me. Besides, I didn't want to get dirty climbing under to get it. As I think that, I don't see it any more.

The car is full of people all dressed in clothes from era of the car. I'm thinking pre-WWII, Germany. First and I think second row is taken, so I sit in the second or third. I will make it work, even if I'm not behind the wheel.

There is a dude sitting behind me and he does something that I can't even say what : D

So I sit down and I'm looking at the lady behind the wheel. I ask for the keys. I have to ask again and someone turns to me with keys in his hand. I take them and I ask for ignition. I ask again and it appears in the headrest of the seat in front of me. I put the key in and turn it. The car starts. I look at the wheel and I make it turn the way I want. We cross the intersection where I helped that nun cross the street when the street dips down. I will it to fly over it, realizing we should be on the surface, so after the dip (which looks like construction site of a highrise) we kinda land on the street again.

Here I wake up and decide to write it all down.

There was classic sex with a dude somewhere in there too, but I remember I was also doing something else at the time, like a split person. Same thing happened last time. Ain't nobody got time for that. hahaha

I'm so stoked

Thank you my subC, you the best

Same nite as Grow yourself big to reach the moon attempt before the WBTB. http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/gab/

So after the alarm woke me up at 4 am, I stayed up for a WBTB

WBTB 4am-5:30am (I was so stoked from a random lucid, that I couldn't sleep sooner. Plus, that is my usual waking time so I had to fight my body's urge to "wake up for the day" and stay in the sleepy mode.)

I already took 2x300 Alpha GPC at 3 am, but I felt like I used that up for that random lucid, and since my WBTB was so long, I took another 600.

5:30am
- 2x300 Alpha GPC
- 2x4 Galantamine

Sofa at 5:30 am
Woke up from lucids at 7:52

I estimate lucid was about 60 min long, maybe bit longer. I could tell the extra choline made a difference. I was getting headrush and entering lucids at much faster pace than normally, and the headrush was very intense.

I don't remember much details, since there were no breaks in lucidity when I could retell my lucids to myself. And I slept more after I wrote down a few keywords.

Ok, so there was a TON of sex in this one. It was happening with some invisible entity, for a long time. But there was some problem, he may have forgotten to take my pants off. Then bunch of other scenarios with chicks and dudes.

After much walking and exploring, I remembered the TOTM Make a cup of tea and report how it tastes"

I start looking for some place to make the tea. I see some fire on some snow covered ground. I decide to go closer and use it. Hoping to see people there who will have cups and stuff. But there are 2 dogs by the fire. Another fire is nearby and I see a cat by it. I come closer and as I'm wishing for it to be a fox, it turns into a fox. He is not very friendly, starts to chase me away. Needles to say, he didn't have any cups : D

I come to a market place and I search the stalls. There are some glass colored tea cups on one of them, with some liquid in them. I ask "is this hot water"? Vendor says no, it's tea. Well, that's not what I need. I grab one cup, dump the liquid from it and I ask the vendor to put a bag of tea in it. She is putting some in her cup as well, but it's not a bag, it's lose tea. I'm ok with that and she sprinkles some in my cup. There is a pot with semi hot water and I pour that in my cup. I hope I don't burn myself when I taste it. It taste like rose-hip tea. Kinda mild flavor, but very nice. Lukewarm, not hot at all.

After that I go for some more sx and slowly losing lucidity, until some long dream in singapore or other major asian metropolis, in a hotel with my brother and his wife. Not sexual haha, we were just there.

Did some flying, didn't see much, looking at hands to make it more clear, didn't really work.

Last night bed 10 pm - 3am

3 am - 2x300 GPC

set my alarm to 4 am for a WBTB

LUCID before WBTB and galantamine

The alarm woke me up from a lucid. I just had to giggle as I had no idea why the alarm is beeping since I'm in a lucid already and it was awesome.

LUCID - TOTM bonus - Grow Big - didn't finish it coz alarm

I don't know how I realized I'm dreaming. But I start walking through some rooms. They are well lit, but no exit. Looking through medial cabinets to find a flashlight and maybe something to open the locks with. Finally there is a window. I get out.

Walking on a street, trying to remember the TOTM, but I didn't read them yet, because I didnt do the WBTB yet. I see a beautiful cat. Long hair, stripes of brown and black, white socks. It's playing with a tennis ball size ball of same color as he is. I rejoice, yeey, a cat in my dream! I start calling it and as I'm getting closer, I realize that the ball is another cat, perfectly round ball, with a face on it, blinking at me. Haha.

I'm still walking but now there are buildings on both sides of me. Now I remember one of the TOTMs - Grow yourself big, above the clouds, step on the moon.

I look up, but buildings have overhanging roofs, so I keep walking till I see the skies. Looks like buildings are trying to close in to take the access away from me, but I'm having none of it. I think "grow big" and I'm starting to grow.

I'm past the roofs now and the view I get is INCREDIBLY beautiful. I see distant rolling hills, rocky, orange soil, like in american southwest. I see an Arch, and another one, much bigger one closer to me. They are incredible. They skies are getting dark, clouds are gathering. I see wind turbulences on the bottom of clouds, wind whipping them like mad. Wind is picking up, now it's getting strong and I see pine trees getting bent and branches flying off. All this time I'm saying 'Keep on growing". And I'm growing.

Now I have reached the clouds. It's dark grey in there and warm. I realize that's how it's suppose to be. I see small particles flying by. I realize that usually when flying high up, that's where I lose lucidity, because I lose view of the dream scene. So I figure quickly, I will have to look at my hands to not lose reference as to what I'm doing. I keep saying "keep on growing" when my alarm wakes me.

Last night – bed around 8pm.

2:18 – 2x300 GPC, back to bed
3:30 – up for WBTB
3:58 – 2x4 GM and sofa



DREAMS before 2:18
DREAM 1
There is a flood. Whole area is covered with deep, almost white water. Only tops of trees are sticking out. I see some monkeys trying to hold on. For some reason I need to get to the other side. I am on a small sandbar that’s not even visible, but I’m standing on it. I want to start swimming across but the waves are getting bigger and bigger, about 5 feet above my head. I turn back but the waves are carrying me. Somehow I made it back and now there are 2 upturned boats caught on the sandbar. I turn over the smaller one, a canoe and I’m glad that the oar is there. I get in and start to paddle. A really huge, tsunami like wave is cresting over so I grab the boat and dive under the wave, kicking furiously to make it back to the surface.




DREAM 2
I’m visiting someone in the suburbs. Single story houses, all similar. Nice working class neighborhood. Their neighbor is a guy from my store, T, who we don’t get along. But I don’t care. We go out to some school fundraising action. They are serving us food at the table. First course is a meatball with something. I taste it but leave the rest on the plate. A russian waitress yell at me why I started if I didn’t finish it, someone else could have had it. I’m telling others that I had meatballs with more onions and I liked them a bit, with less onions and I liked them more, but these, I didnt like. We all agreed there was something powdery or dry in them that was bad.




AFTER 2:18
Visiting another people, this time from WL. Guy is telling me his plan – going to Pittsburgh. I ask: “a game”? He says no, Target. He calls it that, because of poor neighborhood. Mentions german store and I go off on history of our beer and how it was good then but now its really good.




SOFA 3:58



I’m in a middle of transitioning when my cat jumps on me. Then jumps off again when I get to transition again. I hear the 5am chime. Wake up from below experience at 5:28am



FIRST TRANSITION
I start seeing a TV screen. Black and white female face with big lips, moving. I kiss it and it kisses me back when I will it to do so.



I stand up and walk out to the balcony. I think “oh wow, this is my childhood home, my room’s balcony.” There are wires for drying laundry and for a second I stop to ponder if I should jump over or go under. I go under and climb up on the rail. I squat down. I take a moment to realize, that I’m feeling and seeing everything in great detail. I have only a T-shirt on and I feel my hair blow in the breeze. I feel so free and happy.
I gently jump down. Incredible roller coaster feeling in my stomach makes me giddy and even more happy. Gosh, I missed this so much. I’m starting to think that I will hit the ground, but I slowly take flight. I notice with amusement that I’m again in my flying lazy boy position. As if sitting on the lazy boy, legs in front of me, slightly bent, flying feet first. I’m so happy. I think go higher and I do. I think go over the roof, and I do. I see a beautiful, clear moon in the distance with 3 stars near it. For a second I debate if I should go there today, but I decide not to.




Cat got me out of this LD.



I’m back on the sofa. I get this sensation of extreme acceleration. My head is buzzing like crazy and it’s so intense, I’m starting to worry a bit. I don’t know how to enter a LD from this type of transition. I tilt my head down, pushing it to the pillow so I change direction of flying. It’s so intense, twice I tell myself “I’m not scared”. After second transition, I see a nose illuminated, but nothing else. I will it to become brighter, but it doesn’t work. Another transition, and this one is the most intense. I try to think to get my dream body out of my via my head into OBE or AP.



5 am clock chime.



I’m laying on the floor in a large room. Like a school gymnasium. My cat is sitting on me. I don’t know what to do. I notice slight movement when I breath, so I try to amplify it. Now I’m moving couple feet to the front and back with each inhale and exhale. It’s an amazing feeling.



I realize I could probably stand up. I do it and I walk outside. I see a grapefruit tree. No, it’s a pomelo, I correct myself. I want to pick one of the huge, green fruits, but the branches are too soft and delicate and I don’t want to break them. I touch them and the trunk of the tree and it’s very sponge like.



I keep walking and come to a ridge. Moon is high up and it’s quite bright. Below me is a witch all in black, returning to her hut. I’m not scared, but I want to change her anyway. I keep saying “good princess, good princess”. But she is not changing.
Got up at 5:28 to write this up, then went back to sleep some more.



NONLUCID
I’m being chased. Lots of streets, warehouses, buildings, rooms. Windows are boarded up. I start to tear it down, finding a hole and getting out. Guards are patrolling outside.

Last night bed 9:46pm
GPC - 3:30 am - went back to sleep, didnt fall asleep till after 4am
GM - 5:06 am
sofa - 5:23 am - fell asleep shortly after 6am
woke up 7:45 after last part of a dream was non-lucid

Estimate - about 45 min long lucid
No transitions at all. No realizing that I'm still dreaming and standing up. Just one long event.

After GPC

DREAM 1
I'm falling asleep in a dream, telling someone "shhh" when I start to transition. Then I have to "shhh" my mom. I'm mad, how come they don't understand not to talk to me when I'm WILDing, since I told them about it so many times.

But I pull off the transition, tilting my head and body back to invoke the falling down sensation that helps my transition. I feel my body being lifted out and moved around and I falsely remember "just like that member described on DV".

DREAM 2
A perv walks into my house and grabs me from behind. I squirm but he is not letting go. I'm starting to be scared that he is up to more.

Interesting thing is, that I can clearly feel his touch. Very realistic.

DREAM 3
A group of female activists from some organization are at my house about to call Hillary on the phone. I'm looking at one woman's name badge and I note how fast they were able to make badges with all the hashtag names since I just saw them on twitter that day.

LUCIDS after GM

I'm on a busy road, at night. I remember the car TOTY so I raise my hand in effort to stop a huge truck that's approaching me. It's black and silver and I realize he is too close to stop on time. I duck and decide to let him pass over me and to experience how that feels. I didn't regret it, but I got kinda scared with that big, loud and longer than should be truck rolling over my head.

After that, I picked out another car. I opened the hood and ripped the engine right out. I didn't expect any trouble doing it and so it was very easy to just do it. I lifted the car up and ripped the tire off, one by one. I remember thinking if I got it right, if the wheels should stay and only tires should be removed.

I sat the car back down and I see to my left that a beautiful, shiny blue Formula 1 car just stopped next to us. I was kinda blocking couple lanes of the freeway, haha. I considered ditching the task and do it some other time and take the Formula instead for a joy ride.

I decide to get into my car and just as I imagined, there were no keys. Looked in my right pants pocket, but no keys. I tried to make engine sounds in hope that it will make the car go, but no.

TOTM - Book of Secrets

Later on while running around doing all kinds of stuff, I remembered the book TOTM. I start looking through drawers and cabinets. They are all full of cool stuff. Collections of rocks, all kinds of hardly identifiable things. I'm looking on the streets in campers, in houses, in many rooms. I finally start finding books. Looking at many covers, none come even close to saying "Secrets". For a while I amuse myself by reading, looking away and seeing how it changed. I'm even trying to will the title to change to secret. I try to write it on it with my finger too, but nothing works.

I'm exploring this house. Opening the doors and checking out the rooms. Nothing interesting. Everything is white and chrome colored. I find one room that looks like a bathroom. For some reason I like dream bathrooms, or rather, showers. I step inside while still holding the door. I don't want the door to shut and me getting stuck in there.

The more I look the bigger the bathtub - swimming pool in the bottom of the room gets. When I look third time, it's a size of a small lake, but it's empty. Looks like it's smooth, concrete sides have a bottom that's filled with desert rocks and sand and some small, dry bushes.

I see a light from a camp fire in the distance. I'm hoping there is someone who who would wanna get it on with me so I hover glide there. Not sure if we do it, I think we do.

After that, or before, not sure, I'm in a large, modern sex shop. All the tools are behind glass with lots of attendants ready to help you. There are some almost nude guys ready to help you pick your size, haha.

Ended up having tons of sex, good 20 min of it. I suspect the end was already not lucid, or just barely.

This was on Monday, 01/30/2017

It was my first of 2 days off so I WILDed.

Bed 8:20pm -4 am

4am - 2x300 Alpha GPC
5:06am - 2x4 Galantamine

I was still sick, coughing, not feeling good. But I thought I need to take a chance and try it.

As I was falling asleep, I got a strong feeling of "crossing over" to the dream state. Kinda sinking feeling, going into myself. I have this very often when I'm just falling asleep normally and I'm always happy to notice it.

So, as I get this very strong feeling as going to the left into a dream world, I know I'm not entirely there yet. But I want to hurry up the process, so I stand up and start walking around a room. Then I figure I try to lay back and swim backwards on the air by kicking my feet. It worked great and I was almost there when i had to cough and I woke up.

Little while later I got to a dream again. I knew it's not as stable as the last one and I was worried I'll wake up again. So I rushed to look for some books to find the Book of Secrets from the TOTM.

I found a bookcase and saw another pile of books. I look at them and pick one that's oldest looking one. It's big, thick, has an old looking dark brown leather cover. The title printed on it says MUWTAJIN. I lose lucidity here and decide to wake up to write down the title of the book.

Oh well, I'll find it next time.

Night before last - 25th, went to bed at 4pm. Slept till 11 pm.

11:16 pm - 2x300 alpha gpc
12:18am - 2x4 GM

Woke up at 1 am from 2 short LDs.

LD 1

I'm in a room with many others. I tell them I'm about to WILD so leave me alone. I sit on an office chair, lean back to invoke falling back sensation. Someone is talking to me. I open my eyes and try to tell him to shut it, but I can't talk. Then I try to smack him but I can't move. So I just steam there.

I girl comes to me and starts frenching. I'm like wait a minute, you are a chick! She says something like "so what?" So I figured I'll wait to see how it goes.

When I'm able, I get off the chair and walk around the room. While looking at some flowers I realize I'm able to move so I must be in a dream already.

I exit through large, old looking door. Now I'm in an old fashioned looking restaurant. There is a fat Italian with golden chain and a pendant with some saint who looks like a maitre d'. I flat out ask him if he wants to have sex, while I'm thinking it's not a good idea and I should do something else first. But I will him to say yes and we start walking away. I'm thinking he should hurry the heck up before I wake up. I lose it here.

LD2 - Elephant ride - Fail

I realize I'm still dreaming and I walk through the door into large department store. Get up to the second floor. While noticing all the porcelain knick-knacks, I remember I wanted to do the "ride the elephant" TOTM. Which I did, but not tonight, when I wanted to do the "find the present, get a massage and Pandora".

As I get up, I start looking around the isles if I see an elephant. I know he is suppose to be there because I want him there. I start calling him, but I don't hear him being summoned on the PA system. I focus on it and I start hearing "elephant to isle A 1, elephant to isle A 1".

I look at the escalator coming from first floor and there he is. Big and grey. But he has no trunk and I will it to appear. But it's not growing. I figure this is getting too complicated and I'm not even in the jungle so I walk off to do something else and I lose lucidity.

Oh yeah, I ended up having some "me time". Twice.

Non lucid before 11pm
I'm wandering around without a job or place to sleep. I come to a place with some people and work activity. I speak to a woman and I'm all humble and polite, kinda defeated. She offers me a job. She gives me a jar and I'm suppose to collect lizards. I'm not really liking it because I think they will use them for some experiments. I walk to a job place and there is another guy already doing it. I pick a flower bed with some mulch to search. I see a small black gecko with spots and the other guy goes after it. I see another, bigger lizard running around a tree trunk. As I come closer, looking at the ground for more, there is a rattlesnake rattle sticking out straight up. I tell the guy to watch out and that's when he starts to uncover himself and the guy kills him.

Finally had good conditions to WILD.

Took a nap in the afternoon, so went to bed later.
Last night bed 11:30pm - 2:30am
2:30 am - 2x300 Alpha GPC
2:30am - 3:30 am one more hour of sleep for 4 hrs total
3:30 - 4am - WBTB
3:50 - 2x4 galantamine
4am sofa

Estimated length - 45-60 min

5 am still heard the chime on my watch, after I already turned to both sides than back to my back and finally fell asleep shortly after when I felt first signs of falling asleep.

Woke up 6:27, after last part of the dream was already non-lucid - FA of me writing down my TOTM.

Preparation:
(I wanted to do the opening of a forgotten christmas present, massage, tell pencil to draw. I realized I have not used a pencil in a long time, so before bed I was visualizing how I will pull out a pencil from my back pocket and I thought about if it will be regular one or a mechanical one. I also visualized pulling out my box cutter, cutting the tape on a present and opening it. And how I will open my door and there will be Pandora.)

LUCIDS:

1.
As soon as I realized I'm asleep, I got up and went to my front door, as I visualized it before bed. Opened it but there was nothing. So I went to the window to get out that way.

I flew to the neighbors window and I felt naughty, because I knew it's at night, he is asleep and I will be intruding. I looked in both of his beds which looked like someone slept in them recently, but they were empty. I looked again, and there he was, under a sheet, on his back. I giggled and went down on him. I wish there was a nice way to describe this in detail, but there isn't, so this is all I can say. I was wondering if he will notice and wake up. Another girl joined us. I was like "I didn't need help, but ok."

2.
I'm standing on a street, looking around what to do. There is an area to my left with lots of people, between some trashcans. They are watching something going on and I know I was part of it before. Not as a spectator, but as a performer. From my previous dream you can guess what it was about.

I remember I wanted to do some of the Beginner tasks just for fun. So I kneel down and my hands touch beech sand. It's so soft, like the softest flour, cool to the touch because it's nighttime. I play with it, take it in my hands and let it run through my fingers. I smooth it with my hand and watch the pattern my hands make. (It's so simple but very cool detail and I will do this from now on often.) I decide to look for some seashells and I find a huge mollusk with some seaweed, but it opens and I can tell it's dead. I wonder how come It doesn't smell.

3.
Throughout the whole even, at least 3 times I realized that I can't see well. I brought my hands in front of me and forced myself to see them. They were slowly appearing in better detail, until I was satisfied and moved on.

Somewhere in the middle I realized this is quite a long dream and it's nice and stable, almost no fadeouts, only dream scene changes. I was not worried about it ending or me waking up at all.

4.
I remembered the "Tell pencil to draw something" TOTM.
I sat at a desk, pulled out a pencil from my back pocket (just as I visualized before bed. It was logical, because I carry a pen there at work, but have not seen a pencil in a long time.)

I looked at it as I pulled it out. It was a regular pencil, with forest green shaft, white band at the top and black top. No eraser. I put it down and say "draw something". I look at the desk and there are some marks as if someone draw with an eraser. That's not good, so I ask it again. I lose the scene here.

I end up at the similar table again after something else, pull the pencil out again and this time it's shorter, as if it was drawing a lot in the meantime. Some female is sitting opposite of me and we are talking and watching the pencil. I ask it to draw. It does some calligraphy ribbon on the desk itself, but it doesn't look like a drawing. I look at it and when I look back, surprise! There is a beautiful, technical drawing, like from a blue print, of an airport. 2 runways, 2 passenger buildings with boarding attachments and some perimeter buildings. It's clean, no shading or anything else. Only blueprint, except it's on white paper and with the lead tip.

I pick up the pencil to examine it. I want to read what kind of pencil it is, the manufacturer and anything you can usually see on a pencil.

There is a lot of writing on it, lot more than it should fit. There is something in faded golden letters on every side of this many sided pencil. Left and right side of lettering is faded, the middle is more readable. I look at the lead and it's loose, ready to fall out. Great details.

4.
I am hover flying over the street. I am sooo happy about this. The feeling is incredibly good.

I want to turn but realize I have low control. I decide that it's my dream and I can do whatever I want. So I slow down in nice and controlled way, turn around and fly where I wanted to.


5.
Hrm, the inevitable sex. With others, by myself, came to happy ending 2 or 3 times.

6. FA
I'm at my moms. I rush to the desk ans start writing down my dreams. I draw the airport picture too. If I didn't, I would have not remembered how it looked after I woke up for real.

My brother is in some radio program and so am I. I'm some "performer" and the tell me they will need me to do it now, and also say some commercial. I tell them no way, I'm writing this down first, nobody talk to me till I'm done.

I retreat to my room to continue. My mom barges in telling me stuff, and I yell at her to not talk to me. My dad comes in with vacuum turned on, I yell at him too. Mom tells me through the door that they are leaving to some fun place and to go with them. I don't even reply. I don't want to lose the memory of my dreams.

THANK YOU! I LOVE my higher self, my subC and my mind. My partners and friends. : D

Last night bed at 10 pm.

1am - 2x300 mgs Alpha GPC
3am - WBTB
3:17am - 2x4 mgs Galantamine and sofa
5am? waking up from lucids (forgot to note the exact time)

Started out on my back with my cat across my legs. Noticed some stomach ache and I realized I didn't eat any bread with choline or galantamine as I used to.

Turned to my left side and got lucid almost immediately after.

Non-lucids remembered at 3 am:

DR1:
Me and Ophelia are coworkers. We are together in some town that's not hers or mine. She needs to drive back and it's getting late, so I offer her to sleep over.

As we are walking, she mentions that she got a new job, teaching in Canada. I'm shocked. She says she starts ( I expect to hear "next year"), but she says "next week". I'm so surprised and hurt, I can't even say anything. I suggest that we could both get jobs babysitting in US instead.

DR2:
Still Ophelia, this time at my house. Same scenario, she is leaving, I offer her to stay...

LUCIDS:
1. - Dildo market
I'm walking through some indoor market place. I stop at a stall that displays dildos. Beautiful, dark wood, shiny, glass... All kinds, shapes and sizes. I say I want one, and gorgeous young black dudes lounging near start to giggle. I keep browsing but I don't see what I like. I ask them to show me more. One young, blond beauty says ok, walks to the back with me and starts to undo his pants. I say I would like to test drive some and the black dudes keep giggling. When I'm sitll not seeing what I would like, the offer to make me one and start bringing all kinds of materials. I ask what for and they say "for a display case". Black dudes are now roaring when I reply "NO, I only want the THING".

2. - I'm flying through some futuristic city, high among the sky scrapers. It's at night and cloudy. I see a huge billboard with some scary, cloudy skies. I decide I want to go there and see if i can find some intense place. As I come closer, it changes into an image of some huge factory hall. I decide I don't want to go there and I pull myself out of the image.

3. - Same city, over some highways and freeways partially suspended in the air. I'm watching cars pass by when I remember the TOTM - lift a car and carry it somewhere.

I stop a yellow car with my hand up and I pick it up with my hands. It turns into a radio, so I put it on my shoulder and listen to the music while I go and pick up some more cars. I lift one up and put it on a tractor trailer that's near by, so it still goes somewhere after I stopped it, haha. The driver looking at me is Tom Cruise.
I pick up few more cars, same way by standing in front of them and lifting them with my hands. They are weightless. I move them around a bit and put them down. Just as I practiced during day, haha.

4. I look at the dark stormy cloudy skies and decide to fly there for some action. I am noticing that I'm looking for some intense and normally scary things to do in this lucid.

5. I think this was a first one. I look up at the skies and see something. I don't remember what it was but I straighten up and take of flying there. It is something blue with red.

Oh, before the lucids, I had lots of sex. No happy ending though.

EDIT:
Non lucid.
I'm at work, doing markdowns. A man and a woman come up, showing me a list of floral deliver and they want me to sign for it. Dude swears it's all in there. I tell him we are not allowed to sign, they need to find some kind of a manager. Almost identical to what happened just day before. Amazing.

Last night bed 8:50pm.
1:50am - 2x300 alpha GPC and back to sleep
3am - WBTB
3:25am - 2x4 galantamine tablets by relentless improvement
3:50 - sofa
5:03 - woke myself up to record my lucids after maybe 30 min long one

I didn't turn to the side before the lucids. And my cat didn't lay on me as usually. But half of the lucid she was in my arms and we were flying together.

As soon as I got lucid I started working on my TOTMs. I remembered them all, except the "burn a house" because I didn't want to do that one and "buffet" because I already did it.

Advanced TOTM - Spin around and teleport yourself to a random location. - fail - I don't remember where I ended up.
I'm laying on a bed on top of a hillside at night. There is a high dropoff on my left with ocean glittering from moonshine. My cat is laying on me as he is usually when I WILD.

I remembered first TOTM and started to spin. My cat in my outstreched arms, kinda like 2 ice skaters, haha. I was giggling so hard. At first I was just spinning in one spot and I lost my vision. Then I felt familiar sensation in my head and I was lifted up and carried up to the right. I'm pretty sure I landed somewhere but I don't remember.

I think I ended up flying over this huge river that looked like it's in Africa. Lot's of water flowing over some huge boulders making white froth. Lot's of people in and around the water, having fun. There is a huge animal and whoa, it's a Brontosaurus. People are bathing their huge elephant just few feet from there. Looks like they are all coexisting in peace and harmony, like a future advanced or alternate society.

We fly some more and I wish the river to turn to ocean and it gets wider until we are over an ocean at night.

I'm walking down a street at night and remember the Advanced TOTM - Lift a car with super strength and carry it somewhere. - fail. I forgot to carry it somewhere.
Streets are empty, but a huge red fire truck just turns a corner out of my view. I want to go after, thinking "really, you had to pick this huge car?" it when a huge green garbage truck turns to my street and is heading towards me. I'm thinking I'm gonna get so run over if this doesn't work.

I read Ophelia's DJ during the WBTB and she teleported people. So I outstrech my arm and will the truck to float up. I'm not even surprised when it does. It wobbles a bit about 5-10 feet above ground. I want to do more, so I turn it upside down then let it drop. It's all crumbled and I see some movement in the cabin. I walk up to it and say "oh yeah, and the driver si fine, he is ok".

Now I'm looking for a Moon and I find it and start flying towards it. Everytime I want to fly faster or higher, I actually slow down. So I give up on that.

I'm in some city between building. I remember the BONUS TASK! - Go into a room and close the door. Tell yourself that while you were in the room, time stopped for you, but continued to advance outside of the room and it's now 100 years into the future. Describe what the future is like! - success

I look into a window of couple of houses but they look scary. I find one that's ok and I tell myself "this is my house". I walk in and remember I need to go in a room, so I walk through an empty room to another room and close the door.

I was preparing for this as I was falling asleep. I planned on finding a lever on a wall which I would pull and a counter would show numbers go up to the future.

So I put my hand on a wall looking for a lever. It's not there. I say "I turn back and there will be a lever". I turn and nothing. I look again and there is a metal ring hanging on a chain that's coming out of a hole in a wall above my head. I say "ok this will do". I pull on a chain, it turns some flywheel and I hear it turn fast then slow down and stop. Before it stops, I pull the chain again and I do this 5 times, because 5 times 20 years is 100, right?

I walk out the door and now that room has some people in it, sitting on chairs. I say "oh, hi" and I rush to the main door to see outside. It looks even older than before and the houses are all different. Now there is a roof over the whole street. I'm thinking maybe this is a museum and I take another door to get out to the "real world". But it leads me to same place. I get frustrated and start to think that this is how the future will look like and I'm not liking it.

After this I woke myself up to write it down. As soon as I sit up, I'm like uhm, which tasks did I do? Did I just dream doing them, haha. Fuuuu. Then I recalled the last one, then the previoius one and then the first one.

Went to sleep after this since this was all just aboout 30 min long. Had a very long non-lucid with Ophelia. She was mad at me and asking me for some money for a trip we took together. I was like OK, but I thought were were pretty even. Her BF was there too during the whole dream. They wanted me to leave so I did. Then they stopped me at the door and somehow we ended up in a futuristic, or just very modern city in Asia. I even new the name. Going up and down the escalators and sitting in rooms in highrise buildings. OP told me she wants me to have a sex change, haha. I was like from what to what, haha. It didn't make much sense. I remembered her gender-bender dreams and I just couldn't figure out what is she now and what am I and how would that all work, lol.

Last night
bed 8:53pm
2am - 2x300mgs Alpha GPC
3:23am - 2x4mgs GM (lol, I messed up here. Took GM at the beginning of WBTB, not when going to sofa. I was wondering why am I getting sensations so soon after going to sofa, haha.)
3:54 - sofa

Woke up at 6. Stayed sleeping hoping for another LD. I did get it, then I stayed in bed longer, but didn't get more LDs after that.

This was a chain of about 6-7 DEILD including the innitial WILD. Lasted about an hour.
This was different, because I had distinct breaks between LDs, and I even woke up between them being aware of my cats moving about on the sofa with me. Was awesome to be able to count the LDs again.

Pretty much they all started with me not seeing. But I "remembered" that all I need to do is walk around a bit and I will see again. And that's how it was. I tried to make it daytime in one of them and I almost saw some light coming out on one side of my vision, but I didn't wait for it to finish.

In one of them, I think the first one, I was moving my head which I thought was in WL, and I noticed the bright spot which I "knew" was my TV screen. Only later I realized my TV was off, haha.

Between LDs, I was doing all kinds of fun movements. Rocking my body like laying in middle of a seesaw, raising my feet while pushing head down and vice versa, rotating in a circle, rocking from side to side like in a hammock. It's amazing how easily and immediatelly these sensations happen when you just think of them happening.

Boy, I really do love my entry sensations.

I also saw some faces, which I didn't in a long time. This was I guess because I took my GM too soon by mistake. I also saw what I call "yellow-green planet". It's an image behind my closed eyes that resembles frozen moon. I noted that I never get lucid after seeing this image, but I dismissed it quickly, not letting something like that stop me from geting a LD.

I think I was still on my back when I got lucid, but can't recall, only thinking that I will stay on my back longer this time. Normally I would turn on my left side.

So this is what happened in my lucids, not in order of appearance.

1. This actually was the first one. I'm walking down a quiet dark street in a city. From a street ahead on my left, huge, sfinx size lionesses start walking out. Before I duck to the next street, I notice they are all females.

2. I see a street light pole and start climbing on it, hoping for a happy ending. But I can't pull myself up. This is so much easier in non-lucids, haha.

3. I'm walking through a town and I remember the "Find a buffet and see what's to eat" TOTM. I look around and there is a large area with tables and chairs. Not many people sitting there, as the event is mostly over. Not much food left either. Some tables have chafing dishes. I grab a plate and load it with prime rib and mashed potatoes. As I walk with it, I reluctantly decide to taste the potatoes. I correctly remember how in WL I made potatoes recently and had really bad dreams that night. These dream taters were buttery and tasted ok.

4. I'm flying above some modern city. When I see some creatures with black flowing garbs flying a bit above to the right of me. I decide I don't want to have nothing to do with them and I stear left and down. They looked exaclty like thing from acillis's avatar http://www.dreamviews.com/members/acillis/
Haha, I was wondering when will those show up in my dreams : P

5. I'm walking in some modern town, which is really fashion oriented. People are wearing fancy clothes. I look at mine. I have hobo-style green pants that are tucked in my light brown socks, haha. Top is also something reticulous and I chuckle at this joke my mind is making.

6. After a lot of flying above couple different cities, I look at my phone ap. It shows me the map of my route. It's along the California shore, from north to south, not a straight line but making detours here and there. Over central america it crosses over to Atlantic side to Puerto Rico. When I show this to a girl and say it's coast of california, she adds "and Puerto Rico". I think she was from there so it was important to her.

7. This is the only indoors part I remember. I'm looking for my DJ. Somebody points me to a pile of papers and I find one that says my whole legal name on it. I can read it very well. It's marked with red pen. I'm like WTH? Someone says that P. (my WL store director) read it and corrected it. 0_0 I was speachless.

8. Oh yeah, sex. Wasn't very satisfactory. I certainly had better ones. But hey, I'll take it : D

Everytime I was flying, I was able to go higher and faster just by thinking it. I remembered how it was not so easy in all my previous lucids, except maybe last 1-2. This made me even more confident.

This was awesome and I woke up so happy. Thank you, my subC. Love you! We gonna do this again on saturday.

Off today
Last night bed - 10:35
2:35am - 2x alpha GPC
sleep till - 4 am
4am - WBTB
4:30am - 2x 4mg Galantamine

before waking up to take alpha GPC
DR1
I'm a doctor. There are dead bodies washing up on the shore and I'm told to go examine them. It's evening, getting dark and I'm not feeling the task.

DR2
I'm on a hill with some fruit trees. From somewhere, some real people size dolls are appearing tied to the trees. We turn around and there is a rag doll, tied by her arms around the tree and the girl who is with me is happy that she gets another doll.

Yeah, I had spicy food before bed : (

DR3
I'm looking at my watch thinking I messed up. I was suppose to sleep till 4 am and now I woke up too soon, messing up my chance for a WILD.

4:30am - sofa
Fell asleep pretty quick, as I was very sleepy. My head started to buzz as I turned to my left side to fall asleep, after being on my back for a bit.

The head buzz is quite intense. I woke up at 7 am after the lucids.

The whole thing was about 35-40 min long and all in darkness or near darkness. Like at night with bad visibility.

I started out with looking for sex : ( Got undressed, first the bottom, then the top. I remembered how it's not easy for me to get undressed in dreams, because it seems like new garments are showing up on me or I get tangled in so I can never really take everything off. So this time I moved slowly and really paid attention to getting my clothes of. Finally it was done.

I found a few partners but I wanted more.

Then I moved on. Few times I looked at my hands, remembering that I didn't do it in my last lucids. So I look and count the fingers. There is more of them on the left hand and the extra fingers are coming out crooked and short.

I end up on a busy street. I stand in the middle of it and "remember" the TOTM to make a car disappear. I focus on a truck or a bus. It starts to sparkle and colors lose intensity. I wish it to disappear completely and a wave of invisibility washes over it and it disappears.

Then I remembered that the TOTM was to lift a car, not to make it disappear. There are no more cars around, so I fly and I want to land on a prking lot that finally shows up. But I can't steer or slow down.

I remember spinning which was another TOTM. But I don't remember where I ended up, or even if I just remember me practicing spinning last night.


The whole dream was pretty chaotic. Not clear or vivid, except for some small portions of it. Not much awareness either. I was rushing through it, couldn't make it bright and I don't remember if I even tried.

Last night bed at 10pm. I adjusted my waking time for supplements accordingly.

2:30am 2x300 Alpha GPC

Here I remembered a DREAM:
I'm moving a huge low wooden table and I think I somehow move it too fast because it kinda levitates and I don't stop it on time. It bumps into a wall. Or at least that's how I explain to myself the loud bump. Someone walks in from another room wondering what the heck I'm doing.

We look out the window. The darkness of the night is illuminated by bright explosions over the silhuetts of distant tall trees. I have a feeling doomsday war just broke out and those are missiles exploding. (watched a tv show about doomsday with intent to have an intense dream about it and promptly I did have a dream that night, and looks like last night as well)

After Alpha GPC I went back to sleep.

3:30am - got up for a WBTB.
4:05am - 2x4mg pure galantamine and going straight on a sofa. I was so sleepy. Btw, I took a bite of bread because I was getting hungry and didn't want that to bother me while WILDing.

Woke up at 6:07 from continuous dreaming.

I fell asleep rather quickly and wa lucid from the getgo.

About 20 min into a lucid, I noticed a brief change in the setting and I thought to myself "whoa, that's about 20 min of some very aware and detailed lucid".

I believe I kept lucid for the whole 2 hrs, from falling asleep till 6am. It was getting less aware towards the end, but I was still making decisions.

Since my style of LDing had changed and I don't have chains of lucids with brief breaks between dreams, I'm having hard time remembering details. Before, during these breaks between dreams when I was just laying there in gray emptiness, I had time to retell to myself any previous lucids and even count them before realizing I'm still there and dreaming, all I have to do is stand up and be in a dream again.

Now it's just one long contunuous dream with changes of scenery. Last 2 times I had only 2 major sceneries. First part of lucid was outdoors and second was indoors. I don't know why or how, but it seems like a theme now.

In last night's lucid, again, half of the dream I was outside. Flying over places. One of them was a scary fast water in a deep channel. Was so turbulent as if it was rushing out of a dam. Someone I was flying with asked me if I want to go in a water and I said no. So we just flew by the wall, turning away from there, looking for a landing spot. All spots were stone steps carved into a stone, making a narrow staircase going upwards into darkness. Each starcase was creepier than the other.

Next I'm flying over a futuristic city. It's very modern, I'm flying slowly taking my time, making a conscious decision to take in as many details as I can so I remember at least some of it, knowing that I will have hard time remembering. I'm looking at each item trying to memorize it.

NOTES:
(I think this is from me practicing awareness last night and also last week before that lucid. I have noticed already last week that part of my lucid was a bit different. It was more aware and detailed. Same thing happened last night.

Also, last week after my lucid, I felt this strange surge of passion for lucid dreams. I do love them, but this was like I newly discovered them again. New possibilities have opened. Not sure what it is, but I still feel it. )

I walk up the stairs coming from underground. Like from a metro. I notice the air smells different. It smells real and the world is real and the houses and weather are real. I think to myself briefly without having time to ponder on what it means. I cant figure out the difference between the 2 worlds. Until I walked out, I felt that where I was till then WAS real.

Something like when you walk out to sunny afternoon from a dark theater after you saw a movie. You are still in the "movie world" being immersed in the story, you forgot about the world outside and stepping outside it's a bit of a shock.

Ok, so second part of the dream was me walking through endless corridors, rooms, halls, such as in a huge department store. Only different. Some of the corridors are curved, rooms are smaller and bigger with all kinds of items. All very busy. All full of other people.

I go with the theme of me finally seeing DCs that had been absent in most of my prior lucids. And I actully talk to them. I ask a group of DCs who will be the president. I hear myself pronounce their full names clearly and I'm pleasantly surprised and proud of myself. I ask them if it's gonna be Trump or Hillary Clinton. They don't really answer, except one guy who says "25". Haha. I move on and later I ask another group, but they don't know either.

TOTM
While still in the outdoors part of a dream, I remember the TOTM - dig a hole and see what's there. Although now I think the TOTM is "stick your head in the ground and see what's there".

Anyway, I start to dig a hole in the dirt when I get some not so good vibes and I decide I don't want to go what's on the other side of it. So I stop.

Oh yeah, last part was not very lucid. I spent it on... you guessed it... sex. Any which way I could. At least 20 min of it. Not complaining.

After the lucid, I went back to sleep still feeling the GM and choline in my head, hoping for another LD. But didn't get any more. Got up at 9:12, not remembering any dreams from that part.

Reading an article about differences between OBEs and LDs, I just remembered that I was getting some gentle vibrations just before I fell asleep.

I guess last few times I was doing classic middle of the night WBTB. I didn't do this since I tried it when I first started with LDing.

I was asleep at 4 am when I heard the watch chime, I was just getting lucid, and then heard it again at 5 still lucid. Got up at 5:45 after some non lucid.

Last night
9:40 pm - bed
1:27 am - 2x300 Alpha GPC
went straight back to sleep to get up later
3am - got up for a WBTB
3:34 am - 2x4mg pure galantamine
and going straight on a sofa with back raised to half sitting position, on my back.

Was rather sleepy so when I heard my wach chime at 4am, I was already asleep. I decided to turn to my right side. I think I turned to my left next, before I got lucid.

1.
I was in a mall and we were apparently Canadian. Our canadian ID was getting us in trouble, so we went to a forgerer to get us some new IDs.
He had a creek behind his place and I wanted to jump in a swim.

2.
I am outside and I want to fly. I float up and grab one of the branches of a tree that was growing somewhere much higher than I was. It looked like a jungle vine hanging from the skies. I held on to it and I felt it will help me fly. Then I thought I can just make huuge swings on it since it was so long and I did. That was awesome feeling. Going fast and feeling wind on my face.

3.
I dropped to the ground and wished hard for it to be an ocean. It changed into water and I sank down. The water stayed brownish murky but I made out outlines of some huge sharks and whales swimming by.

4.
I'm in a mall and I walk into a small side room. I drop to the floor and I want to swim in the ocean again. I look down and the floor is painted with an ocean scene. Beautiful blue water with sea creatures of all colors. I just flopped there for a while when I realized it's not gonna happen.

5.
I'm standing on a shore of a wide concrete cannal with a rather steep slope leading to the water. I look closer and there are fish swimming in oval shape in this completely clear water. I watch in fascination small fish, big fish, blue fish, red fish, haha, mantas and all kinds and shapes and sized of fish slowly swimming by.

6.
I'm showing somebody how to phase through objects. I pick a trashcan on the street and walk through it like a ghost.

7. Last dream, already non-lucid.
I think this is still at the forgerers place. Somebody wants to put fish into my aquarium and I say hell no, I barely waited the fish out to die, I don't want any more fish. They say "but they are alive" and sure enough, 2 tough fish are swimming around. The more I look, the more creatures I find living in there. I think I start changing the water.

This should be a dream sign for me. Reading Ophelia's DJ last night during WBTB, when she said aquarium is her dream sign, I realized I have lots of aquarium and fish in a water dreams. And then I have both of them, haha.