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Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• BT: ~23:15 , OOB: ~08:24, fitbit score: 84 (8:00 asleep, 1:10 awake, 0:37 deep, 1:01 REM, 91%); no supps
• Wakings:
  
  1. 01:13 b/r, no recall
  2. 05:14, b/r, recall, 1 hr BTS but finally BTS; recall fairly vivid with decent presence, noticing things, thinking about them
  3. 08:24 OOB

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W2: Bathroom Pod
In an indoor space, house maybe, or a dorm, I need to pee and I enter the bathroom, which is a round room right about 2-3 meters in diameter in the middle of a corridor. It has sliding curtains on each end, and I slide them closed on both sides. At the top where the curtain meets the wall, there is a latching mechanism that locks the curtain in place. I flip the lock (down? up?) (it's like a light switch, a vertical lever) on both pieces.

W2: Sports Announcer Room
I'm getting a tour of a large complex, like a sports stadium administrative area, or a (old?) school. We're in a room that I think is used by the sports announcers when they're giving the play by play of the games. It's a sort of messy/decrepit area. My vision focuses on a wall where there's a blackboard. The blackboard is not clean, there are signs of previously written things there, or a template that is used over and over again, I think it needs to be cleaned. On the wall are signs of left-over posters (?). The guy giving the tour says that "it will be painted" (the walls...to a grey color?).

W2: Touring the Housing Complex
Possibly a continuation of Sports Announcer, the guide and I are traveling outside in daylight along a gravel road that leads through a housing complex. The houses are to the left and right. It is a wide open area with no trees on flat ground, only the gravelly road and the houses up ahead. The houses, particularly on the left, are maid of large, brightly colored stones that look like jewels, many different colors in patterns along the front of the houses. The guy giving the tour said the houses are made of "native stone." (Go inside one of the houses and see some of the people there?)

W2: Movie Theater
I'm sitting in a movie theater. I'm in a central seat in the central back section. The theater is about 30-40% full, with people evenly spaced around the entire seating area. The seating area does not slope much, and the heads of the people sitting in the front sections will obscure the screen a little bit. The screen area is like a small clamshell theater stage, approximately a hemi-sphere. There is scaffolding in the area -- it's currently under renovation apparently. I can see the areas of the curved wall that have been freshly painted/covered with spackle. The display area left to the projector is quite small, I think. Just a few square feet.

A guy comes in and walks down the left aisle and seats himself in the left-of-center section. This is a guy "I know" and "am waiting for," in our group, and I think he should be sitting with us, and that we perhaps should signal him so he can come sit with us.

W3: LD Cream
[Waking up hypnogogia?]
DO, observing, holding in my hand a can of cream. It's used to help LDing? S/O says (or it's written on the can) "I'm 24 and it's still difficult for me." Then S/A taxation, and how the price will keep going up because the taxes will increase, while the base price of the item stays the same.

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• BT: ~00:01 (fb), OOB: ~07:33, fitbit score: 79 (6:47 asleep, 1:05 awake, 1:49 deep, 0:49 REM, 88%); MT-1, LT200, AP50, Tryp500, Omnk
• Wakings:
  
  1. 02:26 b/r, no recall
  2. 05:44, recall, no BTS? (maybe light sleep?)
  3. 07:33 OOB

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W2: Baby Decompression
DO indoors hospital treatment room. A baby has suffered a compressive neck injury, and is placed in a vertically seated decompression device. The baby is held in place and cannot move during the procedure. The baby seems happy at first. Then the decompression device begins to work, and stretches the baby to about 2x its normal height. The expression on the face of the baby moves to abject horror as it unexpectedly experiences excruciating pain. It is completely helpless to affect what is happening to him.

W2: Water Level
Tires

Outdoors, standing on some sort of boat (?) in a locks. I'm looking forwards, facing the side of the lock, and looking up. Along the edge there in a long line I see several rows (length-wise, one after the other) of old tires or buoys that look very rotten. They appear to have been under water for a long time, then the water level dropped, making them visible.

Bridge

My position on the locks has changed. I've moved to the end, on a bridge overlooking the whole thing.

Pool

I'm standing on the deck of a public swimming pool. This pool is in another state and so the laws are different and the water is a different color. It is not white, it is clear transparent. There is a staff member/lifeguard there talking about it (?). I think that in other pools, the water is blue.

Flower pot

There is a flower pot there on the pool deck. Something happens with it, there is a bet I make with someone else about it

Coins

I've paying out money for the debt about (the flower pot?). I'm counting out either 6 or 16 <foreign currency>, dropping the coins on the ground (?)

W2: Truck
I'm behind a (white?) pickup truck with vertical ladders on it mounted on its very back section, we're stopped at a stop light. There's a station wagon to the right of the truck, and a kid comes out of the wagon, it's the son(?) of the driver of the truck. The truck driver still has to work, but the son gets on to the ladder on the right back section of the truck. There is a band that moves vertically along the ladder, and as it reaches the boy and moves down over his face and body, it compresses his face and contorts it into strange shapes as it moves over his face. The the boy's mom is on the left ladder, and the movable band comes down over her face and her eyes bulge out in cartoon manner, and distorts as the band moves up and down over her face.

W2 Fragments
Doctor

Somebody (inside a a building? A parent or a doctor?) is saying that somebody else should be a doctor

Baby Dream

I'm telling about the Baby Decompression dream to somebody

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Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• BT: ~00:01 (fb), OOB: ~07:33, fitbit score: 83 (6:34 asleep, 0:42 awake, 1:09 deep, 1:27 REM); MT-1, LT200, AP50, Tryp500
• Wakings:
  
  1. 02:09 b/r, no recall
  2. 03:41 (fb), no b/r, recall?,
  3. 04:46 (fb) recall?
  4. 07:20 final waking, recall
• Didn't record at night, not sure which dreams were on which wakings, putting all except first two as W4

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W2/3: Communion
In a church the communion services is going on, there are people lining up, there is a table/altar/desk of drawers. I'm holding a card of some sort (with an image on it?), and I ask the priest (a woman) if this is OK to have with me, she says no. So I put it in a drawer of the table, then I take my place withe the others and (take communion?)

W2/3: Laundry Room
In a (basement?) area of a building, indoors, it's a laundry room. I see someone with a large laundry cart (looks like a plastic garbage can like the kind with a lid that can be rolled), and I think I want to get one of these to bring my laundry down to the room, too. There is a towel guy in the room (I talk to him?), I'm trying to find the elevator so that I can use it to get the laundry cart down to the room.

W4: Sidewalk
Outdoors/city/sidewalk/daylight I'm walking on a city sidewalk near the curb, there is a group of mixed kids of different ages and adults walking the other direction. As we meet they continue past me I'm walking in the middle of them and they're rubbing up against my arms as we pass each other.

W4: Cosmetics
Indoors, dark/twilight lighting, In a department store? There are sinks and mirrors and rows of cabinets. I'm thinking that a certain cosmetic brand has reduced its produce line for kids: now there is only one model of each product for each sex. I'm at a sink, trying out the soap.

W4: Mob meeting
Meeting at night in a deserted area of a city, near a large building with a covered parking area, with mobsters [DS? Appearing a lot recently]

W4: Contraband
Backpack

I'm forced to take a stash of contraband. I want to refuse it, it's very dangerous, but they're going to check (our backpacks?) that we actually took it. I'm trying to close the zipper on the main upper large section of my old orange Boy Scout backpack. The guys who packed it stuffed it too full. The left-side zipper is broken and won't close the compartment at first, but I run it backwards for a bit then forwards again, then it properly zips. I heft the backpack on my back to feel how heavy it is. I tighten the shoulder straps by pulling down on the adjustment straps on each side's shoulder strap. Then I think about putting on the hip belt, to help keep a portion of the weight off of my shoulders. It feels comfortable on my back.

Trying to ditch it

I'm taking out all the contraband and stuffing it into a garbage bag, preparing to ditch it or burn it somewhere. There are little microfilms that keep sticking to my hand and falling back to the ground. I have the thought "you don't want to get caught with this sort of contraband, they [the prisoners] will kill you in prison by very painful torture"

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• BT: ~00:10 [too late!], OOB: ~07:46, fitbit score: 83 (6:48 asleep, 0:38 awake, 1:24 deep, 1:01 REM)
• Wakings:
  
  1. 02:18 b/r, no recall
  2. 05:28, b/r, recall,
  3. 07:46 OOB no recall
• Light recall, very short content, low vividness, presence not very high
• BTS at W2 took a while, but apparently did sleep eventually. Another victory, yay!

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W2: Naval battle
Mostly DO. Starting with an overhead view of a map, it shows the position of a naval battle (historical?), then real ships are sailing, and they are firing their cannons, the entire long broadside of one ship fires, I think that's a lot of canons. Afterwards, a team of scrappers arrive and their job is to dismantle the big ship in to parts (for sale?). We go to one end of the ship and they say that they have found objects including an old car hidden inside the structure of the ship using x-ray imagine. They give an estimate for the complete dismantling job.

W2: Bad check con
There are two people, a man and a woman, who run a bad check con. The woman is inside a store and I hear her talking with the owner, she has bought the entire inventory of the store and wants confirmation that everything there is hers now. The man is walking outside on the street.

W2: Observed by woman
I'm inside a room in a house/building talking with people. I see that there is a woman peeking at me around a slightly opened door. I want her to go away. (I push the door closed?). After the door closes I watch the gap underneath the door to see by the shadow/lighting if she is still standing there or not.

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• BT: ~23:55, OOB: ~07:20, no fitbit score
• Wakings:
  
  1. 02:30 b/r recall? chess position
  2. 06:24, b/r, main recall
  3. 06:59, brief recall, tried for sleeping until 07:30, didn't fall asleep, got up at 07:20
  4. 07:20 OOB
  
  
• Recall quality: weak, not high presence, details faded. But I woke initially with no recall at all, and the detail came back to me while I was resting quietly, so that seems like a success!
• I did manage to fall asleep somewhere between 06:30 and 07:00. The dream was super short, but "evidence" was that I was asleep briefly. A small but incremental success in BTS.

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W1?: Chess position
I'm analyzing a chess position, (trying to attract a piece into a fork?)

W2: Pizza Restaurant
Inside a restaurant, there are a number of different pizzas on display on a counter. I'm looking at them to see which one I'd like. They are small, individual-sized pizzas. There is a server there, and he is handing me a couple of the ones that looked really good to me, just the ones I wanted, I think this is a lucky coincidence. One was pepperoni(?), and one was a combination with Italian sausage

W2: Assassin drama
I get in trouble with a group of assassins, (by killing one of them?), and now they're coming for me. There was a long, intricate scheme of how to pull off a murder.

W2: Breakfast Crowd
DO daytime outside view of Shtck S in B at the intersection of Rs street (where the pharmacy and the Safeway are across from each other where Shtck street splits) facing South looking towards downtown. It's early morning, and I get the idea of going for a pasty in a nearby cafe. I go in, and there is a massive crowd. I think it's a bit strange for there to be such a large crowd at such an early hour, but then again it is a university town, so it makes sense.

W3: In CH dining room
I'm sitting down to a tiny desk/table (like 1 foot square) in the middle of the CH dining room. It's dark, like the only lights on are from the living room. My mom is in the living room and she's coming to help me with (some paperwork? my taxes?). I feel like I'm "at attention" and reach down to more comfortably adjust myself, and I do it quickly because I don't want my mom to see this.

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• Wakings:
  
  1. 01:25 b/r no recall,
  2. 04:18, b/r, recall
  3. 05:11, b/r recall?, long hard BTS (starting now or even at waking #2?), pretended to sleep and after some time it worked and fell asleep and dreamed some more
  4. final waking: 06:51 (maybe one more period of sleep? Possibly more mini wakings before 06:51
• BT: ~23:06, OOB: ~08:00, fitbit: 88 (7:04 sleep 0:41 awake, 1:57 REM, 1:36 deep)
• Recall quality: summon quite vivid w/presence & semi-lucid, dept store girls fairly vivid, sex toy w/ presence
• Got close to sleep and maybe did fall asleep between 7 and 8, very relaxed

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W2/3: Car outside CH
With some people getting in to a car on the street outside CH, heading up S street?

W2/3: Pool Privileges
Begins with a DO scene from a high height looking down on an outdoor daylight scene of a large swimming pool and building complex. My dad and sister are commiserating that some woman, despite not having earned it through years of work like my dad did, has free access to this pool complex. Then I'm down in the pool and there is a sort of race or training class, with tons of swimmers (all guys). They are crowding down in to the pool making it almost impossible for me to pull myself out. I manage to pull myself out and sit on the edge there looking at them all in the pool.

I'm walking outside along a path/road above coast line, there is a building and parking lot here, there is a car (?) we need to get into. A bit farther own, (down a flight of stairs?), there are a couple guys talking about a car there, what the did to modify it, and it's special design.

W2/3: Hallway
I'm walking through a long hallway looking into rooms. There are also closed doors. At the end of the hallway is a door leading to a 2nd/3rd story outside exposed (no roof) landing, twilight lighting. Back inside there is a large room and people are meeting and discussing something (it's a control center?)

W4: Summoning Sons
Outside city urban sidewalk, there's a guy there and there's a parking meter. I grab some coins from my pocket (for the parking meter?) and then I'm thinking what can I buy with these coins in the vending machine inside the building here: (water?). Then I hear piano music [ambient sound RARE in dreams, and I've been thinking about this recently], it is the music that my son S1 used to play in his childhood piano lessons [ probably false but I thought I recognized it ]. I enter the staircase that leads down a story to the room below street level in the building, expecting to see my son S1 playing the piano. There is a large open white featureless room with a young boy in the middle (playing the piano? [don't remember seeing a piano]), who is not my son S1. I want to summon my son S1, so I walk further into the room turning to the left, where there is an alcove, expecting to see S1, but when it comes into view, there is no one there, just a large pile of objects strewn around (toys?). I turn back on my path and retrace my steps to the main opening area, now I want to summon son S2 as he was as a very young child. I'm getting very emotional and lose my semi-lucidity, and instead of summoning S2 I'm pleading for him to appear. "S2! Baby S2!" I really crave to see him, he does not appear, either.

W4: Department Store Girls
I'm in a department store scene, a display area (like for clothing or housewares) with a "living room" open area around a central circular low coffee table, and display shelves all around it. The area is packed with girls, sitting on the table, sitting on couches, chairs.

Spoiler for click if you really want to see, slight sexual content:

A lot of them have skirts hiked up around their legs and I'm maneuvering around to get some good views of their panties. I get a few glimpses. I do not belong in this group. It is a meeting of some sort and there are organizers (older women?) on the other side of the shelve barrier around this living room area. They're talking and discussing things. I wonder how long I can keep checking out the girls without being detected.

W4: Sex Toy
I'm lying in bed, my wife L has gone to the shower. I find a red male sex toy in the cabinet next to the bed and am surprised that it's there. I wonder how my wife didn't see it or comment on it.

Spoiler for sexual:

I feel "randy" and put my (ahem) in the thing, I'm not really ready for it, but move it around. Then I see an "on" switch and wonder if the batteries could still be good. It starts vibrating, intensifying the sensation. I start getting really into it.

Then I realize I can't hear the shower any more -- L could walk in at any moment I quickly stash the toy in the cabinet, on the far right back under a pile of cubical boxes of spare light bulbs that we rarely use.

W4: Tickling "Tina"
I'm lying in a room next to a girl, "Tina". I think it would be fun to tickle her, so I reach over and start tickling her sides, she immediately objects, "No, no! Don't do that" I immediately stop. I reach to touch her tummy to see what is wrong with her, she says "My stomach hurts!" I think about lifting up her shirt to see what's wrong with her stomach but decide it's better just not to touch her any more if she doesn't feel well.

Final waking?: Car monster
Sort of vague and short, but the idea is that some monster thing like a Vampire is attacking cars and stabbing a weapon through the roof [day residue: the mosquito attack from the movie Jumanji

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning

Summary of the Night

• Wakings:
  
  1. b/r no recall? no time
  2. b/r, recall? no time
  3. two (or more) wakings after 2nd b/r, but no more b/r
  4. final waking: 07:30
• BT: ~23:30, OOB: ~07:45, fitbit: 86 (7:25 sleep 0:41 awake, 1:43 REM, 1:18 deep)
• Recall quality: decent, some presence, especially for trumpet and tomato
• Wasn't expecting ANY recall for the night because my wife brought home a new puppy yesterday evening. Astonishingly enough, I slept pretty well most of the night. No long BTS! Recall for several dreams came to me on their own, no recording during the night

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W2(?): Cars on the coast
I'm walking outside along a path/road above coast line, there is a building and parking lot here, there is a car (?) we need to get into. A bit farther own, (down a flight of stairs?), there are a couple guys talking about a car there, what the did to modify it, and it's special design.

W2(?): Mountain Biking
I'm riding along narrow tails along fairly steep hillsides, daylight. Some of the trails are very thin. I have the idea (earlier?) that bicyclists need to warm up their legs before they start up a long hill, that going up without the warmup will be much harder. The trails are leading upwards. Then I'm approaching what looks like the back yard of a mansion with dark stone steps, the building is visible just ahead. Then it seems that I'm walking through a Japanese garden, and the geisha staff member women do not like my presence (as a biker?) there, and complain, and I feel unjustly accused [DS].

W3(?): Trumpet Solo
In a large open atrium area [DS], up on a high balcony looking over the main floor below. I'm on the left side. There is a band down on the main floor, and a guy there is playing a trumpet, and he's playing a solo. I pull out a trumpet, too, and begin to play [it's not my waking instrument]. I'm playing some harmony notes. I don't know what I'm doing, I do not know the relationship between the valve positions and the notes, but I'm changing the valves and the notes that I'm hitting are more or less the ones I wanted to. I finished up with a series of notes that involve changing the valves, and end with a nice vibrato long held note. I think the people sitting to my right may appreciate my play. Down below on the main floor, there is a group, and somebody is returning to the group and the group is celebrating.

W3(?): Wanting to Leave the Demon's Service
Walking in some indoor area, with several other servants of a demon, I decide that I don't really want to continue and that I want to leave its service. Then the thought/answer comes that once you pledge your service, it is forever and you can't change your mind. I feel disappointed but I know that that was the rule.

W4(?): Tomato Gift
I'm in my sister's room at the top of the stairs in CH. There is a neighbor girl who has come there, and I think I should give her something, so I decide to give her a big, ripe tomato. At first I tell her that "it is on top of the chest" there at the top of the stairs. But then I come out to the hallway to meet her and give it to her in person (in a baggy?)

Final: Weekend hours
I need to work this weekend because the date is divisible by 72.

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment

Summary of the Night

• Good sleep. Fewer B/R trips (first night of capsule that should help reduce them)
• Recall vanishes easily upon waking. Need to strengthen the intention not to move after waking. Tough, especially if the b/r urge is strong or the body is really tired of its current position. So again, the contents of the dream, while I know there is more, is not all recalled. Need to increase presence and attention
• BT: ~22:45 or a bit earlier
• OOB: ~07:20

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Lost recall

[Woke and still had the impression of a dream but I moved and it vanished. Something about a group of people]

Picking up CL's books

[This came back to me during delving at the final waking]
Indoors, large group of people mulling around, fairly crowded, like a registration area with service counters, I see people and I think one of them might be my friend and housemate CrLe from WFP. I see it is him, then (he?) drops a big pile of books and I'm trying to help him pick them up but they keep falling down to the ground [DS].

Saving Foxes

Indeterminate area, indoors/outdoors, the ground is uneven and there are some fox warrens here with a fairly large opening leading down into the ground. My (?) cat (orange tabby) goes in to a warren and I want to save the baby foxes from being taken out and eaten by the cat. My cat comes out dragging a fox and I grab the fox away from the cat and smack it on the face to punish it, it looks at me with a sort of confused expression then leaves. Then some person does the same, and I also grab the fox from him so it doesn't take it away.

Donate Coins

Indoors, large open atrium area, walking with a group, I encounter a group of young people they are holding out cans that are for holding donation of coins to support their worthy cause. I think that I should donate since I was one the organizer of their group. I dig around in my pocket for coins and pull out a mixture, I find one or two quarters and put them into a can, (only quarters are acceptable donations), I look at the change in my hand, and shrug and say sorry, I don't have any more quarters. Some coins fall to the ground. I also have a small sliver/fragment of a coin. I see a medium-large (about 3 inches across) metallic bowl like a small ashtray with a design on it like the front of the quarter (Washington).

Strange Girls

Indoors, after "Donate Coins?" In a room with a man/teacher, and on the wall of the room to my left, are hanging from horizontal bars (like in a gym class) a group of strange, small girls. They're very small but not child-like, more like dwarfs. Some of them have developed breasts. The teacher is saying, of one girl in particular, that she is happy not doing anything.

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment

Summary of the Night

• Another tough BTS (back to sleep) period this time around 02:00 (~ 3 hours after bedtime), but did sleep and dream
• The experiences were much richer and involved with a lot of detail than what I am journaling. I remember the detail being there in the experience, I just don't remember those details upon waking. I need to work on remaining still upon waking, which is challenging if there is a strong bathroom urge and the body is tired of the current position.
• BT: ~23:00 or a bit earlier
• OOB: ~07:30

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Carousel

Outdoors, wide open area, people around. There is a "carousel" [maypole?] with streamers hanging from it. I grab the end of one and am holding on while the thing spins me around. At first I have to dodge obstacles close to the central pole, but then I'm moved farther out and I can spin around without hitting anything. I go around one or two times

Kissing DB

I'm with Uni g/f DnBrk, (she's riding the carousel with me?). We're nuzzling, I rub my chin on her head/hair, we kiss lightly. At one point she sticks out her tongue and I take it into my mouth and she's saying/thinking "OOOhh, this is much more exciting than when we were going out!

Fire Brigade

Outdoors daylight, park-like area, the fire brigade is here (working on a building?), I'm talking with them a bit, they're saying something

Red/Black

Indoors, cafe-like room with tables. A group of us are sitting down to one. Everyone has on bright red or black shirts. I look down and I have on [don't remember which color]

Sand Racers

Outdoors, daylight, same environment as Carousel? There is a group of people driving vehicles [racing?] through the sand. As I watch one guy drives from my left to my right in a sort of mini car/go-cart, and ends up piling up a small hill of sand in front of his car which blocks his progress and he stops.

Trombone style
A guy is playing the trombone. His embouchure is strange: his lips are extended far over the mouthpiece itself instead of being tucked in front of it. I remember how DB used to play: correctly. I "asked" her about it, and imagined she used the "proper" brass embouchure of pursing your lips like you've finished saying the letter "m" out loud.

first waking: about 2 hours

second waking: about 5 hours (?)

+ [f, vague] something about chess. Analyzing a position? something else about something. haha. just a faint impression of something else.

took 4mg galantamine and 600mg AlphaGPC. Never made it back to sleep, got up around 8.5 hours. Got very physically relaxed and felt a few "jerks" of approaching sleep but never made it over the hump. Happens sometimes when I'm maintaining mindfulness / lucid presence a lot during the day in the beginning.

Boo hoo.

BT early, ~ 22:30
reading TYoDaS before bed, feeling calm, very drowsy.

first waking with recall, about ~05:00?

+ restaurant, seat at table sit left side other guy right, people already eating so no point in ordering and waiting a long time, circular table, this place is famous for it's (lentils? onions? lamb? I see a dish),

+ in resort city? dirty feet. I want to wash them before moving on with my travels. I look down and see them, there's dirt on and about my toes and the top of my foot

+ bandit/gang invades room, hiding in large pit in room under blanket, guy starts stabbing around with toenail scissors, I decide to come up before he accidentally stabs me under the comforter, he stabs very painfully in finger tip and drives the point in painfully, I fight back and pull it out of my finger with great effort, I think our group could fight these guys back and want us to resist the attackers

+ In basement [of CH judging by the layout], I look down and see tiny things skittling/crawling across the floor. Then later they become ants carrying eggs [WL day residue], sweep them up, tiny broom ineffective, I remember there being a huge/wide broom back by the stairs that works better, . Then there is a guy and he's using the special device that is put high up on a shelf it's like a desktop computer seen from the back with foam and controls, I (another guy simultaneously?) saying "you can't use that." Then I clarify, " Yes you can absolutely USE it, but without an advanced degree you won't understand what's going on and can't contribute."

+ [f] putting strange little cartoon-y creatures with huge eyes ("AI"?) into computer cases/boxes

[Super long BTB, fully relaxed but very long to sleep. Get close to sleep several times. I feel myself starting to enter sleep but my mind prevents it/pulls back a couple of times. I again do the "pretend to be asleep" and it takes a long time but it seems to work. I also do SSILD and on the body cycle totally relax my body, sight cycle totally relax and unfocus my eyes, and on the audio cycle I work on stopping using my eyes to "see" and instead use only my mind's eye. Beginning of Hypnogogia but it never really goes anywhere]

2nd waking w/recall, about 07:30?

+ outside in city standing on sidewalk next to street, there are buildings on each side of the intersection so visibility left and right on the main street is limited. an older woman is sliding backwards down the slight incline on a sort of sled heading towards the main street, I just watch her go, she enters the road and I think that's dangerous she could be run over, and sure enough a truck comes from the left and hits her and runs over her, and stops. She is just lying there in the road, and I think I see a pool of blood around her head. I think that I should have stopped her when I had the chance when she rolled past me. I run to the street and I'm holding up my hands to warn off any more cars from entering that section of the road and hitting her again. I'm waving my arms to get them to stop/turn away. A very small car ignores me, goes around me, and continues forward (but doesn't hit the woman), I think that guy was really rude.

+ Sitting outside in a sidewalk seating area of a burrito restaurant. I'm with two other people, they are sitting across the table from each other, I'm to the left of the guy on whose side I'm sitting. I eat my food and finish it very quickly [on sensation of taste or texture]. Now I think I'm going to have to sit here while the other two people take their time finished their food. I look at the guy to my right's food, it's a bit burrito with a bright orange sauce and a bright green sauce as well. I think that is the super tasty hot/garlicky/creamy sauce that I love so much at my favorite Mexican places in SJ. I think man, that's got to be a tasty burrito. I also think it will be very messy to eat since it's so saucy.

[another waking? not sure]

+ [f] driving on a pure black and white road. Everything is full black or full white, no gray. Stripes / checkers on the road, it's a slightly twisty road

+ [f dreamlet? hypnogogia?] A brief scene of two 18-20 yo girls and some adults standing in the distance. I feel an attraction to the girls.

+ at dinner party. Sitting at table in dining room, people around the table. Then standing with the guests/hosts in the kitchen (it's an open dining room/kitchen combination room), and they're serving dessert, which is New York cheesecake. They're handing me the plates to put on to the table at each person's place. One normal piece. Then they give me a very large piece, which I put at my place because I want it . Then they hand me a plate with a VERY small piece, actually a collection of very think slivers all sort of piled together. It's so small I'm not sure where to put it. The host says "oh put that at my place" (or I imagine that?). They're also serving dessert wine?

I didn't remember eating the cheesecake, but then it's gone. I wanted to have some, slightly disappointed.

Then the party's over. The hosts are sitting at the dining table. I'm standing a bit away from it. I'm the last guest remaining. The host I see mostly clearly is the woman, with dark/black medium length hair, she's turning and looking at me. I tell them "Thank you so much for having me!" I realize it's a pain to have a guest who just doesn't leave and tell them that and that I'm going. On the other side of the table I have a large bag like a grocery bag and I look inside and see some bags of dessert, not cheesecake but some other cake/pastry, and I think that I perhaps shouldn't have these. I close the zipper on the bag, there's some guy standing nearby.

I'm at a large sink, I'm running my hands along it, I feel an irregularity like a soft spot, then I look down, and see that the entire corner is completely broken and the sink is unusable. The top material is all gone and I see underneath it a sort of structural support material (like on plastic moulded objects that help give them shape/strength). I tell the guy there that he's going to have to replace the sink. It's a huge sink, at least a yard long and very wide, practically a bathtub. I think (tell him?) that it's going to be hard to replace the sink because (I say this part) they are all built from cast iron underneath.

first waking with recall:

~ 06:00

+ I'm in a gym, on a reclined leg press machine. The sliding back part is flat on the floor and the pressing platform is up off the ground. This one has a sliding back piece that is on rails, it moves while you're doing the exercise. I'm adjusting the mechanism and positioning of the sliding back piece so that I get the proper full range of motion for my legs with the pressing motion. There is a locking mechanism on the right side that fixes the position, it has a button on it and I'm examining it, pressing the button, and sliding around with the back piece to try to feel out the correct positioning. Then I'm doing the leg presses, I do 5 reps, then 10, but I think I should probably not do more than 5, and then I'm thinking about logging this set in my training log book. There is a (man?) standing near/off to the right, observing me?

+ walking around an office. One of the things we need to do is to deep fry a potato, but the question is, where can we find one? There are some onions here on a shelve, we cut them and they are half rotten inside. I think it should be easy to find a potato, we just need to ask around to find someone who has one.

I'm approaching the workspace / desk (out in the open) of Mel. Grf. (grad school karate girl) with another friend/colleague (guy?). MG is sitting at her desk looking at us as we approach. Her eyes/expression is "off" a bit, she looks wild with crazy eyes. The skin of her neck and traps is exposed and I want to move behind her and give her a neck/shoulder massage, as I did at least once before [TRUE]. But I wonder if she will like it or not. I decide not to.

Walking back to my workspace, it is now dark/twilight, the workspace is tiny [DS] and many difference people's workspaces are all jammed together, flimsy small desks with computer equipment on them. GyPld (company n) is there and I greet him as if I were returning from an absence, and I think he thinks that I've encroached on his workspace and that he has pushed my desk back a bit away from him.

[LONG time awake after noting keywords from this waking. Very physically relaxed but mind jumping around a lot. Thinking about my chess game from the evening, and chess in general, and then shutting this down realizing it is too stimulating. No kind of mental relaxation or targeting works. I try "surrendering" and "accepting" my situation. After almost 1.5 hours of this, I try pretending to be very tired and then pretending to be asleep. Zero mental activity, total relaxation, a complete blank. This finally works and I do fall asleep and have a second period of recalled dreams, with a waking

08:30

+ I'm outdoors with a small group of friends. We're on a snowy path/road, and leads down a hill right in front of us. The road is white with snow and very smooth, and we get the idea to slide down the hill for fun. One of us backs up a bit to get more of a running start, and slides down the hill, going very quickly. I look down and see that at the bottom of the hill a green metal gate that goes the width of the road is now completely blocking the road, and my friend is sliding still very fast right towards it. She hits on the left side of the gate where it meets a wide post, and bounces of the gate/pillar up a bit, then lies there unmoving. I know that this is my Uni friend DeniDryr, and I call, "D, are you OK?" She seems to be moving a bit so I think she's OK. I continue to look down at the bottom of the hill and see that the gate is now open, and the road blocked, I do a sort of double take at this as I don't remember seeing it being opened.

Then I want to go. I also move a bit back from the start of the hill, but now the road is uneven, not flat silppery snow, but full of potholes filled with a pool of melted snow. I'm trying to get speed going but I'm moving really slowly. Then (I think?) my friend MR is there with me, also trying to get up speed, and I say "you have to really think about moving fast!" (or s/t like that).

Then I'm through the gate and find myself immersed in water, deep below the surface and I'm swimming up towards the surface. I want to breathe but I know I can't because I'm still underwater. I think of those situations where you're underwater, and the distance to the surface seems so far, beyond what your lungs can handle. I finally break the surface, and pull myself out of the water and sit on the side of a rock or concrete place at the level of the water and look at the surface of the water for a bit

+ I'm walking through a building with lots of people. A group of people is before me. I feel bold and am probably semi-lucid at this point. I see one young lady who I think is Kelly from "The Office" and select her for "interaction". I'm walking the corridors looking for a room offering privacy. We pass one room off to the right and I look in briefly as we walk by but it is filled with people. A bit later on I choose a room (that seems to be a library?) with low bookshelves, and I pick one of these and move it aside and there are still people but I figure to heck with them, then we interact [MEO] and I wake up.

S/O = someone
S/L = something like
CH = childhood home

earlier:

+ in a store standing in a crowd, really tightly packed with people. Thereare shelves in front of me and to my right, curving around, they are about eye level high. There are some of my favorite (childhood?) stuffed toys [FALSE] sitting on top of the shelves, about 3. This store is in a foreign country, and I want to take pictures of these toys, and I say "(s/o) will be amazed that these have traveled all the way around the world and now are in <country>! I bet they (s/o) never thought they (the toys) would end up here!" And I'm asking people to hold them so I can snap a picture.

[I had forgotten this dream! Thankfully I jotted down key words at the waking]

+ In a house with a huge party going on. I'm on the first floor. It is a large open room with a vaulted ceiling and the 2nd floor is like a big balcony looking down on the main living room where I'm standing. I'm looking up at the crowd on the 2nd floor, and they're looking down at me. The people are packed shoulder to shoulder. I see the face of old University friend NsfIsk standing a few people back from the front of the crowd, we make eye contact. I say S/L yes it's me, <my name>." And NI says, "it's me, NI", and I say, "Yes I see you!". I was standing on the right side of the balcony on the first floor. Then I'm on the 2nd floor, on the left side, and I'm thinking about the huge load of weight all these people must be having on the 2nd floor structure, they're dancing and hopping (and the floor is moving?) I'm thinking about the vertical support beams, and how they're probably barely holding up this load.

+ walking outdoors, I'm following some path. (There are some rhythmically moving obstaces? Not sure. I make it past). I walk under an overpass, and now it's like I'm in a wide long cave with rough stone walls, more like a stone hill, leading up and to the left. I see "footprints" embedded in the rock, and I take this as a hint that I should follow this path. The path opens out to a wide open atrium/room like in an office building, and the wall is now made of rubber with tendrils extended out, these I think are to grab your feet and hold them so you can walk down the wall. I do this and end up standing on the floor in the atrium

later:

+ I'm outside on the deck at my CH. I'm trying to watch something? The idea comes up (s/o recommends?) to use a projector and project it on the oak tree across from the deck as a "screen", and I look to my left further down the deck and see a large projector system sitting right there on the railing. (Mom and dad are there?). I project the image and it's pretty well seen there on the trees across from the deck. Then I'm there close to the "screen" and I'm adjusting the alignment between the screen and the projector, trying to get them to meet and to be squarely aligned so the image is not distorted to one side or the other.

+ at a ski resort, with a group (of kids?), I'm a sort of leader/organizer, I'm lining up skis along a long stand for the group members to take. I'm trying to get the skis to stand upright, I sort of "weave" the skis between long horizontal slats that make up the stand/fence. I take my skis and I notice that the toe fastener/clamp doesn't look quite right, like it's not going to hold my foot well, but I manage to adjust it to hold my foot satisfactorily.

My (deceased) MIL Z is there, and I'm a little bit worried about how she's going to be on her skis. I want to tell her how to stop using the "wedge" procedure. But to my surprise she seems quite adept on the skis, moves easily, even as we're approaching the start of the hill, does a sudden 180 and is skiing backwards! All so easily. "Wow, I think, she's really good and will have no problems." We start out on the (gentle) downwards slope, and she immediately demonstrates that she's able to use the wedge action to control her speed.

We come around a bend and the ski valley is laid out before us, shining and white, extending far into the distance. I think it is a lovely sight and say so. Down the hill are some fancy structures, round like a carousel, (made of snow?) very ornate. I think there is some sort of event (tour?) going on there and we ski there. Some staff member (yng woman?) is there, [this part I don't remember well], (something about a vacuum cleaner?), and she's saying why there won't be any access for us there inside the buildings.

S/A = something about
S/O = someone
S/W = somewhere
S/G = some guy

Sleeping well, but recall sort of low, mostly short disconnected fragments

+ In a store talking with a woman, standing by some refrigerator shelves, she's saying how to get some guy who's bugging is to stop: she recommends giving him a particular meat/roll (piroshki?) (wrapped in a celophane wrapper) to eat, because it contains a mineral that will make him go away

+ I'm walking corridors and going through doors, in an environment sort of like a hospital, with automatic/controlled doors, and I'm concerned that some zones will close and I will be trapped/won't have access, even though I sort of sense that this isn't true, I think I'll still have access, but as some doors are closing, I still hop through just in time to make sure that I'm not trapped outside where I want to be

+ [f] discussion of studying astrology (astro-physics?) as a legitimate branch of mathematics

+ [f] s/a best friend MR in a cot/bed (in a room with other beds?) is offering to share the music he's listening to.

+ [f] I enter a very ornate bathroom, richly decorated with earth tone tiles and towels, browns and reds, I think this is the b/r that some woman uses and she probably doesn't appreciate my being there.

+ [f] s/w a dragon, vaguely seen, deep down some hole, I think that I have a means to beat it but it is claiming victory

+ My sister P is asking about memory allocation techniques. She wants to know if she should use a region 4 or 5 technique. I ask s/g in front of me, sitting at a desk that is covered by hair/beard clippings, he answers "definitely region 4, but it has a limit of 1GB," I answer to P "a colleague of mine says to use 4". As I'm saying this I think that I should remember his name, even though I don't intend to say it, but I don't remember it

+ [f, vague] something about invoking a Staff of Cure Light Wounds (from Angband)?

+ [f, vague] doing something with a group of young people