non-lucid

Did Sensei's "combo breaker" (1: forget your body, 2: affirmations of awesomeness as a lucid dreamer, 3: MILD-like visualisations) meditation earlier in the evening but only got through affirmations before getting interrupted by a)

23:32 bedtime, no alcohol today

Set strong intention to remember dreams and especially to wake up after every dream.
It worked, probably 5-6 or even more wakings during the night

00:00 Tuesday 2014-06-17

04:19

+ trying to get to the water fountain people are walking across my path interfering with my forwards progress, there's a group of guys at work after meeting, nearby there's wall full of deserts in in big glasses with stems (like giant sherry snifters) each 8-10 inches across

4 or 5 shelves 4 meters long containing deserts in these glasses, they're free, I go for a bowl of chocolate, a colleague goes for the same one in addition to something else and I shoulder him aside and say "this is mine, don't take all the good ones." They make a comment/joke about a guy who used a spoon, licked it, and put it back in the bowl on the shelf.

+ I was called into a board meeting asked to report my experience working at a place in Europe, I look at a map and point out features on the map, I say "my work was more on the Italian side of the border", I see the map and the features of water and land masses, they form a pattern like the hands of a clock, I was trying to tell the location that I was talking about as a point on this clock. My place was 2-3 o-clock. I didn't like going to these board meetings. They worked in the German language speaking area because it was the least expensive.

+ a man was deconstructing large construction cranes outside. "I know how to deconstruct my own cranes" the guy says. He was telling how he got rid of all the various parts, various different people would come and take away different parts, some things he took home, I could see how he neatly arranged all the parts.

+ Someone says "there are too many tiny tox's [dachshunds]," I say "Noooo! There's never enough tiny toxes!" I'm then inside a German-speaking worman's apartment, there's a big fat woman who's cooking something ("okroshka" I think [Russian cold summer soup]), there's another big fat woman sitting in the doorway, and on a stool next to her is an ENORMOUS cat which is a circle about 3-feet in diameter with a normal sized head in the middle (like this one but 2-x wider/taller at least:

the cat is hilarious it's so bizarre, and it says "meow!", I think the food they're preparing is for the dog, and the cat knows this and that the dog will eat the "okroshka" and the cat is really scared of the dog.

+ meeting with wife and some guy in a group, I "recognized" him (false memory), I don't know why they called me to this meeting because this guy knows French because he is French, I think about saying my standard line in French about how I studied French in school and forgot everything, but I don't say it, I shook his hand and think I've met him before.

06:57

+ crazy haired woman is introduced to me she's running for president along with her husband her last name is "Prebelshky". I'm sitting on a couch in a room, I see her walking across the room from right to left and go "whoa look at that hair," her hairdo is the shape of a mushroom and about 6-feet in diameter, it's amazingly huge. I try to say "pleased to meet you," but I have some trouble speaking so I have to repeat it. At first the big-haired-woman doesn't want to be introduced but then she comes and talks to me. I'm sitting down she's standing a few feet in front of me and as she approaches she makes 3 signs of the cross at super-human speed, her arm is almost a blur.

+ I arrive to a group sitting around a large table outside, there's no space initially, they're eating, the leader says "oh, hi! come sit down!", people scoot aside and I sit down at the table. The leader offers me some chardonnay, I say "yeah, sure, I'll have some." As I sit down some guy says "you have to continue your bulking, you can't stay under the control of your mother [so you can get the chicks]." (I visualize a guy sitting down at a table in a restaurant, he has a salad with a lot of tomatoes on it). I get a glass. Someone hands me a piece of food without a plate, I stick my hand out, and it drops into my hand, it's a piece of dark, crunch black bread. People are standing up and leaving now.

There is Al.Tim from L there, (he may have been leader) AT is very knowledgeable about medical things (true IWL), he starts talking about his knee, I say "as long as you're talking about knees, look at mine," I show him how my knee clicks as I fold and extend my lower leg, it clicks evenly about 10 times every time I move my leg, I feel this with my finger on my knee, he says "that's impossible," then he puts his finger on my knee (I feel it) and move my leg and feel the clicks, he's amazed, he says "that's some kind of a (blah blah blah some medical term)."

+ I'm looking at a newspaper it fills my vision, there is an article about shrapnel and how dangerous is it, Vietnamese workers must work with it and I think the bomb doesn't even have to explode, that the little shrapnel pieces can dig themselves into the skin killing the people who touch it. There's also the same problem working with broken egg shells.

+ I'm approaching a crazy cow logo place, a fortress that takes care of animals, someone was upset because one of their animals had gotten lost, outside in daytime. The place had a name (forgot it), "cowzelg?"

+ outdoor eating place, where a large group of central asian migrant workers were eating, there was a line waiting, as someone finished the next guy in line could take his place and eat. The food was displayed in a buffet style on high shelves above the sitting places. It's dusk/dark-ish, I notice a lot of chocolate covered donuts on plates. I was waiting for my turn, I think I could go right ahead, I saw a large chocolate cake on the 2nd story shelf, I was looking at that, someone says it was baked here, I imagine that these migrant workers are pretty good bakers because they have to live away from their families, so they bake, and they start cooking in the evening. Someone gives me a plate and serve myself up a big piece of the cake, I cut it and shlop the piece on my plate, it has a white insides.

09:26

+ nighttime in a house with my dad, I'm on the 2nd floor, I want to leave out a sliding glass window and fly down to my car which is parked on the street by the house. But my dad's there and I don't want to show him my flying ability so I go to another room with another sliding glass door out to a deck, I stand up on the balcony, I'm looking down to the street below, slightly concerned but I know I can fly so I step out into the air and glide across the street to the ground, it's a nice night scene. I'm rejoicing in the feeling of flying.

I'm walking through the town (daytime now) and I see some young people on the other side of a barrier playing some game, I climb to the top of the barrier, and look down and see a girl among the people, her hair and face are continually changing, every time I try to focus on her she looks different, I bring her up with me, I'm holding her and I kiss her, she's struggling against me, she doesn't want to, eventually she relaxes into it. I'm trying to maintain simultaneous focus on: 1) my dream body, 2) the fact that I'm dreaming, and 3) the girl and kissing her, in order to stabilise, but the dream "ends." (semi-lucid?)

+ hiding from robot, outside, near a doorway, I'm hiding to the side of the large entrance trying to avoid detection, so I can enter the building, the robot was looking for me, it sees me and I start shooting at it, then I find myself on a large open paved area.

+ in a large, steeply sloped auditorium, people are there, I think it would be much more efficient if cabbages were 50 pounds.

Around the auditorium, I look up and see a few rows above me a guy standing up in a shiny pin-striped suit with a matching pin-striped tall top-hat. I think I knew this guy and he didn't used to wear such suits. I think he's graduated. He and I are talking within a group of people.

+ sitting around a large dining table with a group of people, I'm waiting my turn for the holy water to come around so I can sprinkle myself with it

+ walking up a stairway, in a big house, I meet a group of girls sitting on the stairs, I have to climb over blankets and things to get to them, I ask where I can get a fresh towel, they show me where the towel dispenser is, it's a strange modernistic capsule-like device (watched Star Trek: Into Darkness IWL probably residue from the torpedoes) with multiple spring loaded parts that move aside to reveal the towels stacked inside. I proceed farther up the stairway and pass a small nook immediately off of the stairwell, I wonder "God, does someone sleep here? There's no room." (there's a little desk and work area). I get up to the top of the stairs and enter a multi-person small circular sleeping chamber, there are 3 beds arranged in a circle, 2 of them are claimed already and have yoga mats laid out on them, I see my spot and I think "Oh, God, I forgot my yoga mat."

I find myself back on the deck where I flew from, my dad and a big group of people are all standing around my body, I realize I must have OBE'd when I flew off the deck, so I "fly" around the people and swoop/plunge back into my body and then once back in my body I sit up and say "here I am!"

+ I'm eating a popsicle, but I finish it too soon, it's less than I think I had left. I need to drive to the border, there's a large truck and inside is a portable border guard immigration/visa processing station. I see inside and see a guy who quickly goes through the processing. I need to get everybody out, I wonder if I can convince the owner of the van to lend it to me so I can go get (my own visa?). My wife comes and is laughing, she says I took the van owner's popsicle (I think "ew, that's nasty, I ate someone else's popsicle?" That explains why there wasn't as much left as I thought), she gives me my actual popsicle and I finish it. I want my wife to ask the owner of the van/truck if I can take it. I don't know if I can drive it reasonably since it's so large.

09:43 13C in room, heater on setting I dial at 11:30, window open about an inch. Earplugs not all the way in, much more comfortable than previous night where they were all the way in. No remee.

22:33 pre-betime, yay on time for once

00:00 Friday 2014-06-13

03:17 no recall
2 remee 45-minute nap settings hit
can't sleep: noisy / moving wife

05:20 got up, cleaned the kitchen, went shopping, made pancakes for everyone

08:30 (?) back to bed for nap & hopefully the 2nd half of the night's sleep!

12:00 yay, recall!

+ tender moment sitting with a pretty blonde girl on a bench indoors. She sits down, I slightly touch her, almost accidentally, feeling her skin through her blouse, we're in public so I'm a bit tentative, we get closer, I think she knows Chinese and we're holding a book with Chinese writing in it and I ask her to translate some words, and ask "what's <xyz> in Chinese?", she doesn't answer, we end up sitting very close, cheek to cheek, and she puts her hand on my other cheek. The sort of dream where you despair of waking because it was such an awesome moment.

+ I'm on a subway car and one girl standing a little bit away moves out of the way to reveal her beautiful friend who was standing behind her

+ get on to strangely decorated train car with wife, we start moving, 3rd guy appears, we're not on the right tracks. Entering the car: there are actually 2 cars standing side-by-side on 2 different sets of tracks, we enter directly into the first car from the outside, there is another group just sitting down in the first car, they've taken all the seats. The 2nd car is visible through the wall, there's a door connecting to it, it doesn't look as comfortable as the first car, there's a strange little couch with a small coffee table and 3-4 shaped stools opposite the couch, none of them look very comfortable. We enter that 2nd car since there's no room in the first, wife says "this is the car where (in the old days) they came to (make love)". We start moving, without the main train, I'm a bit concerned that we're getting separated. We're on different tracks. It's sort of dusk/dark out, I'm looking ahead to see the tracks and ours are barely visible under a lot of dust, but the "main" tracks are clearly visible as normal raised RR tracks to our right, I think we won't be able to lift our train car on to the real tracks.

+ in the water, aliens/zombies from a collapsing huge ghost-cruise ship come for me under the water, I'm not concerned at first but realize later I can't get away. The ship is about 50-100 meters away, it is very large and moving slowly, it seems to be large and blocky and made from large rusty parts, it is slowly moving from left to right and slowly turning slightly towards me. I'm sitting/treading water with a group of other people, the ship seems to be slowly falling apart and beings are entering the water. They're coming for me, I'm not concerned at first I think I can get away but they get close and start grabbing at me, I move away and am a bit pissed that the others aren't helping me, and I realize they're going to get me.

+ near epic (with better memory it would be epic), long, alien invasion adventure: I'm fighting for the resistance.

A scene on a set of large open hills, the resistance fighters (hundreds of them) are all swooping around the trees holding on to chains in one hand and a chainsaw in the other, as they swoop around the trees they cut down the trees, opening the landscape, I think this is advantageous for the resistance.

Some aliens left and returned with a lot less food than it should have taken, I realize they went to visit the "time-keepers", aliens set in lonely space stations observing, they took samples of food (made from humans), the time-keeprers chose their favourite.

I'm on a bus with humans, I declare strongly under my breath, "DEATH to the bugs!" and everybody on the bus quietly and intensely responds "DEATH to the bugs!" I say again "DEATH to the bugs!" and look around to see who's responding, there's one person to my right who doesn't respond, I wonder if they're a bug in disguise, or an agent for the bugs, or just shy to respond.

Flying DO through the air over an urban city scape I notice that in the carnage, the rooftops are filled with piled up bicycles and tricycles (IWL my building's entrance has a pile of stuff by the door, including a bicycle and a scooter). I enter a room with aliens, they like to play ping pong. One is playing hitting the ball against the walls in a corner.

I and a young accomplice have snuck into an alien teleportation device, we have to hurry to use it, the alien may come back soon, too late, it returns, and starts constructing a net/web/construct around us to prevent us from using the machine. I remain firm and confident that I can activate the device and still be able to take my friend with me, I think this has been done before.

I'm approaching a group of people/building outside, there is a huge clear punch bowl the size of a pond, you're supposed to take a drink and get in a car that moves along an elevated track. Farther along there are humans who are trying to escape the aliens by moving to (islands?) out in a very large body of water, visible in the distance. I think what's the point, the aliens will just come and drain the water and then go get everybody.

There's more but it slipped away...

00:00 Thursday 2014-06-12

00:25 pre-bedtime
00:38 bedtime

no recording during the night, but some recall during the night.

09:30

+ I'm doing the initiation for some gang, there is a captive who must be killed, I don't want to kill anybody, this gang serves you green food in your room but only if you check in. I put sharpened colored pencils onto a cart and roll it at the captive wounding him slightly, my "guide' is impatient for me to kill him and sets up a timed system where the captive will suffocate at the end of the time, this will be a horrible death so I should be "kind" by killing him sooner. The mechanism is a tube on a wall it looks like medical equipment, the "guide" places a bunch of blue foam earplugs into the tubes as the "timer", when they proceed far enough in the tubes the air will stop.

+ in a room, a girl jumps on my tablet and breaks it, I say "oh great you've broken it", she then helps me find the password so I can log on to it. I pick up the tablet after she jumps on it and see the very big crack running horizontally across the tablet, but I can turn it on and it apparently still operates. The password is something numeric. The girl goes off to find it.

+ ask a lower-class guy in a crowded room to help me with my horse, I think I'm of the noble class, I offer him payment and he comes with me.

+ walking up a winding path road lined with candies, I take 3 different types of mint chocolate, one of them is a huge bar, I'm trying to conceal it

+ quickly jumping down a school-like staircase, the staircase is very wide but each step is very shallow, someone is painting them, I have to be careful to set my foot properly on each step so I don't trip/fall.

+ skiing lesson, there's something wrong with my skis, a strap has become limp it's supposed to be stiff, I'm fiddling with it. The teacher was teaching how to jump parallel turn in the snow. I eventually figure out that I can tighten the strap again and it seems to be working.

+ bowling, I'm at a lane near the right-hand edge of the bowling alley, I bowl a spare. My ball doesn't fit my hand it's too small it's uncomfortable on my fingers, I move to the ball racks lining the wall running along the alley horizontally (like typical bowling alley), at first I'm looking for a pink ball that fits me I try several but they're either too big or too small, then I see yellow balls, white balls, I try anything but can't find one that fits. I see strange balls some are huge and misshapen, up to 4x, 6x larger than normal balls, some have dozens of oddly shaped finger holes in them. Some places along the ball rack are toiletry stores where you can buy things to wash your hands with. I think I should head back to my lane, there must be a ball there I can use, even if they don't want to share it with me.

Some guy back at my lane has gotten 60 strikes in a row, that should at least be good enough at least for 2nd place someone says.

+ eating a big cookie?

00:00 Tuesday 2014-06-10

00:51 pre-bedtime
01:07 bedtime

05:39

+ in a (motel?) room with people, my mother is commenting on the decor (she doesn't like the picture with ships on it), entering/leaving a room I stumble a bit across the threshold there are some guys kneeling down on the floor interacting with some object there that I tripped over.

+ walking through motel rooms, (we're the decorators?) we enter one entirely painted in bright electric blue with relief patterns on the walls, I "recognize" (fake memory) the room and the patterns, I go to a table with a sushi waiter where the question is what hard alcohol goes best with sushi, ordered.

+ something with another couple (swingers?)

+ in a room with a black dachshund, I kiss the dachshund, then hold his muzzle right up against my cheek/eye, I'm a big concerned it could turn aggressive and seriously bite my face

+ views of bridges over rivers, they made travel possible from one area to another, some bridges were just long tubes, rather small, hardly any room to pass, one tube had a bulge out on one side that may allow for two cars to go by each other.

Long time getting back to sleep, MILD, WILD, noisy wife kept me awake, uncomfortably too cold, fitful / poor sleep for the rest of the night.

10:29
+ some conflict with another family, walking around/outside their house

+ discussing basketball passing theory for the forward position player, imagining the play while discussing

+ observing snipers in camouflage creeping through the grasses, I'm standing nearby, they're taking zoom pictures of objects in the distance, I see their weapons, and then I get the "camera" view of what they're photographing.

23:30 pre-bedtime (relaxing, setting intention)

00:00 Monday 2014-06-09

06:22

very light sleep, I had an early alarm set for an important day, I slept lightly always anticipating the alarm.

long dream, many scenes, definitely felt the continuity of it all:

+ lifting weights but the weight room is empty, no dumbbells available

+ saw the S brothers (DS, CS), DS was sitting at a desk in the open room doing some paperwork, I think CS made him do it, I want to see CS's office. I see EmKl walking in a hallway, they've set up an office in a medium sized dark interior location, their printer is on an island table in the middle of the room, I think that's a great location for it because it doesn't get in the way taking up desk space, I think they're going to save a lot of money because they print in red ink a lot. I notice the walls along one side of the room are made from tall free-standing cabinets/shelves placed right next to each other in a line, they do not reach all the way to the ceiling, I think the room I was in previously was on the other side of the cabinet/walls.

+ I see scout leader DG, he has a sort of science fair presentation with lots of scientific writing on it, some guys turn bad and DG is now an explosives expert, he prepares a huge pile of TNT all strapped together and drops it down a hole and sets it off in order to create an avalanche and block in the bad guys. There is some interaction with the bad guys as they come and go.

+ I'm lying down (on a bed/table?) with my feet up and a bit spread at the edge, two middle-aged women are there, one reaches into my pants and starts fondling my privates, I feel timid and reject the advances, the more aggressive woman says something like "Hmph!" in annoyance. Later on I'm naked under a blanket playing with myself and thinking I should have accepted the offer and had sex with them, they weren't very attractive but they were probably really good in bed.

+ I'm sitting at a table chatting with two guys who it turns out are former Oakland Raiders players, I think it's cool that I know some Raiders. One of them is named Roger Staubach.

+ (I think around the same time as the Raider guys table but with different people) a gun goes off, one of the guys starts to look really bad, he's been accidentally shot, I see one guy with a gun in his hand, it looks like a black semi-automatic, I see the barrel.

+ I go into some guys room in order to use the toilet, he comes in too and I don't want him there, I want my privacy. He logs into his computer by a bunk bed, entering the password. He says his password is a square of squares (numerical). I start thinking about this, it can't be 25 squared because that would mean that the number had 5 has a factor, now I'm thinking about prime numbers and "constituent factors" (it's a bit hard to get out the word "constituent", and the guy gives me a hint that I realize his password is formed from the product of two prime numbers.

+ I saw a picture printed on a piece of large paper, folded, I have an extremely strong sense that I know the scenes on the picture, I say "wait a minute wait a minute wait a minute!" some of them are of the fireplace and hearth in my childhood home's living room, other scenes are very familiar. I see two young girls in the picture , I sense they are the older girls participating in the scene currently. There was a trip to the art glass museum I saw lots of art glass chandeliers. I get a ride home in a car from the girls.

+ I make a statement about there being nothing new in computer science, and some old guy says (about me) "he made a quip about making a quip."

Try for a WILD once things in the house calm down, I'm a bit doubtful that I'll get back to sleep, but I eventually get comfortable and start getting some HI, I feel a light "all body buzz" and I see some HI that I choose to interpret as a tall arcade video game cabinet, so I start thinking of the old video game asteroids and I imagine I'm playing it, I imagine the sounds of the game and using the controls of the game but I don't make it into a dream (at that point).

11:25

some dreams, only remember last one:

+ I'm in a house looking out to the sidewalk, 3-4 young people show up, finishing a run, the young man says "but we haven't done cardio yet". I walk through the house, it's now a gym, the young exercisers are inside using it too, I set up a strange exercise bike to use, I have to move back to the left to adjust some weight settings and I think one of the girls is moving towards "my" bike I say "I'm using that" then I try to get on the bike, it's seat is at the end of a couple of really long poles I wonder about finding something to put underneath the seat to help hold it up.

Bedtime mugwort tincture: bizarre/abstract dreams for the night. Nice night it turns out!

00:00 Thursday 2014-06-05

07:05 alarm

Recall dreams from the night

07:23

+ some leather-strap-wearing girls (I can see a bit of breast) are writhing/wriggling suggestively on the floor, why are they doing that?

+ some rabbits/animals are eating apples, some of the apples have black marks on them

+ I (somebody else?) waves their arms and the giant pile of snowy firewood stacks itself hundreds of feet up into the sky and a hundred yards wide, way up into the clouds

+ building a cabin from logs that are hundred of feet long, tall and black, I'm concerned about them falling over. It's a white/snowy environment.

+ Building a cavernous house, a single absolutely ginormous room, ceiling a hundred feet up, go in this house, I feel warm inside (don't usually notice dream temperature), I want a real window and keep trying to open one but all I get is a computer screen with a heavily pixelated / patterned picture of the view outside, someone tries to convince me that via manipulating multiple reflections this will become a realistic view

+ I'm observing and conversing with some woman who is simultaneously in and out of a wall-sized painting with a mostly blue background, a vertical strip of the painting next to me becomes discolored (green)?, she talks about why this happened (I forgot), the front door opens and blue paint flies in to fill the cracks in the painting and somebody else comes to inspect these cracks.

+ I'm standing at the top of a very tall structure outside, some immigrant workmen have brought 4 large pieces of new construction to be attached (looks like cheap particle board), they try to install one piece but it doesn't fit in the groove in the floor, I suggest removing a screw on the new piece, then I see that this screw when screwed back in won't help anything because the outside of the piece is weak cardboard, the screw won't hold on it.

+ splat cat: a scene outside like a park, daytime, two people have an easel set up and a black cat is repeatedly squashing itself against the canvas to form different abstract patterns, I only briefly see the form of the cat for a split second before it re-splats itself against the canvas time and time again, the patterns are solid black but look like magnetic particles in a magnetic field, sort of "sharp" and 3d.

The splat cat people set up a table and the cat (some dark furred animal) climbs up on top of the table. There's a family sitting directly behind the splat cat people and they aren't bothered by this.

There's a family outside, they're very close, the father and son are discussing what their plans are, someone has to do the laundry, they have a lot of dirty towels, but someone must remain at camp to guard their stuff while someone else is doing the laundry.

+ copy guys: they're making 5000 copies, they set up an impressive assembly line of copiers feeding one another at high speed, only real experts can do this, they're producing an impressive multi-color document, they also have a technique for squaring up piles of cardboard boxes (hitting the top of the boxes with a stick/hammer while vibrating their foot/leg against the side of the pile), I think this is a great technique

There are probably 6 or more copiers, each one is shooting out its contribution to the pages of the document, the pages are all flowing on some assembly line, I"m hovering above as DO observing the process. The document assembly line moves from my right to my left and turns 90 degrees to the left and continues on.

+ packing fail: a bunch of people along with me are trying to assemble large (refrigerator-sized) cardboard boxes with foam inserts in order to pack (televisions?) but the boxes all fall apart in to pieces despite the cargo netting.

+ 5pm at the Skanky Ho restaurant. Arrive at the restaurant there's one ho sitting on a guy's lap. I just want to eat, but there are ho's everywhere, I really don't want them to approach me. There are couches and low coffee tables instead of regular tables, and lots of ho's wearing big fluffy curly black jackets, I think this is probably the main time for big business.

+ following the leaf on the path, trying to read its mind, I sense that it has purpose, I will try to influence it, I lose the leave, then things turn cartoon-y and there is a question about entering/repeating the video game.

00:00 Tuesday 2014-06-03

00:43 bedtime (too late! dangit!) still sick. Watched Game of Thrones S04E01 earlier, always good incubation material there .

Set intention to wake up and record in the middle of the night, and to notice in my dreams that I'm dreaming

06:59

+ riding a streetcar, it's going the wrong way from where I'm going. I see green arrow street signs. The streetcar is heading to the left and I need to go to the right.

+ I'm walking down a street in bright daylight, I'm looking at storefronts to try to choose a place for lunch, I think one of the signs says "bacon", one place is a sub diner. I think this is pretty far from where the people work. I choose the sub diner and enter. There is a picture of a tall hamburger on the wall: burger with onion/tomato/ between 2 buns. Walking through the place, there are some people there, I notice a hot tray station in the dining room with what looks like large semi-spherical slices of onion in a rich red tomato sauce, I think this is the free side dish station. I see some free tables in a corner, there is a guy sitting at one table with a strange looking wide futuristic looking metal typewriter, I think this is a foldable typewriter and he brought it here in a backpack, I hear him plunking out whatever he's working on. The counter is at eye level, I order and I get a dish which looks just like what I saw before: large circular slices of baked onion standing up in a rich red sauce on a plate. I pay with a hamburger, I try to add it to my plate but I'm having trouble fitting it on there, the girl at the counter helps me adjust the plate. I turn to sit but my chosen table is now occupied by cops, they've moved the dirty dishes/water glasses to another table, I find another free table.

Slow back to sleep, wonder if I'll get back to sleep at all, try long and hard for more recall before this time, I get nothing but the above two. Try to hold on to awareness, realizing I'm holding too tightly, I recognize a "clenched" feeling in my mind, and I work to let that go, and I then fall asleep again.

11:16 final waking, long period of dozing and waking, accumulating dreams

+ I'm in a car with my younger son (who's current age), he's directing us to a place I don't want to go, we arrive and enter a house full of kids, my son takes back a small plastic toy soldier from a boy who's (vaguely) in a shower and crying, I feel embarrassed by this, there's an attractive girl who's eying my son and brushes her hand against his leg, I in turn brush against her boob, then she's walking with us and I'm talking with her, I'm amazed that she speaks perfectly clear English (ARGH, DREAM SIGN [I reside in a non-Enlish speaking country]), she says she spent time in San Francisco.

Spoiler for explicit:

I walk by another girl doing something with her mouth and I say "you want to suck on something hard?" and I take out my <ahem> and offer it to her (put it in her mouth?), it's not hard I say "don't worry it'll get hard"

+ I'm sitting at a table with other adults, I figure out they're on a baseball team, I'm contributing to the conversation to show I've played the game, I mention "I was born in B", they recruit me to their baseball team, I don't really want to join, I say I've only really played softball, I imagine fast pitch baseball.

+ I'm with a girl in a house in a public room (dining/living),

Spoiler for explicit:

I take off her bra (it's small and green) and take her tits into my mouth, they're unrealistic, the size and shape of grapes, I'm not minding though, I then go down on her and swirl my tongue around her sensitive spot, it's nice

the door behind us keeps opening, I keep trying to close it, I suggest we move to a room, "and I will make you <finish>" I say, we come around a corner and find 3 men in an art class with easels, they're singing a song in unison, I join in signing and try to get them/me to harmonize but it remains unison.

+ walking through a house / kitchen, it's very messy I think I'll never get it cleaned up

+ walking purposefully through a dark building/restaurant with the owner in a bad part of town, I'm giving options to the owner on how to improve business/what to do, I joke "make me regional manager" as one of the options.

Long night full of dreams, experienced vividly, memory a bit fleeting since no recording until morning

23:58 bedtime

remee on, 10 minute signal interval, 4.5/5 hour delay
left remee signaling every 10 minutes on all night, I think it helped me to sleep more lightly. I noticed the lights several times during the night (being awake, I think, or in light sleep) Also, afternoon nap for 1.5/1.75 hours, it was harder to get to sleep at bedtime but lighter sleep and more aware of dreams, but nothing lucid.

00:00 Wednesday 2014-05-28

+ I FLEW TO SPACE! Saw the earth descending and shrinking beneath me, cities lit in the night-time regions, I was scared to leave the area of the earth for fear of never finding my way back again.

+ In the home of my college friends, do lots of stuff there, they have young children, I revisit them later in the night in another dream, they were playing music featuring the instrument that I play, I say "you always play such great <instrument> music," I hear the instrument very clearly, like it's playing a long solo or a concerto.

+ A buffet with very elegant and nicely sized sushi, I think these are good sized and a real meal (I eat one?)

+ I'm designing some animations in a video game, the screen is live before us floating in the air, I'm trying to show my client (a woman) my work to get her to review it and approve it but she just won't listen to me, I see these animations for a long time, I'm comparing my animations to the build-in animations and how they cover the avatars of the people displayed on the bottom of the screen, the animation is called "over the rainbow."

+ I'm gathering up a board game to take with me to play later and realize I've forgotten the dice, I see them on the ground, starting with the 20-sided die, they're probably required to play the game, some guys say yes they're required, I see more and more strangely shaped dice, 8-sided, 4-sided, 5-sided, then really bizarre irregular shapes.

+ I'm trying to close and secure the sliding door of a rented room, trying to get the panels of the door to connect to one another and to the door frame, it's really flimsy, I think I just can't leave this room with the door open, I think I've left the keys in the room, I debate hopping over the door panels to go get them, I eventually do.

+ I'm flying around a neighbourhood looking at cars driving and thinking about where to park.

+ I'm traversing an unusual freeway exit with my wife, trying to choose the right path through to our destination, we're mostly DO and flying. The earth/ground is unuusally shaped, like rounded tall hourglass columns with steep sides, we're standing on top of one and I think I'll fall down one of these columns if I try to walk down

+ I'm DO flying around large indoor spaces, like concrete parking garages, with my parents, looking for the elevator, I know this area is inside a national scientific laboratory, I see portions of large scientific machines poking through the walls and floor of the garage, I see people with shopping carts near cars?

00:00 Tuesday 2014-05-26

00:00 1.3 scoops UYM muscle builder amino acid mix powder.

remee on, I'm sleeping with it most nights now so I'm adjusting to its "face feel".

02:00 bedtime. Outrageously late. Not my fault, well partly my fault.

09:00 out of bed, recall dreams, nothing at first, then more and more flow in.

+ at work, I see a large (meter square at least) complicated schematic, I think it must have been produced by computer. Walk past a coworker I'm sure it's PS. Some other scenes at work with coworkers, I see my old car?

+ moving into a house in a complex on a hill, we have to unload a ton of boxes. We have to haul boxes up the hill because the complex does not allow parking in the driveway. To heck with that, I will bring my car up and we can unload much more conveniently, otherwise it would take forever. I'm in the driveway looking into the 3-car garage, there are two cars in there already, I tell (my wife?) to move one of the cars.

I see a room inside the house filled with our boxes stacked high.

I am walking through a store at the base of the hill, there are lots of things there (lawnmowers, small devices), I'm looking for a chair on wheels, I can't find one because I think it's against the rules here to push someone on a chair with wheels. I walk through a door in a glass wall (dream sign) and close the door behind me, this is a forbidden door. A guy gets up in my face quickly about using the forbidden door, I could have broken the glass he says. I playfully wrap my knuckles on the glass saying how strong it is, making fun of this rule, I can't believe he's actually bothering me about this stupid rule.

I'm in a stairway climbing up, there are 3 thugs there, they jump me, literally, one guy jumps down over the rail from the flight above me on top of me, I'm fairly confident that I can handle them.

Walking around the back of the house, there is a structure there (outdoor bathroom?) being constructed, it looks like a small electrical substation, I walk past it looking down on the ground and I see all the electrical connections/cables have already been hooked up.

+ I activate a dream control menu floating in the air before me, I have 3 options for selecting locations and replaying a portion of the dream.

Gotta record during the night, running through the list of accumulated dreams every waking works OK but so much detail is lost. Several on the list forgotten entirely (it's late afternoon now).

0:00 Sunday 2014-05-25

01:00 bedtime

A number of wakings during the night, lazy to record, try to build up a mental list of dreams throughout the night to last until morning, run through the list every time I find myself awake adding new dreams to the list.

+ barbecuing, the coals are round black discs with grey ash around the perimeter

+ something about racquetball

+ getting down into a rowboat with someone

+ Larry David asks me to go golfing with him, I'm suspicious since I'm not a good golfer, a tiny toy car falls to the ground I pick it up, look at it closely, and think how in the old days kids would be so happy to have such a toy and to play with it for hours

+ I'm in a smart-girl's sorority event standing at a table, the adult female counselor stands up next to me and says something, someone calls out to everyone "what are you thinking!?", I raise my hand and declare "I was thinking something to myself!" I think this is a really clever/funny comment but the room is silent in response, I think "oops...", we unroll some scrolls and read them.

+ Me and my friend are hastily trying to prepare a weapon against the coming evil/powerful guy, we do not make it in time, I implore the evil guy just to kill me and my friend, not the whole group, I think later why should I die for this evil guy I think my friend and I should double-cross and ambush him.

20:20 put on blue blocking glasses
22:20 mugwort tea (2 tbsp mugwort, 1 bag mixed mint tea) + bedtime

remee on, settings:
initial delay: 5.5hrs (selected)
nap delay: 30 mins
signal interval: 15 mins
wiggle off
brightness: 10% 15% 20% (low selected)
brightness ramping off
pattern 1: sweep bounce x 4, fast
pattern 2: glow alt x 3, fast
pattern 3: sweep bounce x 3, fast

Remee signal didn't wake me up, Don't remember seeing it, maybe wasn't dreaming?

05:36

Lots of short fairly unaware moments, fairly weird, recall came in slowly, had to work for it:

+ something about a monkey going on a lord of the rings quest

+ DO following a train going very fast the train jumps the track and then keeps barreling on down the dirt path, I expect it will jump back on the tracks, then I double back through the neighborhood I was just flying through

+ Somebody (me?) calls out "Shots!" and my friends (7-10 of us) and I all lie down in the middle of the room on our stomachs propped up on our elbows in a circle facing the center. Shots glasses are placed in the middle of the circle. On the far side of the shot glasses from me there is one larger tumbler glass. The liquor is poured and we all drink. I instantly start feeling veeeeeery friendly and cozy with the girl immediately to my right, I this is a little inappropriate but I don't care. We're kind of snuggling up against each other now, pushing our shoulders together and our hands meet (my right hand her left) and we hold hands with curved curled fingers while the next round is being poured. I think the guy with the tumbler is going to get wasted fast. I pick up my 2nd round and look to my left and right to make sure my friends have enough, I offer to pour some of mine into the cozy girl's glass but she has enough it turns out. I think if I'm already this hammered from 2 shots, how could Matt Damon in "Promised Land" possibly do 10 of them, that explained why he was so messed up in the morning.

+ it's a really long ride home on GP Blvd on my bike so I get on the bus, I can't then find my bike I'm looking all over I eventually find it folded up under one of the front seats.

+ Some sort of team-based conflict, I grab an important building first, let some of my team in, then the opponents want to come in too and I feel sorry for them, it's a bad idea but I let them in, then later we're outside and fighting

+ I look down and see I have a small hole in the center of my right big toe toenail, there are grains of sand and grit in there I want to get it out, I sit down, then I see a huge crescent shaped slice of toenail separating from my foot it's about 12 inches long or more

+ a guy I know next to me gets upset when I start talking about documents, I ask how he did his, then I see a pictorial essay of the process of how the documents are approved, it's extremely involved, they start by taking a picture of the documents in a box to prove what you handed in, then I see the finished product, laminated in shiny laminate, with pictures of fancy buildings and churches stamped on them.

+ There's a mall on the top of a hill, it's the only place for the local residents to shop, so it's really crowded, I see a few big black women clerks standing around with really big hair, I'm walking through lots of people in a store, I'm in a grocery store large with strangely curving refrigerator cases crescent shaped protruding from the walls, I turn around and see a large (cheese?) island with 3-4 bored looking women store clerks sitting on tall stools

+ I approach an opponent team (college aged) on their territory, there's about 20 of them sitting down all along the walls in a rectangular shaped room (a table in the middle?) I walk the perimeter of the room and we're trading verbal jabs, it's a tense atmosphere, I make a comment about how I could kick their asses in programming (they're more hardware guys), and I say I'd be the top of the list in the chess tournament, too, I see the list for the chess tournament then on the wall and indeed I'm in the top 1/4 of the results.

+ I hang up my wife's purse from the chair it's sitting on to a long wrack filled with clothes & things on hangers, my wife then can't find the purse,I say it's right there on the right side of the wrack where I put it, she can't see it and says it ussed to be right there on the chair

put remee into nap mode
06:55 was getting very relaxed and close to sleep and the remee hit shocking me awake.

Dreams not "taken to a new level" from mugwort. They were wild & wacky but not much more so than usual, and awareness very low, recall took a long time.

22:45 bedtime

00:00 Wednesday 2014-04-30

05:34

+ in a rectangular bathroom, there's a narrow (1-inch) sloping channel running along the entire length of the long wall into the bathtub, there's nothing else in the room, suddenly there's a flushing sound and water squirts strongly out of a hole in the wall at the top of the channel and down the channel into the bathtub, I think this is water from a toilet flushing, I look at it expecting to see a yellowish color but it's clear water, I think I would not want to be in that bathtub when such a flush occurs. This was quite vivid, I both see and hear the water clearly.

+ in a bedroom with some girls there's one on the bed, some standing around, I keep closing the door to the hallway so we can get down to business, but someone keeps opening the door, this happens several times and I'm frustrated

+ construction of a bathroom, I wonder who's going to carry away the rotten wood, me or the workers

+ in a large area, it's an indoor ski jumping rink with lots of little ramps, some smaller, some really huge jumps which I want to avoid, the snow is slushy like from a snow cone, I look down to my feet and position my skis for a run, the bindings are like crocs and I have bare feet (skiing: minor dream sign, I've seen sandals bindings with bare feet before)

+ I'm trying to remember if I still hold some <company> stock, I can't recall if I'd sold it or not, I keep trying to remember, I need to sell it to raise money.

Tried SSILD, WILD, couldn't get back to sleep. Saw lots of HI. At one point I felt the beginnings of a body buzz and felt my dream hands starting to drift but this got me excited and I woke up

00:00 Monday 2014-04-21

in my lucid hideout. Glorious black of no city lights, utter silence around. Heaven. Just a bit chilly though.

00:43 bedtime

got lazy. Had a number of fun & wacky dreams and just kept building up their memories in my head from waking to waking instead of recording. I successfully kept them all until the last waking of the day when they almost all promptly vanished except the last one. Grrr!

09:59

+ interrupted a couple making out/doing it. Stuck my body into the action, directed the girl down to my (ahem) and she performed some brief oral.

(barely remembered the above...just had a strange nagging feeling: "Wait a minute, didn't I get a blowjob last night?")

+ sliding down the hills to the city below

+ swimming?

+ food / pizza?

+ I'm an assistant teacher to a class of kids. I'm goofing off all the time with other assistants. There's a girl with a ton of tattoos, and some other guys with me, we're singing and joking and ignoring the class. The principal (short man) and asst. principal (short woman) enter the class and chastise us. "Have you been teaching classical mechanics?" he asks? I avoid the question because the answer is obviously, "no." We get in trouble. I'm anguished about this because I think I've wasted a great opportunity, now how will I ever get another recommendation? I'm so concerned, I'm fiddling nervously with a telescoping antennae like from a walkie-talkie, extending it and collapsing it over and over again.

Then one of the assistants comes in saying "the <something> guy [a DC from earlier in the dream] is starting a band!" We whoop in excitement, I run giddily down a hallway, including sliding down a steep ramp, into the audition area where that guy is. I say I play the <my instrument> and can play chords and do some fingerpicking on guitar." I want to say I can play trumpet too (I can't ), just not very well. We're on a small stage getting ready for the audition. I can't find a music stand that works, I'm trying to pull one up but the stands are all on the floor. I look over the shoulder of the band-starting-guy at some sheet music propped up on a piano. I sing an ascending scale saying something funny "la-la-la-la-la-LA-LA COCOA PUFFS!" everyone cracks up. I'm cracking up too, except I find suddenly my mouth is full of food, I'm trying to tell people not to make me laugh so much because I may choke.

We're sudden in custody in a large building in some company, we're still in trouble from the school. There are a lot of people there. I say "friends don't turn friends over to custody at Cocoa-Puffs" [meaning the company that makes Cocoa-Puffs].

00:00 Sunday 2014-04-20

04:45 bedtime

I'm amazed I remembered anything, to bed about 6 hours late and slept for only for about 5 hours, had a few shots of scotch near bedtime.

+ Disc Jockey contest, the new guy vs. me, he has a new-DJ handicap where he can score points much more easily.

+ Throwing thermal detonators in a "jedi knight, dark forces II" themed battle in hallways & around corners, and detonating mines in a dream-incubated battle scene, wow that didn't take long [just started playing it 2 days ago to add some imagination, mix things up a bit, incubate light saber use in dreams].

+ battle swimming through water with another team, I pass them but they attack

+ at the milk products counter I hand in my yogurt and they pull a lid for it that fits out from under something in the display case, I was concerned they wouldn't accept it at first (wtf?)

+ a guy/kid jumps off a rock from a high place landing below and people run to see if he's hurt (dirt bike canyon diving incubation probably).

+ entering a grocery store turnstile

23:34 pre-bedtime

03:46

+ shocked awake after plugged something in and there was a huge electrical POP like the power in the apartment shorted out and all the lights go out.

08:55

+ playing a board game(?) with young people, they're setting it up so that I lose, a fantasy game of some sort

+ looking out over a huge deep valley spreading out before me I'm standing in a high place, I think this would be a great place to fly, but I don't because I think I wouldn't have enough energy to fly back up

+ being in an outdoor/nature area (like a camp), there are people and a counselor, counselor is saying we'll go on a trip/hike, I'm concerned about getting out of the camp area since we have a car he says it could be hours and hours of traffic because there's only one road out of this area, I'm trying to figure out exactly when I need to leave so I can get out at the right time.

+ I have some new property, there's an area in the corner where people come inside and shoot off guns. I go to that area and look for bullets on the ground, and see two holes shaped like baseball bats with something brass colored and shiny at the bottom, I think they're bullets. I imagine I'll come out to this area with a shotgun if anybody tresspasses and I'll noisily cock the shotgun to scare the trespassers away.

+ in a gas station with (parents?) there's a shelf of cleaning supplies, I'm going off on the road, and the parents will continue on their own? I look up into the hills and see a wooded mountain and a road winding its way along and think this is the road I need to go on.