lucid

Last night I had a bunch of dreams, but for the life of me I cannot recall almost anything from them. Just a few bits and pieces. I woke up on my own around 3 and 5. It seems I don't really need an alarm clock anymore because I always wake up before it goes off.

Around 5 (I think?) is when I tried to WILD. I felt myself falling asleep and almost lost it but then remembered and kept telling myself "this is a lucid dream" until finally I was in the dream. I found myself on the top of the roof of a half-built half-unfinished home. All I remember was walking through a door before I woke up. Short, but better than the first lucid WILD I achieved. I think I'm getting better.

Dream Fragments
-Dad was driving with me in the front seat next to him. We were driving over a bridge when he lost control and our car drove off and we fell into the river. The water was very muddy and murky and it was filling up the car fast. I yelled at my dad to open his window, since mine wouldn't work(we have electronic ones). He opened his just enough to have room to squeeze out. I took a deep breath and then we went underwater. Dad was taking so long to get out of the window and I wanted him to hurry. I was running out of air. I think we made it somehow.

-Dad had surprised me by getting us two McFlurries.

-Indian amazing skier on ski hill

-being punished for some reason by someone

Wow I haven't posted a dream in forever. But I am really trying to get back into it this time because there is a particular thing I want to do in a LD and I won't stop(hopefully) until I do that. I want to revisit a scene from a dream I had when I was a kid. A dream that stuck with me til this day. I want to go back to that moment and figure some things out.

There was this guy that had kidnapped two girls my age and I was there, but not really there, to witness it. Me, Brittany, some weird dude, and maybe some other people were having a little party type get together. We were in the middle of the woods but it also seemed like we were at my house, maybe just in the backyard or something. This guy strolls by our party and wants to join in, so he tells his kidnapped girls not to do anything stupid, and they come join in. No one suspects anything, but since I saw what had happened I knew I had to do something. The three of them sat down at a table and they were facing me. The girl with the black hair had a desperate look on her face that said "help!" I winked at her and excused myself by telling them I had to make a phone call. I walk far enough that I'm not in hearing distance and I call 911. No one answers. I tell them the situation and my address and hang up. When I get back I wait awhile and they still don't come. The girl comments that she wants to see my phone, and I give her a harsh look and tell her no. I try 911 again and I don't remember what happened...

I was standing behind the recliner in the living room. My mom was sitting in that recliner and Steph was sitting on the long couch. Leo and Nova got up, Leo grabbed onto Nova's back and then Stella joined in. Those cats were doing the Conga Line! I realized there was no way this could happen and I knew I was dreaming but woke up.



When I tried to fall back asleep, I kept telling myself, "I'm in a LD, I'm dreaming" and was doing pirouettes on a large pink surface that was floating on pink clouds. There was a gazebo next to me on this pink surface. I started to lose myself and could feel the dream taking over me and I knew I was dreaming. But then the damn cat started whining at my door and woke me up. I was pissed..

Flying Lucid
I was walking down the freeway with this big group of teenagers when I realized I was dreaming. Or rather, I always knew. The first thing I did was jump into the air and try to fly. I just came right came down though. I realized that I could do anything if I just imagined it in my head, so I tried again and his time flew super high and then actually flew around for while. I came back down landing hard on the ground. I hen proceeded to jump high in the air, higher and higher each time, and come crashing back to the ground and "die." After doing this from above the clouds, I got bored and thought I'd try visiting space. So I clew upwards and through the clouds and It didn't take long before I was outside the Earth's atmosphere. I went to visit the moon first. It was relatively small and there was another small moon around it. I touched it and it fell away like dust. Then I went to Saturn and touched the fiery ring. I got bored with this and decided to smash back to Earth again.


Therapy Gone Wrong
Take One:
I arrived at my therapy session after what seemed like forever and I took a seat across from the therapist. I started talking to her about some stuff(idr what) and she then lied down on the couch and didn't seem to be paying any attention to me. Another client(or some random person) sat next to her and she seemed to pay more attention to this other person than to me.

Take Two:
Once again, I was headed off to therapy. I was getting ready and trying to get moving so that I would be there on time but things kept happening that delayed me. Somehow, I was finally almost there and I called the therapist to tell her I would be 20 minutes late. But by the time I got there, I was actually on time and had to wait for her to be ready. I was in the waiting room with some other guy about by age, with long brown shaggy hair. He seemed kinda cool, and I think we talked a bit. He eventually left and went up to the front desk of the physical health section of the building and I was surprised that he wasn't here for mental health like me. Anyway, sometime after or before that, I had to go but my shovel away so I placed it outside the door to the building(why did I have a shovel? I have no idea). I went up to the receptionist in the behavioral place or whatever it's called and told her I was ready to see my therapist. After what seemed like hours of getting ready and figuring out how to get here and sitting around in the waiting room, I would finally get what I came here for. But, instead of telling my therapist I was here, the receptionist jokingly told me, "You're going to have to break up with your therapist." And then she said, "She's busy with another client." A client who took my place. The therapist was standing just a few feet away from me talking to another client. I was pissed off. Then, on top of that, my old friend from elementary school(who turned into a bitch) showed up with two of her friends(TL and TM) and they were all dressed up in homecoming dresses. They were sticking their noses up in my business and I asked them why they were here and they said they were looking for cute guys. (wtf?!) I was so mad and upset that I just left.

I know, I know. I haven't posted in forever!! I have really gotta start keeping up with this. I'm just so lazy. This is the first entry in like two months or so.
While editing the lucid/non lucid colors in this it took me awhile to figure out which one was green. I had no trouble with that in the past.. I wonder if my colorblindness is getting worse, if that's even possible haha.

I was rollerblading outside my house when I bumped into an old friend of mine, who was also on her rollerblades. We started talking a bit and then decided to go rollerblading together. We had a blast, going through our neighborhood doing tricks and turns and showing off. To my surprise, she was actually better than me. My mother and sister decided to join us walking while me and my friend skated. I told them it sure was nice to be able to rollerblade with someone at my skill level since none of my other friends can skate at all. So we just had a dandy fun time rollerblading along and it was so fun it almost felt like flying. At some point, I realized that I must be dreaming because I know this wouldn't happen in real life. Even though it felt so amazing, I didn't care that it was just a dream at the time because I was lost in the moment. BO's "My Never" played in my head throughout the rest of the dream. She started doing a cool foot-point-turn-spin thingy that people do in dance and I thought it was so cool so I asked her to show me. I tried this in real life and failed but since I was in a dream I thought I would have more luck, so I tried it. It didn't turn out that great, but better than last time. At the end of our rollerblading journal, I must have lost lucidity because we decided to exchange numbers. I couldn't seem to work my damn phone with a touch screen(even though in real life it's just a regular old phone) and so I ended up giving her my number instead. And that was it.

It was night-time and I was running away from something, no one in particular, just life in general maybe. I felt like I could go on running forever, even when I began to pick up speed. It felt amazing. I was only a few blocks from my house by the new fancy houses when I heard a really loud noise coming from a tv in one of those fancy houses. I looked through the window of the house on the right corner by the four way stop, where the street goes to more fancy houses and a dead end. From a distance I could see the flashes of the tv through the window. I wanted to get a closer look, so I peered in the windows from not too far away. I saw the biggest tv I've ever seen, it was from floor to ceiling, and the ceiling was super high up, cathedral style. In this room were many different expensive things, like work out machines, arcade games, etc. Then somehow I found myself inside the house, staring at this boy around my age. He saw me and started freaking out. I didn't know what to do but then I realized I was invisable so that only he could see me. As he ran to get his sister I checked the place out a little and trie to run on the treadmill because I still wanted to keep running. His sister came in and said she didn't see anything, so it was just me and him. I decided that I was going to follow him from now on throughout his life, watch his every move, and help him if necessary. I didn't get to do much before I woke up though. I remember his parents came home and his dad was lecturing him about something while I was puting on some of his clothes.

I think I dreamt this because of a good book(Certain Slant of Light) I read about a ghost following a person around until they died. It was a very interesting book, and it made for a very interesting dream

In another dream, I was by the beach with a friend and we were looking for an area with high waves so we could body surf, or body board.. or something. I didn't feel like walking to the other side of the beach where the huge waves usually are so I decided to test out the water right next to us. I took a step in and watched the waves come in, observing them. But they were bigger than I thought and they took over me and dragged me out and under the water. I flailed my arms and screamed for help as I swallowed the salty sea water and tried to stay above the water.

Then, a lucid from a few nights ago that I don't remember much from because I didn't take the time to record it till now.
I was jumping up and down, trying to stay up in the air and get higher and higher. Then I noticed this guy my age following me. He had black or brown hair and he was really tall, skinny, and cute. I kept trying to jump higher than him, flapping my arms up and down faster and faster and trying to propell myself up. I sort of knew I was asleep from the start, so I casually mentioned to him "We are in a dream." and he agreed. "What should we do now?" I asked. We couldn't come up with anything cool to do so we just kept walking/flying around. I don't know if I was 100% sure I knew I was dreaming because I thought he was really there with me dreaming. Later in the dream we spend more time together and we climbed a tree and he kissed me. Then I woke up :/

So last night I had a really long(I woke up twice and the dream kept on when I fell back asleep each time), really depressing dream. I don't want to post it on here so I'm just going to give the basic plot of it up until the lucid.

Basically, someone(J) close to me died and throughout the dream I was crying hysterically and blaming myself. this went on for a very long time, it seemed like a week. It was very depressing, but honestly in a way I kind of liked it because it's not often you get dreams with that much strong emotion.

Anyways, I started thinking "What if this was just a dream?" and "Wait, this has to be real! This really happened!" and then "But whenever something really bad like this happens, it's usually a dream.." and that's where it got to me. So I looked at my hands to do a reality check. They looked normal(they usually have more or less fingers) but I still knew I was dreaming. I was inside my house at the time and decided to go outside onto my front porch. At first I was starting to lose it but them I was really calm and everything was very clear(this might have been one of the clearest ones I've ever had). The sky was a dark blue, almost night but not quite. I wasn't sure what to do, but I wanted to summon someone. I couldn't think of a specific person, so I looked over by the tree in the middle of the yard and said "Show me an angel!" and concentrated hard. At first, nothing was happening so I shouted it again. Then a glowing white figure appeared. It was an angel, who kind of looked like Clarence from "It's A Wonderful Life"(which I just happened to watch a few days ago) except this angel actually had its wings. I wanted some answers, to what, I don't know, but I just needed some answers! But the angel only mumbled something I couldn't understand and wouldn't say anything else. I got frustrated and decided to attempt to take off into the night sky. I took a leap from the porch and flew up a few feet, only to float back down because I couldn't stay up in the air. I don't know what happened after that..

So.. the other day I posted something on here about not having enough motivation to practice dream recall or do anything that would help me start having LDs again. I guess just thinking about that was all I needed to have one again! Unfortunaly, I remember almost nothing of it because it was in the middle of the night.

There were people chasing me, it was really frightening. I got out my phone and dialed 911 and told them people were after me. This made me realize that every time I call 911 I'm always dreaming, so I must be having a lucid dream now! But I didn't really want to do anything but see where the dream would take me so I just kept playing along with it.

I was outside in this crowded town full of mostly people I didn't know, along with a few people from my old high school. Many people gathered around a circle to play a game in which they would run around and tag each other and the last one left standing was the winner. Everyone was gathered around watching as they finished up the first round. Then the people running it asked it anyone else wanted to join. My hand was the first to shoot up. Although I was nervous, I thought why not? I don't know most of these people, so it could be fun! My friend sitting next to me cheered me on, along with some other people I didn't even know and they let me join the circle. Then I noticed a few people from my high school and was sad because I never wanted to see those certain people again, but decided it would still be fun. I was placed behind a girl who looked like a slow runner, so I was sure I could catch her, but placed in front of a guy from back in high school. The announcer counted down 3.. 2.. 1... go! Everyone started running around trying to tag one another. I thought it would be a nice friendly game, but then everyone started attacking me and kicking me! I didn't know what was going on and why they were doing this, but I couldn't escape. No one tried to stop them as they beat me up. Everything turned red and then I was outside my body watching it happed. They "killed" me and the next thing I remember was looking at a facebook page of my picture next to 3 other dead people titled "RIP" and my friend's status: Everyone I know is dying! I found this really odd because obviously I was still alive! And I was still out in the open. I went to tell people I was still alive but then I arrived at this snow hill with my grandpa, another dream starting up. There were crowds of people on each side of the hill selling things and me and my grandpa were walking up and down, checking everything out. As we were heading back to our car to leave, I woke up.

So I just got back from Hawaii today! And while I was there I had two lucids in one week! That's like a record for me since I dont really try anymore..

This first one was longer than usual but I don't remember much. My mom was talking to me, blabbing on and on about something and for some reason her annoyingness got me lucid. I went outside to try to decide what to do and did the first thing I usually do when I realize I am dreaming, try to fly. I jumped up and down several times but it didn't work out that great. I'm not sure what else I did but I know it lasted for a fairly long amount of time.

Funny thing is.. the day before I had this one, me and my sister went up Mt. Haleakala above the clouds at sunset and we were talking about how cool it would be to have a lucid about this. And that night I did! It was short, but awesome!

I don't remember how I got lucid, but right when I did I remembered the chat me and mhy sister had and closed my eyes to try to teleport to the mountain. I thought it would be really hard to do but it was actually really easy. When I opened my eyes, I was on a swing right above the clouds near the mountain. I decided to jump of the swing and fall towards earth so I could get that fun feeling in my stomach. I think I woke up shortly after that.

So.. the first part of this dream was really long and depressing before I became lucid so I'm only going to give the short version.

Someone told me that my dad had died and I was like crying hysterically for a long time. Something told me that this obviously wasn't true, but I ignored that feeling for awhile until finally said to myself "this is just a dream" and looked down at my hands to confirm it. My hands had 6 fingers each, so I knew I must be dreaming. I wasn't really sure what to do so I went outside my house and this old disco music came on. There were a bunch of people, young and old, who randomly started dancing. I thought about flying but instead started dancing along and had a blast, until I lost control and woke up.

Short Lucid

I was walking into my garage and things seemed unstable and I had an uneasy feeling and just didn't like it at all. I really really wanted to escape somehow, to get rid of the horrible feeling I was having. Then I realized I was dreaming and was glad it was just a dream. I was thinking about how good I was getting at lucid dreaming because everything was very stable now and I wasn't getting overexcited because I was sort of used to it. I thought about what I should do, and contemplated flying and stuff but decided not to. I walked outside of the garage into the sunlight and saw some kid standing on the side of the driveway. I don't really know what got into me, but I went over to him and said "Have sex with me." and he just said "okay." I don't think we actually did it and I don't know what happened after that..

Swings

I was in my neighborhood walking around and really wanted to go swinging. I came to a house that looked like you could cut right through the yard and get to the park with the swings, so I walked in back and saw a lady staring at me. I didn't want to look like I was intruding so I just kept walking and walking through more and more yards until finally the park came into view. There was a small swing set with some small, boring swings on it and beyond that were tons more swings, so I kept on walking until I got to the main part of the park, which turned into a neighborhood type thing, and it was completely filled with swings. But every single swing was filled up, so I kept on walking and looking for somewhere to swing. Apparently it was a new hobby for everyone, kids, adults, and even elders, to go swinging. People would stay overnight in these small house type places and try to get up early or reserve a place to swing. I think I actually stayed in one for the night, and eventually found a swing.

I remember a few details about a dream I had before this about being roomates in college with my friend(will be doing this in RL in just a few months!) and we checked into our dorm but it was haunted and I kept freaking out as my friend was just sitting there like nothing was wrong. I kept hearing noises, like the door slamming shut and floor creeking and I would curl up in a ball in my bed when my friend and sister would leave me alone. I just remember that it was really really scary!

I was in school and it was about halfway through the day and I really wanted to get out of there, I think because I was just bored and wanted to go home. So I was standing at the back of the hallway where my locker is, holding my books and some loose change, and decided to just sort of.. fall over and faint. I dropped my books, trying not to think about all the people staring at me, and listening to the coins drop on the floor as I fell. I think my passing out was half real and half faked because I blacked out on the ground and woke up a few minutes later. Everyone had gone to their classes, and I found it weird that no one had stopped to watch or help me, except for one of my old teachers, Mr. Belan. He was the only one to come and he came walking down the hall with a wheelchair saying "Sorry it took me so long." 'Wow I don't think anyone cares that I'm laying on the ground barely awake right now..' I thought, slowly opening my eyes and trying to regain focus. He wheeled over to me and I was barely able to stumble up and sit in the chair. I don't know if he told me that someone told my parents or if I just assumed someone told them, but I was really afraid of them coming to the school to pick me up because I felt embarrassed. Mr. Belan wheeled me to my car, but as we went outside the scenery changed and we were in the beautiful mountains of St. Everest. But everything still seemed normal to me so he just kept wheeling me to my car(which seemed like I had been there in a previous dream and left that car there) and when I got there I realized that I had to tell him the truth, that I had faked(sort of) my fainting to get out of school. I slowly fished for socks in my car(no idea why) then turned to him and realized I was dreaming. (It took awhile for me to grasp the fact that this wasn't real and for a second or two I actually tried to wake myself up because I wanted to get out of there, but that failed and I realized this is a dream and I can do what I want) Wanting to get away, I told him "I just want to fly away," then turned to the face of a cliff of one of the mountains we were on to jump off, but instead I turned back to him and told him everything. I wanted to see what would happen, I guess. He got angry at me then started to run away from me down the small mountains. I was easily able to catch up with him though, as I took giant leaps and floated down each mountain. It was quite fun. Anyways, I finally caught up to him and he agreed to have a meeting with me to discuss what just happened. We went to this city and went in this white, old, run down, small building with only one room which contained an old rusty cheap table. As soon as we entered, I saw this strange character. It is hard to describe.. it looked like the cave dweller I had been drawing in real life(don't ask why..). Half human, standing tall, yet a dark green color with long ears down to it's shoulders. For some reason, I recalled seeing it in another dream and becoming good friends with it(though I don't think I ever really dreamt about this thing before as I think about it now) So I went over to greet it and then woke up.

I drew a picture of the creature just for fun

I had a really interesting dream yesterday about climbing up this huge building and then jumping off it and then some terrorist attacking it and it was really long and vivid but of course I'm too lazy to post it. The only reason I'm going to post last night's dream is because part of it was lucid. So here goes..

Balloon
I was inside my house and was holding onto this balloon, which was the size of a normal balloon, nothing fancy. But it started lifting me off the ground. I thought this was really cool so I took it outside so that I could go higher up with it. At this point I realized that I was dreaming but still wanted to see where the balloon took me. I let it pull me up off the ground and I got to the top of my tree in the front yard before it popped and I came back down. It was pretty disappointing. I kept repeating to myself "I'm in a lucid dream" so that I wouldn't forget it. I wasn't really sure what to do after that. I contemplated flying and other things but nothing seemed to interest me. It was like lucid dreaming was boring because I couldn't think of anything to do. Then the dream started fading and I lost control of it. I don't think I woke up.. it just took me right to another dream.

So... I've been sort of lazy on posting dreams... and for the past week or so I can't seem to remember that much because I haven't been getting a lot of sleep because of exams. But exams ended thursday, and last night I got tons of sleep. Tons of sleep=tons of dreams. I wish I could remember all of what I dreamt last night because there was so much fun adventures going on... I'll just try to do my best.

Ski Race
I was really sad, crying maybe, because I was about to do this ski race and I had gotten absolutely no practice at all lately(sort of like in real life- I have a race in 1 week and haven't been training that much). I had to force myself to do it. At first I was going pretty slow, but then I just tried to ignore all the pain and block out everything. It worked, and I picked up the pace and skied like a pro till the end. It seemed like only 5 K, but when I asked my mom how long it actually was, she said 18K. I was so proud of myself. Too bad I couldn't do that in real life.


10 Mystery Adventures!
This was a really long epic dream, but I can't remember any of it! All I remember is that me and two of my friends started doing this mystery thing where we had to solve 10 mysteries and go on adventures and stuff. I don't know what the prize for doing this was, but it was going to be really cool. The first few challenges were easy but I don't remember any of them..I remember that once you completed a challenge you had to go through this glowing circle door type thing and advance to the next level. And it was hard to be sure if you actually did the challenge right so you had to take a risk each time you went through the circle and hope you did it right, otherwise you would either be sent back somewhere or die, I don't remember which one. One of the harder ones was where me and my friend Brittany were on this colorful blue platform and we had to roll a peanut or something in a specific way to try to hit something or get it in a hole... It took a few tries but Brittany got it in. As we completed the challenges we crossed them off a list. We were getting really close to finishing, with only about 2 or 3 challenges left and it was getting exciting. The next challenge was that we had to capture a dragon. Obviously, there are no such things as dragons(even in my dreamworld). But it was sort of like a mystery thing, and we had to figure out how to capture a dragon.. so we saw this bus shaped like a giant red dragon go by and thought it would be a good idea to somehow capture it. We had it come to my house and the people inside of it came out and started trying to sell us some skies. Then I woke up to go to the bathroom.



Capture the Cop/Live/Die/Heaven???
So after I returned to my bed I tried to go back into the same dream because I wanted to finish the challenges and see what the reward was, but that didn't work. Me and two of my friends were on my driveway and for some reason we wanted to capture a policeman. So my friend called the police and told them something was wrong just to make them come to our house. One middle aged, skinny black haired cop showed up at our house a few seconds later. I was scared but I knew I was dreaming so I faced my fears and prepared for his arrival. Me and my friends took a long piece of string and tied it in a particular way that made it easy for us when we tied the cop up in it. Then we brought him to my room and did something... I don't remember what. Whatever it is, I think it killed the cop. We set him free but he just stayed there, crying and praying on the floor. I asked him what was wrong but he didn't really answer. I think he went crazy. Then I realized he was dead. We were all dead. Something went wrong.. I don't know what. Then my other friend Nikki showed up and we were in Heaven. She got a room there but said it wasn't big enough so I magically made it bigger for her, it was like building a house on the sims. I'm not sure who was alive and who was dead at this point, it was so confusing.

Had another lucid today so I thought I'd post. Don't remember all the details. Although for parts of the dream I was lucid, I just continued to let the dream guide me.


I was going somewhere in the car with my mom, dad, and sister, not sure where. We stopped at a car wash for some reason to get food.. or wash our car.. or something. I went outside for some reason, and walked past a little girl and her mother in the back of a parking lot. As I approached her, I rubbed my hand on top of my head in a circle so that she knew who I was. They were homeless, and the little girl said she was hungry.This made me feel really bad so I decided to go to the store and buy a little something for her. I tried to fly on the way to the store by jumping in the air, but couldn't seem to stay up, like usual. It was still fun though. At this point I was thinking "Oh, I know I'm dreaming but I don't care. I never want to wake up." Anyway, I went to what I thought was a grocery store but when I went inside, I saw that it was the same car wash place that I was in before. My parents and sister were there again. I picked out a bag of pretzel-like snacks and started tasting them for some reason. I then picked out a bag of cheese filled pretzels for the little girl and put them on the checkout counter, telling my mom and I was hungry even though the food wasn't for me. I realized that she would also have to buy the other pretzel-like snacks that I had tasted because I had opened the bad. Oh well, I thought. More for the little girl and her mom. I went back to them, flying on the way, but I don't think I ever got to give it to them..

regular/lucid dreams: 10-28-10

I know I haven't posted a dream in a long time so I figured I mise well post one now.

I think this one was lucid, since pretty much the whole time I was attempting to fly and was like "wow I'm so good at getting lucid!" I don't remember the whole thing so these are just some fragments.

I kept jumping in the air and trying to stay up and fly. It was like trying to improve the skill, and I was getting better and better. I was just pretty much having fun with it the whole time. I knew I was in a dream, but all I really wanted to do was see where the dream took me.

(not sure if I'm still lucid) Me and my parents went to San Fransisco for a vacation or something. The whole time we were there all I could think about was going up on the Golden Gate bridge at sunset so that I could take pictures. I kept thinking we were going to be late, as the sun kept creeping closer to the horizon. You needed tickets to get on the bridge, so we got our tickets and started walking on the bridge only to realize we had gone the wrong way. So we turned back and I tried to look for the right way on the bridge but couldn't find it. Time was running out, the sun would be setting soon. I ran into this really old who seemed like she knew her way around. I asked her where to go and first she asked me to do a favor for her.. wait for her till she went to the bathroom. When she was done she still wouldn't tell me... it was really weird.. I woke up before I made it on the bridge, sadly. I was so damn anxious to see that bridge...

I also remember standing on top of a very tall ledge or bridge or something with people around me. I really wanted to jump off that thing.. not sure if I actually did or not though.

Then there was something about going down a waterslide....