LDs only

My LD plan: If I realize myself dreaming not in my room, spin and wake up there. Then find a window and jump out of it without making any RCs before it (I'm often afraid of doing this in my LDs). When succeed, I must spin and appear in a place I want to appear, not in my room. Then stay lucid as long as possible.

Preparation was the same as yesterday, but I had slept less, and time before nap was about 45 minutes.

How I got lucid: I woke up at 9 am, then tried to get back to sleep. Later I had a false awakening and saw my grandma sleeping in my brother's bed (he had already gone to school). Then I woke up the second time and didn't see grandma. Then I woke up the third time and saw her... Don't remember how much false awakenings I exactly had, but then I realized I was dreaming.

Action: So I got up and went to the window. I opened it, but still was afraid of jumping. When I was trying to jump out, I felt vibrations, everything darkened and I felt myself lying in my bed. So I tried to carefully open my dream eyes, but I couldn't. I tried to feel vibrations and I succeeded, later I opened my dream eyes.

So I went to the window again and jumped out of it. The dream became less vivid, I rubbed my hands, went to a man, talked to him, told him what I am going to do now. Then I commanded where I want to appear (I was afraid of other people hearing me talking like this in the middle of the street, damn it) and spin. Everything darkened. I didn't know what to do, because I was walking in the dark. I fell on the ground and realized myself lying in my bed. I tried to move my dream body and open my eyes. I succeeded, tried to spin one more time, but nothing happened. I tried to open the door and imagine I will appear where I want to appear, but it also didn't work. I jumped out of window, flied for a bit, then everything darkened and I really woke up.

Implications:
- Need to think of another way to appear in a place I want to appear.
- Need to think of how to increase my lucidity level, because I am sometimes afraid of things I shouldn't be afraid of.