Elaineylane

I had a really weird that is hard to explain. It was a mishmash of holiday colors & themes. I am obviously starting to feel the holiday pressure. I have tried to live each day, day by day & live in the moment but now I have to deal w/ crunch time. My husband got some seriously bad news after being at his job for almost 34 yrs. The new owners gave them a raise but back handed them w/ going to 4 10's. which is Monday through Thursday 10 hrs a day only 4 days a week. For someone like my husband who works a ton of overtime to keep us afloat & to keep up w/ the added tasks because they fired so many people, this is awful. The overtime is basically lost which is a crazy portion of his checks so he didn't in reality get a raise but will be making less when you add all of this up & add on new insurance rising. Hence, the overwhelming dream. Then there is one of my daughters who has lived w/ her boyfriend for almost 3 yrs now & she just can't understand why I can't afford in many ways to start buying things for his 3 kids. If she gets married I'll have no choice but it's all so shaky. I don't want to get attached to them & vice versa & there is heart break everywhere. It's so complicated because her boyfriends parents buy her 2 kids stuff. There circumstances are very different from our even though his mom works at the same place my husband does. They won a lawsuit & don't have home payments & other such stuff. AHHHHH, it's so frustrating. My poor husband works so hard to pay for all of my medical needs too which they couldn't even fathom. Apparently my daughter still doesn't understand it all. All she knows is that this creates conflict for her which I cannot fix. Okay, I think my ranting is over. (taking a deep breath) Tomorrow is another day.