non-lucid

Day1: 2nd lucid dream I ever had!!

So I had been dreaming A LOT of things and the dreams were very vivid. Somewhere along one of my dreams I was sitting in a chair in a modern villa with those big open windows and it was snowing and I could really see the snow hitting the window from the outside , it was just so super-realistic! But anyways, now on to the lucid dream.
So after about 5 hours of sleep my alarm went of, I went to the bathroom and then returned and layed down. I tried SSILD, but somehow it didn't seem to work. I just could not focus enough on the visual part of the technique and after about 20 minutes I gave up on it. I thought that if that didn't work maybe I could WILD. But that didn't work either and I quickly after I fell asleep. I then woke up 2 hours later and recorded the dreams that I had, cause I was worried that I wouldn't remember them. I then again fell asleep and this is where I had my second lucid!!
I was flying over a city and it was (again as in my first lucid) very dark. The city also wasn't much detailed at all, the buildings were just blocks and cubics. I also (again) had the feeling that something scary was going to happen because of the darkness. So I thought to myself "I want to go somewhere sunny", and closed my eyes. When I opened them I saw that nothing had changed (I thought!). I was hovering above the city and there was also a big sea to the left. Suddenly the sun set and it was really beautiful. First it was orange as it gently appeard on the horizon. I could see the shimmering on the water and then moments later it was fully shining. The city itself was a little 'hazy' and not that clear, but I didn't focus on it anyway. Alright, so the darkness had dissapeard and the first thing that crossed my mind was to look for some details, things to look at. I wanted to see something vivid and clear. I flew a little bit further and saw a little boat next to te shore. I flew down and saw 4 people sitting on there knees in the middle of the boat. They were trying to break the floor with their shovels. As I wanted to see 'details' I went closer and looked at the floor. First the floor cracked and came out, but like just in 1 piece. I was dissapointed at how shalow that had been. But then someone slammed his shovel into the floor and I could see little cracks appearing and was glad it was so realistic (I know, not very interesting, but still :p )
Then suddenly I had an eagle vision from above and saw another boat coming in really fast. Back on the boat I was standing at the beginning of the boat and was not looking at the direction from which the other boat approached. Then "BAM" I heared the other boat crash into the back of our boat and saw the 4 people panicking and screaming. 2 managed to escape but a man and a woman didn't and ran to the very beginning of the boat to run away from the other boat, who already had pierced into our boat and literally split it. Because of the crash the woman fell over the railing, but the man reaches out to her and pulls her back on, but she dies. And then suddenly the man gets brutaly pierced by a spear. After that I get to watch a cutscene from some monsters who come from behind the corner and come running towards me. (It are monsters from a game I played before going to bed :p ) The cutscene ends and suddenly I'm playing this character behind my pc in my room. So I know I'm lucid and can do everything I want, so I go into the settings and set every power to the max. Back in game and superpowerfull I begin clicking on my left mouse button, but it doesn't seem to work because my character doesn't attack. I realise that I must have changed the controls in the settings :p I remember that it had changed to a key on my keyboard so I press it. It works and my character slices one monster and he dies immediately. (I don't actually see myself sitting at my computer, it's like I have a full view of the game, but like in the background I feel myself sitting and clicking)
Here's where it becomes interesting
Suddenly the view changes and I actually see myself sitting there and I hear my brother coming into my room behind me. As I am lucid and don't want him to interrupt and end my dream (I actually thought at that moment that I was awake, but it's wierd because on the other hand know I am lucid...It seems like my lucidity and knowing that it's a dream rappidly changes back and forth, because when I think back on it now, in the part with the boat and the crash I was not lucid and simply looking at what happened. It's not really clear to me...could it be that I'm dreaming I'm lucid in a dream?)
So as my brother is coming in (still looking at my computer) I begin shouting and cursing at him for knowing he will 'break' the lucidity. At that moment I'm starting to doubt myself and I'm thinking that maybe I'm still dreaming...(I know It's really confusing that at one moment I am lucid, and then the other moment I think I'm awake, but still thinking I'm lucid in my dream and PFFFF sorry if this is really hard to follow) So as I doubt that I'm actually dreaming and NOT awake, I open my curtain and become supershocked to see that my street is completely different from what it is in real life. I now realise that I am still dreaming and nothing of this is real (because it was very realistic and everything felt very real). I also realise that this brother wasn't my real brother and tried to decieve me (to believe he WAS real) . So I turn around and look at him (for the first time because he now had entered) and I rush towards him. I begin punching him because I was just really scared that I actually believed he was real. I was really shocked of knowing that all of this was not real and had been created to deceive me. I drag my 'brother' to the window and hysterically shout that this is not the street we actually live in and I feel scared. I grab my brother's both arms and we struggle and trie to reach the upper hand on one another. I felt so betrayed that I wanted to actually kill him. Of anger I began squeezing his wrists and wanted to hurt him. But then suddenly everything fades away and, still feeling myself squeezing his wrists, I realize that I'm actually squeezing my own wrist as I lay in my bed.

So yeah that was dream; I hope it wasn't thàt confusing to read...Is it possible that like Lucidity and non-lucidity change rappidly? Because I have the feeling that might be the case with me. But still day 1 and having my second lucid dream I'm proud of it!