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WE WERE HANGING OUT IN PARIS

Don't know exactly which district, can't remember clearly and the dream wasn't that vivd either. It felt like back at school, when we used to make a trip. We were suddenly forced together with a group of French scholars. We had to go downstairs in a building. A spiral staircase, only it was very confined, nearly no space.

Me and a few friends were wise enough to climb down the middle of it. It was extremely deep so I waited before climbing until we were nearly downstairs. When we finally reached the basement, it turned out to be an underground party, like a club only just a little more staged. We had fun, and my friends were there too.

When it was over and we returned - I vaguely remember which way we went but I recall saying "champs-Élyssées", so it must have looked like that - I noticed my mobile phone was gone. I was completely struck with sadness to losing my smartphone. I could buy a new one no problem, but I couldn't help but be sad, like being attached to it, with losing the numbers and all. I remember crying, yes crying. I was really sad, like somebody had died. Funny thing is, I remember calling my own number, with my own phone . I should have gone lucid there but it was to faint.

When I woke up I instantly realized it all, and was very relieved to know my phone was laying next to me. I don't like being materialistic. But it seems a deeper part of me is still very much into this world. These days I feel like you need to live on an Island to reshape and purify one's consciousness.

I haven't been actively lucid for a year now, I figured it was because I'm not busy with it. That's why I'm posting another entry here just to keep it going. Doing reality checks often is also something I try now and then.

NEVER THOUGHT I COULD FLY

So I was readying myself to get up early the next morning, by getting into bed a little earlier than normal. I had these sleeping pills, that make you drowsy because they have every single natural extract that makes you feel relaxed or sleepy, no synthetical sleeping bullshit or something

Last time I took them I had this plague and thought it was due to the pills, which is very odd since they're natural. Anyway I took 2, as inscripted. Went off to bed.

I had a really fuzzy dream! Didn't write it down, maybe that's why.
So I was dreaming I woke up, checked the time, and it was 11:29. Strange coming to think of it now, seems a good part of my brain was alive enough to be able to read digital clocks... So I got up and went past the room of my brother. I told him I overslept, and actualy I felt really bad about it because it wasn't the first time, and I had reported sick alot of times already.

So I thought to myself "god damnit this can't be true, how could I have let it happen". Instantly I performed a reality check because I didn't take this clumsyness for granted, oversleeping wasn't like me... I performed it, but it's weird however. Before doing it, I already noticed it for a part, that I was dreaming.

I don't know if that's just paying attention to it before performing the check, or just knowing already. Anyway I expected air to flow through my nose even after pinching it. And it did! I was suddenly very aware of the things. I was also very happy to be lucid after such a long time. So I'm standing at the end of the hallway now, in another room. First I tried to spawn stuff, but I couldn't pump any detail in it.

Then I chased one of my milestones yet to be set, flying! I got together all my courage and self esteem, since it's all you need to actualy fly. I tried to convince myself it would go even better by doing a certain move, just to speed it up. So I moved through the glass of the window, which I have no problem with ;P and there it went, I hovered, and by waving down my arms I grabbed more and more altitude!

I got to the highest point ever, could see the houses in the near neighbourhood from up there. It was already an amazing sight. But suddenly a thought crossed my mind, which blocked the flow of self esteem needed to do flight. It was the thought of, not having enough rendering capabilities for any higher altitude. Fear that I won't be able to see much more detail than it already gave me.

So I landed in the nearest street. This time I really sat back to look and notice the detail. Just stand there and percept how much detail a dream can provide! And that's all I can remember.

I have not set my milestone for: STEADY FLIGHT yet. There are also other milestones that need attention, such as finding my dream guide! Or finding my inner self, but these are for much later!

So, could any of you give me an idea of how much detail our brains can render in a dream? It could pump up my self esteem again. THANKS FOR READING

CAME TO ME LIKE A HURRICANE
But I sort of expected it

It all started as a fuzzy dream I would not intend to remember anyway... Part one was kinda weird, no logic activity at all! The second came to me like a hurricane, but I kinda expected it would.

PART ONE
I was being called up by a friend of mine I don't even know well, he lives in another country & said he was in my home city. He said he was in the graffitti alley & he had a girl with him who he said my father told him was the only number 8 I could ever get.

That being a little depressing to hear, and the fact that it didn't confuse me, stayed behind. So I was warping through all sorts of areas in all fuzziness. Until part two... The mirror...

PART TWO
What happened next was unbelievable, I have never had such a touching experience in my dream. Now first some background.. I was trying to attain lucidity for quite some time when it hit me in a dream once. I knew I was dreaming, even without any reality check, but was too lazy to actualy try and intervent.

I hated myself for that, how could I let good oppurtunities slip? Bottom line is, I pretty much know when I'm dreaming, simply because I feel the paralisys on my body. I feel the fuzziness all over! Only then I do reality checks, & my hands are projected just fine in my dreams, so that one failed.

The nose pinch technique was new, I tried that more & more rather than checking my hand. So back to my dream now, I was standing near the mirror, but enough not to look in it (I HAVE A FEAR FOR THAT). I felt fuzzy, I thought I was dreaming, pinched my nose & tried to breathe, WTH? I DID STILL BREATHE! I instantly got sucked into the mirror flying off into a black void spinning crazy!

I then thought to myself, shit i'm losing it here, if I let this happen to go on I could wake up. Note that logics & common sense come back to me. I woke up, pinched my nose & instantly realised the false awakening! I got up & was standing in my room, I was happy & decided to try for my next goal: flying! I opened the curtains & saw the blue sky, but jumping & all that failed... Not enough confidence... I started thinking.

Maybe I need an axe to break the glass & then I'll be free? Maybe just open the window! Go outside? I went outside, running barefoot on the wet asphalt, jumping hoping to fly, but with no effect. I felt my stamina failing on me, I spawned back underneath my room, which was a butcher shop, weirdly enough, I looked through a vent which had salami hanging on the sides, up to the blue sky, hoping to fly there!

I got back to my room, saw my father in the hallway, which is impossible, ran downstairs but then I woke up, for real. Goal still not achieved. Maybe I'll try something easier, like driving a car or do something awesome that I have done in real life already.