davee

well im new 2 this but i keep haveing this crazy dream i keep looking for an answer but only get half ass answers lol. befor i start talken bout the dream i had i have to explain a little bit about past dreams. ever sence i was a child life has ben extreamly unfair we will say n so when i go to sleep i can call opon a dream land as i would call it. iv had lots of good tyms n bad tyms their. but i cant recall the dreams i just know parts of them, and in this dream land their is a girl a best friend, always their 2 point me in the right direction. iv rememberd on multipal ocasions having acual conversations with her like beyond a dream typ stuf like shes an acual person. just thinking of her makes me happy. and befor you say a dream girl no its never ben sexual, that and as i grow older she dosnt. and well last night for fun i went their but this tym she wasnt their i franticly searched the lands for her and nothing. thats when i realised i was that little girl. very odd feeling. n well the dream changed n its hard 2 remember but pritty much i was living the life of a girl. i remember walking thru a store holding my dads hand looking up at him and smiling at him,but he wasnt my dad from realaty, lots of differnt things happend but cant remember sory. but when woke up i felt so happy to be a girl. but now im wakeing up more and im depresed now cuz im me a man wtf im so cunfused lol. im awake now after some coffie n feel beter normal i gess but still very odd i gess what im asking what would make me a little girl in my privet dream land im not gay i am by tho but prefer girls, i will add tho 5 years ago i made a horibly bad choice that destroyed my life and the second i made that choice i heard that girl crying telling me "no dont leave" but i didnt n now wish i did. and sence then i thought of her as my Conscience, but if i was her in the resent dream. makes no sense, unless she was showing me her life. im lost tell me what you think n if you have the same typ of dreams