Pinkmoon

I was in the woods walking down a gravel road that had a few houses on it. It reminded me of where my sisters grandma lived and what I have always known as the "holler" I was with reece and his girlfriend of that time along with a few other people I don't know. I went off by myself for a while. There was a house at the top of the hill. I felt I shouldn't go there but did anyway. I went in and started cleaning. Reece and his gf came up to the window I was looking out of while doing dishes. They asked me to come with them so I did. We walked back down the gravel road and got on a bus heading for I don't know where. I sat down in a seat alone. Reece was sitting next to his girlfriend. I wanted to talk to him but wanted not to show him I had a crush on him. I respected her and him and didn't want to show my feelings on that for I still wanted to be able to be a friend and valued his opinion. I wished he sat closer. (I feel odd in groups of people as well. I felt I didn't know her so that made me uncomfortable along with the weirdness from trying to hide how I felt too). Then to my amazement the someone came up and asked for his seat. I felt guilty for wishing for him to sit closer. ( I manifest things I want sometimes even in life and felt bad for her because of what I wanted ) then reece sat next to me. I looked over at her and I felt she was giving me the "stink" eye. I was so distracted by my feelings of guilt. That I forgotten what I wanted to say to him. I don't recall saying anything at all. Then he got up and went to the front of the bus. I began feeling sad. Then I wanted a reason to go up there and not be back here with her giving me the stink eye. I then notice there is a cigarette in my hand that needs to be put out. I then went up to the front of the bus and passed reece on my way to the ash tray. He was talking to a few people. I watched the bus driver put his cigarette out. The ash tray was in a weird spot. Behind the steering wheel on the dash. I asked the bus driver "can I use your ash tray?". He gestured for me to do so. As I reached over to put it out the bus hit a bump. I fell and dropped my stuff. Reece helped me gather up my stuff on the floor. After picking up my stuff he handed me my things and asked me "why are you upset?". I was surprised he noticed and responded "I'll get over it one day so don't worry". And I thought before running off the bus somewhat embarrassed "I don't want to touch him in any way" then I noticed I had a rolled up paper in my hand....I patted him on the head with it, got off the bus, watched it drive away and woke up.