Choi's Journey of the Conscious Mind

Attempt 10:

Couldn't remain aware this time either.. I think I am going to go back to listening to guiding relaxation mp3:s as a warmup and relaxation just to make sure that I atleast lay still AND are aware of some attempts...

Although this morning got pretty exciting anyway.

[B]DILD:[/B]
I woke up and looked at my alarm and the time was 05.46 I switched sleeping posture so that I was laying on my side.
I started to daydream and think about different stuff. And suddenly I was dreaming, not knowing that I was dreaming but then I got a False awakening and I just knew that it was a dream. I remembered that I was going to focus on one single object. I were standing in my room and I looked at my hands and then something weird happend, but that was probably because I expected that something would happen. But as I concentraded on my hands, the room I was standing in vanished and I started to feel a sinking sensation. But I just ended up standing in the hall, which is right under my bedroom. I remembered that Don Juan from the book had said that one should focus on four objects on the first attempts.
So I started looking at stuff in my hall, but in this dream I wanted to go out and explore so badly.. So I couldn't stayed focused...

Instead I went out of my house and for some reason I wanted to run to my school and I walked out of my house.
I lost my lucidity here and got sort of semi-lucid. I remember that I was happy that I were walking in my town, but when I woke up I realised that I had been at a completely unfamiliar place. :roll:

[B]DEILD: [/B]

When I woke up again I was proud of this attempt, but I wanted to go back again. So I changed my sleeping posture to the side again and I started to make my thoughts vivid. I can't remember how, but I remember that it was easy because I could feel like I had heard a sound if I just concentrated my will enough. Hard to explain but when you just have woke up from a dream I am either still in the dream and I can feel it or I am in this clear state of mind where my thought can go vivid if I just concentrate.

Suddenly I heard a girl singing and I imagined that she was blonde and then I realised that I was sitting next to her :shock:
I was now lucid, but I did not remember my plan of action, so this lucidity experience was really short.
I saw that we had an audience in front of us. I got nervous because I am not used to be in the"light".
I knew that it was just a dream, but it was still scary, they were so real.. I saw that I were in a church but it wasn't normal at all. They talked about evil dogs and nice rabbits and that the dogs are the devils animals.
I asked if this was a sect of some sort? They got angry at me, but I just said that it wasn't logical at all.
The next thing that happens was so weird haha. I walked out from the church and saw a man sitting at a big platform with a chair in the middle. And 10 black girls were holding it up with the help of ropes, hard to explain. It was weird...
I don't know where I lost my lucidity probably somewhere here, but the last thing I remember that I did before waking up was that I did a double sideflip into a swimming pool.

[B]WILD:[/B]

I went out of bed and got to the bathroom and then got back to bed again. I started to daydream and now the thoughts wasn't vivid at all. But I did not fall asleep unconsciously. Instead i lay in my bed for some minutes and daydreamed until I got memory impressions as Lucidology called it. It means that I think that I have heard a sound or seeing an image, but I can't remember when I heard or saw it. I felt some small vibrations in my body and continued daydreaming.
Suddenly one of the daydreams got real. I were in some virtual game and I realised that this was a dream, but I whined over that it wasn't real. Then idea of seeing my school came back again and I tried to find a way to teleport there.
I saw a door and opened it, and all I could see was a giant start surrounded by darkness.
I imagined the view of my school and I could see the school at the other side of the door!
I was amazed over the vividness, but I realised that it wasn't a perfect copy of my real school. For some weird reason I got the idea of taking a picture of what I saw so that I could show you guys. I started to think loud in my head "Where is the printscreen?!" And then I thought "Never mind I can mindphotograph it" ??!?!?!?!?!!
Anyway I took a mindphotographh of it and oddly enough I have perfect memory of it!
Then I went inside the school just to see how it looked compared to the real school, and it wasn't even close.
I lost my lucidity and started walking around my school and talking to friends.

[B]WBTB/ DILD:[/B]

Ok the next dream is to embarrassing to write down.. :shadewink::D
I walked out of bed and wrote down these three attempts, so I guess that counts as a short WBTB.
Then I went back to bed and I actually started to hum different songs while repeating the lyrics (I AM AWARE) until
fell asleep and I got lucid when two hot girls were standing in front of me and wanted to have sex.
I got lucid and the rest you can guess for yourself... :roll:

This morning was very exciting and I am amazed that I could get lucid so many times. But I am a little dissapointed that the dreaming mind is so hard to control.. I am going to keep doing this and hopefully someday I will be able to focus on objects and make the dream completely stable.

And one day I am going to sleep consciously for the whole night!

And here is the Don Juan quote of the day:

- "Is the goal of dreaming to intend the energy body?"

- "One can certainly put it that way. In this particular instance, since we're talking about the first gate of dreaming, the goal of dreaming is to intend that your energy body becomes aware that you are falling asleep. Don't try to force yourself to be aware of falling asleep. Let your energy body do it. To intend is to wish without wishing, to do without doing.
Accept the challenge of intending..."