non-lucid

I have been drinking a tea mixture I made for the past week every night before bed consisting of Valerian root, chamomile, kava, and dream herb. It knocks me out for the most part, but last night I just had a melatonin pill (3mg). I was listening to binaural beats once again, particularly gamma waves.


Somehow my house has turned into a bar, and I am walking downstairs to meet a customer. I had forgotten that she ordered a martini, so I quickly run back upstairs to find the dry vermouth... But it is missing. I'm frantically searching my kitchen for it, and constantly yelling "Fuck!" A coworker of mine was there too.

I slept for about 12 hours this morning, and I had a lot of dreams. I think I slept so much that I only remember very few fragments of my dreams.

I'm in a garage in the woods somewhere with my brother, and there's a chipmunk or mouse or something running around. My brother catches him and sprays a chemical out of a bottle on the chipmunk and kills it. I'm very upset and I start yelling and crying.

I've been using binaural beats nearly every night for the past several months. I wonder if this will help or hinder my quest for lucid dreaming.