Apeiron

This dream took place a day or so ago but couldnt adjust that on here as far as i could tell. anyhow here we go, first entry.

I was preparing a meal of cookies chocolate peanut butter oatmeal cookies was one of em (my mother used to make these when i was young alot), and put what was maybe human flesh in them for some party, so some cookies were bloated, they ate them and started growing pig noses, one of the guests started munching on his pig nose.



It was in an old rickety house i believe, I went back for some food, and ate some tortilla chips but kept spilling em on the floor as someone said I'll get you a plate, then i spilled them all over the floor and became a bit distressed.

I found a grenade an old small one, and kept reenacting how i was gonna use it or wondering who i should give it to.

Some agents were looking at a compartment built into the ground that was sealed with a lock in my back yard at 1771 crocket drive, they were trying to open the lock but failed. (perhaps my locked away memories of childhood?)

I tried to hide the grenade without people noticing in a stack of old logs. (the grenade representing something dangerous, like my schizophrenia or childhood and the effects of trauma, hiding it from the world around me and myself?)

I went back to 1771 crocket drive when i was alot older and my shoes were disheveled, i think something important happened, i said something or saw someone or knew something that I can't remember.

Another part I was with some lady and she got a car but it had no seatbelt for her which distressed me, she couldnt drive it well, saying it didnt drive like her other car, I had the idea to put parts of it in my older car to make it work better. (my moms schizophrenia as the lack of seatbelt car? Applying schizophrenia in some way to the old me to have a car with a seatbelt? Learn from schizophrenia?)