ajoseph11

I fell asleep a few times, because sometimes when I fall asleep I get stuck in my dreams and can't wake up from them which I find to be kind of terrifying. Anyway, the first time I dozed off mainly the issue was 2 giant spiders hanging from my ceiling on single strands, they were kind of just swinging there but since I'm petrified of spiders, it kind of sucked and I got stuck in that dream so I had to try really hard to pull myself out of it, but I wouldn't completely come to so I must've gotten stuck again.

Next I met this lady who was telling me something about heaven on earth, being a chosen angel or something to walk on Earth. And I went to dinner with her and we saw a bunch of wonderful things, there was like a waterfall that you could just float above and the water was all sparkly, everything we ate tasted heavenly. The only thing was though, you had to believe you could be happy to live such way, and I was doubtful for some reason. But she said I would receive a call later if I changed my mind.

Then I went home and I guess I decided that I did believe and I wanted to live the way she showed me, and how wonderful everything was. So I went to sleep and everything was just amazing, it felt like I was having orgasms or something so that's kind of weird I don't really know how to explain it lol the memory is fleeting. Anyway when I woke up my dad was next to me and I was overtaken by feelings of disappointment and disgust because I knew why he was there and I told him to go away but he pinned me down and pushed into me and I cried, then he heard a noise and pulled out quickly and I got up and ran, and I started screaming, I told him I was there, I had almost made it into the happiest place on earth and he blew it. Then I fell over and I realized my phone was ringing, the number on the screen was just 44 and I answered it and I started to get really excited and I woke up. Now everything feels kind of weird