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I am back at an old job. My memory tells me it's been one week and the first few days, I've been productive. The last two days, however, I have done no work whatsoever. I am angry with myself. I am sitting at a couch's ledge and a friend pulls me out of my thoughts, handing me a video game controller and urging me to play their new game. In my awareness, I see the game and feel the controller. The game is a Mario Kart style game but perhaps more chaotic. However, my character doesn't respond to the controls. I comment on my lack of control, yet, I keep trying each button, each trigger, bumper, stick... And then as I was ready to give up, the kart responds and soon, incrementally, the controls become responsive, and I accelerate my character through the obstacles and past projectiles of explosive chaos. A great anxious crowd of people flow past and ahead of me and out of nowhere, I observe that "I wouldn't have sold anything even if I did bring my wares for sale."

Dream lesson: May I observe how my lack of control with the controller was an instance of dream "delay." May I remember in the future, when I experience a lack of control, to stay calm and focus, to let the delay catch up and the stimulation of control manifest. Same as in this dream. And same as when things don't show up.

Interest lucid with heavy doses of repressed psychology. I was cruising around in a lucid when I walked into a room and saw my father. He is no longer alive in waking life. I decided to interact with him and try to experience something interesting. I decided that I had traveled back in time to talk to a much younger version of my father. This took place in a fish store he owned. I noticed a fish had been fed alive to other fish who were eating it while it suffered a long drawn-out death. I remember telling him about the mistakes he would make in the future somehow hoping he could avoid doing the things. I remember telling him he would become very selfish and at times perhaps psychotic. I also pointed at the suffering fish and made some point about his personality. Oddly, I do not think of him as having been that cruel or psychotic.