The Erratic dreams of StaySharp

So this here is a big deal for me. A REALLY big deal!
It's been a little more than 6 years since I started with lucid dreaming, and like many other hopefuls I was also aiming at WILDs. Suffice to say they were very elusive to me for the longest of times. Painfully slowly over the past years I had more experiences giving me insight, like waking up unusually slowly out of a dream, basically an unintentional reverse WILD and all sorts of things like that.

So then today was the big day. I got into bed, decided to get out again and read a couple of things on WILDing again as I was planning that for a while anyway. Set my alarm for a bit more than an hour, sleep, get up briefly and put in earplugs.
They were a bit uncomfortable at first but rolling over and pressing my head into the pillow actually helped. They were just noticeable enough to give me an anchor while shielding me from outside sensory input.
As I was laying there I felt a heavy and tired sensation quickly, the one that's been dragging me back into sleep all sorts of times when I wasn't supposed to remain sleeping, but at the same time I felt my mind be decently alert and awake.
Maybe a minute or so after seriously lying down I start getting intense feelings of motion, I patiently feel into them and wait for them to pass, then I get up.

I'm in my room, it's dark and everything looks normal, and this surely would've made for an FA, but I didn't lose my consciousness at all, so I immediately reality checked with a nose-pinch, and sure enough, I was in a dream. Incredibly smooth and direct transition too. Perfect.
I open the balcony door, and as I wasn't exactly dressed I grabbed a t-shirt and quickly put it on while strolling through the neighborhood. It was very close to my actual living place in K, but there were some differences. I strolled through the place, and there were 2 persons, I levitated up on a building and then jumped down in one swoop close to them, like I often did in a Power Armor in Fallout 4. They did give me a weird look and I made a small impact but it wasn't much.

I conceived a plan to test out more stuff so I thought why not try summoning some beautiful girl? So I went into an apartment building, around a staircase corner and there was someone waiting who was very likely inspired by someone I knew from real life. Had red short hair like my wife currently but looked otherwise a lot different. At least the concepts, proportions, facial structure and the like were a compound of actual people known to me. She wasn't what I was looking for though, so after a few words I got out and repeated the same process (enter an apartment building, go around a staircase corner, meet someone) 2 more times.
The next time was a person that was inspired by one very particular person I know and remember from real life. I asked her about her height which just cemented my realization that she was directly inspired by person IN I knew from many years in my past. Again a few words and I moved on.
The third and last time there was yet another person in the same line, sort of okay looking, but not what I had tried to summon as eye candy, leading me to the realization that somehow my summoning parameters must've gotten restricted to known persons and looks.

I entered one of these apartment buildings again and basically entered a separate space with no way to get back, and it was bigger on the inside too. Hammer space time.
The place was very dimly lit and the architecture was almost persistent, changing just ever so slightly with every passing minute of me strolling through the corridors. I opened doors and explored rooms.
One of the rooms I distinctly remember was a storage chamber, and while looking into it and the vicinity I heard some disembodied voice talking about inheriting riches and getting through an awful time in an awful city, with him thinking he wouldn't have made it otherwise.
Odd but okay.
I also stumbled upon a room that was described as my classroom, with me being the teacher, but no one was there. It also had elements of a kitchen, a train station and not enough chairs.
Here I'm not perfectly sure about the chronological order, but some time before or after those rooms the dream sort of dimmed, and thinks became hard to see, I had the feeling of slipping away. I really focused on everything I was feeling, similar to ADA exercises, and a pulse ran through everything, giving it an invigorated and strong color for a moment. Also the corridor I was in when I did that had some mixture of grass and tiles on the floor.
Towards the end of the dream I heard a screeching sound to the left of that corridor, a terrifying cacophony, which only after a couple seconds I recognized as the train delivering my students.
I went to the room again where I saw them, I think like 5 or so. There was some Yu-Gi-Oh theme to them (for whatever inexplicable reason), and one of them was a snake dude, with scales and weird eyes.
Upon looking into his eyes the dream ended somewhat abruptly as I felt myself waking up, I knew there was no going back so I got up and happily started writing down this entry.


Now I'll see if I can repeat this semi-reliably. Sure, I might not be able to pull it off every night, but this was to deliberate and specific for me to believe it to be a fluke. I can do it again. And more importantly I then should be able to actively incorporate Ryuuko into these dreams.

So this was probably the most stable and most vivid lucid dream I've had so far. Maybe not the longest but it was rather long too.

I'm not entirely sure how exactly I got into the dream. I had been drifting back and forth between sleep for hours in the bed, always trying to think about visualization and WILDing, but never really managing as I always fell asleep quickly. I think this time I lost consciousness just for a very short moment and snapped back at just about the right moment.

So I was lying in a bed, had my eyes closed, and saw mostly normal phosphenia. I didn't feel entirely normal and I wanted to open my eyes and be in a dream.
So I opened my eyes, being in a state of what I'd call skeptical lucidity, I believed that I was kind of in between dream and reality. What I saw in front of me was a massive cupboard that covered the whole wall, though it was composed entirely out of drawers. My vision wasn't normal either, it's like I saw a correct main image but then much weaker and transparent copies of the main image slightly wavered around.

I left the small room and went down a hallway to the left, it was dark outside and the light was very dim. My vision normalized somewhere here. A bit down the hallway I turned left again and entered a very large staircase (5m x 5m or so, the structure was very similar to my first boarding school). Around here I tested my powers for the first time, summoning a faint green glow on my fingers. I also heard some unintelligible voices from somewhere else in the building, but I didn't really care. I wanted to fly but I still didn't trust my current state completely. Then I summoned some weird stone, it was beige and glowed somewhat white and it had levitation powers focused in it, and this is when I trusted my lucidity. Then I did something I didn't ever do before, instead of looking for an exit point or breaking the glass, I just phased through it, and by that also through one of the steel bars that were between the glass panels.

Now I was outside, floating around a bit. Either it quickly turned bright or I have a memory gap here, I'm not completely sure. Now I was in a place that was kind of city, kind of village, kind of medieval, kind of modern. Imagine a small clearing and a raised plateau in front of me, there were tables there with some stuff on them, parts of the ground were neatly layered with stone, parts were grass. Around the perimeter of that clearing were buildings which seemed kind of medieval, but the further the buildings were away, the more modern they seemed. There even appeared to be tall apartment blocks in the distance.
I remembered I wanted to do stuff with Ryuuko in my dreams. I suppose this is the time and place to elaborate on her, refer to this place: Ryuuko Drakisu | Dream-Alter-Ego and persistent DC
So I landed close to the tables on a small free patch. I remember a bearded man standing there. Think of a Nord from Skyrim, just looking better, more realistic and having less of an annoying aura. He greeted me shortly I think.

So I summoned Ryuuko kind of as an empty DC, like a model with only the most rudimentary understanding and behavior possible, which is pretty much what I wanted at this point. I think she appeared in plain sight but I'm not entirely sure. Also there were a lot of details that were wrong. Her horns were reddish and on her side, her face was just wrong and from someone else, the hair was too short and had a wrong light brown color, her skin was too dark, had freckles and actually on all places of her body except the face the skin texture was missing, it was like Vantablack. Though parts of her natural scale armor, that is on the arms and legs, seemed to be present and mostly correct, I didn't focus on their details all that much though. I think I saw her wings in a folded state too, but again didn't pay enough attention to them to tell for sure.
I told this Ryuuko model to start fixing the skin color. What it did was a bit bizarre, it touched its face with its hands and then kinda rubbed the skin color all over her body, gradually replacing the blackness, albeit the revealed skin texture was still wrong and covered with freckles, I wonder why.
At this point I also noticed she was naked and was missing her clothes.

At this point the bizarreness of what I saw made me think about what to do, and it seems my focus slipped and I lost my lucidity. Somehow me and the Ryuuko model walked into a nearby shop, where I remember seeing her one last time, still not completely fixed up. Then some people were quite frankly talking about completely irrelevant shit, some stickers and some glitter was around but I hardly want to bother remembering. I know that for some time I just observed, then I ate some of the glitter. Then I woke up, much to my dismay. Had my focus not slipped I bet I could've still done a lot more in that dream.

I was lying down in bed like usual and it was my 3rd sleep phase that day, I configured my smartphone alarm (Dream as Android) to skip recording 27 minutes, and I had my 56th lucid dream. I tried focusing on phosphenia as usual and fell asleep within very few minutes.

I was in my home (which like usually wasn't remotely like my actual home, it was a big and complex building) and was only wearing underwear. I became lucid fast for no specific reason.

I tried to fly and while that worked the windows and walls proved to be impenetrable, I even tried using a flame blast which materialized as a dark red beam, which however didn't leave a scratch, I guess my home is supposed not to be destroyed by me
So I just went through the doors (like 5 rooms, the building was big and mostly blue), and when I was outside I could fly perfectly and with exceptional ease, it was easier than walking is in real life. It was night und I was looking at things from above, the house looked smaller and more normal from the outside. I applied some kind of invincibility nano armor scales and let myself drop to the ground, slightly shattering the ground.

Then I went through a forest and tried focusing on details, with a lot of success, for the first time I can really recall that the details were absolutely like in real life, maybe even slightly better. After some time I had contact with some people and tried reading what was written on some chocolate, after just a second of focusing I was able to read, and consistently at that, things didn't change once written at all. I even noticed some false grammar which after waking up proved indeed to be an perfectly correct assumption from me. I also tried some but it didn't taste crazy or anything, just pretty weak like chocolate. Someone was offering me chocolate with hazelnuts but I wasn't interested.

Then I was in some kind of weird building (nothing too fancy but I just can't describe it, there was a lot of stuff scattered all over the place) were I was talking with generic dream characters about jokes, I know I remembered one of them after waking up, but forgot it now cause it was not that interesting.
I was constantly wondering when the dream would end and this time around it seems my REM phase got weak and I woke up (I think there was something in real life helping as well).

I'll skip my improval notes because this dream was kind of like breaking my personal wall of sound that had be keeping me down for nearly 2 years! When I woke up my alarm just started recording so all that happened within like 25 minutes of me falling asleep. When resuming sleep I felt that the barrier keeping me from falling asleep conscious "took a serious blow", but after some minutes I fell asleep normally again. I may still take some weeks or months till my first real WILD but for the first time I feel I'm getting close!

And again it wasn't directly from awareness, but as I expected I'm getting constantly closer to be able to do that as well.

Everything started with me hearing some music (it was inspired from Eisenfunk), it still was very basic but kept progressing and I saw some simple moving patterns as well. I immediately snapped back into being fully aware but that didn't interrupt anything, I just let the music progress and try to stay still, waiting for stuff to happen. The music became more complex, but the patterns vanished, quite a few seconds later I started to see some greenish patterns, so I focused on what it was and tried to make the picture clearer, with success.

I am lying on the second floor of some kind of open building, the ground is a certain type of greenish roof, a little bit dusty, old and also somewhat bumpy. Since I'm lying on my sidethe ground covers half of my vision, in the other half I see a part of the structure I'm in and a little bit of the sky. I feel that the time has come to move since I'm deep enough within the dream, so I slowly get up. I thought a second about whether I'm dreaming for sure but conclude I don't even need an RC to be sure.

Now that I'm standing I focus a short moment on stabilizing and raising my awareness, than I immediately start summoning the WSS, this time it consists of 6 Pillars, which are however really small (they look a bit like huge Q-tips). They connect to each other creating a ring of light. I seem to be unsatisfied however and constantly try to summon a better one, I use the already existing ones and some strange type of energy but without real success, on my second try the energy I try to send into the sky comes down as something paper-like. Some stuff happened and I know that I made a reality check before I lost lucidity.

I'm getting somewhat pulled into the progress of the dream, it involved eating some potato sticks and apparently me possessing some small dog, using the speaker system of the building I was talking to someone about these things (don't remember it that well). There was also a part involving some kind of skill evaluation with a game, don't know if it was at this part of the dream but since I wasn't lucid then as well I'll just throw it here.

Then someone was speaking to me about the WSS I was trying to improve, and said maybe I should check my eyes, and that he could do it, for some reason I was fine with it but I told him to apply the lucidity visor first, then I woke up however.

Starting with this entry I will make some notes on each lucid dream on how to improve myself and what I could've done better or what I forgot.

Spoiler for Improvement Notes:

Progress throughout the WILD was good - remember
Totally forgot about trying to get into contact with my dream guide - bad
Immediately stabilized and applied the WSS - good
Wasted time with trying to improve the result of the WSS - bad (it's only a ritual to tighten the mental connection to the dream)
Getting distracted by strange occurrences and losing lucidity - very bad
Remembering the lucidity visor - good
Suddenly waking up due to not stabilizing (as well as the "to be removed" schema) - bad
Had only medium control and though to much about what I can do instead of doing it - bad

This was a particularly interesting WILD-like experience, I unfortunately can't recall as good as I'd like to.
It was in the middle of the night and I was hovering between sleep and being awake and remember being in a swimming bath, underwater within the dream. I was pretty conscious about what was happening at that time and I was switching back and forth between being awake and sleeping. I tried to consciously get back into the dream, with some small success, everytime after a few seconds I could feel being in the water and I could breathe through my pinched nose, but I just couldn't open my eyes, everytime I tried I went back to seeing my room and (as expected) I couldn't breathe during the RC.

At some point I obviously had my eyes open within the dream as I did see the swimming bath, and I know that my awareness was a lot lower that time, but I don't know if that was before or after this experience, or both.


I've been watching the once absolutely tight border between the state of being awake and sleeping constantly weakening the more I got involved with lucid dreaming, and with this I guess soon I really will be able to start WILDing on purpose.

I was lying in bed and lost awareness, a loud high-pitched sound made me snap back into awareness right before falling asleep, so I went with it and had my first WILD experience. As I suddenly woke up I was looking down from a red motorcycle (thoughts of awareness and lucidity unfortunately gone already), there was a car parked right beside me and in the rearview mirror I could see a camera team coming out of a van walking in the direction of a empty piece of land to my right, after the car. As I went over there I saw 2 cats, one which is actually the cat I have in my secondary home. She was being slowly tailgated by another cat which wasn't happy about my cat being in her territory but she immediatly turned around after my cat got picked up by me (which my real cat actually doesn't like). With her on my arms I walked a bit to the left where a block of houses began of which the first one looked like my secondary home, after I let my cat down the dream faded.