Hello Zhaylin,

I dont want to sound too dramatic, but have you ever considered consulting with an actual psychiatrist? Although self-hypnosis might actually be helpful in dealing with what happened in your past, it also might not help a lot. Maybe you could try self hypnosis first as Nemo described, and if that does not seem to help a lot you could try actual hypnosis at a psychiatrist to see what he/she can figure out. Hope this helps a bit, good luck with it whatever you do!