Originally Posted by
Judia
I got a problem with some of the skeptics here. I'm probably making a HUGE mistake in posting, but I'll do it anyway...
I've been doing this stuff my ENITRE life. I was BORN this way. I've been doing it since I was a CHILD. I see energy, I feel energy. I DO NOT talk to the dead, or see the future like Sylvia Browne or John Edwards. That's not me, but what I do do does fall into the catagory as 'psychic.'
I beat my head into the ground trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I went to doctors, I FORCED my parents to take me to psychiatrist after psychiatrist. Both my mom and dad are mental health workers.
I respect other people's views. I like skeptics. I don't want publicity. I don't want money. I don't want the fame and stuff that comes wiht being 'proven.' I jsut wanna be left alone.
I acutally DO know psychics that would be VERY pissed off if someone DID prove psychic abilities. They go up to Vegas and use their abilities to win money. Some are even addicted--not to psi, but to gambling.
I spent SOOO many years of my life worried sick about my sanity. It tore me apart.
I didn't believe in this stuff either. I thought what happened to me was normal--that everybody can do it.
It was a REALLY hard reality check when I found out that it wasn't normal.
Why don't I go out and win the lottery?
I'm tried of people. I'm tired of 'Well, you're psychic! PROVE IT!' and then getting pissed off at me when I do. I'm tried of being called names, of being stared at because I forget not to say something. I'm tired of people asking questions after questions about nearly everything. I'm tired of helping people that don't even say thank you, and just come back and do it again and again and again. I'm tired of the skeptics that come as different people trying to prove my own insanity to me. I'm tried of people using me. I'm tired of being different. To me, I'm normal, it's everyone else that has the issues.
I am only 19 and I'm already tired inside. I can't tell you what my life is like. I can't tell you what it's like to be psychic. I can't tell you anything. I didn't even know I was until someone pointed it out to me. I can never truly get you to understand how hard it is.
I started out just wanting to help people. I don't even charge or anything. MOst of the time, people just like to talk to me, get my advice and stuff. I just WANT TO HELP.
I don't want the world. I don't want a television show. To me people that charge for this stuff is evil. I don't like it. It feels SOOO wrong. I don't want anything.
I just want to help. That's all. I want my own little quiet space in the world and be left alone.
I'm not a miracle worker. I'm not blessed by god. I'm not anything. I'm a girl. I'm a person. I just have an ability...like some have an ability to play football really well and another has an ability to create great art. This is mine. When you look into psi, look for people. Not Gods. We are not gods. We're never going to levitate cars. It's not fair to push that image on us. Have you ever thought about how many people you're hurting?
Sometimes, those people are alot younger than you think they'd be--alot younger than being a teenager, or even a preteen.
I like James Randi. Let him do what he is doing. It protects people like me. Skeptics protect us from the world.
Please don't abuse this post...I'm just poking my head in here briefly...don't nail me to the cross...