 Originally Posted by Sageous
Well said, Hotkafka, and good points all.
But here's the problem (and likely the reason for my post initially):
I assumed in the beginning, and through the first dozens of these types of dreams, that I was experiencing simple memory failure, or the rewiring ("dorking up" is an excellent term, I think) of things very much a part of my own existence. The trouble is, when I lucidly explored the dreams, I could find no basis for the mundane assumption.
Though these dreams likely are mine, and of my own creation, I could find absolutely zero similarity to them and my waking-life experience -- the settings are perfectly foreign, the themes outside my experience and interests, and the DC's utterly unknown (though I have "walked by" uncounted strangers in waking life, so I can understand at least how they could be remembered, yet still strange). I also took the time to explore all this during the dreams, with waking memory in hand. I really have trouble reconciling these dreams with my own reality, even if they sprung from it; and I had that trouble at the time of the dream, and not just in retrospect.
Also, please keep in mind that in my case there was no shock of which I was aware; unless you're implying that the "other peoples' dreams" themselves were a somehow a manifestation of shock, which is fascinating -- especially when paired with your theory that I may be "taxing the system," which I've also considered many times and have yet to fully dismiss or reluctantly accept ... I like to think that the "system" is dramatically bigger than my meager consciousness, and taxing it ought to be far beyond my capacities or abilities, but I could be wrong, and perhaps all the LD miles I put in have brought me to some unpaved roads, the passage over which might simply feel different now.
Interesting thoughts, Hotkafka, thank you! And thank you also for so well grounding all this in what we already "know." rather than just in what we might want to "be." Also, please be sure to clarify what I misunderstood...
 Originally Posted by Sageous
Well said, Hotkafka, and good points all.
But here's the problem (and likely the reason for my post initially):
I assumed in the beginning, and through the first dozens of these types of dreams, that I was experiencing simple memory failure, or the rewiring ("dorking up" is an excellent term, I think) of things very much a part of my own existence. The trouble is, when I lucidly explored the dreams, I could find no basis for the mundane assumption.
Though these dreams likely are mine, and of my own creation, I could find absolutely zero similarity to them and my waking-life experience -- the settings are perfectly foreign, the themes outside my experience and interests, and the DC's utterly unknown (though I have "walked by" uncounted strangers in waking life, so I can understand at least how they could be remembered, yet still strange). I also took the time to explore all this during the dreams, with waking memory in hand. I really have trouble reconciling these dreams with my own reality, even if they sprung from it; and I had that trouble at the time of the dream, and not just in retrospect.
Also, please keep in mind that in my case there was no shock of which I was aware; unless you're implying that the "other peoples' dreams" themselves were a somehow a manifestation of shock, which is fascinating -- especially when paired with your theory that I may be "taxing the system," which I've also considered many times and have yet to fully dismiss or reluctantly accept ... I like to think that the "system" is dramatically bigger than my meager consciousness, and taxing it ought to be far beyond my capacities or abilities, but I could be wrong, and perhaps all the LD miles I put in have brought me to some unpaved roads, the passage over which might simply feel different now.
Interesting thoughts, Hotkafka, thank you! And thank you also for so well grounding all this in what we already "know." rather than just in what we might want to "be." Also, please be sure to clarify what I misunderstood...
First, thanks for the kind comments. It's nice to see how willing you are to allow others in your process. I'm sure this is a gift well earned, and a quality that can only benefit you as well as us. As for your response - yes, I tend to agree with you in thinking that memory failure is least likely explanation. I offered that more for the patently scientific among us, as I always imagine them lurking from the rafters, although I'm not sure why I do that. The more experience I accumulate, both in my personal dreaming and in my dream work with others (Shadowofwind... don't judge me, please), the more I realize how little science actually matters in light of the transformation process.
Also, please keep in mind that in my case there was no shock of which I was aware; unless you're implying that the "other peoples' dreams" themselves were a somehow a manifestation of shock, which is fascinating -- especially when paired with your theory that I may be "taxing the system," which I've also considered many times and have yet to fully dismiss or reluctantly accept ... I like to think that the "system" is dramatically bigger than my meager consciousness, and taxing it ought to be far beyond my capacities or abilities, but I could be wrong, and perhaps all the LD miles I put in have brought me to some unpaved roads, the passage over which might simply feel different now.
The "shock" I was refering to was more reflexive, or a reaction of the dreaming mechanism reflecting an image that's consistent with its failures. I know you know dreaming is both functional and transcendent, but it seems at the boundaries -which reflect our unresolved emotional content or unexplored emotional terrain- there's images or an experience of these images that reflect this complicated state. This "state" can be rooted in a range of emotions, a few of which could be related to what you're experiencing now and could be heightened by your repeated lucidity, i.e. feelings of unfamiliarity, discomfort, dis-ease... To me this fits right in with Jungian complex theory, which I'm probably more at ease with than others here. Now, that's coming from somewhat established psychoanalytic theory. On the esoteric end, I'm not sure where this "unexplored emotional terrain" begins and ends, and I tend to be open about that. There's a whole lot of territory to cover there, and I tend to think the stuff we encounter at the boundaries evokes experiences like you had -whether you're tiptoeing into the transpersonal or possibly moving through the illusion of (s)elf to (S)elf, or perhaps heading into the objective unconscious, or at the woo-woo end -pockets of past life material, shared reality space, who knows. But there's a lot of room for interpretation there. The fact that you're there is important, however, and a good learning opportunity for both you and us all. I'd suggest trying some waking exercises to increase confluence between your sleeping and waking states, or 'dreambodies.' You may be waaay ahead of me already and doing that. In any case, if you're interested in decoding what I'm talking about, I'd be glad to try to clarify. In shortform, I tend to think that even though we're able to transcend a lot of our interior boundaries and accelerate our process exponentially through lucidity and OBE's, we still have to contend with the functional end of dreaming -which means addressing its place in transforming our personal process. I look at that as work that shrinks the distance between our waking and dreaming states, emotionally, psychologically, and "spiritually." That's what I try to do in the waking world -but its kind of a learning while on the job thing.
I don't know if that was any help whatsoever, but there it is.
Thanks again, Sageous, for posting about your amazing journeys! I've learned quite a bit parsing through your offerings. I can only imagine how much more the faithful here have benefited from your doing so.
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