 Originally Posted by PandasMoan
I've had this issue with most of my dreams, lucid dreaming or not I can't control it.. very rarely once or twice have I battled it and won, or it's meant nothing. But In my dreams every time I step in a dark spot I get attacked and engulfed in darkness, hate, and rage!
Maybe the reason you can't prevail against it is the darkness is your own emotional substrate, so the harder you fight against it the stronger it gets.
Some things that seemed to help me:
I got bored with the fear, and just wasn't willing to go there for it any more.
I held a thought of love, to whatever extent I could. To the extent that I've been so full of darkness that I can't get there for that, I've at least been able to hold a state of willingness to get there for it. And I suppose if a person can't even find the will to care, maybe they can at least make a tiny, unenthusiastic request to be able to care. Then that will grow into something more in due time.
The hatred is like fear but extroverted, experienced from the other side. In that aggression however is the seed of something like courage. And somewhere deep in that courage is a sort of floating, timeless invulnerability that your courage is based on. If you become more aware of that, then the fear goes away. Telling yourself this doesn't help much, you just have to look and see what you find. In my experience the same trick works for almost any kind of suffering. Whatever you're upset or pissed off about, if you dive into it deeply enough you generally find that the apparent lack stems from a deeply buried knowledge of something that you actually have.
I think that to the extent I can't find these truths, my blindness is in a sense a curse for things that are wrong in other areas. So after a certain point none of these tricks will work if there's stuff elsewhere that I'm hiding from. And I think that sometimes we just have to go through stuff, there's no getting away from it.
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