WILD Diary

Hello, guys.

Lately I have really gotten interested in WILDing. I can DILD pretty well, if I try, but I have never WILDed for purpose. So now I´m on a mission. A lucid mission. To master WILD.
And cuz of that, I created this "WILD Diary". It helps me keep record of my success and things I notice during the attempts. But it also serves as my big WILD topic. I ask questions here, and I´d like you to comment my attempts. So if you think I´m not on the right track in something, just say it, I´d appreciate that. I think this is on the right area.. Or so I hope.

The tech I´m using: BillyBob´s basic tech. Take an anchor and fall asleep.

So, here I go:

Day 1
I went to sleep at 03:30, woke up at 7:00
After I woke up, I went to sip some water and went to the toilet. It took 8min. When I went back to bed, I couldn´t sleep, so that screwed my WILD. I woke up again at 9:00 but I dont´t remember what happened then.
BUT in the late morning, when I was thinking about random things, I noticed that my right leg felt weird. I couldn´t move it. It was having sleep paralysis! I always anchored myself to the beep sound in my head and in my breathing, but I kept losing it.

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Originally Posted by Ghost94

Hello, guys.

Lately I have really gotten interested in WILDing. I can DILD pretty well, if I try, but I have never WILDed for purpose. So now I´m on a mission. A lucid mission. To master WILD.
And cuz of that, I created this "WILD Diary". It helps me keep record of my success and things I notice during the attempts. But it also serves as my big WILD topic. I ask questions here, and I´d like you to comment my attempts. So if you think I´m not on the right track in something, just say it, I´d appreciate that. I think this is on the right area.. Or so I hope.

The tech I´m using: BillyBob´s basic tech. Take an anchor and fall asleep.

So, here I go:

Day 1
I went to sleep at 03:30, woke up at 7:00
After I woke up, I went to sip some water and went to the toilet. It took 8min. When I went back to bed, I couldn´t sleep, so that screwed my WILD. I woke up again at 9:00 but I dont´t remember what happened then.
BUT in the late morning, when I was thinking about random things, I noticed that my right leg felt weird. I couldn´t move it. It was having sleep paralysis! I always anchored myself to the beep sound in my head and in my breathing, but I kept losing it.

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GOod point. You could open a topic in journal section of this forums. It would stay in one place. I have some kind of WILD journal too. And it really helps, to compare the thoughts from two weeks ago with actuall thoughts.

:D. Actually thats the purpose of dream journal. Why dont you just write your results in dream journal?

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Originally Posted by adraw

GOod point. You could open a topic in journal section of this forums. It would stay in one place. I have some kind of WILD journal too. And it really helps, to compare the thoughts from two weeks ago with actuall thoughts.

:D. Actually thats the purpose of dream journal. Why dont you just write your results in dream journal?

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Hmm. Well, this really isn´t a dream diary, but a tech training diary.. But you could be right. Well, if the mods see it fit, they´ll move this topic to the DJ section.


And wish me luck. I´m gonna WILD tonight :banana:

I´ll post results tomorrow.

Day 2 (posted wrong day earlier :D)
I went to sleep at 03:30, woke up at 7:00
Yesterday I was up too long. So now I decided that I´d rather stay in the bed and continue sleeping at once. It took me about 1min to get myself "on the surface". Then I went to sleep. But I didn´t do the pain anchor. Damn.

The pain anchor I´m using now is like this: I put my palm between the bed and the wall... I think I just took it away at some point.

Tomorrow I´ll succeed! You´ll see! :)

Day 3
I went to sleep at 3:30 but now I woke up at 8:00.
Adding just a little bit time to my pre-WILD sleep made me hit the REM period better...
So after I woke up, I gathered myself for a moment with counting and reality checks. About 40 seconds after I turned in my bed (head to where the feet usually are) and I stucked my thumb between the mattress and the wooden part of the bed. And now is the VERY interesting part! Here is all I can remember:

I looked at my clock. It said 8:30 or something. Then I went to WILD again. But I checked the clock again. Now it said 10:15!! So my question is...
Was that the "Black Hole Effect"? ("Black Hole Effect: When you try to WILD or something like that, you fall asleep for hours without noticing it."
Or was I maybe IN a dream??


Now my other question: How can I keep the damn anchor working? (not getting my hand out of the painful position)?

You probably were dreaming if your clock changed like that.

I couldn´t post yesterday, but...

Day 3
Nothing happened. I forgot to do everything.. The anchor, turning in my bed.. Should I apply more pre-wild sleep?

Day 4
I woke up, and I couldn´t think, so I turned the alarm clock off and went back to sleep...

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Originally Posted by Ghost94

Day 3
Nothing happened. I forgot to do everything.. The anchor, turning in my bed.. Should I apply more pre-wild sleep?

Day 4
I woke up, and I couldn´t think, so I turned the alarm clock off and went back to sleep...

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Have you actually even tryed to do RC's on these days? maybe you actually are WILDing but not realising it, could be FA's and your not even noticing it?, just a lil guess, let me know if im right.

Nah, I´m doing RCs...

If I just could keep my mind conscious when I drift to sleep....

Nothing special has happened in the last few days. I´ll report, if something amazing happends... (tonight :D)

Damn... Time to add some pressure :D

If I dont report a succesfull WILD tomorrow, I´ll take a cold shower, and you all can mock me :boogie:


IT´S ABOUT TIME TO W.I.L.D!!!

No need to add some pressure, give it some time :D Believe me you'll get really dissapointed if you post everyday. Just post the different changes and successful attepts. WILDing is the hardest technique and its results are the best so you don't have to rush things. I've been DILDing for ten years, have thousands of LDs. Then I found this forum and just heard about WILD. I decided to give it a try. 3 days after my tryings, I did it. I've WILDed 9 times so far, which were the most amazing expriences of my life, nothing like DILD really, you'll see what I mean when you WILD. Anyway, as I've said do not hurry. Once you do it, you'll find your own way of WILDing. Oh, by the way, my DILDs decrease considerably during this time(look at my signature), strange. Now I'm thinking of posting a WILD diary thanks to you :lol: I hope you'll do it soon :cheers:

Aww... I only had an unintended half-WILD... I first started to dream normally, but then I became lucid... And I was too sleepy to even try to WILD...

Tonight......

What the heck!?!??!

My alarm clock rings non-stop for days if it has to. But still. After I woke up in the morning, I found the clock, and it hadn´t been worked... Weird...


TONIGHT

Progression.

I finally went to the bathroom, cuz I triggered 3 alarms to wake me up (cell phone in my sock vibrating, computer alarm and keyboard disabled, and a normal alarm clock, I just disabled the possibility to shut it)

So I woke up, but I failed in WILD.. I fell unconscious after about 10 minutes of trying.

The progression howerwer, happened two hours ago. I was aboard a bus. In the bus, I felt dizzy, so I tried to test some WILD things. So I tried to move my dream arm. It´s hard to describe.... Lets just say, that when I thought about moving my dream arm, I forgot my original one.

I also have a WILD journal that I started months back in the private journal section, it isn't about the everyday normal WILD, it is more about V-WILD, and mainly it covers visualization (really the only type of WILD I can see to be improvable, though don't take my word for it, I've never really done any other kind of WILD)

All I can say is to keep trying and don't stop, I've been so used to starting then stopping, starting then stopping that it becomes more and more tiresome to attempt any kind of WILD, so I would have been better off back in my earlier days of trying if I wouldn't have stopped.

You also must face the fact that during the morning your probably not truly in the mood to WILD, you have to kind of force yourself to do it for your own good, else you can assure yourself that your goal will be pushed back even further.

YEAH!!!

YES, I DID IT!! NOT IN THE WAY I´D LIKE IT TO GO, BUT I DID IT!!

Okay, here I go:

I woke up at 6 am. Now I had my cell phone wrapped tight into some clothes, so it was hard to get it off. I also had my alarm clock set, and the only way to stop it was to take the battery off. I also had my computer alarming, but it had shut down in the middle of the night. So, I woke up. Because all those alarms went off simultaniosly, I woke up for good. I went to the bathroom. I did lots of reality checks at the same time. Then I ate one candy to get the bad taste off my mouth. After 12min of staying up, I went back to bed.

I was much too awake. I couldn´t get to sleep... But I had to. Soon I would have to get up for school. I didn´t use an anchor. I dont remember, what happened...... (I ONLY REMEMBER FRAGMENTS)

I am lying on my couch in the lobby. I have a computer on my stomack. I´m doing something with it... I put it away. I start thinking something like "What the heck? Why do I feel so... Weird? Wait a minute... Wasn´t I.. WILDing just a minute ago? This is weird.. Why am I here? Better do a reality check" I looked at my hand. It looked normal. Then I counted my fingers... *one, two, three, four, five, six..* "WHAT??" I count my fingers over and over again. After about ten times of counting six, I look around my surroundings.

(lucidity) "This can´t be a dream. This is reality!!" I tried, how my body feels. All normal. "wha... I think this is a dream, but if it isn´t, then I´m in trouble..." I wondered, should I go to see if my parents were in their room... I could now speak to them!! But wait... Is this guaranteed to be a dream? I didn´t know, but as I went to the other room...

I wake up. I look around me. "oh, I´m awake. That was super cooooooool!!!" *SCATTERED MEMORIES* I find myself playing WAR online. My dwarf character is a bit weird. It is only a half... And it is named "damage dealer" *SCATTERED MEMORIES* I am on my balcony. I am accompanied with a dwarf.

I am about half lucid. I give the dwarf something weird. I say "Lets go fly. These magical items make us able to fly" We elevate. But after a while, I get scared by the height and I lose my flying powers. I drop down on some weird bars coming out of my wall. I drop down and down and down.... *SCATTERED MEMORIES*

So I was in a dream for maybe a minute first, but that is a W.I.L.D, right?

I would have preferred to have an OBE, cuz I´ve had one once, and that is much cooler.. But still....

I W.I.L.Ded!!!!!!

Tonight I will do it again.... And this time I´ll go straight into the lucid dream by an OBE...

I´ll report my second WILD tomorrow..... (sorry about the font)

EDIT:
I remember, that I could almost see a landscape, that I was thinking of... I can´t remember when that happened..

EDIT2:
Okay, I do remember that I saw the landscape when I was really sleepy and messed up. So should I try to visualize tonight?

EDIT3:
Sorry, but I remembered another thing. I remember going to my kitchen. In there I tried to get the lights working, but I couldn´t

Tonight I´m gonna do a ton of RC and get my lucidity and dream quality up so that I´ll gain control.

Nice job man, it's just a shame you didn't get to do more. Hopefully my first WILD (and first LD) will come soon. Good luck on getting your 2nd WILD and many more after :D

I´m gonna try nap-WILDing just now. Wish me luck. I´ll report later this day.

Awww, I didn´t even all asleep or more than 10 minutes..


Any suggestions or ideas for tonight?

Congrats!!! I've yet to WILD, I've only tried once... I think I need to get some more lucid dreams under my belt before I attempt again. :P

Anyway, that's awesome! I'm happy for you! :D

Tonight, I will W.I.L.D.

I will W.I.L.D. for freedom.

And I will succeed, because this is my attitude: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aTXlWYdodnc

I´ll report my success tomorrow.

Okay, so my attitude got a bit damaged in the night... So no success...
The REAL success will come in THIS WEEKEND!!! For I will dedicate this weekend to the practice of WILD. I will W.I.L.D!!!
What´s my plan, you ask? (or dont ask, but i´ll tell it anyway :D)

MY PLAN:

Before:
In the evening I will decide to stay conscious when drifting to sleep, and I will motivate myself.

1. I will wake up after about 4.7h of sleep. I will use a cell phone wrapped in a sock to get myself just enough up.
2. I will wake up just the right part of my brain. I will use special exercises after I have woken up to get it working...
3. I will go to sleep at my couch, which is not so nice, but it should keep my mind more aware that way. It will also not be the normal place for sleeping for me, so that should keep my mind more aware too.
4. I will relax.. I dont really know how yet, but there´s no need to know.
5. I will passively (though a bit actively too) notice my breathing, as I drift off to sleep.

After:
If I succeed, I will eat some great food. If I will fail, I will punish myself with a cold shower.

And I will try as many times as possible this in the night and the morning. So I´ll basicly wake up, and set the clock about 1h 10min forward...

I will not try. I will succeed.

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Originally Posted by Ghost94

After:
If I succeed, I will eat some great food. If I will fail, I will punish myself with a cold shower.

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LOLOLOL

Go ghost go !! im try to WILD at the moment too, but to no avail as of yet :( GL

FATAL FAILURE

I just hate it when my brain dont function right. I clearly knew, what I should do, but I did it all wrong after waking up. I didn´t relax, didin´t use an anchor, didn´t keep my mind awake....

Tonight I WILL remember what to do! And I will go to WILD at my couch, not at my bed!!

This time I remembered what I should do, but no success. I did not fall asleep fast enough.

I was lying* in my bed. I closed my eyes, and started to do some kind of relaxing. But then I faced a problem: I felt, that I would not fall asleep fast enough? When would I set the pain anchor? So failure.

Need to solve that for tonight.

*Is it lying or laying or lieing or wtf :D

Okay, so I did some good progression.

The next night I said that, I was aware of what I was doing, but failed, and failed the second night too.

At this post, let me state one thing:
I do not consider my earlier success as a succesfull WILD. Cuz it was more like a DILD. I want to have a pure WILD

And btw,


I´LL DO IT TONIGHT!!!

I just wanna cry...

I just wanna WILD so much, I could eat a brick. But I have a serious problem:
I´ve only got one shot in my whole day, and that is at the night after waking up, when I cant think, and usually cant get back to sleep.

I would like to nap, but it´s pretty hard for me. Any suggestions?
Should I eat some special food before napping?
Just give me any advice you got. And make it practical :D

I can't help you much with your napping problem (I can't nap either), but If you do eat a brick, could you upload a picture of it? :D

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Originally Posted by Minus

I can't help you much with your napping problem (I can't nap either), but If you do eat a brick, could you upload a picture of it? :D

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Damn. I was just taking the picture when my chin fell off. Sorry.

Finally, some GREAT progression. I didn´t get a WILD, but this is what happened:

I woke up. I had been sleeping for >5 hours now, which I found to be a better time. I took some items to my lobby, and then went to the bathroom. I came back to lobby, and I layed* down, and started to..... Hmm.... Yes, I remember taking the breathing anchor, and relaxing, I think... I dont really recall it so good. HEY!! Cuz I dont recall that so good, does it mean I was up for too short time?

Well, to the point. What was the progression part? Well, this time I almost did the right things. But not quite. Gotta be more accurate tonight.


PLAN FOR TONIGHT

1. Sleep for 5 hours
2. Wake up with a very quiet alarm clock (doesn´t not jolt me too awake), but make it hard to be shut down.
3. Eat a LOT of bread slices, with lots of cheese and egg white on them. Then drink some VERY strong camomilla tee. (all to get myself sleepy and relaxed)
4. Go to a very warm shower. (to get myself alert without getting too awake, and to relax)
5. Eat a cookie (to get myself even more sleepy)
6. Go back to bed, but turn around so my head is at the other end of the bed. (to make myself a little more alert)
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6. Relax.
I will listen to a record that makes me very relaxed. The record contains just some talking.

7. Stay conscious
I will keep my thoughts together. I will exhale and think "I´m dreaming" ("Näen unta" in my language) When I inhale, I think a number.


After that, I´ll just have to see what happens. The transition is just too variating to plan.

This sucks...
I woke up, ate some bread and a cookie, went to the bathroom, then went back to bed, and vóila, failure. I dont know what happened. I think I awoke too much....

I already asked these questions on another thread, but just to get some answers, I´ll ask em here too:

1. How can I be tired enough to WILD? I wake up normally after 4,8h of sleep to do it. I never find the balance. If I´m too tired, I´ll fall unconscious. If I´m too awake, I´ll never get to sleep. And this leads to another question...
2. When do I start doing the relaxation and anchoring? Right after I have gone back to bed?
3. What is the core purpose for relaxation? Is it to make yourself feel numb? Is it to make yourself calm down? I have never gotten the idea.
4. How the heck should I anchor? Do I count "1, I´m dreaming" and so on?
5. How do I WILD when napping?

OMG!!

I just remembered this:
I stopped WILDing, so I could go to school. I got up, and then I looked at my wall. It was full of these moving "holes"!! I touched the wall, cuz I was wondering, if I was dreaming. I did a RC I think, and tried the wall with my hand. Nothing special, I was awake, I though...

But now I realize!! I dont have a white wall by my bed!! I was either dreaming, or my memory has holes, and I had gone to see another wall besides the one by my bed.

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Originally Posted by Ghost94

OMG!!

I just remembered this:
I stopped WILDing, so I could go to school. I got up, and then I looked at my wall. It was full of these moving "holes"!! I touched the wall, cuz I was wondering, if I was dreaming. I did a RC I think, and tried the wall with my hand. Nothing special, I was awake, I though...

But now I realize!! I dont have a white wall by my bed!! I was either dreaming, or my memory has holes, and I had gone to see another wall besides the one by my bed.

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I think it was FA

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Originally Posted by roland3tr

I think it was FA

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But I dont really think so... You see, these "holes".. I mean more tiny little bumps. I personally think, it was just cuz of the darkness....


I admit it: I am a very stupid person in the mornings. Last night I tried to wake up, put my hand to a painful posture and go back to sleep. I did it all right, but one thing was missing. I hadn´t put my hand to the posture. DAMN! I think I fell asleep when I was staring at the darkness right before I was supposted to set the pain anchor..

But it´s weekend again! And this weekend I´ll succeed!!!

Press the reply button, please :D

Hmm... I had an interesting expirience just 3 hours ago.

I had fallen asleep at about 6pm. When my dad woke me up at 9pm, I was pretty much half dreaming, half awake. I felt, as I could easily get into the dream again.... Dont know how to describe it... Well, that gives me expirience to the transation phase of WILD..

Hmm... I had an interesting expirience just 3 hours ago.

I had fallen asleep at about 6pm. When my dad woke me up at 9pm, I was pretty much half dreaming, half awake. I felt, as I could easily get into the dream again.... Dont know how to describe it... Well, that gives me expirience to the transation phase of WILD..

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Originally Posted by Ghost94

1. How can I be tired enough to WILD? I wake up normally after 4,8h of sleep to do it. I never find the balance. If I´m too tired, I´ll fall unconscious. If I´m too awake, I´ll never get to sleep. And this leads to another question...
2. When do I start doing the relaxation and anchoring? Right after I have gone back to bed?
3. What is the core purpose for relaxation? Is it to make yourself feel numb? Is it to make yourself calm down? I have never gotten the idea.
4. How the heck should I anchor? Do I count "1, I´m dreaming" and so on?
5. How do I WILD when napping?

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Now I'm no expert on WILDing but I'll answer these questions based upon what I believe to work. I'm only sure three of my WILDs were actually WILDs, The others could probably be argued as something else.

1. I find being too awake helps me more than being too tired. It is annoying that it takes forever to fall back asleep (especially because you are trying to stay awake at the same time) but that's better than not even getting a chance to try because you just fall right asleep.
2. I start the anchoring right away.
3. I'm not sure. I don't do this myself. If I had to guess it would be to clear your mind and maybe help you fall asleep faster?
4. I've tried the counting thing, but I feel that keeps me too awake. I tend to try to focus on nothing. As soon as I find myself thinking of something I will immediately stop it. After a bit this gets really hard to do. My mind just seems to wander. I'm sort of lucky in the sense that I have a natural anchor. When I try to sleep on my back, after a while it becomes uncomfortable. Many times this brings back awareness to me if I've lost it. At this point I'm usually really close to falling asleep anyway, so it's easier to WILD from there.
5. Never tried that.

Take my answers with a grain of salt. I'm still trying to figure this all out too. These are just my observations.

Hey! Why did my last post change to a copy of my earlier post? Time for a RC... Hmm... Not dreaming.. Anyway


Tomorrow morning I will succeed! And this time I mean it! And why will I succeed tonight? Well, now I´m doing it by the book. I will wake up, go to a couch, relax and WILD!!

Just wondering, how to anchor myself too at the time I´m relaxing..

No success last night. I woke up just before the alarm clock, cuz I had a terrifying nightmare. It was hard to start to WILD when I was still afraid.. Well, I convinced myself to WILD...

...and after a minute I opened my eyes cuz my mom was at the door saying that it´s time for school.. DAMN!! I had a black hole effect...

So tonight it´s gonna be pretty much the same, but now I will remember to tell myself "1, I´m dreaming, 2, I´m dreaming" and so on. Or should I use an anchor... Well, I´ll think that later, but tonight I will succeed!

This night´s success I will dedicate to my dear dog Iida....

EDIT: I wrote that he almost died. Well, he´s not actually dying, I just fear it... But time to go back to WILDing :D

Okay, so the success was staring me in the face but I think my prefrontal cortex had shut down, in other words, I had become stupid. So I kinda was afraid of the black hole effect, and tried to not to fall asleep. Soon I was looking at three holes on the ground (hypnagogia) from time to time someone came up from one of them. I just though "not my mother, not my mother" and didn´t realize it was hypnagogia... Damn...

But tonight I will succeed!!!

Now I´m gonna nap WILD for real...

EDIT: RESULTS

So after I posted the message before the EDIT mark, I went to youtube. I was watching some videos, when suddenly the video player of youtube changed a bit. It went wide. I dont know why, but anyway. After that I fell asleep. Then I woke up. I watched my computer screen. All normal. But now I wanted to get the video player back to normal. I pressed the right mouse button, went to "settings" and did some settings. Well, the video player went nuts..

So, you got it? I had not really woken up after watching youtube, it was a FA... Gotta be more careful...

I have the keys.

I know what is the probem. It is that I either dont fall asleep at all or fall unconscious. But now I know all the answers.... This is what I will do:

I will wake up. Then I will calculate math problems at a very fast rate in my head. But I will not move at all, besides hitting the alarm clock. I will not turn the light on or anything, it´ll be as dark as possible. This way I will get my brain working without getting rid of being tired.

After that I will put my hand into a slightly painful position, and I will passively and slightly actively notice the feeling... That is it! It is so simple! No more weird mumbo jumbo about WILD, no advanced tech, nothing, just simply:

Wake up, stare at the ceiling at dark, do calculations.
Then set the anchor, and do some simple calculations as drifting to sleep.

I have the same problem: it's very hard for me to fall asleep when WILDing.

There is a point when you are so sleepy that you know if you close your eyes you will fall asleep instantly. When WILDing, you have to reach that point without lost the consciousness. It's hard for me to reach that point, since I'm not very good at meditation and relaxation, although I'm getting better slowly.

What I did is this: I recorded an mp3 file with an alarm that goes off every 5 min. But this alarm only last 2 seconds, just enough for wake me up. So when I can't WILD I just play this mp3, and I go to sleep, without doing anchor's, math problems, counting, etc, nothing. That stuff prevents me from falling asleep, I just focus my mind so much. But the mp3 wake me up when I'm in that point when you know you will fall asleep instantly, or when I'm already dreaming. Either way you will fell so fucking groggy that you'll want to close your eyes and sleep. This is the moment when I count or do whatever anchor, just for not lost the consciousness, but like you are so sleepy, in less that a minute you will be inside a LD. No more 30 minutes of reverse blinking. I just tried this the past 3 nights and it worked for me all nights.

You could try also falling asleep with some object, or coins in your hand. When you fall asleep the object will drop from your hand and the sound hitting the floor will wake you up. If you feel you are not sleepy enough the first time, do it two o three times more. I guarantee you that this works like a charm. Try it if you have problems with WILD.

Hope this help you man!

Thanks for the cool post.

I´m gonna nap now, and I´ll try the coins on the hand tech (done that before)

No coin tech results and no nighttime results.

What happened in the night: I woke up (cell phone). Then I did some crazy crap, I can´t remember, but I stayed in bed. Hmm.. now that I think about it, I can´t remember just about anything. All I know is I failed.

Here´s my real problem: At the time I´m trying to actually WILD, I don´t do it properly. In the day I think about WILDing, plan my next night, write it here.. But then when it´s time to WILD I just don´t do it right...

Now it´s time to set some stakes:
If I fail tonight, I will punish myself with a really cold shower....

Tonight I will do it so right!

Hey, I´ve got 2 great news.

1. This thread has over a thousand views
2. I´m gonna WILD tonight

Hey, I have two bad news.

1. My graphic card isn´t working
2. I didn´t WILD

I didn´t even wake up. Gotta set a better alarm clock...

Tonight I say!!

Good luck to you ghost.

YES!! YES!! THANK GOD I TOOK A NAP!!

So this is what happeded:
I dont know if this was a dream. I was passing a bunch of my friends at school. (I was just trying to kame my way thru the group). Then a friend of mine grabbed my leg. Then he took his hand upper and upper (at this point I was blind). Then I felt as he grabbed my balls (ouch!!) he squeesed them. I was like "OUCH" (thinking) but as I tried to move my hand for help over there, I understood I could not move it! Instanty I realized, that I was in sleep paralysis. I was just.. Unimaginably happy. Here´s exacly what happened:

I heard these "BEEEEEEEEP" sounds. Sometimes they were stronger, some times non-existant. I also saw strong hypnagogia. I saw shapes crafted of light!! I just can not recall much else anymore but this:
I noticed that my eyes were getting open. Every time they did, I tried to close them and succeeded. I was eagerly waiting to enter the dream, cuz I was afraid of the feeling of no body and at the same time feeling the horror for being unable to move it. BUT now I understant that I wasn´t sleeping in the floor but in my bed, so the view that I saw.. It was my dream..

So what happened after that? Well, I woke up (FA). I counted my fingers. I saw the SHAPE of five fingers, but counted 6 fingers. I decided to do a test with a lightswich. It was working normally. So I went out of my room in to the lobby to tell my parents about how I "almost" entered a WILD. But as I went there, I woke up for real. When I did, I still was in SP, hearing BEEEEEP and so on. But it faded and I came to write this.

This does it!! I SHALL EAT HARD, FOR TONIGHT, I DINE, IN A LD!! (300)

Well done man! The next time I suggest doing a RC pinching your nose or watching your digital clock.

Hey, I have some cool ideas

Maybe I´ll put my alarm clock right next to my bed, and I´ll probably do some other things to my room. Why? Well, cuz usually my surroundings copy to my dreams, if the dream starts as a FA. With the alarm clock I can test the reality, and with the other things I can have fun... Well, just an idea.

But anyway.. I though I´d list the things I intend to do tonight:

1. FLY!
I´ve never flown in a WILD (I´ve had 1 accidental one). I´ll just go to my balcony, let the warm summer breeze (or whatever the weather is like :D) hit my face, and I´ll just.. Fly.. Over my town :bowdown: Almost gets me to tears

2. TALK WITH A DC AND THEN..
I just wanna talk to them.. Ask them things... And *sensored*

3. EAT
I´m gonna go to my kitchen and eat something

4. TEST
I´m gonna test many things. For example, I´ll throw a coin to the floor and see what happens. And try to wear things that I find. And like spit to see how it feels.

5. DO NINJA STUFF
I´ll just do flips, do Kung Fu, run against walls, and stuff.

It´s gonna be SO cool, and I will succeed! I WILL JUST SUCCEED!! Now I KNOW IT! AND I KNOW WHAT TO DO!!

Hey! I just remembered that at the time of sleep paralysis I felt really warm once..

So no success last night. But I didn´t do it properly, tonight I will. Damn, how I never do it right... Tonight, I say!!!

And btw, I´ve got a realllly, good idea. I mean, how didn´t I figure it out earlier.

My LDs always start from my bed (FA induced ones and an accidental WILD), or from the other parts ot my house, or I go to my house in my DILDs. So basically, I spend a lot of dream time in my house. And usually my house is quite stable. It doesn´t change or anything. So now I have an idea:

I could create a very stable dream home. I could like create a kitchen to eat in my dreams, a gun storage for dream protection, a bedroom for waking up for purpose, a garage on the yard and inside it like a ferrari. Then I could just adventure in my dreams and find some DCs to come live in to my house.
Then imagine all things I could do! I could build a rocket in the backyard and fly to moon or like summon a plane and fly with it... Damn, a very cool idea.

So basically the dream home would be a stable spot in my dreams.


But, I´ll need some training before that. What I´m gonna do tonight is a lighter version of that:
I´m gonna maybe first adventure in my house and then fly as far away as possible (real home)

I did it wrong... AGAIN...

This time I just went back to sleep straingt away, but I didn´t keep my mind on my body. Damn.

Tonight

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That was the line of a new "era"... I have not tried to WILD for a while now, and it is time to get back to it!!!!!

So, I´m "starting" this diary again!

I will WILD in the morning.. I´ll report later!!

I had just SO hard time in the morning...

I´m sick, so....

Damn..

Well, now I´m prepared better. So I will WILD! This time on my couch, so it´s for real.

Okay, so this morning I made a big step forward, but...

I´ll merge my WILD Diary to my DJ, so that I wont have to write this twice. So go to my Dream Journal, if you are interested.

I'm a trying-to-have-a-WILD person too. The closest I've gotten was when I got the urge to move (actually, it felt like I REALLY needed to laugh... don't ask. It's too hard to explain.) and then I saw some halucinations. And heard. It sounded like it was raining outside but it really wasn't and I knew because I couldn't hear it against the house. But I can ALWAYS hear it hitting our house when it really rains. And then I saw some flashes of color and stuff.

I will do it! *goes off to try nap WILD*

Maybe you should try a different tech? From what it sounds like, this one isn't working for you.