Natrual Wild Abilty Gone

[Fireblazzer]

hey all,, ive been able to W.I.L.D natrualy since being like 9,, im 19 now.... but the thing is,, im one of those people who get the full blown WILD RIDE,, you know, heavy vibrations,, like being on a rolor coster ride, vissualy and audio hulucinations,, + Sleep paralysation...... i was always too scard i was gona die or end up paraylzed or i always fought the w.i.l.d with all my might IT WAS SCARY,,, some times i would spontanuisly start to w.i.l.d 2 or 3 times a night and fight it off .. and that would go on for days... then dissaere for weeks, months or years.... and come back.... at age 17 i finaly found this site and learned about lucid dreams and that i ws a natrual w.i.l.d'er..... the thing is now that i know what w.i.l.ds are and have had maby 6 or 7 lucid dreams ( floating, flying).... I CAN NEVER WILD ANY MORE.... i used to be able to bring on the terifying ordeal just by thinking about it befor,, now that i want to i cant.. once in college i did actually managed to full blown w.i.l.d into a lucid dream IT WAS AMAZING (i floated then) .. i mean i atculyy braved the ride to the end i was pushed throught like a tunnle right into a lucid dream.... wow........but the dream was foggy and lucidy didnt last long,,, much much more foggy and weak then most lucid dreams,,,, maby cuz it was part wake-back- to-bed,, cuz i was awoked durring a bad dream, by kids out side my dorm buiding and it was mroning and i fell into the wild so any ideas why i cant wild natrualy any more now that i know what lucid dreams are,,.... ( i became lucid for 1 second at younger ages... didnt know there was a name name for them.. ii just knew i was dreaming and woke up)) it sucks now that im not affraid any more that i lost such a reverd gift as the abblily to full blow wild just by thining of the feeling,, or randomly