Wild failed what i do wrong,tips?

[dreamcatcher05]

Today i tried wild, for the first time. Ive been tramatized since my first experience, but now i dont care any more I went to sleep at 12 am wokeup at 4:30 used the bathroom, and immediatly came back to bed. I find that if i stay up i cant all back asleep. so i lay down there, i didnt move the whole entire time. My body twitched,and itched alittle bit, but i did concentrate on it. I was counting breaths, repeating sentences, it was a mix from i think clairity's guide, and the original one. i did this for about 30 mins, then i felt as if i really reallllly had to get it up i couldnt take it anymore. So i took a chance and did a rc. I dont think my body was in sp, but i did feel kind of numb. Did i need to wait longer?Concentrate more? oh yah, i sleep with a fan on, and this music thing that gives relaxation sounds such as ocean, I find it really hard for me to go to sleep with out em both