I have had only one truly lucid dream in my life time. So far I have not been able to repeat the experience. I have tried many techniques and none of them seem to work. I admit that I do not use the wake-back-to-bed method (I hear it is the most effective); I simply find that it is not feasible to do so.

Upon recent reflection, I noticed that I experienced a fleeting moment of guilt during my lucid dream. I quickly brushed it aside, but it was there nonetheless. This feeling of guilt was akin to the guilt that I would often experience toward the end of my pot-smoking-days. I would often feel like what I was doing was wrong and I should spend my time more constructively; this ultimately led to my decision to quit.

I felt much the same during lucidity and I feel like this is why I wanted to end the dream so quickly. At first I thought that the reason I wanted to wake up was because I felt like I had be in this dream for hours and I was afraid that I would not wake up in time for work. This may have simply been the mask that my guilt was wearing. Or perhaps, it is due to the fact that I compare my lucid experience to using a hallucinogenic or mind altering drug.

It has been far too long since my first lucid dream. I have come close a few times but have not been able to repeat the intensity of my first lucid dream. Actually, to be technical I did have one recently but instead of controlling the dream I chose to wake up from the nightmare. It did not cross my mind to fully take control as before.

I wonder, has my subconscious mind decided cut me off from having lucid experiences or is there some other reason? I would greatly appreciate any input.