Thread: how to fall asleep consciously despite strong eagerness feeling ?

Hello everyone thanks for taking some time to read me ! First I must apologize for my english, as I'm not a native speaker, but I'll try my best to explain my current situation.

A few years ago, I've already tried lucid dreaming with a bad mindset, it failed and I ended up frustrated. But one week ago, I've decided to try again in a more mature and patient way. This time I'm focusing on the WILD technique as I feel it's better for me. I'm keeping a DJ, noting and categorizing my dreamsigns, doing RC and practicing consentration, vizualisation and meditation exercices as I'm reading LaBerge's book "Exploring the world of lucid dreaming".
This is how i generally proceed to induce a lucid dream : I go to sleep at 11pm, do a bit of breath meditation and vizualisation before sleeping. As I'm doing my vizualisation I try to focus on how I'm going to wake up approximately 4.30 hours later, and then with the help of the FILD technique enter a LD. After doing these exercises I have no problem to fall asleep, and I generally wake up as intended 4.30 hours later.

At that moment, I begin to feel a tension and nervousness (in a positive way, as I'm really eager and happy to try to LD, the same kind of feeling as a child before christmas). I sometimes also feel this kind of "happy" nervousness (but not as strong) when I'm vizualising before sleeping, but then I manage to suppress it and relax with breathing meditation. But this time, it's really strong and it's enven renforced by the feeling that I must induce the LD right now as I'm still sleepy otherwise it won't work, so no time for meditation.

Then I begin to FILD/WILD, and this is where things get complicated. first it's quite hard for me to find the balance of sleeping body and conscious mind, I feel that in order to fall asleep my mind "needs" to stop doing the conscious thing it's doing. But I must say that on this point it's getting easier and easier to improve with practice. But the MAIN problem is that my "happy" nervousness and eagerness ( I feel it in my stomach and legs) prevents me from relaxing my mind and body and thus falling asleep ! sometimes I can shut it off for a while, but it comes stronger than ever each time I feel a "sleep" sign like visions or sounds and it totally wakes me up. Despite this I keep trying to induce for 2 hours or so without any result, before finally feeling not sleepy at all and understanding there is no point keep trying for this night. Then I just give up and sleep normally for the remaining of the night.

I think this is definitely the main barrier that is preventing me from LD right now. I would be extremely grateful if any of you guys know how to suppress this counterproductive joy and eagerness, as I'm really motivated to LD and definitely want to succeed