Thread: Practicing Mindfulness wrong. Active vs passive awareness.

I saw what you needed. Edit: I saw what I was capable of teaching. I think I have had similar hick-ups. I have brain fog a lot. But not right now to be honest.

Actual focus and intense concentration is very useful when you can adept in it. I am intensely focused on these words (innervision) and I interprate them. It takes effort. Yet, i am also aware of my surroundings at the same time. I have an inner knowing that I can make a switch to another point in space. Other websites LOL. I do not get tunnel vision!!!!

However, I get tunnel vision in other internal experience. My attention goes from the screen (surroundings) goes right back in the heart and then I am lost. And I get fear. Because I do not know what to do with this awareness. Take me outside in a public space and there is so much going on that my focus is effortlessly absorbed in my surroundings. However, I am too shy and fearful to actually insert myself into surroundings most of the time. But I am. Just not optimally. A good example is talking to girls or guys. Even though I want to, directing my focus inwards gives me the ability to exert an effort without any gain. Because I can not at times find inside (quickly enough) what I want to express into my surroundings. I think a lot of the times I find mostly fear.