Well, this is a new thing for me. I didn't want to go back and try all of the same techniques again for success. I hadn't been serious with meditation before, and what sparked it is what I just experienced. I was a little tired so I layed down on my bed and closed my eyes. I wasn't particularly thinking of anything, I was more observing my thoughts and everything that was going on around me. Before I knew it, I had gone off into a little daydream. I was suddenly snapped back into reality and my heartbeat was quickening. I noticed that I was anxious, that the sound around me was a little muffled, and that I could barely feel my body anymore and then I noticed something else. I saw what looked like a red, pinkish fuzzy light swirl around and around in my vision. Lights were on in my room at the time, but it didn't look like this. I tried to breathe deeper to slow my heartbeat down and to not get scared; because I also noticed that I was trying to open my eyes (I think it was the thought that I did not want to open my eyes was why I was doing it). Then the pinkish light started fading away, and I was left in a somewhat "peaceful" state.
One of my question is, could I have kept going and I would have accomplished a WILD? Maybe if I wasn't scared I could have entered a dream, but I don't know for sure. I'm not sure if this was the onset of SP, or what.
So I think what I'm doing here is a 30 day test to see if I get any good results with meditation. It looks promising, and I'm excited about it.
My plans for each night will be pretty much as follows:
- Meditate while going to sleep
- Wake up for WBTB after 6 hours
- Go to the bathroom, get a drink of water
- Meditate again, keeping awareness but still letting my thoughts "flow" naturally in order to accomplish a WILD.
What do you think?
And I would be grateful if someone could answer my questions up there.
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