I think I can't meditate. I'm trying meditation lately, but ... I don't know how to explain this.
I just burst into laughter at some point. This makes me feel better of course, and relaxed, but the meditation is spoiled inevitably. The most crazy thing is that I cannot tell what might be so funny and what I'm laughing at.
I've always considered meditation to be a serious thing and don't know why it happens to me. The more I'm trying to remain serious, the more ridiculous it gets, and I only laugh, laugh in the end. First, I practised this on my own and thought that I'm wrong, or am just mistaken about some aspects of meditation. Then tried those guided meditations, but the result is the same. Strange, this laughter occurs even when I'm angry or anxious and am trying to calm down. Why don't I cry, for example? Or just clear the negative emotion like other people do through meditation?
I think that I can achieve a meditative state when I'm physically active, at least it feels like this. When I run in the morning with the dog, my mind drifts away somehow, while I move my legs automatically, and this experience is much closer to the state I aim at in meditation.

This post got absolutely crazy, so I'll stop here. Just I'd like to learn how to escape this laughter and stay serious while meditating.
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