For the past few years I've felt like someone is calling out to me. I don't hear anything, I don't know what it's about, I just feel like there's someone I need to find. It used to happen once every couple of months, I would get this feeling and the sudden urge to start running. These were the days I avoided going outside, I always felt that by the time I stopped I would be lost. I get lost very easily and I don't have any way to contact people to tell them I am.

It's changed in the past few months, though. Now I feel like I shouldn't run at all, and I should find them in my dreams. That if I close my eyes, they'll be there. The only problem with this is if I set myself up, expect something, it gets harder for me to sleep. I've always had insomnia and if I use pills to help it then it sort of defeats the purpose of trying to dream. Not that I can afford pills anyway, but that's hardly the point.

But that's hardly the point, does anyone else ever feel like this? It's always really confusing and I don't really know what to do or think about it. I feel like I have a message on my answering machine that I want more than anything to respond to, to call them back, but I can't because I don't know their number.

I don't often have lucid dreams, the harder I try it seems the further I fall behind, and when I do the control is very minimal and I lose it easily or just wake up. How can I find them if this what happens?