poem: demon within

**Rags** · 11-22-2004 02:15 AM

my counselor said that i should try writting poems when im in a "dark" mood.....
so i was sitting in my art class and just started writting, i didnt even realize what i was doing until after i had filled my paper with scribbles and poems.......

heres one of them:

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all alone
wrist bleeding
i cant find my own meaning
fading away
my sins they flow
from my cuts so deep
i cant stop this
my mind has gone
i am not myself
darkness prevails
alone in my room
i find myself
back again too late to save me
from my own shadow
as it swallows me whole
i cant resist
im slipping again
back into darkness
where the thoughts begin
why do i feel this pressure within
heart is pounding
i'll soon do me in
the end is aproaching
i cant seem to stop
the blood thats escaping
i feel myself drop
i wake from this nightmare
alone in my room
safe and alive
my mind has tricked me
i have not yet died
my wrist show no scars
of the pain that they hide
again i am saved from a nightmare so real
how long can i hold out
how long till i kill
i cant do this to me
i cant hurt me now
i must now save me
release this somehow
cant harness these feelings
and cant set them free
the next one i cut, shall be you and not me
the urges are strong now
you run but cant hide
always i find you
the next one to die
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this kinda creeped me out at first, but then again... i think its one of the best poems ive ever writtin

**Shayne** · 11-22-2004 03:11 AM

wow that was really good!

hey im in art too.

omg i feel just like u.....every1 thinks im crazy and every1 has this image of me that im like happy all the fucking time when im actually hurting inside.

**Rags** · 11-22-2004 06:51 AM

ya i know that feeling all too well.

i constantly find myself hiding behind a mask of happiness..... hiding my true feelings and such.
jus gotta keep tellin myself that it'll get better...... it hasnt in 4 years, but watever.